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| You don't know it, but sometimes I sit on my roof, just to think of you and feel like i am on top of the world. It makes me sad When i dont dont see your name on my caller id when i hear the telephone ring and its not you. Or when when i hear the sound of someone getting online and i look, your name isnt there. But when it is you, my heart skips a beat and for that one second, I forget about all the bad things that has happened between us. You don't know it, but sometimes, I read your old instant messages and get lonely inside because your not calling Like you said you would only minutes ago. I get sad because I know my heart belongs to you but i do not have yours. I try and make friends with your recent girlfriends, just to be closer to you. And when you brake up, my heart fills with hope. Until i look in the mirror. And relise im not the perfect girl that you or any other guy wants. Im me, one of the guys. Thats how it will always be. Im not blonde, and im not skinny. im not a cherleader either. Sometimes i wonder if you care about that stuff. If you care about me. You dont know it, but sometimes, I dream about you. What will you be like when you are older and will you still reconize me. Will you still want to be, even friends? I write song after song, of what i am feeling after i talk to you. And when you didn't get mad, when we were all supposed to go to the movies, and no one could come, except me and you. How much i wanted you to kiss me that night. But i knew if i kissed you, everything would be ruined. I will always remember how you smelt that night, and how the next day, i went to the mall, and sprayed that same cologne over a tissue and stuffed it in my back pocket. Just so i wouldnt forget. I still have it. You dont know it, but sometimes, i would love nothing more then to feel your arms around me. We have been mad at eachother for so long that i forget what that was like. the feeling of giving you hugs in the hall. After you, i had no hope to have another crush. Ive been rejected so many times, that yours was the cheery on the cake. I will never give up on love, Im a hopeless romantic, if you havent noticed, There will always be a place for you, right in the center of my heart. It will be right next to the love i have for my husband someday. You dont know it, but sometimes, my friends tell me Im going to marry you. I say that wont happen, but i know its true. If you ever see me the way i see you. I cant help the way i feel for you. Its too strong. Only my best friend knows about it. I hope someday, you will get the subtle hints i lied down, and relise you feel the same way. You dont know it, but sometimes, i feel like i want to cry, knowing were friends just isnt enough. Everyone says you are so horrible, but i know the real you, you would never hurt me on purpose. I still remember that night at sparkles, like it was yesterday. I have never cried so much in my life. My life came crashing down. But you were there. always making me smile. Always making me laugh I never really knew what that word ment when you asked on the phone, so many months ago, But i hope you get a chance to tell me soon. And i never really knew how much you met to me until that day i lost you. But i fixed things. i wish were sooner. But things are back, not normal, but back. and I know you are slowly growing to love me again. Like the friend i really am to you You dont know it, but sometimes, I know i love you. |
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