Dear diary,
Dude, this sucks! i just wrote a whole page and the thing wouldnt save so i have to write it all over again! errrr! and it was like really really long! newayz, mom left Mickey, and now she is staying with us until she can get anapartment. uggh! she totally cheated on my dad with this ugly hick and now she thinks everything is fine! uggh1 i cant stand her! she thinks she controls my life! but newayz, i wuz thinking about this whole corey thing. he is really out of my league! i mean he is so gorgeous and hot (even if he is a little short and skinny) but he is like one of the most sexiest, most popular guys in school! and who am i? not even in that league! but i keep coming back to the fact that i have major butterflies! I mean not that oh my gosh, he is so hot but like i have thwe butterflies that indecate that i love him like a boyfriend (kinda like i had the butterflies before austin turned into what bobby said that hes a crack head!) ya know? i know its hard to understand but with our history of me calling me bad names and stuff and the whole yearbook thing, i dunno. i was a loser then, but i have changed a lot! and rachel says that totally counts! i mean look at brandon merrit! he was a total loser, well i dont want to be mean but the summer did him well! so, i dunoo. And i had this dream about david where we were walking down the street and i start to reach for his hand realy slowly and he asks what am i doing and i said that i didnt know. but he holds mine too. and we walk forever just holding hands! and i go back to the party where david was totally checking out my ass! well that shot up my self esteme like 1000 points! lol. i mean he kneeled down and was staring at it! I was like "HOORAY! Finally a guy checking me out!" and david is super hott! and he is a little closer to my league than corey but he is a little flirt! ya know what! i dont care! he is super hott! and i bet hes a great kisser! lol. well i can say that for corey too! but i need a boyfriend! and i really like david! he is super hot! so is corey but i dont know!!!!! im so confused! i think i would go out with either 1! i have like a list of guys i would go out with. its not very long but it consists of corey, david, chris and branden. im not done though. anywayz, i should go, its like almost midnight and i wanna see what i dream about tonight! lol bye bye |
