Uncertain thoughts
Ringing in my head
I know I've forgot
Just what you've said
I'm not gonna be like this forever
One day I'll break out and never
Turn back
to your bull shit
Be attacked
by your hard hit
I know I can make it through...
I know I can make it through...
TONIGHT!
Don't laugh at my unwillingness
I can turn it into corruptiveness
I don't think you quite understand
What I'm capable of doing with my hand
Stab it out and take my life
I can end it all tonight
Or you can learn how to treat me right
I'm not taking it anymore
Save me before I shut the door
But I know...
I'm not gonna be like this forever
One day I'll break out and never
Turn back
to your bull shit
Be attacked
by your hard hit
I know I can make it through...
I know I can make it through...
AND YOU'RE NEVER GONNA DO THIS AGAIN
I watched you tower over me
I hope you know I'm not afraid
I'll reach out and keep on going
I can't be dragged down by my enemy
'Cause...
I'm not gonna be like this forever
One day I'll break out and never
Turn back
to your bull shit
Be attacked
by your hard hit
I know I can make it through...
I'm making it through...
I know I can make it through...
TONIGHT!
Cherished is the life I have
My heart, I once began to stab
Sinister thoughts ran through my head
I once wished that I was dead
Sorrowful cries ran down my face
My troublesome life I wanted to replace
A direction to go was not drawn clear
All of this occured within a year
Failed attempts to end it all
Shortly after I began to fall
Failure to see the real me
The real one who hadn't been set free
I tell you all of this now
Because I'm in search of a why and a how
I once wanted to cut my life into pieces
Cut it up and find no Jesus
My life was not wanted
Another day was not requested
Sincere feelings of hatred towards myself
I'd kill just to be anyone else
A life full of hate
Decided my fate
I'm emotionally starved
Unsure of my mistakes
I want to break away
And not be fake
I want to remove the facade
And be real again
I want to be myself
And make a true friend
I wish that I was wanted
And not ignored
I wish I was the one who always scored
I want to be something in life
I want to accel
I want to go to heaven
Not to bloody hell
Although I am rebellious
And not completely perfect
I want to be an all-star
And not some other defect
I want to be respected
I want the time of day
I want to hear "I love you!"
When you mean it in that way
I know I'm not the best
I'm not at the top of the list
But I knew my dreams were real
When we first kissed
You can make this better
And make me un-numb
You can draw the path
of my pain to come
With my life in your hands
I write you this letter
In hopes that you will
make this life better