sorrows taht I can't deny for reasons I myself don't know.
I have this feeling of helplessness or depression of some sort. I could tell you why I feel like this, but I realy don't see any ned to go in taht direction. One person can change your whole preceptoin of the world. I am ghlad I met these kinds of people, ubt at the same time there is that feeling of knowing, and knowing taht you can't do anything to help anyone; I hate that feeling. I see your depression and anger no matter how much you deny it in front of others I see it and I feel it. I don't know of that feeling of knowing that someone is going through depression, hardtimes, angery monents is a gift or a curse. This was a frequent feeling through high school although during my senior year I denied those feelings. It doesn't matter wheater I know you or not, I sense the vibe of some sort.
At home I loved the company of my family or just the feeling taht they wre around the house, but if I was home alone I would have the worse feeling of lonelyness. Today I had this feeling I felt like I lost touch with someone. It's a wierd thingthat I loved the company of my family but hated the company of friends or people. I never liked to be around large groups of people mostly I think because I sensed everyones vibe and it was a mixture of feelings for me that I could not handle.
It's wierd that when you least want the company of people it it the time when people are most likely to show up at your room, or maybe it's just me.....Nah, look at the people that showed up in my room just as I was writing this, I won't say their names, but let's just say these people very rarely show up in my room and I hardly talk to these people.
Well, that's it............pAZ