| I love By Jen*E �Mom, why do we have to go all the way to California, just to see that man anyway? Its not like he ever cared about us!� �Jezebel, I know you�re angry with him but he�s your father and he�s going to die soon, so he would like to see you!� �Why, he doesn�t even know me, I don�t know him, what could he possibly want? Look he�s not going to apologize to me and I�m not going to give in to him and his I love you�s. Then the man is going to die and I�m not going to miss him!� �Okay dear you don�t have to get along with him but please, please show the man some respect he�s your father and he�s going to die.� �Why do you keep saying that? I know he�s going to die. But I don�t know why, I don�t even know the mans name. All I know is I�m going to see some stranger who�s going to say a bunch of I love yous and I�m sorrys. But he deserted us so just so you know I�m not going to say I love you too, or I forgive you.� �But why honey he�s your father he misses you. You two will get along just fine.� �You miss him don�t you? You want to get back together with him. You want to be in love again like you were when you first got married and all you needed was each other. Well I got news for you, he�s going to die!� �Jezebel, I don�t want to ever here you speak to me like that ever again. You have no right assuming things like that. And don�t go around saying he might die there is a chance he might live.� �Excuse me miss how long before we land in California?� Jezebel asked a studarist to escape her mother's anger. �In approxemently thirty minuets, and thank you for flying American Airlines.� Why does my mother have to be so controlling, short-tempered and have no understanding of life? I wonder where she got the idea that I missed her father. Do you think she could have heard me the night of the accident? No she was sleeping. But why can�t she realize he made some mistakes and now he wants to fix them.� Both girls were deep in thought about each other and the next couple of nights in California, how tiring it will be and if they fight the whole time. They both new it would be a hard week. By they time they landed both of them had cooled down. �Jezebel, honey, I�m sorry, well it�s just I�m worried and tense. Will you get our stuff while I call a cab?� The two girls climbed into a dirty cab of Los Angeles, Jez thought for awhile, I guess she was tiring to think of the right words to say when she finally came out with it didn�t come out to well �Your not sorry, I know your not you just don�t want to put up with the fighting, ya know I don�t either but you don�t say sorry unless you mean it.� �Why Jezebel, why are you being so hateful?� �Look don�t you understand he deserted us, he left you to raise me by yourself! That man is evil he can�t be sorry he has to want something.� �Your father is a good man, even though he has made some mistakes. He just wants to see his baby one more time.� �I�m not a baby and definitely not his, why can�t you understand this man left he cheated on you, he wants nothing to do with you or me!� �How would you know, why do you keep saying horrible things? He had to leave, he never cheated on me, and, and, and we just weren�t getting along.� �You weren�t getting along because he was cheating on you!� �No!� screamed April, Jezebels mother. The girls fought almost half the night until Jez couldn�t hold it in any longer. �Mom look we have thin walls, I heard you the night of the accident. I know what�s happened from the time you got married till now.� �What you were spying on me and then you lied about it. You said you didn�t know why he was going to die. You said you didn�t even know his name. If you listened all night like you said you would know everything!� I heard you cring; I had to know why so I listened to you. What did you want me to do ignore every thing that was going on or come running in �Oh mother I�m so sorry that wonderful man that left us penniless and was drunk half the time is going to die!� Is that what you wanted me to say? Well I wasn�t going to and I still won�t!� The two screamed at each other nearly half the night, until the cell phone started ringing. The girls stopped and starred at it as if were something they never saw or even heard of before when finally April answered. �Hello.� �Hello, is this Mrs. Longcar?� �Yes, yes it is can I help you?� �Um, Mrs. Longcar this is Dr. Shwartz I�m calling concerning your husband. �My ex-husband, but what about him?� �Well I don�t know how to put this gently, but he�s going pretty fast and would like to see you and your daughter right away is this possible?� �Yes, yes,� her voice was soft and quiet; �yes we�ll be there soon as possible!� she hung up the phone and was in a blank stare for a minute, until she realized what was going on. � Come on Jez it�s your father,� �That man.� Interrupted Jez. �Your father,� April corrected, �is going fast we have to go see him now!� �Yeah, yeah whatever maybe after this movie.� �Right now young lady they don�t know when he�s going to you know die.� �He�s good at that, I mean they don�t know when he�s going to you know croak and then you didn�t know when he was going to you know leave.� April grabbed Jez�s arm �Let�s go Missy and I don�t want to here another word.� They went out and got a cab and were on their way to the hospital when April started to cry. �Mom, are you okay, I know you loved him and I guess its a sad thing if you knew the guy but my problem is I don�t know the guy so I�m angry with him.� �I understand Jez but that�s not the main reason I�m crying its you this whole trip you�ve been so hateful and I was hoping this trip would bring us closer I was even thinking about taking you to a theme park or something. But I guess you don�t want to be with me so I guess we�ll leave early.� �Mom its not you it�s the way your sticking up for dad you won�t let me have my own opinion about him who knows we could have been real close but I never new the man.� �I guess you�re right I never gave you a chance can you ever find it in your heart to forgive me?� �I guess I could but now lets go see dad.� April went into see him first while Jez waited out in the hall. It was only five minutes but to Jezebel it seemed like an eternity for she was in such deep thought she didn�t even see her mom come out. �He wants to see you know. Good luck.� Jez slowly walked into the room up to his bed there he took her hand held it for a minute then said, �Jezebel, I love�� Sadly that sentence was never finished because he died that very second. The girls were heart broken even Jezebel. Until a nurse came out and handed an envelope that said �give to Jezebel Longcar my little girl�. Jezebel hesitating opened and read it. It said: Dear Jezebel please for give me I�ve been a horrible father and if I were I don�t think I could forgive me either but at least I tried to say sorry but I want you to have the few things in this envelope if you do me one thing, make sure I�m buried with a picture of you. She pulled out three things a gold heart necklace, a check to Jezebel Longcar for two thousand dollars, and the most precious thing Jez has ever owned a picture of her, her mother, and her father. |