whoever drew me
draw me back!
I'm without an image
not longing to lack
see right through me
I'm nothing but gone
everything's left me
I have no song
anyone notice
the one with no face
the one without
the one disgrace?
I feel like disapearing
I already have
I'm only just lingering
with all of one half
you try to help me?
waste your time
my reality is fake
littered with the crime
don't beleive in me
don't say I"m real
don't give a damn
for me, don't feel
whoever drew me
draw me back!
I'm without an image
not longing to lack
center focused
into view
everything
that dealt with you
the main attraction
a feast for my eyes
this simple, harmless
gather of lies
too much to handle
so much to see
except for
the rotting of me
turn around
too late
I'm gone
turn back
to hear life's song
I'm slipping away
as it comes
into view
the ugliness
the hatred
I've been swallowed into
you should feel the cut
it's getting deep
let the blood go
don't try to keep
your feelings leave you
your thoughts seep
let go of memories
don't try to keep
you're losing touch
slide down and weep
there's nothing left
dont' try to keep
leaf after leaf
picks off the tree
tick after tock
I'll just count to three
1 I feel empty with nothing left
I feel like life lifted itself from my chest
2 I feel anxious but I won't get shy
I'm just starting to wonder what happens and why
3 it's so close but so far away
if only what happened hadn't happened today
I hate what I go through
I just plain hate life
I hate how they've never looked at me twice
I hate those two fuckin people who brought me up wrong
I hate order and fate and life's stupid song
I hate this metal and dying
I hate my own blood
I hate the cut so deep
I hate how everything's cold
I hate the feeling I have that I can't stop it now
I thought I had control but that's all gone now
I loved laughing the one time I did
I loved being naive when I was a kid
I hate knowing life's truths
and the secrets of death
I hate dying now
I hate this last breath
there's a coldness
in the dark
of the eyes that see
everything I've ever been
everything that is me
my soul has been read
past my own comprehension
I feel so useless
I'm nothing but insecure
I'm nothing but told secrets
all my promises
I've kept un-kept
they're written on my face
it's too hard to hide
it's too late to erase
chained to the past
I can't break away
forced to replay this same shit
forced to remember each day
minds on fast forward
mine likes to rewind
I can't break away
I can't shake this mental bind
attached to this attachment
togetherness broke me
I can't get away
I can't even find me
swirling around
the chain hits my back
I feel the weight
feel the bones crack
fall to the depths
of the unknown bottom
there's ways to escape
but I couldn't have got them