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Happy 2008. Or something like that!
Sometimes I like to sit back, enjoy a cigarette and look at my surroundings. If you told me on January 1, 2007 that on January 2, 2008 I'd be sitting in this particular house, in this stage of my life and in this stage of my career, I'd look at you, tell you you were insane and go back to my glass of wine. I suppose over the year I've become a little bit of an alcoholic -- though I don't know if you can say that simply because I like wine a little more than I should...why is this turning into a post about my personal choices? Then again, isn't the New Year all about evaluating your personal choices and seeing where it got you?
I suppose there are things I could go on about. I could tell you all about Vegas and what fun that was, I could tell you about Dayt's New Years Eve show, and ringing in the new year with the man I love, but I'm sure you guys don't want to hear that. And besides, a girl can only wait so long, right? But I thought I'd try something new. You guys have been sending me a lot of questions, so I thought I'd answer a few! Here we go!
Dear Vicki, if you had to pick a beatle to have sex with, which one would it be? Submitted By: Rachel Ringo. Hands down. The others are overrated. Besides, drummers do it with rhythm and I've dated enough guitarists to last me a life time! ;)
Vicki, do you think one day we'll wake up and the world will have all messed up climate changes like the movie the day after tomorrow? Submitted By: Tina Oh my god! As if this blog isn't depressing enough as it is....I don't think we will. I mean granted everyone should listen to Al Gore (Hi I'm a liberal, bite me)
vicki, will you disown dimitri plz? xoxo eddie. Submitted By: DUH. LMFAO EDALENE PAXTON GET OUT OF MY BLOG.
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dearest v, why are you on fiyah? xoxo jeri Submitted By: Hottie Candii. Dearest Jeri, please learn to spell. And girls, you make me look like I have no fans that read this!! Gah. By the way, all of you, we need to go back to Vegas. Pronto. That was just too much fun!
what's sex with dayton like?! HE'S SO HOT!!! Submitted By: Alex I'm not answering that. And Alex, are you a girl or a guy?
are you, jerica, edalene and chesha plotting to take over the world? Submitted By: PlasticFollower Yes. We are. We're also controlling your TV sets and radios. And your brain waves. You love us. Repeat, you LOVE us.
Wow. I love you guys, but maybe I'm not gonna do that again for a while.
- Victoria Andrea Hellstrom.
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I just want to take the moment and tell you all how totally in love I am with that man. That is all, more updates after the holidays...be safe please!
VHS.
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Lots of traveling has been going on lately, traveling from coast to coast to visit good friends, traveling from state to state to watch lovers reconnect with their love of music that made them happy in the beginning, it�s been a great end of the year. It really has been. I don�t think I really regret anything that happened this year. Sure there were some things I could have been without, but hey, it�s been a long December and there�s reason to believe that maybe this year will be better than the last. Yes, I just song-quoted all of you, and you love every moment.
As a side note, why was I not invited to the Spice Girls concert? I�m sad, Chesha! :[
I was looking through my old journals today. Dayton was out with Tory and the guys so I decided to re-read my old poetry and songs and I found one that I wrote when I was seventeen years old. The lyrics were cute, so I went down to Dayt�s recording studio (oh it�s so nice when you know you can just go downstairs to record stuff...even better that I can use it when he�s not around only because he doesn�t know I use it...well he does now but yeah...wow I�m rambling.) ... Where was I? Oh yeah, I went downstairs and decided to record it. It�s kind of a rough sound to it, but it�s good enough. I might release it officially some day, but here, happy early holidays and you can listen to if you like.
Here!
What are the lyrics you say? Well..
used to be one of the rotten ones and i liked you for that. now you're all gone, got your makeup on, and you aint coming back. bleeching your teeth, smile like a flash. talking trash under your breath (or under my window). park that car, drop that phone, sleep on the floor, dream about me.
Yeah. I was a cute little 17 year old, huh.
Always Love,
Victoria.
P.S. I've decided that I miss Blues Traveler because my God, isn't Hook a great song?
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You can always tell it�s the holidays when it starts to get colder, your less willing to get out of bed and you�re more willing to just snuggle warm and comfortable in the sheets with that someone next to you. I suppose the holidays have always made me really romantically retrospective, but I guess this year I really have no reason to be. See, usually I�d get all �this is what my relationships were like, and this is how it went sour� but I don�t really see the point in doing that anymore. What�s the point in tearing apart what your life used to be if you find that you�re happier now? I know that all the mistakes and faults and falls have brought us to where we are, and where we stand now, but honestly...life is too short to worry about the past anymore. If you�re given a second chance, then take it. I think I�m getting off topic. So back to what I was talking about originally: The Holidays.
Yes, The Holidays. Capital T, Capital H. Like �The One� only not so commitment scary sounding. I spent Thanksgiving at Dimitri�s house with my Aunts, Uncles, and yes, the whole Hellstrom family was there too. See, we�ve always done huge family gatherings, because family has always meant a lot to us. The Hellstrom�s bake the turkey and the main parts, the Cooke�s offer up desert and the booze, which always seems to be a family gathering must-have. Which ended up meaning that I �must have five glasses of wine� so after the dinner was done and everyone was sitting around the fire telling stories and laughing, Dayton was laughing at me because I was walking around holding my heels in my hands, asking where my heels actually were. Isn�t that the point of the holidays? They tell you to eat, drink and be merry. Well I ate, drank way too much, and was certainly merry. You know, especially when Dimitri�s older brother Tom whipped out the old Polaroid camera that he got as a present when we were all kids. That prompted me posing for weird photos, Dimitri laughing at me, and Dayton actually enjoying the fact that he could play photographer of the family for a while. It was a nice family gathering, and of course there is a lot that I�m leaving out, but if I told you guys everything, you wouldn�t keep coming back to read this, right?
But I�m never doing the shopping on Black Friday ever again. That was a mistake, and I should have stayed in bed. And there is still so many things that I need to unpack, it�s insane. Tory�s wife Christina was making fun of me earlier today over coffee, she said that �it�s our husbands that live out of suitcases and boxes from being on the road, not us!� before I had to kindly remind her that, no, I am not Mrs. Stroud anymore. I think it�s going to take all the ladies time to still get used to, and hell I�m still getting used to it. Speaking of, please stop sending me e-mails about the superficial post and about the photographs of me at the strike, I love you all dearly, but please stop! I have made a choice to be with the man I love, and while most of you do not agree with that, I don�t really give a shit.
Wow that was a little bit more forward and personal than I wanted to get! But...I guess that�s what feeling like this does to you. And I�m sure everyone reading this blog has felt this way once in their life, so...yeah.
Anyways, thank you for all the support for the latest Strings album! Anthony is still on his �I�m Italian so I�ll only speak Italian� kick, Brian is still madly in love with Peter and I think he also has a crush on Dimitri (hahaha Emily should watch out...oops did I say too much again? ;* ) and Chuck is...well Chuck is Chuck and there really is nothing more you can say about it. And I�m also quite sure he won�t stop calling me because he wants Lenora�s number so goddamn bad. Lenora, watch out, or a second violinist is gonna start stalking you on tour. Watch out for the geek glasses, you know how he is. Don�t say I didn�t warn you! (Also, I hope you feel better, and wanna give me a corset or two? :) )
This went on longer than expected, and I need to get back to finally putting the last box away, kicking my man off the couch, and watching me some Sex and the City. Because I�m SO psyched about that movie and well...it�s making me miss my ladies! I�ll see you girls soon!
Loved and Happy in Chicago, IL,
Vicki H.
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Yeah I know, I look like death here, I don't have any makeup on, but Dayton pretty much demanded that I post this...blame him. Anyways...
Hello everyone! I know it's been a really long time since I last wrote, it's been..well it's been exactly two months since I wrote in this blog and a lot has happened since then. Theo and I...well Theo is in Texas I think, recording with Ivy. I wrote him a letter the other day, and I hear that he's doing well, so it's all good. I wish him the best, and hope to see him soon. Through out everything, he's still one of my best friends, one of the chicago crew and that's not going to change. Dayton finally got out of rehab in October, and Dimitri had a show in New York to celebrate...which didn't make so much sense to us since we were both in Chicago, but whatever, Dimitri is the type of person to just go along with whatever he wants. Good to know he looks out for family, right? Kidding. No wonder he broke up with Joesphine, huh? (Ouch.) God I'm sure one of these days he's going to show up and kick my ass for no apparent reason other than to say "I told you so." He's pretty much the only person who will understand that last statement so I'm just going to continue with my update of my life.
...Where was I?
Oh yeah! So we went to the Chicago shows, and then Dayt and I went on a little vacation...after my father dying and Dayt's time in rehab and then all the stupid little drama that I dealt with over friends and family and relationships that we just needed to get away. Yeah, I know. I went on vacation with my ex-husband. I get it. Move on. And you know what, that's as much personal information I feel like going over so I'll move on as well!
I've got these great ideas in the works for new music and a new sound. I'm not completely ditching my violin, so don't you dare think that. The Strings might be recording a new album too, I'm rather excited about that. I think we'll do a compilation album covering songs from musicians that we like. I'm sure you guys will love it, well cause if you didn't like The Strings, how would you have heard about me? But I recently was able to talk to Lenora Khetienn who is not only gorgeous but she can play the strings like no one else I have ever seen, and we might work out something to work together soon. Wow that didn't even sound like proper grammar, but that just shows I'm so excited to see what happens! There are a lot of musicians in this business that I look up to, and she is totally one of them. But yes, expect new music from me soon. I promise.
So right now, I'm in Chicago, but I might be making a trip to NYC soon to see family and friends. Jerica, Chesha & Edaline, are we still on for shopping next weekend? Let me know if you're going to be around!
In the long run, things in my life are actually really good right now. I'm going to go curl up on the couch with the dog now, and maybe the man if he's lucky.
Vicki
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Too late today, for the sky to open, no living place lay here for the sky to fall. No one remembers when the wheel was broken, made a rut so deep, made a massive hole, made a man so small. I don't want to see that girl, always got something going wrong inside her pretty head. I don�t want to be that girl. Too late today for an open moment, A stray temptation's all in her touch. And on the way, not a word was spoken: there's not much to say. Already gave some, already gave too much. I don�t want to be that girl, always got something going wrong inside her pretty head. I don�t want to be that girl who can't get over it, have been dumped and living it, and it shows. I don�t want to be that girl, always got something going wrong inside her pretty head. I don�t want to be that girl.
thankyoufortime"well"spent.
081907
I want to apologize for my last entry.
Too much to drink and one thing after another just happened all at once, and I just didn�t know how to deal with it. Thank you for all your cards and flowers that you sent for my Father�s funeral, I truly appreciate and love you all. Saying good bye to someone so influential in my life and career was really hard, but it�s something I sadly had to do. But I had my friends and what�s left of my family beside me�.but even when you have everyone with the best of intentions; you sometimes need to do things for yourself. As I said, I never cried. I was too busy being strong for everyone else. So what you witnessed last week was everything exploding. I went away for the weekend, took in an art museum and movies with my mother and found it amusing that she seemed to be more up to date on current songs than I was. I needed to breathe, I needed to deal. And I did. Visiting with old friends helped me realize that I�m too dependent on people and too sure that I can make everyone comfortable -- everyone other than myself, so I need to work on that. I sound like a therapist. Oh god.
Moving on!
I�ll be working constantly this week, burying myself in work so I can get out the next single, thanks again for all your votes! I�ll let you all know what I picked once I release the single!
That�s pretty much all that I have to say, I just wanted to tell you all not to worry, I�m fine. We all have our moments, and I just sadly had to broadcast mine. Now, I�m off to the art museum again, I�ve decided it�s my new favorite place. Other than the Andy Warhol Museum in PA.
What�s your favorite place?
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maybe i can't deal with things maybe i haven't had the time to deal maybe i can't be trusted maybe i shouldn't be trusted. i miss when i was little because i didn't have to feel so betrayed by my own heart and mind i'm tired of constantly putting on a smile when i can't do it anymore and he's gone and i can't go home because it's not the same and i can't see my friends because they're all my past lovers and i need new friends and i need a new life and i need to breathe. in out in out in out i don't think i know how to do that anymore. when was the last time i did something for myself? he used to pat my head, give me a cookie and we'd watch the three stooges but towards the end all we did was fight. we fought about my exes and my currents, we fought over everything and i couldn't take it. i took him out of my life, i wasn't even in his will. he says he loves me but i don't think he did. says is present tense. he died. i'm threatening people i don't even like and i don't even know why i don't like them i'm doing things i don't normally do, i'm drinking stuff i never drink before and i need a cigarette. we should you should just stay away from me because i'm not worth anything and i'm sorry that i tried and i'm sorry that i love you because i'm not deserving and maybe this is why i...you...we...i can't finish the sentence because i'm crying too hard and i don't deserve this i want my father back everything was fine even when we were fighting and he was threatening my mom it didn't matter because he was still my father and i still loved him and i cant do this anymore where the hell are my cigarettes. you shouldn't love me no one should love me i don't even love me. i need to go away. i need to just
Breathe because i've forgot how to and i'm sorry to everyone i spoke to. i blame my father.
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When I was 5, I came home from school with a new love for the boy in my class. His name was Timothy and he threw dirt at me and instead of crying I thought this was him declaring his love for me. I proceeded to chase him around the sandbox until my teacher told me that running after boys wasn�t a good idea. So when I was 14 and Timothy grew up into an attractive young boy and he wanted me, I wasn�t going to run after him. He ran after me. And teased me, made fun of me, and I still thought it was love. When Timothy grew up, reached age 21 and got arrested for hitting his girlfriend, I thought �Timothy was such a nice young boy when he was younger, I don�t see how that could have happened�; I completely forgot the dirt incident.
When I was in high school, I met this boy name Steve. He was this hard ass, tattoos, guitarist, was in a band and I instantly fell in love with him. His attitude was as bad as his hair cut and I was so in love with him it was insane. I guess I got into a bad habit for falling for the boys that didn�t deserve me because I felt I didn�t deserve better. My father always told me to watch out for the musicians, because they�d break my heart. I guess I should have listened when he said that. Now that I look back on everything, every time my heart has been torn has been because of a musician. But it�s not the
career that makes them break my heart, it�s my lack of judgment and inability to look
past their career.
My father was forever a musician in his heart, he had never gotten the chance to be realized by his full potential, but he wanted to show the kids of the neighborhood that they could play if they wanted to. If you needed guitar lessons, you�d go to my dad. Piano lessons, you�d go to my mom. If you wanted to watch two kids young and dumb determined to teach themselves and not go to their relatives for lessons, you watched me and Dimitri break the instruments � I�ll never forget when Dimitri got too excited when he came into the store with Dayton one time and kicked the drums, his foot going completely through it and he fell onto the ground with a huge thump. I spent so much of my life in that store, surrounded by musicians that I guess it just turned into my life. When I think about my life, there is not a part of it that doesn�t have music. I guess I have my father to thank and to blame for that.
When he went into the ground, when I said goodbye, I didn�t cry. I haven�t cried at all. I haven�t had a time to just sit back and breathe because I do not believe what happened. I keep fearing that you will start to leave me for something better with brown hair, that I�ll keep letting myself think too much about my past � I�m worrying for everything that I have and that I don�t have and there is nothing more that I can do. I�m giving everything all of me, and there is only so much of me to give and I can�t help but fear that I�m losing the ones who used to stand by me. I love, I have loved, I am in love.
I�m not going to let myself fall apart like the people around me are. I will not cry for the loss of my father, I will not mourn him; I will not mourn anything anymore.
I�ve done too much of mourning for my own life that I�m tiring of the word.
I wish I could cry.
I really do.
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So. Excited.
For those of you who haven't heard yet, I'm opening for The Completes at The Knitting Factory in New York! The show is already sold out, (give or take the few I saved for my family and friends) and I can't wait! It's going to be the first time my parents have ever seen me do a solo show, and one where I'm not with Dimitri! (Ha, sorry D, I love you, you know that!) I guess you can tell how excited I am with all the ! I'm putting everywhere. I guess I'm just happy.
The album is doing fantastically, everything is going great! We're thinking of a new single as we speak, and we're gonna film a video for it, etc. What do you guys think,
what should my next single be?: On A Slow Night, They, 24 or Siamese Cities? Let me know!
That's it, I'm pretty much finishing up packing because I'm leaving for New York tomorrow to do sound checks and then check up on some friends that live in the city. I hope everyone is well!
Oh and before I forget,
here's a copy of the concert poster that Allen made for the show. I wish I could make stuff like that. I drew a card once for Dayton for his birthday and he hated it, but I think that also could have been because I threw it on his cake and shoved my hand in it. But that's for another time.
Happy Living!
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I'm home! I've never been more happy to be home in my life! This tour was amazing in so many aspects. I certainly was scared coming into it, but I think I took enough chances to finally let myself be happy with everything. The outcome to this past tour was amazing, and being home is even better. I can relax, work on promoting my album, chill with the girls, dinner with the most amazing man ever, and just be. I think this is the first time in a long time that I�m happy. Happy with the album and how it�s selling, happy with how music sounds lately, happy and content with my life; it�s been a while and I deserve this. I now also think that I finally deserve him too. It took a while, didn�t it? Yeah. Yeah, it really did, but now I�m one hundred percent sure that this is exactly where I belong, it�s exactly where I need to be. So thanks to the frogs I�ve kissed in the past, you helped me to change my outlook and finally see what was right in front of me all along.
As I said before, the album is doing great. I�d like to go on tour soon, and I�m talking to a few people who might be interested in touring with me. The label wants me to go on tour now, starting in August, but I promised someone very dear to me that I�d tag along as a visitor (and distraction after the shows!) for the fall, so I�ll put off my touring until then. Besides, I just got off a tour, so I�ll take a break for a while.
And because I�m in a good mood (one of the best that I�ve been in for a while), a present for all of you. Enjoy, it�s an unreleased track, so feel free to share with everyone you want!
We lose -- yet we want to spare the feelings of those we love. Don't cry, we've all lied. But there is always room for forgiveness my friend, so don't treat me bad just be glad I am strong; I know where I belong. And soon you will see we are blessed and complete. There's a place here for you with me. Shine. You're fine. See, I will always have a smile for you, my love. And still we will be ok and along the way we'll learn a thing or two. So don't treat me bad just be glad I am strong. I know where I belong. And soon you will see we are blessed and complete. There's a place here for you with me. --
WHERE I BELONG.MP3
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When was the last time you truly loved someone? I honestly cannot remember because it�s been so long since the feeling was reciprocated. I�ve always put too much into my relationships and I never meant to. I never meant to be anything other than a wife, a friend, a lover. And none of those were good enough and I�m wondering if anything or anyone can ever be good enough.
Don�t let anyone tell you that Arbor Mist is a terrible wine, because it gets the job done.
I�ve been thinking too much lately, and when we left that bar, left that hotel that night while his phone was still ringing and mine was too asking us both
where are you and even we didn�t know the answer�we sat upon that hill and took leaps and jumped over boundaries only to find another wall stood in our way. I�ve become a bricklayer you see, a mason, and I�ve gotten quite good at building up those walls. Each brick tells a story, but you can�t knock any of them down because I�m scared you won�t approve of what is behind the wall. I�m terrible with metaphors. I should stop.
I can�t imagine the past moving on with out me, but I can�t imagine me moving on with my past. I want this to be new, I want to stop being broken, take me to the shop and make me work again because I forgot what it felt like. I want this tour to be over so I can go back to Chicago and be myself again. I should have never agreed to this. Wait. I should have agreed to this. I agreed to a lot of things and I�m proud of the things I�ve done for my career but I don�t know how I�m doing personally.
I�m all over the place, and I�m a mess. I can't be in love if I still
fear love in ever sense of the word.
Are you sure you want to continue with this? With me? I�m warning you now, I don�t think you�ll last long. I push people away, and I can already feel it starting.
The best thing about wine is its fruity taste. I keep thinking I�m drinking juice.
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The Chicago shows were amazing, and I didn�t expect anything less from them. Today we�re in Ohio, and then we�re off to more places before we play Radio City Music Hall. I can�t believe that I�ll be playing there, it�s such a beautiful venue, and amazing acts have played there before me -- Madonna, Billy Joel, Elton John, Cream, Coldplay, Andrea Bocelli, Bruce Springsteen, Tony Bennett, Bette Midler, Beck�.so many amazing people have played there before! Dimitri says this is his third time playing the venue, and that I should think of it like any other venue, but come on
it�s radio city music hall! I sometimes think my cousin is letting stuff go to his head. And I will put this in writing, and encourage him to fight me over it later. I miss our stupid fights.
But I�ve been working on writing the album and I�m wondering how much I�ll be able to write, and still stay completely honest. I guess I�m scared that I�ll put everything out there, be honest and no one will believe me. Or they will, and I�ll cause drama that I�m not willing to face up to. I won�t lie and say that some of my songs are not about my past relationship with Dayt, because they are. There are three people that are my rocks, the people in my life that I will count on no matter what, and it�s so hard to not put them in my songs, to just think about them. I talked to Theo the other day, he said he was going to come and visit for the tour, maybe even stay for a few dates and when I spoke to him, I remembered the time we were in music theory II and I was trying to teach him how to sight read. I remember I told him that it was strange that he was music major but couldn�t sight read and he laughed and simply said �Because I feel the music, I don�t need to see it.� I guess that�s always stuck with me. I�ve started to feel the music, though I still see the amazing colors it has. I think at the end of the day, I�m proud of what I�ve done musically but I can�t help but wonder if there is something else out there for me personally.
I�m not usually the type to jump into personal stories, but I�ve been doing a lot of thinking lately. When I went to visit the first Chicago show, before I joined on the tour, my cousin John came along and the five of us all hung out like old times. Granted the following photo isn�t so great of me, but the guys all look good. I�ll always joke about how I�m the only natural blonde in this � you should have seen Theo with black hair, oh god. Theo�s dyed his hair more than me, I swear. And if it wasn�t for Dimitri constantly dying his birthmark on his hair (he has a stripe in his hair that�s blonde because of it), I still think Theo takes the cake on that. Dimitri has a reason. Theo, not so much.
I don�t know why I�m rambling so much. I guess I�m avoiding saying that I miss how we all used to be. We were all so close back then, and even in this photo you can sense how awkward I felt at that table. I shouldn�t feel like that, I should be able to look past the past, and move onto the future, but I find that it�s getting difficult lately.
I worry about one, I admire another one from afar, and I�m wondering how long it will be before the other one blurts everything out. You know, if I don�t drunkenly do it first!
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the one who survives by making the lives of others worthwhile. she's coming apart right before my eyes, the one who depends on the services she renders to those who come knocking - she's seeing too clearly what she can't be what understanding defies. she says I need not to need or else a love with intuition, someone who reaches out to my weakness and won't let go. I need not to need, I've always been the tower - but now I feel like I'm the flower trying to bloom in snow. she turns out the light anticipating night falling
tenderly around her and watches the dusk the words won't come. she carries the act so convincingly the fact is sometimes she believes it that she can be happy the way things are be happy with the things she's done. reach out, but hold back, where is safety? reach out and hold back, where is the one who can change me? where is the one? the one, the one? reach out, but hold back, where is safety? reach out and hold back, where is the one who can save me? where is the one, the one, the one? ---
the tower.mp3
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So I�m playing the following tour dates with Dimitri Cooke, Dayton Stroud & Josephine Banhart, so please come check me out and support the music!
June 28 2007 8:00P - Chicago Theatre Chicago, IL
June 29 2007 8:00P - Chicago Theatre Chicago, IL
June 30 2007 8:00P - Chicago Theatre Chicago, IL
July 2 2007 8:00P - Lifestyle Communities Pavilion Columbus, OH
July 3 2007 8:00P - Pageant St. Louis, MO
July 5 2007 8:00P - Chevrolet Ampitheatre Pittsburgh, PA
July 7 2007 8:00P - House of Blues Myrtle Beach, SC
July 8 2007 8:00P - Chrysler Hall Norfolk, VA
July 11 2007 8:00P - Tweeter Center at the Waterfront Camden, NJ
July 12 2007 8:00P - Radio City Music Hall New York, NY
July 13 2007 8:00P - Boston Opera House Boston, MA
I�m working on songs and working on the new album, so look forward to that!
061507
I guess if I had to describe the way that I�m feeling, I don�t really think I�d be able to. It�s so strange knowing that once things start to get rolling, I can throw myself into the best of situations and always come out clean. Seeing everyone I used to love and hold so dear to me has certainly been a trip. I�m wondering how long it�s going to be before we all officially start to fall back into our old habits of getting drunk, telling stories and avoiding sleep at all cost.
I was on the phone with Deliah the other day and we just were shooting ideas around for how she should approach covering Dimitri & Dayton�s Chicago shows, and some how the idea of focusing on the relationships of everyone on the tour came into play. Dimitri called me the other day, asked if I�d open for more than just the Chicago shows, if I could join in for the rest of the tour. What a rush! I think everything is going to be great, everything is going to run so smoothly.
And as for those �relationships� that we all seem to have? I�ve closed the door on some, but if possible, can I still open them again?
