Today in service we were talking about was just how much you come to rely on Jehovah when you're pioneering. Not that you aren't blessed by Jehovah, or have to rely on him if you're not , but even more when you are pioneering. It's amazing to see how Jehovah helps you out along the way.  There are days when you feel like giving up, but in the end you stay. Why? Because Jehovah gives you the strength to go on. None of us could do it without Jehovah's support, we know this. But it's not just his spirit. It's other things as well.

For example....we were talking about how hard it is to find a good part time job that will allow you to pioneer. It's almost impossible without full-time schooling. But somehow we all make it through the temp. jobs and the times with no jobs at all. And I was thinking about how hard it's been this year, what with losing my job right after I started pioneering. But Jehovah has taken care of me. I remember numerous times when I was totally out of money, and my gas tank was on empty. I worried about how I was going to get out in service. And then I'd get a phone call from Amy or from one of my aunts asking If I'd like to babysit that night. And there's my gas money. Another time, I was getting very discouraged, again because of the money situation. I was down to a grand total of 2 shirts and one skirt and no money to buy any more. And then what do I find the next day? Renee had come back from visiting her ex sister-in-law. And the sister in law happened to be getting rid of a whole bunch of clothes which happened to be exactly my size. So wala! I was provided with clothes.

It really makes you that much closer to Jehovah, when you see how much he cares and is willing to help us. And so even though sometimes I wonder how I'm ever going to move out on my own with a part time low income job, I know Jehovah will help me. He will provide everything I need, even if it's not everything I want. As long as I'm putting him first, he will bless me. It takes alot of sacrafice, but so what? I've been broke my entire life, and I could care less if I'm broke for the rest of it. I'll be happy, and I'll be doing all I can for Jehovah. And it's so nice to have friends and spiritual parents and siblings that understand the need to put God first, and are there to support me through whatever I go through. Thank you all so much.