Why is it that when it rains it pours? It storms. You end up with a tsunami. Just a thought I had earlier today. Seems like for awhile everything goes great and then BAM! You're hit with one hundred things all at once. They can't come one at a time, so I have a little while to process, and not feel so overwhelmed. They must come like a giant wave, and generally I end up drowning. Thank god I have friends who are there to grab my hand and pull me back up out of the water. It makes me feel really sorry for those who don't have the wonderful, caring friends that I do.

As you can tell, I'm a little depressed tonight. Don't really know why....alot of reasons, I guess. Oh well...I'll be fine in the morning. I always am. On the up side, pioneer school starts Monday, which I really excited about.....And I'll be 19 next month. I don't know why, but it seems like a big milestone.....19 just sounds alot older. In reality, of course, I shall be exactly the same. But maybe this year will be alot better than the last one. I hope so at least. Although, I must say, the first year of pioneering was awesome, even though alot of bad things happened during it. I just love pioneering. I never ever want to quit. I actually feel like I'm giving my all to Jehovah, which is something I never felt before.

And while I'm not nearly as spiritually good as I would like to be, things are improving. I'm working on alot in my life right now. Changes I need to make with my life and personality before I reach full "Adulthood" and get out on my own, or whatever. So anyways, I know this blog was boring, but for some reason I felt compelled to write it, to get it out of my head, and on to paper. ok, not paper, but same concept. Anyways, thank you all for being such good listeners, or readers, as the case may be. I feel very "fortunate", for lack of a better word, to have you in my life.