And I'm gasping in the new air. I can't believe how long I went without breathing. That three minute stuff is total garbage. Its true, though, that you only know your limits when you test them.

Do you see it? God! I do. Right in front of me, rising up, red and bright. This island I've landed on. Its right below my feet. I'm no longer swimming. Finally. Finally, I've hit land.

And you know why its different? Not because its different. But because I am different. The whole world is just alive to me.

People? They aren't people anymore. They're souls. Spirits.

Last night I layed on my yoga mat and I literally felt my soul rise up out of my body and mingle with the others that were gleefully floating in the air.

We are all so real! Am I the only one who knows this joy? Suddenly I'm walking around school today and not understanding why people look unhappy. Really. I can't stop smiling. And I know this. Everything is constantly changing, so why should I worry about it? This life is so small. Just one small learning session. I'm tired of worry. Its not that I don't want to anymore, its more like it just doesn't make sense. What is it really? I just can't seem to remember.

And this morning I woke up with a smile on my face and a song in my heart. I stepped out of the ocean onto that new island. The dry sand coating my feet. An ocean of worry lying dormant behind me.

I didn't drown. I didn't drown!

When I came to school today I felt adventure. I remember laughing at people who said that everyday is an adventure. But it is! I walked down our driveway this morning feeling my meridians just humming. I walked across that beach with a smile on my face.

A savage jungle lays before me, and its my choice. I get to do whatever I want with it. Its my life! I get to love it. I get to learn. I'm so blessed! Can't you see it? I get to live! I get to learn! I get to explore that jungle and make it my own.

I can't stop smiling. I must look like an idiot to these people.

But then, I bet I really look like I know something that they don't. And I do. And its not English either. Its this love. Its my spirit thats leaping and dancing around my head because my body just ceased to keep it trapped anymore.

Every night when I go to sleep I die, and every morning I am reborn again.

And why is the rabbit smoking his pipe? Because he knows the wolf can't catch him.

Suddenly it all makes sense to me. I had to stop fighting my problems to solve them. I had to stop working at smiling to actually smile.

And this song thats beating in my heart. My heart. My heart is the center of this universe, and its beating. Beating!

Listen. I know you can hear it.

Its whispering over and over. And I'm smiling with it. Goddess!

I know.

I know.