| "I Want Nothing But To Let Go" By: Mushu The thunder rumbles in the distance I look expectantly through the window I wait for the rain and lightning to come To come beckon me out So that I may play with it So that I may dance in it No, I am not afraid I was once I am no longer I look from my seat at my windowsill in my large room And make sure everyone is asleep So that I may sneak out I get up I take off my sleeping wear and put on my jeans and one of my shirts I sneak past the still figure laying asleep in our living room I open and close the door Locking it so that no one else can leave So that no one else can come I turn on the hall light And descend down the stair well I smile slightly at the familiarity of these old circular stairs I remember the day I slipped I know that I will not Ever again For I have learned my lesson As soon as my feet land at the bottom of the building I go down the hall, past the old place where the vegetables were kept I go to the doors that will finally lead me outside To the place where I will feel free and happy Even if I won't laugh or smile I will be happy I unlock these doors and step out Just in time to hear the deep, chilling rumble And the sound of rain falling The rumble does not chill me however It electrifies me I know what I do is dangerous But I do not care This is one of the times that I can feel truly free Like the risk taker God wanted me to become I stand there in the rain Raising my arms to the heavens Yelling into the storm Yelling out all my hopes and fears Letting go of my dreams and memories Screaming out that I do not want to see the future And what I will bring I do not want them They weigh me down They are what keep me thinking I do not want to think I want to live in the present With my worries of tomorrow I want nothing but to let go |