Falling Up
I see you almost everyday. You always look so sad now. You never did before. Before you were always happy. Did I do this to you? Please tell me that I didn't.
You pass by me without even a second glance. You don't even seem to notice me. If you do you don't act like it. It's like nothing ever happened between us. It's like that whole month never happened. But it did. I know it did. I can remember all the times we laughed, all the good times we ever had.
We never really fought. We had those little playful arguments over who's a jerk because who stole who's seat. But in the end we always resolved that no one was a jerk and it never really mattered that I took your seat or that you took mine. We were always happy because we had each other.
We always had those little moments of comfortable silence, where we would just lay there, holding each other, enjoying the time we had together. It wouldn't ever be completly quiet because you always had the radio on. You couldn't stand complete silence. Then we would start talking about the most random things. Sometimes we would talk about a song that just came on the radio or I would ask you about something on your walls.
All these feelings for you run around in my head. They confuse me. I don't know how I truely feel anymore. I think this feeling, whatever it is, is strong. I'm sure it's not hate because I could never hate you. Is it love? Or is it just a strong friendship? Will I ever know what this feeling is?
Every time I see you, it's like my world is turned upside down. I don't see anything else but you. It's like I'm falling up. These emotions are so confusing but they feel so wonderful. Do you feel the same as I do? I only hope you do. But for now all we can be is friends. That's it. Until you get over this phase you're going through.
There's something you must remember. I would wait for you until the end of time. Also, every time I see you I fall more in love with you.
I know I'm falling up.
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