031703,09:41amCST-So. Here I am again. Sitting at my computer looking for something to do, and I'm finally making myself write. I've been trying to get myself to write for over a year now. My life has been in a rut for at least a year and a half now and I can't get myself out of it. I dropped out of college, and I've been spending my time since then trying to figure out what to do with my life. If I could drive myself to do it, I'd want to write; but I can't. There's something very wrong with me, and whatever it is it's stopping me from going on with my life. Every day is the same thing over and over and over again. It all feels like the same day. The words and actions are different but it's all the same. Maybe I can change that. Unfortunately I don't know what to do. I'm lost like I've always been.
