I'm feeling just a tweaky bit...
12-11-2001...9:01 PM Central
Eh, so I made up with a friend today. It was nice. I honestly can't remember what we were fighting about it was that trivial, but it really doesn't matter. The only thing that matters is that NutMeg and I are back and it feels better. There's been enough of the Internet Drama to last me a whole lifetime. It seems that when I go and read the main blogs that I normally read everyday I keep seeing the same drama over and over again. Someone's got something to complain about or they are calling someone else a bitch because thier site layout might be a little bit too similar to theirs. I am getting quite sick and tired of it all, honestly.
It's not cool if you ask me. It's a weblog if you ask me but you don't have to put other people down for the sake of doing it. Last night I learned that the hard way I made the mistake of calling Kevin Richardson from the BSB "Ratboy" and my friend Raverz got a little upset over that because she likes him. She's right...I might not agree with his personality but I shouldn't have called him "Ratboy". Sometimes I speak before I think and I don't mean to do that. But anycrap...it's all good because she's forgiven me and all is well. I am so sick of Internet Drama [freeze frame: can I say that again!?!?] that it's not even funny. I've been around long enough to know there's more important things to worry about than that.
Just when I thought I wasn't loved, "my" Bozo did it again. She made me the most perty sign...and I'm going to share it with you. But I am also going to warn you that you had better not steal it because if you do I'll have your ass and I do mean that. You don't want to fuck with me...seriously. Anycrap without further adue look how much she loves me...
Now can we say..."awwwweeeeee"...I've never been given a sign before and I am so happy. It is a special graphic for me. She's made me other things but this is really special. And I "heart" her!! Anycrap...this is a short blog so I'm out!!
12-11-2001...9:12 PM Central
12-07-2001...4:37 AM Central
It's late for some but early for other's. *sigh* I just finished up taking a color quiz that was recomended to me by my imood account. And so when I went to change my mood I was un-balanced but the damn people that created all those F'n moods didn't create one for being un-balanced as some people feel sometimes; instead they made one for being un-settled and called it good enough. Well I'm not happy about that, I'm not happy with them and I am damn sure not un-settled when I know that I'm most likely un-balanced, which is kind of odd for me since my zodiac sign is of course, wouldn't ya know it, "the" scales. So go figure that one out, will ya? And when ya come up with an answer hit me back
@ and let me hear it. I'm sure it'll entertain me if nothing else. I am easily amused...can't you tell?!?! Bozo went to bed so I can't bother her with this.
And she'd probably tell me I was just weird again anyways, so it really doesn't matter. I couldn't sleep and so I came online to do some bloggin' anyway because I needed too. So now I am actually perplexed when really I was just un-balanced to begin with and I had to settle for being un-settled because the freakin' people at imood.com can't create un-balanced as a mood setting. So I went from being one thing to being two things and having to settle for one thing that I wasn't even to begin with and ended up being a totally different thing all together. I don't know maybe I'm just throwing you...or I've been thrown. It's one or the other. When I figure that one out I will gladly let you know.
So, I took the color test right. It's supposed to have something to do with your personality and the type of chacteristics that you have, your defense mechanisms and all that other psycho-babble bullshit that these Psychologists, Psychaitrists and Doctors try to market to poor un-suspecting souls who don't have anything better to do with their lives than sit around and be psycho-analyzed. As if I didn't have anything better to do with my life right at this moment than to log on and be psycho-analyzed. Geeze I'm a hypocrit. But that's okay, I think that's okay. I'll deal with that later.
So basically the color quiz is this little free five minute test based on decades of research done by color psychologists all around the world. It's not that complicated to take. Any idiot could take it--scratch that--any idiot did take it and came up feeling un-balanced and had to settle for being un-settled when she was really un-balanced and ended up being somewhat perplexed. But I won't bother you with that anymore.
Anycrap...basically this test is based on the work by this guy they call, Dr. Max L�scher, and is apparently used worldwide--mostly in Europe by psychologists, doctors, government agencies, and universities to screen their candidates. And since the 1950's thousands of poor un-suspecting souls have been subjected to this test.
Like I said the test is really easy to take if you're online and you've logged onto the color quiz site then all you have to do is click on take the quiz and you're on your way. There's like nine different sqaures that are like nine different colors and you click on them in the other of your mood. Just whatever comes to your mind first and then you wait like one 120 seconds there's a little timer there and you take the test again and you chose those colors again determined by your whatever comes to your mind first and your mood. After that you're given your results and you can either choose to print them out then, have them emailed to you and your friends, or you can invite a friend to take the test themselves and see how they do.
This is what left me feeling un-balanced because I took it the first time and I didn't like the results that I got back, so I took it again and it really left me feeling--well slightly aggrivated. I mean it's not like some of the things I didn't agree with--but some of them I just didn't plain like. How are they going to try to tell me what my Stress Sources, Restrained Characteristics, Desired Objectives, Actual Problem #1&2 are and they don't even know me? Or anything about me for that matter.
So I lied, Bozo is or rather was awake because she just sent me her results from taking the color quiz test herself. She said it was almost scarey how accurate it was for her. Well I don't think it was that damned accurate for me--I mean some parts of it were but then other parts were like, "...who the hell do you think you are comin' off with this shit and you don't even know me..." ya know what I'm sayin'?
On the other hand there were some things that I just completely did or didn't agree and I guess I can give you the rundown of them now. Through out the both of those damned colorful little tests that I took but didn't buy into like any other poor un-suspecting idiot would, there was one thing that was said not once but twice in both tests...
"...Trying to calm down and unwind after a period of over-agitation which has left her listless and devoid of energy. In need of peace and quiet; becomes irritable if this is denied her..."
Now I'll be the first to admit that yes I can be irritable at times--I'm a woman I have a right to be irritable during certian moments and times in my life. Not saying that men don't have that right either--just simply acknowledging that I have that right like any other individual, but I don't think that I am always listless and devoid of energy. Yes at low points in my life I am pretty sure I was but most any individual would is human would be that way too during their down times. You simply can not always be high-spirited and joyful. It is not normal, whatever normal is these days. For the most part I am high-spirited and joyful and I am well aware how blessed I am, but during my down moments I am pretty sure I am listless and devoid of energy.
Most of it occurrs when I am sick, tired or just plain stressed. Everyone goes through that or wouldn't all be human. But to say that we feel that way for the most part just because you chose a some colors two different times done in two different sequences is just plain obsurd. Or at least I think it is and I am not going to buy into every bit of it. Nope, sorry I won't. But I do belive however that I do become the most irritable when I am denied something I want whatever it may be and that part of it was pretty accurate. But that probably was a fluke, something that happened randomly, stupidly and probably never will again.
Another thing that was stated pretty clearly was...
"...She attempts to escape into a substitute world in which things are more nearly as she desires them to be..."
Now I will say that yes sometimes I do escape to a sacred place in my mind where my musings become silent, peace and serenity takes over and I am trying to shut out some of the negative stress that's been hurled in my direction. That is about the only time when I feel as safe as I do. But as far as escaping to run away from problems--uhm no. I know that I need to face them, I know they will only tag along behind you if you try to run from them so I don't even try. I do have a fear of heights but I'm working on that. But I'm sure if you ask everyone they'll tell you that they've escaped into what is called their own little fantasy world of sorts to get away from some of the stress. You could drown yourself in writing if that's what you do, you could read, write, and create your own music as a means of escaping, and you could drag out an empty canvas devoid of any color and just start expressing yourself if you wanted too as well. We all have our own vices, our own way of escaping when things get to be too much.
But the most important thing is that we don't become to obssessed that we're almost reduced to this compulsive little shell of a person who's trying to live in a fantasy world instead of reality. I don't think I lean too much towards fantasy and more towards reality. I think I am either balanced or suspended might be a better word between the both of them. I am half n' half in a manner of speaking. So I am not going to put too much stock into what they have just said.
Another thing that was said and I have so graciously taken the time to disect for you was this particular diagnosis.
"...Wants to overcome a feeling of emptiness and of separation from others. Believes that life still has far more to offer and that she may miss her share of experiences if she fails to make the best use of every opportunity. She therefore pursues her objectives with a fierce intensity and commits herself deeply and readily. Feels herself to be completely competent in any field in which she engages, and can sometimes be considered by others to be interfering or meddlesome..."
And we'll go through the whole run-down of this together.
1.) I don't think that I posses an emptiness or feeling of separation from others---so where they got that I don't know.
2.) I do believe, however, that life does have more to offer and yes sometimes I am afraid that if I don't just close my eyes and leap that I will end up missing out on certain experiences in life so that's why I am currently trying hard but seem to be faultering somewhat in an un-steady embrace to deal with my fear of heights.
3.) And it's true when I commit to a project or make my mind up that I have decided to make something happen--I will go after it with great intensity and I will not stop until I have the staisfied results--so that I do agree with.
4.) I do think I am a rather competent person and I try to educate myself in whatever it is I am setting out to do. I do not like failure and I will not settle for less than the best in whatever it is I have set out to do or have already accomplished.
5.) Now I don't like the last part of that..."considered by others to be interfering or meddlesome..." because I do not consider myself to be either one of those. I consider myself to be very respectful of my friends privacy and if they want to talk me then they know I'm there to listen and if they don't then that's another conversation for another time if they should decide.
See this is why I do not like to put too much stock in colorful little tests like these, because I don't believe them to be completely accurate and I don't think that colors can necessarily describe the way you think, act and are as an individual. They may have a slight baring on that, but I hardly doubt they have very much if any at all.
Now with all that being said I have a small somewhat comical little story to share with you now. I was in the store last night with my mother, we had gone to pick up a couple things for my grandmother and I noticed this mood fingernail police sitting on a shelf and I thought, "...cool!" So walked over and picked it up, looked at the bottom of it and nearly howled with laughter as I read the name of the color. There it was in big black bold capital letters, the simple name, "Sybil", now for those of you who know what I am referring to you'll know what I mean when I say, "how ironicly funny!". Or it was to me. So I said something to my mother about it as well and the two of us shared a pretty good laugh before she told me that I was out of my mind. I was crazy. And it occurred to me that maybe I was a little bit crazy standing in that aisle laughing at a bottle of fingernail polish but I wasn't so crazy that I didn't get the meaning behind the name of it. A small joke about a slight personality disorder that many people suffer from and know the painful reality of it and a lot of people still don't understand and probably never will. They were making money off of marketing a fingernail polish using the name of a woman who has suffered from a personality disorder in conjunction with the type of polish it was.
See I'm actually pretty smart sometimes when you think about it. In a way it was funny and in a way it was kind of sad. Most people probably never will know the pain that she's been through and had to live with on a daily basis throughout her life and they want to market a fingernail polish using her name to describe the type of polish it was and associating it with people's moods. That's just how society is--has a need to make fun of anything and everyone, has a need to make money off things that it calls harmless but yet destroys other people's lives and then sits back and scoffs at the one's who actually have something to say about it. It's a vicious cycle.
I am not a perfect person--I have never claimed to be a perfect person nor will I ever be a perfect person. That's one of my faults, I've always pushed myself to be the most imperfectly perfect person in an imperfect society and that is something that I am finding out real quick, a little too quickly for my liking that is simply un-attainable and sometimes I am forced to listen to my friend's voice when she quietly says, "...tex, hunny slow down the world isn't going to change overnight and neither are you..." but it just infuriates me. So now I'm completely something else that I was before or after I started this whole mess tonight. I am thinking that I should probably wrap this up before I talk your ear off. So I'll go but I want to do one more plugging before I do.
"Suffer The Child"--Judith Spencer. Read it, it's a good book. Very insightful, very informative and very heart-wrenching. If you don't know who Sybil is then I suggest reading that book as well. You could watch the movie, Sally Field, turns out a very stunning performance in it but I think you would understand much better if you read the book itself. And just try to understand and see it from their point of view.
I am through tonight. I need sleep for a sleep deprived insomniac who gets no sleep what-so-ever and has nothing better to do than come online an talk about personal life and bore you to death with all of her own thoughts you probably don't give a rats ass about. But I could care less.
12-07-2001...6:37 AM Central
12-06-2001...2:19 AM Central
*evil laugh* So eh, I'm feeling sort of wicked a little bit here, Bozo !! That should make ya holla, a little bit. Now that I've had my attack of the "FYC" I am now *shuddering* at the whole sordid little encounter. I am realizing that I am making no sense, but I was sparked by something I said earlier to my friend, Amber who so graciously called me a, "nut" and when I asked her why she called me that she just said because I am one. Now I am still scratching my head and I have this little funky ass "cheesey" candy comercial running through my head. Ya know the one with the little "oh-not-so-snazzy-but-oh-so-catchy" little jingle that you just find yourself singing at the most inoportune times.
"...sometimes you feel like a nut,
sometimes you don't...
almond joy's got nuts,
mounds don't!!
Because...
sometimes you feel like a nut,
sometimes you..."
*clapping hands* Yay Me!! Yay That!! I did it, I did it!! I did the "line" --> -or- wait!! *tapping foot* Did the line do me?!?! *scratching head* ---> Bozo oops! I mean...ah...uhmm...ermmm Blaze *snickering* said this to me tonight, "what goes on in that head of yours?!" Well to be quite honest with you, Bozo , I just don't know. I gave up on trying to figure that out a long time ago and I *do* mean a LONG time ago. Many many Moons and Eon's ago. Seriously, dude!!
Slap me...ouch...I'm hurting. I don't think she realizing just what a dangerous and daring question she has asked me. pondering a moment in deep thought -or- maybe I'm becoming some sort of rambling raving lunatic that needs to be locked up somewhere in room with a padded view. But then that would just give me another reason to ramble on and on in-excessively. Ya know, I guess this means I suffer from "chronic psychotic rambling" disease and should be seen to immediately. So that's when I told, Bozo [freeze frame: she's really going to graciously anniahlate me if I don't quit calling her that!! yep I can sure feel it!!] Did you ever watch the Bozo the Clown show when you were little? And here is a little snippet of our conversation from taken straight from yahoo messenger...[freeze frame: warning...read.at.your.own.
risk.]
Bozo : yeah I used to watch Bozo lol
Me: he was a funky lil' bastard wasn't he?
Bozo : lmao I wanted to throw the balls in the bucket!! lol
Me: I am not asking which balls I'm just gonna leave that one to your own imagination
So then she commenced to calling me, "snot" when I started calling her, Bozo and it was like a moment of, "oh eww's" that followed along behind that. Do not mind me, I am on some G-U-D!! drugs. Ya'll do know that Lancey's butt is my ANTI-drug and from where I stand, cheesey ass grin on face that's a perty damn G-U-D!! ANTI-drug!!
And so now I choose this time wisely to share with you this lovely little fan-sign that I made as "my" way of saying congrats to all the lovely artists that won awards. At the time I made it I couldn't remember every single artist that won an award, but it was intended for those that I liked anyway since it is a "fan-sign". So here ya go...lemme know if ya liked it or not all right?
So I have to say that the always lovely AND talented Britney looked beautiful as always. I can't help it...you just have to love her. Ever-Always the Bombshell!! that ONLY she can be!! Now why do I always think of Usher's new song, "U Got It Bad", in terms of "her". Shit!! I can't figure it out. S-T-O-P!! [freeze frame: to the one's of ya'll that know what I'm talkin' about...I Heart You!!...seriously dude!! you don't know how much you ALL mean to me. thanks for your support and for not turning away from me when I needed you MOST!!]
"... U got, u got it bad
When you're on the phone
Hang up and you call right back
U got, u got it bad
If you miss a day without your friend
Your whole life's off track
You know you got it bad when you're stuck in the house
You don't wanna have fun
It's all you think about
U got it bad when you're out with someone
But you keep on thinkin' bout somebody else
U got it bad..."
This one's for... Bozo , Angel, Raverz and Amber because without them I would NOT be "me!"
But no...seriously I gotta give a holla to my supa_scoopie_freaks crew! They've always stood beside me through the good, the bad and the well...just plain so fuckin' ugly you couldn't stand it but you had to endure it. They ROCK!! plain and simple. They are what "real" friends are all about. I was so scared to say something to them, I was so frustrated I couldn't see straight and I was so confused as I am sure that a lot of people are. But when I brought "it" to them, they did something that scared the shit out of me litterally. They embraced me with open arms and told me that they would love me no matter what my preferances may be. It didn't matter to them because I was still the same Tex to them that I had always been and that wasn't fixing to change. I think that it was Raverz that said, "...you don't base your friends on their sexuality, you base them on who they are inside and you don't give a damn about what the outer appearance is because it's all ahout heart..." and I seriously almost cried when she said that. I have never in my life ever felt so loved and so comfortable with any of my friends than I had at that one moment in my life with them. And now, looking back on it, I am glad that I could experience it with them. Because I honestly couldn't be Me without them! They complete me, they complete who I am and I love them for that.
Anycrap...now that the mushy shit is out of the way, I will go on with my musings concerning the Billboard music awards. I'll have to sweetly disagree with Bernie Mac, "...i said sweetly, didn't i?!?...", I happened to like Matty M.'s version of the book of Job rather well and I think Melloncamp was right when he said that he was probably the only artist alive who's had as much fun making music as he has. I love and admire that man's music and I think I always will. Thank god I had a mama who loved it and was willing to listen to it as much as she did. I thank her for some not all but some of my tastes in music. [freeze frame: special note to mommy, "I love you, Mommy!! For turning me onto Melloncamp, Elton John, The Beatles, Elvis *of course*, Jerry Lee Lewis, Rod Stewart, Marvin Gaye, Fleetwood Mac, Patti LaBelle, Percy Sledge, Aretha Franklin, Isaac Hayes, Curtis Mayfield, Bruce Springsting, Sting, Cher, Tina Turner, and Tracy Chapman, oh yeah and Michale Jackson ectera...I am forever in debted to you for your semi-wonderful tastes in music!! And I love you for thinking Lenny Kravitz is cool--even though you did refer to Justin as a punk. But I'll let it slide this one time!!]
*Nsync looked wonderful as always and they performed "Gone" just like I knew they probably would. To sum them all up, they looked wonderful and sounded great as usual and congrats to them on their awards. Poor Britney didn't go home with anything this year but that's okay she's still got it like that anyway!! I don't think she's hurting too much. On a much lighter note I was quite happy not to have to look and see Christina Aguilera there. I sware they girl's got an awesome voice but she ruins it with all that make-up and not near enough clothes. I wouldn't mind listening to her as long as I don't have to look at her and somehow I just don't like it like that, that's how I have to think in regards to her. Kind of makes me feel like half a fan if you know what I mean.
I guess what I'm trying to say is if I can't be a "whole" fan then I don't want to settle for being a "partial"--->now if you can make any sense of that then I give you two thumbs up and one toe down. No seriously, being a fan is important to me because it's not just about their appearance although you can't help but notice Christina with those cat-eyes as I like to call them and of course heads are going to turn to see how much skin she's allowing everyone to sneek a peek at. It's more about the music--I was sitting and actually thinking about this the other night. Yes, sometimes I actually do that. No, not sit. But rather...think. And I was thinking that if people actually based their opinions and choices of music on appearances alone that a whole hell of a lot of Janis Joplin albums, Ozzy Osbourne, and not to mention a whole slew of other's to follow along behind them would have never been bought in the first place and all that wonderful music would have gone to waste?
Because let's face it--->Janis Joplin, even though she's my all time favorite artist ever lived, wasn't a looker back in her day but she had the voice that could just take over and take you to a higher euphoria than you've ever experienced before. I mean just take Stephen Tyler from Aerosmith or even Mic Jagger from the Rolling Stones and you know damn well that those two men are not the sexiest creatures that walked the face of this earth. Oh hell no, not by a long shot but when they open their mouths it's like, "damn...do that to me one more time...would ya?" Seriously!! Seriously it's the music taking over and you're in such a state where you feel like you're losing all control and you just really don't give a damn because the moment is all that matters. Now that's what I'm talking about--->it's ALL about the music and NOTHIN' but the music and the looks or good personality is the added bonus that you get when you are a fan.
Well now that I've probably bored you all to tears or else scared the Jesus out of you...I think I'll have to go on and finish up this blogger. I don't have much more to say after everything that I just wrote so I am going to leave you with a few parting words that I said earlier to my friend, Amber who was the "one" that called me a nut right after Bozo called me, "crazy" so I guess if the shoe fits, "...wear it!..."
Quote:
"...write...fucking rented fingers I want my money back lol life is a huge fucking lemon and I'm like riding on top of the fucker!!..."
And one more thing that I made for my Bozo in hopes that she doesn't get her hands on me and litterally commence to mudering me for calling her, "Bozo". But I don't think she won't...she knows I love her!!
12-06-2001...4:04 AM Central
12-03-2001...11:25 PM Central
*sigh* Why do I always get myself into these situations? Why must I always put myself into these pathetic little fixations? I just don't understand sometimes. My life is so "pathetic" that it's not even funny. You would think that it would be all right to make a small little "suggestion" and not get slammed for it. It wasn't like I was asking for too much. I was already in a bad mood anyway. And it sure doesn't help that I'm as bloated as I am right now anyway. I'm too crabby to live, sometimes. I think.
But anycrap...you would think that it would be okay to make a simple little suggestion and then not have it be construed into something "major" when it wasn't intended for that. I even made a few apologies for "maybe" misunderstanding some people. I didn't think that my request was too much of a big deal but apparently some of the other people who are on that particular "mailing list" did and it wasn't appreciated. I'm well aware that things could have been worded differently but they weren't and those were the results. I can not stand people who think just because you ask them to "politely" do something that you are actually asking them to, instead, "conform", to a lower standard than what they normally would when in fact that's not what you asked at all. *sigh* I will nver understand it and nor do I want to talk anymore about it. I have other pressing matters weighing on my mind right now that mean a whole heck of A LOT more to me than "that"!!
Blazey baby, I'm sorry. Plain and simple and I don't know how else to tell you that. Have you ever had a moment in your life where you felt like you were two inches tall and you had no sensitivity at all? You know you find yourself doubting the people that you are closest too? Well that's what I did tonight. I doubted my Blaze and now I feel completely and horribly wretched for it. I was already in a snotty mood but to come online and take it out on her in yahoo instant messenger chats is a complete other thing to do. It was completely fucking up and I took it out on her and now I am sorry. I was already crabby but I shouldn't have been so crabby to her.
So Blaze, baby this is a peace offering to you in hopes that you will forgive me for being the little snotty bitch that I am lately. I don't want you to ever feel like you can't say anything to me at all. And I am sorry that I ever doubted you because in doubting you I doubted your trust and I violated our friendship and I feel horrible for that. So I'm sorry.
And then after I thought about it, I thought about all the many wonderful things that "my" Blaze made for me and I couldn't resist I had to make her a couple more things which I will share with you here. This is my blog, this is how I feel tonight and if you don't like it then please see yourself out the door to, Barney's place if that's a little more to your liking. Anycrap I made this because I wanted to show Blaze how much she is loved and appreciated for who she is and not what she does. So I hope you like this.
And you thought that I was finished nah...what made ya think that. I have one more fan sign for "my" Blaze so that she can see just how loved she really is!! So here we go again.
Okay so that's my blog for tonight. Pretty pathetic huh? Well no--in my opinion it's not. Because I don't think no one ever tells Blaze just how important she is and I aim for her to know that. She's very important in my life. So Blaze , I love ya baby!! You mean more to me than anything and I am so glad that we are friends.
12-03-2001...12:26 PM Central
12-03-2001...3.20 AM Central
*yawns* It's late I know this but I wanted to wish Britney a "be-lated" Happy Birthday wish!! So..."...happy birthday, britney , with a pocketful of a smiles and a handful of hugs!!" We love you!! giggles That's Blaze and I, that is!! And I made something just for her, I was tinkern' around with the computer and I just couldn't let Britney's birthday go by without making something for her, so I made her this little "fan sign" even though she will probably never see it.
*yawn* I am so tired tonight. I know what I need, I need Lancey and some chocolate and I will be one happy little camper. I hate *grr* this! time of the month. Oh, *smacks hand to forehead*, I am sure that you probably really wanted to know that. There's not much for me to blog here except that I spent most of the day with family. I went over to my mom's house and had lunch with her, my stepdad, my little sister and two and a half year old nephew. Then we hung out for a couple hours and just enjoyed each other's company before we set about trimming the Christmas tree while my little nephew was running around hollaring, "...let me do it, let me do it..." and "...I wanna help...I wanna help..." He really is a cutey. But why else wouldn't he be after all he takes after "me" the "cutest" one out of the bunch. Eh, not really. But it sure did sound nice!! hahaha
Anycrap I'm outtie...I'm tired, bloated and just plain fuckin' hurtin' so I'm gone!!
Dec-03-2001...3:29 AM Central
12-01-2001...3:24 AM Central
*yawns* It's a little bit late and I was feeling a little *grr* earlier if you visited and saw my mood change. I'm feelin' a little bit better, by the way. I added a few new cliques and I'm going to start adding some more "actual" content to the site other than just my main blogger area and the Webmistress page that's up. ANYcrap...
So you remember last night when I mentioned something about a surprise that my best friend and lil' sister of my heart Blaze wouped up for me when she told me that I had "mail". Well I checked it and I almost crapped. I couldn't believe it...it was the most "beautiful" surprise that I've ever gotten in my life from a friend of mine. So "thankies" goes to "my" Blazey baby!! You KNOW I "love" ya, baby girl!!
So I won't keep you guys waiting much longer...come check it out and see what she made especially all for me. Since she knows I love Britney as much as I do, she made this lil' festive holiday-ish wallpaper just for me. So here is a "perty" screen-cap of my desktop so that you can see what the sweet, sweet "surprise" was and just how much I loved it!!
Isn't that so "perty" don't ya think? Hmmm...she's so sweet. She's always making this or that for me. I need to do something nice for her...I'll think of something. I always do. I was thinking today...I've got some lyrics stuck in my head. I heard a new song on the radio the other day. "Where Were You"--Alan Jackson's new song. It's going to be on his new album that's being released sometime at the beginning of 2002. It's a pretty good song--will make ya cry. It's about September 11th.
If you're familiar with country music then you know that it's the song he performed at the CMA's. It really makes ya think though...some of the lyrics are as follows...
Where were you when the world stopped turning
That September day?
Teaching a class full of innocent children;
Driving down some cold interstate?
Did you feel guilty 'cause you're a survivor
in a crowded room did you feel alone?
Did you call up your mother and tell her you love her?
Did you dust off that bible at home?
Eh, like I said it'll make you think. I think it's his newest single or it will be one of them if I understood what the woman on the radio was saying. He may even be making a video for the song. I don't know...but I do know that when the album is out I would like to have it, not just for that paticular song, but becuase he's a great artist. Those of you who like country music knows what I'm talking about. Anycrap...it's late and I'm tired. So I'd better wrap this up. I'll post more tomarrow. And work on adding more content to the site.
I'm out---just remember to be kind to everyone, becuase you never know when you may need a little bit of kindness to come your way.
12-01-2001...3:24 AM Central
29-Nov-2001...3:48 AM Central
*yawns* Okay so I haven't blogged in a little while, I shall say. I'm a little bit conflicted at the moment. Just a tad bit tired and a little upset. I know, I know it seems like everytime I post something it's sad, boring and pathetic but eh that's my life. Or at least that's what it's resorted to lately. But thanks to my savior
Blaze ,whom I heart more than anything in this world, I'll be all right.
Life pretty much sucks it just does that sometimes but hey it'll get better before it gets completely worse. Or at least that's what I've always been told. Grrr I hate my computer right about now this is like the third time tonight that I've had to completely shut-down and restart the thing. It's not funny, *I'm whining...I'm whining catch up with me catch up with me*, I sware life really does suck!! It's just plain and simple or either I suck and I really don't want to put myself through that again *sigh* tonight.
But I am determined not to let it stop me from surfing the 'net and finding some of the best sites that I deam "plugger" worthy and believe me I've found a few tonight. We'll start with, Misunderstood it's one of the best *Nsync sites around the web. I love it!! If I were to give it stars I would have to give it all five of them. If you're a definite *Nsync fan then Misunderstood is the site for you to visit. Focuses "more" on Justin though, but still a great site for *any* *Nsync fan.
Speaking of Justin there's another site devoted to the man *like there aren't a billion out there, but this one REALLY is FANTASTIC so much more different and unique and well you'll see if you just GO THERE...so GO THERE...NOW!!! Run DON'T walk...Get There!!*, Thirty-One; The Justin Effect is *ahhh I don't have the words...* FABULOUS the creator of this site really out did herself. You should go there, have a look for yourself, check out her awesome layout and sign her guestbook letting her know how much you appreciate her work of creative art. She really does make Justin look more beautiful than he is. She also gets five stars not just for her layout, her creativity, and her continuous information on Justin but for her heart that I know she put into this site. She definitely is a true *Nsync all the way around!!
Ahem! For all of you JC fans out there I found another great site devoted entirely to the man himself. She really put a lot of hard work into it, very professionally put together, beautiful breath-taking layout and loads of content as in things for you, things concerning the site, things to support, and things of course about the man himself, JC . So you might want to wander over to, Desert Rose: JC and have a look around. You never know you might find something that you like. But be sure to sign her guestbook letting her know that you were there and visit her other sites because they are just as equally wonderful as Desert Rose: JC is. So come on what are you waiting for, get your buns on over there. She'll leave the light on and the door unlocked for ya.
And for all of you FanFiction fans out there you should visit this, Tattoo because she like really ROCKS!!! She's like the "only" Het *Nsync Fiction that I will *ever* think about reading. Well other than the sites that she lists because I'm more of a *slasher* myself. I can't help it, it's just there and they are there and hell let's face it--they make it easy to do. Plain and Simple--*holding up hand*--End of Discussion!! If you don't like it then that's just tough. Nobody told you that you had to, but nobody also told you that you had to be snarky about it either. And that's my rant of the night!!
Now back to plugging her site, it's really awesome and I think you actually might enjoy it. So go on and visit and then sign the guestbook letting her know you were there and how much her site ROCKED because of the amount of time, love and devotion that she put into it. Trust me she will appreciate it!
Well folks that's about it for tonight, my precious Blaze just told me I have mail so I gotta go check that and see what she's been cooking up in that brain of hers. I'm sure I'll have something to tell you either tomarrow or the next night and if you're lucky you might get a lil' peek-a-boo at it too!! That freakin' rhymed!! Crap on a crutch!! Anyway...GOOD NIGHT!! I'm outtie!!
28-Nov-2001...4:02 a.m.
"...As long as one heart still holds on
Then hope is never really gone
I hear them saying you'll never change things
And no matter what you do it's still the same thing
But it's not the world that I am changing
I do this so this world we know
Never changes me
What I do is so
This world will know
That it will not change me
24-Nov-2001...1:50 a.m.
What may I ask is going on in this world? I'm not making a joke here, I'm not laughing it up and I'm not making a mockery of the song nor the video either. I am just simply asking, "What is going on in this world, today?" You know as if life couldn't get any worse it decided to do just that, it got worse. That probably didn't make any sense, but right now the things in my head that I am forced to sit here and comprehend are running through my head at full speed and I can't seem to stop them. I am having what we shall call a moment of, "duh!", if you know what I mean by that. I just don't understand people at all anymore, I do not get them.
Why do people have to be so cruel, senseless and harmful towards other people? Why do some people have to steal, lie and cheat to get what they want and then claim that society turned it's back on them and that's why they did what they did when they know full well that they have a brain, God handed one out to them, and they had the same choice that the rest of us have? I just do not understand. You're probably shaking your head and wondering what I'm getting at. I'll get there eventually.
The fact of the matter is that when I woke up this morning I was sick, I was tired, but yet I was happy and even half way excited because I knew that tonight I was going to be watching the brand new *Nsync special that was going to be on CBS tonight with special guest Tim McGraw. And at the time I didn't give any thought to it, it was just another normal day for me. And now when I think about it that feeling of excitment that I had earlier, that feeling of happiness seems so trivial in the midst of everything that's happened.
I'm not talking Sept. 11th here, I know that happened but there's a time when you need to move on. There's a substantial grieving/mourning period for those that were lost tragically due to this horrible act of terroism against us, but there is also a time when you should try to be thankful for the blessings that you were given as well. I'm talking about something entirely different. My heart goes out to those who were lost, I too knew someone who was lost in that the first tower that went down, so I pray for every continually on a daily basis in hopes that we'll be brought closer together and we can become stronger than ever.
But apparently there are those who still do not want to do that and they are out there promoting hate and violence. The weather was pretty bad out here where I live tonight and so it knocked my cable out for a little while, I was afraid I was going to miss the *Nsync special so I called my mom up and I asked her if I could come over there and tape it and she didn't think nothing about it, she said sure. So I was like, cool I'll be there.
Anyway to make a long story short she had my nephew over there, talk about a cutey. I love that little boy more than anything and I got the biggest kick out of watching him watch the *Nsync special concert, because he was like jumping up and down on the bed, clapping and hollaring Justin's name over and over with this huge silly grin on his bad ass little two and half year old face.
I didn't think anything about it until my mom came into the room about mid-way through the concert and told me that the reason she had my nephew tonight was because my brother-in-law's grandfather had been taken to the hospital. Apparently he and my little sister had come down to check on him, he's like 72 years old, and when he wouldn't answer the door they walked on in the house and saw that there was blood all over the place. Apparently someone had tried to burglarize his place and he had caught them in the process and they had beaten him to a bloody pulp and stuffed him in the trunk of his car, meanwhile leaving him there to die. When they didn't find him in the house they found him in the trunk of his car.
And I remembered my little sister calling me earlier that day and asking me if I had heard from mama or if she had called or I knew where she was and I hadn't and I didn't have any idea. At the time she didn't tell me why she was calling, apparently she did finally get a hold of them. She was trying to get her to meet them some place so she could pick up my nephew and watch him while they went to the hospital and took care of everything there. They said that he almost died and would have if they hadn't of found him when they did. The local hospital said that he was too bad for them to even touch so they just immediately care-flighted him to a hospital in about an hour and twenty minutes away from where he lives. Every single bone in his face was broken. Every single bone, I mean if you think about it that's a lot of bones and that's going to be a lot of plastic surgery that's going to have to be done to take care of that and fix it to where it can be half-way decent and you wonder what the hell's going on in this world.
It's pretty fucked up, wouldn't you say? I mean come on, he's like a 72 year old man that would have probably let them have just about anything that they wanted and probably more if they would have just left him alone, but they didn't. How could he harm them? He's not even mean spirited and yet they still want to do something like this. I just don't understand anymore. He's not my grandfather but it really sucks because he's always been nice to me and I know that he wouldn't harm a fly unless the darn thing landed on his sandwich.
I do not know anymore...I am beginning to think since everythings taken place and after all that's happened hate and rage are becoming quite consuming and second to human nature. People think that they can do just whatever the hell they think they want to do to someone else and get away with it and then try to turn around and justify it by saying, "society turned it's back on me long ago so this is why I did this because this and this happened when I was a child so I was a little pissed and decided I'd reek some havoc on someone else's life just so they know what it feels like to feel pain..." the whole yadda yadda yadda "wo-is-me" pity routine that's so damn plentiful around here lately. And it really pisses me off if you want to know the truth about it.
I am trying so hard not to cry right now because I can't stand this, I can't stand it when people think that they have to hurt someone to get whatever it is they want. There is no need for that, instead of doing something ignorant and stupid like that they should be using their minds to do something positive. Forget it...whatever point I am trying to make it's only sufficing to make me angrier by the moment. I liked my brother-in-law's grandfather, he's always been nice to me. He's never had one unkind word to say to me during the whole time that he's known me. And I guess that's why I'm so pissed off.
In any case I refuse to spend the rest of my night in anger so I'd rather talk about something else that makes me smile. How 'bout them *Nsync boys. Didn't they ROCK or what?!!?! Oh come on, ya know they sure as hell did. As I said earlier the highlight of my night was watching my nephew get all excited about seeing his favorite *Nsync member, Justin . I think I heard a JC in there somewhere and a couple times he did point to Lance and ask who he was and I had to smile and say, "That's Lance baby." And he would giggle and point and then say, " Lance "...and it was too cute.
Whaaaa?!?!! Come on you would have smiled too. The little boy is so cute. He fell asleep singing, "ByeByeBye", which I thought was absolutely the cutest. And oh my lordy, let's talk about Lance. I was like dying when he was singing. Damn! That voice, That Man, yeesh...can make a girl go crazy. It was nice to see Lance singing for a change, even if it was for only a moment or so. But I have to wonder what the hell is it that Chris is *trying* like hell to grow on his damn chin?!?! Huh!! *hands on hips* I am refusing to believe this shit!! I mean come on, with the way it sprigs out on both sides you could braid the two little ends and tie them damn things together. It is so *grr* NOT cute!! Joey actually looked good tonight. Although lately he's been looking pretty good to me for some reason. I don't know maybe it's his sense of humour or his smile. I just like him. That "tonka" shirt he had on the other day when they were on TRL was really cute and I guess that's what's got me thinking about him. It takes a *real* to brave something like that. Okay so *this* is me being sarcastic but in a cute way that's nice.
No but really the show really was good and Tim McGraw really rounded it out. I was really excited to see him there and performing with the guys. Although for some reason Justin didn't strike me as the type to listen to country music. I'm not saying that in a bad way either, I'm just saying the man comes off as more soulful to me than anything and it's kind of funny in a cute sort of sense that he does like country music. I mean come on Lance was a given but Justin was another story. He's got this brilliant soulful side of him that's just absolutely amazing and he really showed it well when they did "Gone". It was strikingly haunting yet beautiful and soulful. I found traces of dried tears when the music died and faded away. It was that powerful. It moved me. Enough said.
It's getting late and I should probably wrap this up. I think I've mentioned everything and everyone I wanted to say something to or about. But I do want to leave you a message and that message is, "Because what you say and do because tomarrow may not come and you may not get the chance to ever say you were sorry...". I know it's going to sound corny but I've adopted one of Naomi Judd's philosphies in dealing with life, "slow down, simply and be kind...", I think that's all that needs to be said. Now.
*yawns* Good night everyone, have a good weekend and I shall return either tomarrow or in a day or so. I still have some things I need to sort out in my mind. *waves* Blaze I didn't forget ya baby. *Muah!* Good night and I LOVE ya, baby!! Thanks for listening to me tonight and for helping me out. I really needed that. *hugs!!* It meant a lot to me, thank you. I heart you!!
It seems that there is a last minute addition to *this* blogger thanks to my dear friend, Blaze , who knows that I couldn't go without plugging one of my favorite sites on the web out there, Cuddlebugging You wouldn't understand it if you don't slash it.
24-Nov-2001...3:02 a.m.
I am 58% ADDICTED TO THE INTERNET.
I am pretty addicted, but there is hope. I think I'm just well connected to the internet and technology, but it's really a start of a drug-like addiction. I must act now! Unplug this computer!
Take the INTERNET-ADDICT Test at Fuali.com!
21-Nov-2001...11:33 p.m.
Okay so we all know what bandwidth, infringement and copyright means? Don't we?!?! If we don't then we might want to check this site out R.I.G.H.T.S. and find out before we take credit or lay claim to something that we did NOT create, distribute, write or build ourselves. It is a very helpful, useful and resourceful website. They have everything that you would need there in order to take care of dealing with all the matters I've mentioned above. And I fully support them because I know that if I made something or wrote something and someone else took it, lay claim to it and tried to pass it off as their own personal work of creativity then I would be highly pissed and slightly annoyed as I am sure you would.
Now I'll be the FIRST to tell you that I did NOT create this layout for this particular website, one of my best friends, Blaze did and I thank her for that. That's why down at the bottom of the layout you see the copyright symbol "�" and a hyper-link created for her email address giving her personal credit. As for the blogger content on the site I created that on my own, but any and all other graphics, images or whatever may appear on these pages or throughout this blogger will be given the "proper" amount of credit it deserves with an "important" link back to their site or wherever I found it and a personal "thank-you" to the person I borrowed it from or asked to borrow it from and did recieve the proper go ahead to use it.
I know it, it sounds like I'm on my soapbox and I hate it when that happens but there is some talk about a person who shall remain nameless who is stealing badnwidth and it just makes my blood boil to see someone out there who is so dishonest or lazy enough to not even want to learn how to use the graphics, make a layout or learn the codes to or the software to do either of the mentioned above. It's like they are just lying around waiting for someone to create something they think is extra "funky" and then they are either going to do one of the three things, direct-link to it to their site thereby kick-starting the second thing into motion which is called "stealing" bandwidth and then finally laying claim to a graphic that wasn't theirs to begin with and god-forbid that they may actually know how to use a program and re-edit the graphic a little bit more to "try" and pass it off as their own. Then that makes four dishonest things that they have done other than the fact that they have infringed upon someone else's copyright and broken a law by redistributing something that was NOT theirs to begin with.
*frustrated sigh* It just bugs me is all, that's all I'm sayin'. Ya know?!?!?! Because I'm sitting here thinking, "Man, damn! Why would anyone want to do that, that's so dishonest." But you can't do anything about it legally unless you are the owner of the graphic, the html code you wrote up speifically for your graphic layout for your site or whatever it is that you created and someone else is trying to gain credit for it when the rightful credit belongs to you.
Anycrap...I'm through griping about that. It seems like that's all I do lately is gripe and I'm getting tired of that. I wanna be happy...but everytime I try something always manages to get in the way. I'm tired. Ooh poor pitiful me, hell no, not EVEN gonna happen at all. I refuse to let anything get me down right now around the holidays. Now's the time to be the most thankful...I guess I've said everything that I need to for the moment. I'm out!!
21-Nov-2001...11:55 p.m.
Leave Me A Message
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21-Nov-2001...9:28 a.m.
Good Freakin' Mornin' ya'll...*sigh* wassup?!?! Is something wrong with the volume in here...I'm just fine ya'll. Feelin' a little ducky...but not *so* damn dandy. I know I'm not making any sense. But I wanted to say good morning to my lovely little friend, Blaze !! Sorry I wasn't on last night, I couldn't keep my eyes open. AFTER...mom drug me all over hell and half of Texas...out to the mall, through Albertson's and damn it all to hell the dreaded Wal-Mart and then out to her house to clean out the 'fridge and the pantry I was beat down half dead and delirious. So I went to bed last night about 9:30 p.m. and didn't wake up this morning until 5:30 a.m. And I think I may go lay back down.
I woke up to Britney on my television screen...the new video. Then I watched TRL--which had the *Nsync on there. Can you believe it? It actually had ALL five of them on there. They did this little game called, "Dish n' Dirt", ended up being kind of cute and goofy. Lance looked hot as normal...Justin had his bad ass there...and of course they all picked on Chris's taste in clothes even though Joey got the most votes.
Speaking of Chris there's a new/old project in town, I love this site. Ya should visit her and check out what she has to offer. Don't forget to sign her guestbook though and let her know you were and give her the thumbs up for an Awesome job well done. Dude she like ROCKS...anycrap this is her Project DCCA:
Helping Hands This project is also sponsored by the
[Da Crazy Chris Alliance] =and= CK [DOT] Nu It's all for a good cause and just because you love to show your support, love and spirit. It's all in fun and games...so just check it out and let them know whether or not you support them or not. If ya have a website, take a banner or put up a text link and just plug 'em. They're awesome and they'll return the favor to you.
I found out what the new single is going to be, "Girlfriend", also the new video too which is going to be premiered on TRL New Years Eve I think is what they said.
Okay...*holds up hand*...This is where I go into a little gripe session. I don't normally gripe much when it comes to *Nsync but this time I will. I'm more like *whining* instead of griping really. But I would have rather seen "Just Don't Tell Me That" be the next single instead of "Girlfriend" but I do see where they are going with it. Maybe it's just the little nasty thoughts I get when I hear the song that makes me want it to be the next one instead of "Girlfriend"...and do I actually think Justin's getting a big head when it comes to releasing songs he's had a hand in? Becuase we all know that "Gone" come from him...it was simple and now we're moving to "Girlfriend" poor JC is being pushed out the door. NOT!! I think they are all equal...the fact remains that neither of them wrote "Just Don't Tell Me That" but I think it's one of the best songs off the album. I guess I just thought it would work right...I dunno. They know better than I do. I like "Girlfriend" and I can't wait to see the video concept brought to life whenever they figure one out, I mean they should have a few idea's floating around in their heads.
Anycrap I've got humor? Do you?!?! If ya don't then I suggest you visit this site and pick up some, it could do your world a little better. Hey! We all need to laugh and be laughed at a little. Okay seriously...I'm all finished and through for right now. It's time for me to take a nap and then get ready for whatever else I have to do. Yipes!! I haven't even checked my email at all. Perhaps I'll wander over to Lance's headquaters and check out what's new over there. So yeah...uhmm...that's it I'm outtie. Leave me a message and tell me what you're thinking.
21-Nov-2001...10:38 a.m.
Guestbook!
* �'s *
20-Nov-2001...7:57 a.m.
So okay...I couldn't sleep. So I thought what the hell, dude is this like how I know I'm finally getting into the holidays? I am freezing, I have this strange desire to listen to Christmas music AND I saw the lil' info-mercial or whatever it is type thing for *Nsync's Secret Santa better known as "*NSS" if you really want to look at it through my eyes. Which if you don't, tough!! I don't give a big rat's phooey! *grins* What did you think I was going to say? Come on...*shruggs*...I've got better taste than that. Yeesh...or at least I like to think that I do.
So there I am in my living room, standing in front of the heater so that I can warm up and magically all of a sudden, just like out of a dream sequence or something, there is *Nsync on my television screen. They are on MTV and it is the lil' "Holiday Secret Santa" thing and poor Justin's tryin' to rap unscuccessfully, Chris is gettin' violent and Joey's referrin' to women as "ho's" *lol* Haaaaaa!!!! Can't help that...had to go there. Whoop! *claps* Yep I sure did. Hate to burst your bubble...but...eh...NOT really!! Just wanted to see how many of ya'z I could actually make holla!!
Anycrap...here's a new secret and one I betcha didn't even know I'm an 80's girl
for life baby!! Ya can be a child of the 80's too just blipp on by Child of the 80's and pick up a nifty little code and be sure to sign her guestbook letting her know that you picked one up. I LOVE this site and I frequent it often...where else would I find the best 80's memories list from hell?!?!?!? *shakes head wondering where* It's all good. Just purusing the Internet...*oh!* my hand is flying to my mouth *now* did I get too brainy-ack on ya just now?!?!? Huh? Pardon me if ya will while I go on about my daily ritual...
I am an Internet Queen Shanananana nanananana *singing* Just thought I'd sing it for ya. Okay...I'll shut-up now, boy you guys can be pretty damn grumpy in the morning. Doesn't matter cuz I'm the... bitch!! Muhahahahaha...beat that mutant piss ants Oh no...oh my freak god...NOO!! Yo Blazerz wassup. Ya gettin' traffic to ya site now, baby!! Muahahahahaha I can't believe I let those damn ants overtake me. We should raise up...*thinks*...NO, rise up against them. I was just headed over to *Nsync to check up on the boys. Ya know...see what they are doin' lately besies the whole *holiday* thing.
Life can be pretty pathetic when you have *nothin'* else to do all morning except blogger and plug all your original places ya frequent, huh? Oh well, it's my blogger and if ya don't like then ya don't have to read it. You can kindly see yourself out the door and be on your way to Barney's house to play dead with him. He don't but know it but he will *be* dead if he ain't careful. *Muhahahaha!!!* I'm just a girl ...
Ya should definitely check that *points above head* site above and sign the guestbook. Funky ass layout...good attitude and wonderful spirit. Just feels funky to me...and that's what this is *all* about. *clears throat* Canna say the blonde gets *My* vote *ALL* the way!! But she *ALWAYS* did anyways before I came *out* the closet...so to speak...*laughs@ Blaze!! There's an *insider* floating around in this here lil' space, yo!! So Let It Be///Britney!!Wassup...wassup... Hey I'm a NSync Fanatic!Dude I am so *like* pluggin' this chick's clique but at the same time SUMbody needs to be so kind as to email her telling her that their latest sing is "Gone" and *not* "This I Promise You". *seriously laughing* Although she probably already knows it, but still. Anycrap...I still like the clique and the site though. The layout is funky itself...although that pic of Justin creeps me out. *yipes!* So What If I Like Britney Now? Just thought I'd say *THAT!!* Oh yeah and one more thing before I go...*for the day that is* * �'s *
20-Nov-2001...9:43 a.m.
20-Nov-2001
Nothin' like a car accident to get the holidays started off to a good start, huh? Oh, I'm sorry. I was being sarcastic. As if I needed THAT in my life right now. Just one more thing to jack the insurance rates up, huh? *sigh* I'm tired. It's 1:04 a.m. and I can not sleep, I am restless, I'm shaken up and to top it all off, my best friend Blaze isn't here to chat with me. Normally I can just like show up and she'll be here and I'll be just fine. But tonight, however, she's not here. It's okay...she's got a life. I know she does, she was probably expecting me earlier tonight. I was supposed to be home around 10 p.m. central time which is an hour behind her, but becuase of the car accident I wasn't and I didn't end up getting home until about mid-thirty hour. I am tired...I know I said that before but I seriously am. I think it's safe to say that life really sucks for me right now. I think I'm going to do a search up of some good *Nsync slash, drown myself in some Joshtinance and maybe get lost in LanceyLand.
Yay! I'm like monosexual now, so it's all good. No, seriously you should really check this girl's site out, it's AWESOME. Sign her guestbook she deserves it, she worked extra hard on the site. *sigh, yet again* Nothin' much new to tell ya except I've been visiting the usual places so I can have my daily dose of Lancey , checking the Slash Archives and learning how to give a little � I also decided that I need a little LanceJCLovin' to get me through the night. And I found the *most* Bassinating site around. Oh My Lordy...somebody say, "Can I order up a Lancey..." What have I learned about Lance? Hmm let me think...I know not to call him *Nsync, his name is Lance. Apparently he gets a little aggrivated when you call him *Nsync because he was born with a name and the name is obviously Lance. You know, I don't blame him though. All right...I'm through. That's it *waves* it's been a nice night. I must try to calm down an dget some rest now. More later...in my "oh-so-wonderfully-boring life".
20-Nov-2001...2:19 a.m.