| Poems! |
| Suicide!! |
| I was standing in the bedroom when you came home, I had blood on my hands but maybe you didnt know, My mascara was streaming down along with the tears, Thick and blackened just like the years, You didnt ask, did you care? Do you think you could help me by leaving me there? A gun to my head, Tangled up in my hair, Do you think it was stupid missing the freedom I lost? Did you think you could walk out and not pay the cost? I needed you more than I needed my life, I counted the steps to the kitchen to get the knife, I walked the floor and played with the trigger, Would you never return? That was what I figured. I stood in the doorway a cord as my noose, Wondering if I could do it, or would I make an excuse? To bad im not selfish, too bad I cant die, I cant leave you alone, Cant answer why, You dont notice im here, your a broken record to me, I dont know what lifes about But this isnt where I should be, I could leave in the night like the sun, disappear, But I dont wanna fade, Dont wanna be here, I wanna be loved, Not be abused. I'm tired of being the cure, to your fear of having no love, I wanna be the addiction, Something you can get enough of, Cant you see im not the one, cant you set me free? Why cant you say goodbye, Why cant you let me be? Instead you leave me trapped, You give me no space, I hate you so much, I dont wanna see your face. Why do you condemn me to death, And torture me like a witch, Why dont you just burn me at the stake, Heartless fucking bitch, I cant take it any longer. My breathe is going thin. You wanna take me down..... And I know your gonna win!! |