Animaniacs Fan: dunno how to respond to that
projectlily82: dont worry about it
projectlily82: neither do i
Animaniacs Fan: how can i not worry? you're my friend
& you're upset
projectlily82: im supposed to be upset
Animaniacs Fan: i know
projectlily82: the fact that i can put it out there for all of
my friends to see shows that im not in enough trouble to
worry about
projectlily82: its also a flag for her to see
Animaniacs Fan: well, that's good
projectlily82: i almost broke
Animaniacs Fan: oh?
projectlily82: i almost broke and cried
projectlily82: i wont give her the satisfaction
Animaniacs Fan: have you spoken to em?
projectlily82: i wont let her hurt me in a way she can
understand
projectlily82: shes been here every day since she
dumped me, except when i dissappeared to cynthiana
tuesday
projectlily82: and we talked on the phone then
projectlily82: its not like being broke up
projectlily82: but it hurts like being broke up
projectlily82: with pain in my face over and over and
over
projectlily82: a burning behind my eyes
Animaniacs Fan: why is she there everyday?
projectlily82: because she thinks im her best friend, and
thats what i'll take right now
projectlily82: because i love her
Animaniacs Fan: i've been there
Animaniacs Fan: sux
projectlily82: yeah
projectlily82: last time i did this i said screw it real fast
projectlily82: and bailed on the situation
Animaniacs Fan: nod
projectlily82: this time...i cant give up
projectlily82: i cant cry
projectlily82: i wont cry because im not done fighting
Animaniacs Fan: cry when she'sv not there
projectlily82: i cant
Animaniacs Fan: it's good to let it out
projectlily82: i would if i could
projectlily82: she wants me to call her
projectlily82: i think she should be home by now
projectlily82: should i call her now?
projectlily82: should i wait?
projectlily82: what should i say?
projectlily82: should i leave?
projectlily82: should i go out?
projectlily82: the cold rain might feel good
projectlily82: i might pretend its tears running down my
face
projectlily82: im so fucking tragic
projectlily82: tell me to shut up
Animaniacs Fan: no
Animaniacs Fan: stop
Animaniacs Fan: don't call her
Animaniacs Fan: she should understand that you need
time to heal
projectlily82: backdoor?
projectlily82: mom letting the dog out
projectlily82: i almost thought
projectlily82: *sigh*
projectlily82: i dont know how im gonna finsh finals at
this rate
projectlily82: next week it gonna be hell
Animaniacs Fan: you can do it
Animaniacs Fan: just don't see her
Animaniacs Fan: don't call
projectlily82: ya wanna know whats really sick and
twisted?
projectlily82: she deserves my pain
projectlily82: she deserves to see what she created
Animaniacs Fan: yeah
projectlily82: thats why
projectlily82: thats why i'll probably call
projectlily82: its just a matter of time before i break and
give again
