projectlily82: the people the furthest away always ask
this
projectlily82: *whimper snuggle*
kandravamp: *lots and lots of hugglies*
kandravamp: i wish i weren't so sleepy
projectlily82: lmao
kandravamp: damn cold medicine
kandravamp: makes me feel disidentified
projectlily82: lmao
kandravamp: like, am i really sitting here typing to you
kandravamp: or am i just dreaming
projectlily82: i generally like that feeling
kandravamp: maybe i'm schizophrenic
projectlily82: but when i add pain it isnt quite as fun
kandravamp: i don't like that i don't feel like i'm really in
control
kandravamp: <-- a bit of a control freak
kandravamp: as a side note, phanku and i are doing ok
kandravamp: but i think something bad happened to his
aunt
projectlily82: eeww
kandravamp: have you talked to em lately?
projectlily82: of course
projectlily82: i just got off the phone with her
kandravamp: what was said?
projectlily82: hrmm
projectlily82: lemme see if i recall correctly
projectlily82: "hello"
projectlily82: "hello"
projectlily82: "are you gonna get that work done for
school?"
projectlily82: "i dunno .. . . . . . .i think i might stay home
from school tomorrow...im really tired"
projectlily82: "are you to stoned to do it?"
projectlily82: "no im too tired"
projectlily82: "do you still want to see me tomorrow"?
projectlily82: "yea i'll see you in the morning"
projectlily82: morning?"
projectlily82: "sometime tomorrow, when i get up"
projectlily82: "well ive got class at 5, so you'll have to
come before that if you want to see me"
projectlily82: "i'll see you later bebe"
projectlily82: "goodnight"
projectlily82: "goodnight"
projectlily82: CLICK
projectlily82: *sigh*
projectlily82: *whimper*
projectlily82: *closes eyes and begins to type "why"*
kandravamp: you need to let it out
projectlily82: wait
kandravamp: and maybe not keep seeing her if you
aren't together anymore
projectlily82: i just had this conversation
projectlily82: want to read it?
projectlily82: ;-)
kandravamp: ok
projectlily82 wants to send file C:\Documents and
Settings\Owner\My Documents\My
Videos\Naruto\thoughts\oofy1.htm.
kandravamp received C:\Documents and
Settings\Owner\My Documents\My
Videos\Naruto\thoughts\oofy1.htm.
kandravamp: heh
projectlily82: you remember oofy dont you?
kandravamp: yeah
projectlily82: the knight?
projectlily82: ex knight
projectlily82: bladesinger now
kandravamp: ahh
kandravamp: you would feel better if you let it out
kandravamp: i know you don't want to give her the
satisfaction, but it is gonna eat you up inside
kandravamp: do you want to give her that satisfaction?
to know that she got to you so much?
projectlily82: i dont understand
kandravamp: if she causes you to be physically sick
because you don't want to let it out, she wins
projectlily82: if i dont fight for us then i lose
projectlily82: if there is a chance and i dont fight for it,
what good an i as a human being?
kandravamp: you can fight without making yourself sick
projectlily82: you know i was really happy today
kandravamp: good, you should be happy :D
projectlily82: keyword was
projectlily82: i wasnt happy sitting with 4 women in a
resturant earlier
projectlily82: i wasnt happy till i got home and prepared
to see emily today
projectlily82: and then emily walked in and left
projectlily82: and i made her feel bad about it
projectlily82: then i almost broke and cried
projectlily82: i tried to send her away
projectlily82: and she would leave
projectlily82: she held me, comforted me, and i wasnt
crying
projectlily82: if theres a chance to be happy, i have to
fight
projectlily82: i dont think its making me physically sick
anymore
projectlily82: i think i remmebered to eat
projectlily82: no...no i dint
projectlily82: i only ate at the restuarant
projectlily82: i bought a nice girl lunch because shes on
hard times
kandravamp: that was nice of you
kandravamp: i want you to feel better
kandravamp: and be happy
projectlily82: the fucking waiter was a dick to me
because i was sitting with some beautiful women. 4 of
them and me.
projectlily82: wouldnt give me a straw or get me refills
kandravamp: what a dick
kandravamp: jealous
projectlily82: lmao
kandravamp: hey hun, i gotta get to bed
projectlily82: the women thought it was funny
projectlily82: i got up and got my own refills
kandravamp: i gotta teach in the morning and i'm about
to fall over
projectlily82: night
kandravamp: hugglies
kandravamp: feel better, ok?
projectlily82: im working on it
kandravamp: good :D i'll be on tomorrow when i can
kandravamp: get some sleep
projectlily82: by the end of the month... she'll either
break her pride and ask for me or i'll be with someone
else
kandravamp: either way, i just want you to be happy
projectlily82: thats all thats keeping us apart is fucking
pride
