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Apocalypse

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   The Apocalypse in near, the end is near, fear, fear, FEAR!!! Mwuhahahaha. This is my little thought archive. Let the meyhem begin...now! Also, if you were wondering if I ever talked about a certain subjects just press F-Ctrl. Thats the F key and your keyboard and Ctrl is the most lower and left key on your keyboard, unless you are using a macintosh, in that case set your fingers on fire. Also, type in the subject and press enter when that box comes up. Enjoy!

     October 31, 2004-Happy Halloween. I don't know what to do... I have a week to make this huge list of cakes for my mom. Should I type it tonight or sleep? I think I should sleep. I could type it tomarrow. She is going to pay me. I'm probably going to make some money this week. I have work saturday and am probably going to make money for these bels and cake list this week. Yay. I still want a 6 string bass... My dad wants a hallow body guitar. I hit my first animal driving today. I still feel bad for it. It was a raccoon. It was like 6 and of course that means it was dark. I was driving up the mountain, and I saw it like, a millionth of a second before it got hit. I tried turning, but I wasn't bout to swerve off the road for it. I tried stopping.... Not intime. Obviously not successfully... I tried my hardest, still feel bad. I don't know what to do, sleep, or stay awake. Lol. It's a hard choice. I'm going to sleep, bye.

     October 30, 2004-Today I have had nothing but good news. I can't believe it. None if it is really good for me, just for other people, but it is good. Some of it is too personal, well, not personal, just private. I could say that about anything to. I am being to broad. Why not? Lol. If I want to be broad I will be. I'm watching a movie. It's that movie with the vampires, you know... Where the girl gets biten, but while they are checking if shes dead she bites the guy, and then he doesn't know if he is or isn't a vampire. It's good. I know you have seen it, but watch it again. I'm being broad. It's fun. Wow. Even th preist in the movie is wearing a trench coat, lol. Freakin awesome. I want to buy someone this thing I saw in this commercial. It's made by Leapfrog. It is a learning table. I am getting it for some as a wedding gift. F*** toasters. Leapfrog bitches! Lol. Cingular kicks ass. I'm glad my cell phone is cingular. My fish is a pirate. He has one eye that is black he can't see out of and one eye that is normal. I want to hang drywall with my fish. It's my number one goal in life. That is enough to me. Now good bye.

     October 29, 2004-Hey.   The weather is so crappy right now. It's just a constant rain for like 12 hours now. It is kinda neat. Wow. I just noticed... I have to walk home every day next week. That is good in the weight loss category, lol. I'm so obsessed with it right now too... I want to be thin. I'm finally getting there. I think I proved to god I'd do anything to be thin. I would do anything to be thin. I think I'd take a hatchet to my stomach if it wouldn't scar, lol. I feel like going into the porn industry... I'll make a Porn called Vietnam Nasties 3: Seach and Rescue. 4 would be Vietnam Nasties: The Search for Black Beards Treasure. 1 is plain Vietnam Nasties. 2 would be ummmm... Vietnam Nasties 2: Under Heavy Fire. I'm definitally tired. More tired than a tire, so bye.

     October 28, 2004-Hi. I ate a lot and only gained a pound. Also, my friend called me crying today. She was shaken up so bad. I can't get into it, because I promised I wouldn't. I never break my promises. Yes! This poll administrator says Kerry will win. He said that 48% isn't a good place in the polls for Bush to be. 2% is for Nader. People decide against it in the booth. Then they will go Kerry because Nader and Kerry have a lot of the same ideas for the country. Holy shit! John Kerry was in a band. The Electras! Shit! They are good. He was the bassist! He was awesome too! Damn. He is my hero now. Kerry is a stones throw from god to me. Heres a link. I like John Kerry's bass skills. John Kerry is a rocker. That rules. Play bass, become president. Sounds almost like a snickers commercial. Wow. This is creepy. He was 16 when he joined. I'm 16. He's a bassist, I'm a bassist. What the hell... Lol. What if I became president? It's crazy. I'm oing to get going now, lol. Adios.

     October 27, 2004-Hi. I lost more weight today. I'm so happy to be losing weight like this, and eating. I just got some whole grain oatmeal. That is supposed to be better for you. I think it will be. It just looks it. But, you need to put a cup of water in this one, and only half a cup of outmeal. The other stuff I was eating was 2/3rds of a cup of water, and 1 packet which I think was a half cup. That means I get to eat more. It smells good too. I can't wait until tomarrow morning. It will be a good meal. I'm going to sleep now. That was I'll wake up , eat breakfast, and be fully energized. So good night.

     October 26, 2004-Hey. My metabolism makes no sense... I ate fried chicken today, and played video games most the day. I did like, the fattest thing you can do... I can't believe I lost 3 pounds. It's insane. I did however workout right when I got home. It is sweet. I'm eating breakfast every day. I eat one large bown of outmeal every morning. I like, jump started my metabolism. I'm get healthier slowly. It may be a while. It's obvious I'm going to make it to 135 soon. 3 weeks maybe less. It rules. Everything rules. Kerry is ahead in the polls. In a Republican controled media... It's insane. I didn't work on the new intro today. I was busy playing Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas. It is an awesome game. You can do anything. It's insane. I know I keep saying that but it is insane. I'm going to go now. Adios.

     October 25, 2004-Hi. I typed up and added 3 new reports to Logic. I'll be getting another tattoo around christmas. Yes. I should be getting another piercing too. I was thinking about getting cartilage piercings. I friend watched a bunch of scary movies and now shes scared out of her mind. It's cute, lol. I got a lot of the rough edges out of the new intro. It wont be up for a while. Trust me. It will be a while. I probably wont have everything ready for 2 months. Once its dont this site will look professional. It will be sweet. I think I did about all the work I'm doing tonight. I had to make about ummm... 390 labels for my mom. Beautiful, isn't it? Well... It's time to go. Adios.

     October 24, 2004-Hi. I worked on the new intro a bit. I like it. It's really neat. It will be a demonic voodoo doll once I'm done. Right now it kind of looks like oscer from sesame street holding a knife. It's sad but funny. It is neat though, lol. I was talking to my friend and they accidentally hung up and haven't called back. I think there phone died. Maybe they got sick of my and hung up, lol. Either way I'll talk to them tommarow anyway, lol. Wow. I'm tired as heck. I'm going to sleep. I need to. It's all, woah. Bye.

     October 23, 2004-Hey. I burned a cup today. It burned into little x's. It makes perfect sence you see. Well... The plastic is construct of a mesh like substance and when it burns it burned into its basic chicken wire shape. Wait! Thats bullshit. It's made in a mold. I hate when I'm wrong. I'm wrong a lot. I basically do not trust my decisions. I stuck a whole controller in my friend gios wallet. I think thats horrible. I said. It's a blind trade. Mwuhahahaha. I traded him a fig newton for a cd player. My cell phone gets gradually hotter until you could iron a shirt with it. I could probably make a grilled cheese sandwich. Mmmmm... I use internet limgo a lot, but I hate it. Anything offline is angering. My shop teacher flipped out on someone for using internet lingo, lol. I must go now, so adios.

     October 22, 2004-Hi. My knew I could get the last piece of evidence to support my claim. Now. Follow along. When you leave a tank of fish sit long enough... It's gets stagnant. That means it gets all discusting   But... What happens when a baby is born? They get all different colors coming out with them... Maybe green. I know that color comes out of them after birth, lol. But, yeah. I think the trick to the fountain of youth was it was baby juices. I also think baby juices are water. That's why water evaporates. It is natively baby fluids, just crammed inside a little portion of it's-self. Isn't that creative, and beautiful. Very beautiful. I must go now though. Oh yeah. I also got 2 new articled for Logic too... Not today yet. Maybe Sunday. Well, bye.

     October 21, 2004-Hey. I think if you let water sit long enough, it turns into the water from the fountain of youth. I mean. If you let it sick enough it can give you dysentery. Then you can get thinner. So I figure you would get hella thinner if you let it sit longer. Then it reverses your age a bit if you let it sit longer. Maybe I'll test it. Lol. Someday I'll test it. It will be a family airloom. It's all... Here is a vial of magic water. Use it when your testicles start shrivelling into raisens or they drop to your knees. Wow. This is like the least amount of people I've ever seen online at once. 8. Lol. 9. Yeah! That is all... Oh well. I think It's time for football. No. It's too late. Eh. I will be going now. Adios. Good day. Don't forget about the manitees.

     October 20, 2004-Hi. I played football today. That really was a great 20 dollars to spend. I probably played it for 3 hours. I had a crazy game. My created team vs the bengals. I won 63-60. The only thing that won it for my were my 2 point conversions. I want to dress like a pirate and drink rum with a hobo. I think that would be fun. I'm starting to get skinny. I can tell my body build is pretty nice under the fat. My abs extend slightly past my ribs. My ribs stick out the sides. It's the shape I always wanted. I think I may drink some chai tea tommarow morning. I need a little relaxer. Since I'm too young to comsume alcohal... Lol. Chai Tea is good. Looks like Adult Swim on Cartoon Network got a new show. It's called read or die. Neat. Dammit! The grudge looks so awesome. I can't wait. Then the day after that I get Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas. Yes! I only have 50 bucks. I need 50 for Smackdown! vs Raw. but I figured it out. I garrantee I'm working this week or the next. I'm trading in fablke, and the store around here is taking 20 off for every new game you trade in. So Grand Theft Auto will cost me 30. That leaves me with 20. Add 25 from work. Thats 45. I have 5 follars extra sitting around. Weeee! I can do it. I must be going now. Good bye.

     October 19, 2004-Hey. I can't wait to see The Grudge! It's going to be awesome. Wow. This stuff sitting next to me.... It's weird. Germ-X. Oh. It's hand sanitizer. Just like all those big shot rich people use, lol. That new Grand Theft Auto is going to be awesome. It's every white boys dream. To be a black man. Lol. I'm really wiped out. I think I'm going to call it a night. It's like, all woah. Adios.

     October 18, 2004-Hi. I just added 4 new articles to Logic. Check them out. They are good. Everything from midgets to illegal immigrants. It's great. I'm wiped out though. My stomach hasn't recoved from my work out yesterday. The Grudge looks very awesome. I'm so going to see that with my girlfriend sometime. It's a horror movie. That means I'll be holding on to her for dear life, lol. Maybe its just because shes comfortable. Lol. I shall make my leave now! Mwuhahahahaha! Bye.

     October 17, 2004-Hi. I'm having troubles. My nail polish turned into tar. I'm spreading it on my nails like tar as well... I dont have a mini roller to use... I'm probably going to wait for it to dry and file it down a bit, lol. Once my right hand dries I'll put it on my left. With the tar you need to put it on in two layers. One bumpy ass layer in which shall never be exposed... Than a layer as smooth as possible, it sucks. Well. I'm done spreading my tar, lol. It feels just like tar too. It wont chip for like 3 weeks though, lol. it's concentrated nail polish. I even watered it down which is the sad thing. It barely helped. I'm starting work soon on the new layout. I hope everyone is happy, lol. Grrrr. I wonder if its normal t be able to push your ribs in a little. ouch. It kind of hurt. I gotta wait till tommarow or something to sand down my nail polish a bit. I hate doing them this late. I'me going to need to stay up like an hour more. Eh. It still sucks, grrr... You know whats funny? Nothing! Leave me alone. Actually. Retards are funny. The way they talk all slow and have really thick glasses. Also how thei eyes are small. Lol. I must be retarded. I can't put nail polish on. Well... I can when its not rock candy. Lol. Good day my friend, and many happy days to follow hopefully. Or not! That's about as good as my nails are going to get. They look like coal. Not that bad. Okay. Yes that bad. It looks like I boiled them, lol. Well. See ya.

     October 16, 2004-Hey. I'm trying to cheer people up. I think I did it. Yes. I did it. Woooo! Now I think I rule. I think I rule a lot. I affected someone today, yes! I'm in a good mood right now. I'm not in good enough of a mood to try riding a bull, but I'm in a good enough mood to ride a taurus. Figure out what I meant. It works on many levels. I'm off today. I'm not at my funniest. My funniest would be ummm... Wait, I'm not funny. We had technical difficulties. Someone is watching me update! It's creepy. They can see what I type after I do it. I'm definitally going to remake this website sometime. I'm thinking instead of a bloody Mortal Kombat style "krypt" layout I may go with a more botched surgery layout. My layout screams bitch bitch bitch, lol. My next layout should scream cut cut cut. CUT CUT CUT! Yay. An orgasmic arrangements of cut skin and blood. Weeee. Eh. I'd rather pet a cat, speaking of which. I will be making my leave now. I'm going to pet my cat. Bye.

     October 15, 2004-Hi. Wow. I had 2 tests today out of 4 classes. That sucks. Vo-tech we almost never have tests. The only class I have tests in I didn't today was history. I'm so tired, lol. I'l probably be asleep till 10-12. I can't wait to talk to me girl friend. Shes so great. Like, shes so caring and accepting. I still cant believe how lucky I got. She not a slut like some of my ex's have been. I'm a huge slut thoguh, lol. I'm only a slut with my girlfriend, and when people want me to try on clothes. I know this is a rather short update, but I'm thinking of giving in and going to sleep, lol. I'm really thinking of it. I don't know though. Nope. Sike, sike sike. Okay, double sike, no triple sike, Actually... Good night, lol. Before I die of exhaustion. PS. I ate squid today. Also. Kitten terrorists meow allah is the most popular phrase entered into a search engine to find this site, lol. This sites popularity is definitaly picking up. This site maddox.xmission.com, oh so boldly called The best page in the universe kind of inspired me. He said how his site started with like 5 readers a month. I thought, wow, that would suck. I looked though. I started out with about that much, lol. I really do enjoy his articles. They rule. I like people who express there opinions without being rude. In my mind he isn't rude at all, some people might beg to differ. Ooo... That reminds me of flipper. That dolphin ruled. I remember how it would play with that kid. I must've been 5 the last time I saw it. I'm going to sleep now, so adios.

     October 14, 2004-Okay. I almost forgot to update today. I fell asleep a lot. I basically am trying a new prong in my attack on my weight problem, lol. I decided after pooling together my resourses of data... Pack in as much veggies as you can, lol. I basically at at 4, and worked out at 8-10 while talking to people online. It basically makes working out as painless as possible, and it works too. I stay entertained, and my heart rates up. Wrestling was actually pretty good today. I really liked it. I can't wait until the game comes out. Oh yeah. Look for a lot of content added to Logic soon. Anywhere between sunday and monday. 3 new reports. Just so you know, a lot of the stuff you might not agree with, may be a joke. So read those with an open mind. It's pretty obvious when I go way overboard its a joke. I have very few extremist style thoughts. I just believe in a right to radical self expression. Sometimes I think though. What will this site be like in 10 years? Lol. By then I'll be out of vo-tech, have a job as a graphic artist. Might be making some big money, lol. I'm not a very money driven person, but having a lot of good toys to play with on the computer is a plus. My goal though is to someday be good enopugh at what I do that I make people wonder how I do it. I realize I'm already better with a computer than like, 90% of people. Lots just don't try. I try pretty darn hard. In 2006 I'm going to be thin, and have a certificate in Graphic Design. You just watch, lol. Rawr. Quark is simpler now. I figured out how to make basic shapes pretty easy. They gave my a project to do with it already. For these posters we have all over the vo-tech. They have the year, every shop, every student of the quarter. There is literally 30 of them. I was put in charge of the year. If I tried to explain how to do this most people would be confused. It's horrible too, because its just 2 triangles and 2004-2005 written in the middle. I told you. Quark is easier now, but everything is still needlessly complicated. Making a pantone color, horrible. A pantone color is a universal color, which mean any computer, any printer, anything will print out or display this color exactly how it is supposed to be. I told my girlfriend I'd be asleep by now, lol. Sorry hunny, soon. Anyway, I had to take a shower. I worked out hard today. I have a fan blowing on my to dry my hair. This isn't healthy. I am holding a giant fan up to dry my hair. I was typing with my left hand. Lol. I'm done now. There. It's on my shoulder. I have a lot less typos with my left hand than with both. It's harder to capitalize though. There. I put the behemoth fan down. I'm going to sleep now. I'm so tired i could put a candle out with the blood in my eyes. Right now, I'd definitally be mistaken for wearing eye shadow. I look like I have a black eye. It's my glasses. They are scratched up so bad, lol. I clean them too much. Eh. Time to sleep. Auf Wiedersehen. I think thats how you say good bye in german. Au revoir, french, adeus, portuguese... I'm done. Good bye, lol.

     October 13, 2004-Hi. I think you need to look at RAM. I am getting into the business of making joke sites. I've also made an article for all to read. It's abou bush, so you should like it. This is all an attept to get some people hyping the site, I wont lie. Plus it was fun as hell making the Joke site. You should have had the option to go to Logic. The new page on the site. It'll have more content eventually. This site will have more sometime in the future. Oh yeah. That presidential debate is soon! Yeah! No war talks. Thank god. They've really been pissing me off. Ooh! I get to talk to my girlfriend in about an hour. Her and her working spirit. It's crazy. I wish I had it. I figured out I usually act like an 8 year old girl. That is my natural instinct. I'm not able to control it, lol. Watch... Boys are icky! See. Tisk tisk tisk. This site has definitally been here for 15 months. A year and a quarter. Thats sweet. I'll be going now. I'll be back tommarow though, lol. Adios.

     October 12, 2004-Hey. I just did a ton of work for this site, lol. You will see some new stuff up. Trust me. It's for the best. A few new pages are up. In technicality I'd say 6 as of now. It depends. I really worked on this pretty hard. Hope you people like this update. Quite a while. Wow. I've been tired lately. It's crazy. Shit. Supreme justice my ass. You will find out tommarow, lol. Hmmm... Today was pretty un-eventful. Didn't do much. Learning this program at vo-tech called Quark. It is the most boring thing ever... I have never been more bored at vo-tech. Doing nothing would be less boring, lol. It's sad. Everything in that program is needlessly complicated as well. It's hilarious. The level one students look at us level two students like, what the hell is that? It's like I'm standing there with a glowing green anal probe about to get them. The funny thing is, it's a pain in the ass to learn quark, and next year they will have too. So quark is indeed like an anal probe. It's my anal probe towards getting a job. Lol. Everyonbe must endure at least one of these. I chose a field where you have 4. Adobe Illustrator, Adobe Photoshop, Quark, and Macromedia. My anal probes have names, so there! Well. I'm going to get going, so see ya.

     October 11, 2004-Hi. This having a girlfriend thing is f***ing awesome. Someone that actually cares about me, oh my. Lol. It'sgreat. Shes so caring and understanding. A lot of my ex's lacked that. Well, just 1. lol. I only regret my last relationship. It's crazy. I am in such a good mood I actually did my homework! I even did some extra work around the site. You wont find out for two days. Wow. This game I play Starwars: Battlefront times just perfectly that it gives my enough time to pee inbetween games. It also ends up I have to pee after every game, lol. It's weird how perfect it times, lol. Wow. my grandmother is coming back from the hospital tommarow. This sucks. Now shes going to be calling for me every 5 minutes. Eh. I'm going to get going. I'll say something funny tommarow. bye.

     October 10, 2004-Well.... It took a while, but I finally got another girlfriend. The thing that made it take so long was I wasnt really looking, lol. I found a great person though. Shes extremely sweet and caring. Shes also very understanding. Those are the only qualities I require, lol. Wow. I'm barely 150 on a monday. That means I could be like, 145 soon. By friday actually. I'm thinking of a bunch of stuff I could do for the site.I'm probably going to redo the template of the site a bit. Just make it look better. Nothing to impressive. Make the blook a little better. Use a better font on the sides. I'm not to crazy on the font. I was just sort of rushed on the template. I'm probably going to organize some thoughts better. You know, make a new pasge for those. I have told a lot of my opnions on certain topics, but I'm so egotistical I think people actually care about my opinion, so I am going to order them. I'm also going to try out some html. I'm slowly learning a lot of it. Someday I'll hopefully know a lot of it. I'm going to go experiment with the html thing I got. See ya.

     October 9, 2004-Hey. I can't wait to see shaun of the dead tomarrow. It's going to be fun. Lots of fun. Oh my. Googles and shmoogles of fun. Smeegles and beagles of fun. Break ups are rough. Two of my friends just broke up. they are taking it pretty rough, to say the least. I don't know what to say to them to make them feel better. I noticed a lot less people have been IMing me. I must be being a huge asshole to them, lol. I guess I'm just going to have to become emo. Lol. I'm just joking. I preffer heavy metal over ummm... bitching. I do a great deal of bitching though, lol. I'm just not very optimistic I guess... It's hard to not eat chips. I have to keep my-self from it. Thats a nice way to keep a few pounds off I don't need. I can't wait untill tommarow.! Rawr! lol. I'm changing the message on my cell phone to make people think they are beign put on hold, lol. So I'm goign to go find a good song for that. Adios.

     October 8, 2004-Hi. I'm doing pretty good. Going to see Shaun of the Dead sunday. Finally, lol. I've so wanted to see it. It's been a while. My friend got a macho man poster... Sad, lol. I'm having fun talking to people. Weeee... I like talking to people. No school tommarow! Errr.... No school monday, woooo! That's good. I wonder why every week at vo-tech I get these fliars for The Silo. I'm kind of hyper. Okay. I'm really hyper. I need to go, lol. Work tommarow. See ya. Adios.

     October 7, 2004-Hey. I like pizza. I had pizza with ham on it today. My metabolism is picking up. I ate everyday. I didn't drop below 150. Next week is dieting again. I may drop to 149 by tomarrow. I'm not sure. I gained 5 pounds on the weekend. It's cuz I caved and ate chips. A weekend without chip, and I gain 3. So technically I lost 5 pounds while eating everyday. Also since I'm sick I've been drinking more. A gallon of icy tea has about as many calories as a big mac. Of course it has no fat. So it gets burned of in minutes. A big mac can take days depending on your metabolism. I'm drinking green tea, so thats about 1120 calories per gallon. I'll just say 3/4th of that is 850 calories. So today I had 1100 calories. That isn't much during the day. That is like, 1/3 of what you should have. Plus I worked out today. Thats about an hour and a half of working out. I'll probably do a few push ups before I sleep. That way my heart rate stays a little higher in my sleep. I feel so great compared to before. I have so much energy. My concentration is better. Although it still sucks, lol. When are they going to release the online information for Smackdown! vs. Raw? Thats the new wrestling game coming to the playstation 2 on November 2nd. It's going to be online too. That will be sweet. They are releasing the information on IGN about the online modes and stuff this week. They probably will sunday, seeing as it's still part of the week and they probably will get a few million more hits before then, lol. If this site ever gets a million hits I'll eat my cell phone, lol. While making a long distance call, and piercing my own penis, lol. That was a joke. I'd never pierce my own penis. I must be going. I basically stopped talkign to the people online just to update, lol. Well... Adios.

     October 6, 2004-Hi. I don't feel good. ????I don't feel good at all... I am going to be sleeping on the bus there and back, lol. People are so going to be poking me, lol. It's sad. I'm really tired. I just like, almost fell asleep and my speaker woke me up, lol. Lol. I sure could go for a scottish meat pie. I went to to the renaissance fair. I ate a scottish meat pie. It's 30 million times better than chicken pot pie. I saw a midget playing a drum. Just one drum. It was a rather large drum. They played thunderstruck by AC/DC. I thought that was awesome. It was awesome. I bought like 50 bucks in jewelry. Weeee... My dad might take me one weekend. I want to go again, lol. I think it would be fun. I would get a bunch of weapons this time, lol. I'm going now, so adios.

     October 5, 2004-Hey. My eye hurts. One hurts, lol. That isn't healthy. Just remember, jesus loves you, and doesn't want you to die. Bush wants you to die. Thats why I say jesus loves you more than bush. Even if he isn't your savior you can agree... He isn't the reason the worlds slowly falling into a nuclear holocaust. I can actually do push ups easily now. Wow. Why chest feels weird, but awesome. I just did 60 of them and am not tired. No sweat either. Lol. I think those are going to tone my chest so great. LIke. In a month I'll be tone. I figure at least 135 pounds. Who knows. I'm around 150, so yeah. 15 pounds is reasonable. Especially since I just did 60 push ups without sweating, lol. Well... I'm going to go dream of a thin me, lol. Adios.

     October 4, 2004-Hi. Everyone knows I am not one for directness, but I am one for honesty. Heh. I don't backdown from anything. It's not a question of the balls I have, It's just a question of size. Lol. Oh well. If I were more irish I'd riverdance. Not because it wouyld be hilarious, but because I'd be too drunk to know how dumb I look. Wow. This chick on wrestling kissed a retard... That's sad. Very sad. I don't think I have broncitis. I got the chills so bad today at school. I was wrapped in my black leather trench coat and was still cold. That isn't right. I am cold now, and its like 90 degrees in my room. It doesn't feel it, but thats the average temperature in my room, lol. I have to go. Adios.

     October 3, 2004-Hi. How are you? I'm still sick. Isn't that awesome? I'm so sick. It sucks. I still have that crush. One of the only things that keep me going. Lol. Wow. My hair is so soft. It's crazy. I don't know how either. I wash it for a long amount of time. That's how I guess. I heard the wrongest thing. I think it was 2 ninjas tied together to make a bigger ninja! That's beautiful. It makes me smile, like a person, who is happy.... yeah. I went there... totally. Weeee... I want to go to this GWAR concert near me, but I have no money, no ride, and no tickets... Not to mention my lack of a licence and a car. Well, technically I have a car. Once I get my licence. Acura Integra! W00t. Lol. I'm so tired. It's insane, because I'm sick. Yeah! I rule. Are you down with the sickness? Apperantly I am. Mwuhahahaha! Well... Time to go and pass out over there, in my bed. Adios.

     October 2, 2004-Hey. I'm coughing so bad. Buy me a coughin. Zing... That wasn't that good. Coffin, coughin, aye. Lol. I probably have broncitis or something, lol. I just keep coughing and coughing. I better get better. I want to flirt! Lol. It's sad how much I drank today. You know whats sadder? My friend jesses eyebrow piercing got infected. He squeezed it and blood shout out onto his face. My flem tastes sweet. I cough up nector now apparently. Yum, lol. I'm really tired. Wow. I still cant stop thinking about this girl, shes so cute. Hopeflly she really does like me, lol. That would be so depressing if she doesn't. I'd just like, Give up on life, lol. I'm thinking of sleeping. I don't know. It's pretty late. I'm going to go. Adios

     October 1, 2004-Hi. A lot of people think kerry did good yesterday. But some still say bush did better... F*** them both. All I care about is the girl I like, lol. We had to stare at each other on average a hundred times today. I caught her a bunch of times, like, our eyes met every 10 seconds, lol.   And we smiled just as long. I really do feel weird about her. It's new to me. These feeling I have... It's like, a warmness. Lol. Maybe it's satan festering inside me with deep disires for carnal pleasures... Or maybe it's a fever. I am sick. My throat is messed up, and my eyes are too... It's probably my extreme dieting. Who knows, lol. I haven't had Mc Donalds in like 6 months. Lol. That's un-american, lol. I still feel weird. It feels good though. This is someone I don't think I could hate. I have the ability to hate everyone, but she seems so innocent. I've been getting cold easier lately... I dunno why... Honestly... People are sitting behind me. They better not touch my ass. Lol. Jesse just crushed a cup and it waited until like 10 seconds after he removed his hand to fall over and die. My eyes feel like satan raped them. It sucks. If satan wants to rape my eyes can't he choose to do it on a better day? LOL! Hahahha. I just did that thing. Talk to the hand cuz the ears aint listening. Hahaha! Well... Time to go. Bye.

     September 30, 2004-You go Kerry. He forgot to say about the flip flopping, something a lot of the republicans don't get... The situation in Iraq is constantly changing. You need to have a resolution in mind. George bush didn't understand! It's not flip flopping! I's called being smart enough to change your mind when stuff happens. Why do we need new nuclear weapons? We don't. Our nukes will kill a notion, lol. They are ten times as deadly as the ones we droped on nagasaki and hiroshima. All I can really say is.... Bush got served! It should be on the headlines tommarow. If I were president I'd work on getting ciggerettes taxes dropped a bit. I mean, why tax the poor? A lot of rich people dont give a shit about money. It's people in the lower and middle class that smoke more, because they lead more stressful lives, worrying day in and day out about their monitary status. Really though... I don't smoke, but people that do need a break. They can't even smoke inside restarants and bars... lol! That sucks... I'd also, if there are, take american taxes off oil. I'm not sure if there are taxes on oil. If we do have taxes on it, it could drop it like 12 cents a gallon, lol. I'm 150 pounds. The first day of my life that I'm an average weight... It was sweet. But my stomach shrank today. It hurt like a bitch. I am pretty sure it did. My friend said thats probably what my sharp pains were. I would have to agree. That means my appetite is worse, lol. Well... Adios time.

     September 29, 2004-Heh. I'm 151 pounds. Weeee! Hahaha! In the process of losing weight I am losing curves and gaining them, lol. It's a lot of curves there too, lol. 49 pounds of curves. I'm like garranteed to reach 150 this week. My goal weight.... I didn't think I could do it. I honestly didn't. Less than 3 months too. Maybe in 3 more I'll be hot, lol. We will see... Hmmm... I was rather mean to stacey today. I didn't talk to her when she visited tech. I just stared. She left within 10 minutes of my arriving. That was probably the most pissed I've been in like... 3 months. See... I'm a pretty mellow dude. Kinda... My friend stacey really hurt me a while ago. It's that type of damage that would be fixed with anapology. But um... Someone did call earlier today, a private number. While I was in the shower someone called. There are very few people that could be. Most my friends don't have private numbers. Those that do... ummmm... Don't exist, lol. I don't know of any of my friends that have a private number. Some used to, but not anymore. Who would call who has a private number?! I think it was stacey, although... I wouldn't assume shit at this point. I have lost all expectations for humans. Not all humans. Lol. So ummm... I'm still sick, but I think the second I got better from what I had before I got something else. Lol. It's time to go. Adios.

     September 28, 2004-Hi. I think tommarow is dress up day at school. I have no school spirit. It's rather sad. So. I can be relatively sure my crush is pretty bad. It's still there. And sitting near the person on the tech bus doesn't help, lol. Shes so cute. Her hairs so neat, I love bangs. Oh my, I don't want to give it away. Although I doubt anyone who reads this goes to my vo-tech. I let my shampoo in my hair for like 30 minutes, lol. My hair is actually straitish right now. Not curly or wavy. Well, its never curly, just wavy. I'm now 153... That is 3 pounds from my goal weight. In like a week I'll be 150. Then I'll start losing more weight. 135 is my goal weight. My new goal weight that is. I could never go back to that whole eating thing... It takes too much time. Cooking, and eating, and washing the dishes. I am still sick though. In the mornings it's worse. Then I slowly feel better though the day. All this rainy weather is whats doing it. My mom got me some asprin luckily. I haven't taken them yet. But I will soon, lol. I am never happy with my body, lol. I set such an unrealistic goal, loose 50 pounds, and I am about to do it. And now I want to lose 15 more, lol. I'm a driven person. Society lacks that. At least I'm not overweight anymore. Actually... Once I lose umm... 4 more pounds I'll be average. Actually... I'm not sure about my height. 5'5" or 5'6". 5'5" considered overweight at 150. 5'6" is at 155. I'm most likely 5'4" I am hyper short. Lol. Well... I am an average height.   It's time to go. Adios amigo.

     September 27, 2004-Hi. I think I'm developing a crush on someone. Hahaha! It's been a while. I haven't had a crush on someone in um... A year? No... A year and a half... No... A year and 9 months I believe. Something like that. Heh. Shes so cute. I officially crossed a line in loserdom... Talking about a girl I have a crush on on my website. Hahahaha! On grim and evil why does grim have a jamacan accent. He looks pretty white. Lol. Well... I'm out for the night. Adios amigo and amigas.

     September 26, 2004-Hey. Whats up? I'm just sitting here. Painted my nails. I think I'm going to get bracers. Black leather bracers. The nail polish remover I use smells like bananas, lol. Hey hey hey... What's up again? I forgot, lol. I like cows. They moo... Moo. I want to dominate the world, then my girlfriend can dominate me. 5 minutes are up! Mwuhahahha!   It's that time of the day again. that time no one likes. The time in which I sleep and wake up to pee. Time to go. Adios amigos "g" "DAWG" "guy". Bye.

     September 25, 2004-Hi. I'm so tired. It's all, woah. I hate people who will talk shit on you behind your back. Honestly. People who talk shit on my in my face, I respect. It doesn't mean I wont [knock a few teeth out there head, but I will respect them. It's not like I'm an intimidating person or something, because I'm not. I'm like 5'6". That is really short for a guy. That's liek the tallest I am. My ex said she was 5'8", but me and her were the exacty same height. I mean, exact. No difference what-so-ever. Eh. I would preffer ot thinking about her, lol. It's okay though, I'm over her. I've moved. Could stand to find a girl friend. There are a few girls that like me. The phone guy fixed my phone today. I haven't gotten to use it yet since I'm at my dads. But I called me mom and heard like, no static. That was on my cell phone too... It's time to get going, adios.

     September 24, 2004-Hey. I feel sick yet. Krisi came to tech though. So I feel good. It's like a party in my pants and everyones invited. i justed needed to say that ones in my life, lol. That was a first for me. Hopefully a last as well... Frumpy wumpy, hahaha! That sounds so funny to me. I have no idea why. Happy Flappy. Nooo... That sounds perverted. Hahahhaa!   I though it was 1:30, I read the clock wrong. It's 11:30. I'm intelligent. I am too. Okay, no I'm not. Well, maybe a little. I am the best at giving extremely vague discriptions. That's my vo-tech shop. That's where I learn stuff... You know, the stuff they don't want you to know... That stuff with computers and learning, and toungue lashings. Wow I'm sick. It's great. My favorites on AOL dissapeared. I hope they come back soon. I hope they are at least feeling liberated. Time to go, bye.

     September 23, 2004-Hi. I feel so dizzy. It is great. Fun really. I was trying to play starwars. They fixed it up a lot. The phone guy came today. He messed up the phones worse. I fixed it! I rule, lol. It was the aol adapter messing up. I fixed it though. Rebuilt it. Right now it feels like my whole body is heavy. that is the best way to describe how I feel. It's really neat. I feel like I took vikadin. I didn't. I fell asleep on the bus today. Almost slouched over onto my friend jen. I was so out of it. I get all my work done like this. Honestly. It's like, my motor skills get worse, but my enthusiasm triples. It's all woooo! My nails need painting. HAHAHA! Why does daddy smell like the stuff you clean my cutes with? I like toughline. I'm thirsty. Daytime asprin makes me dizzy. I had tio take it. Dizzy. I'm such a frumpy wumpy. Lol. Aren't I silly? Aren't I sick? lol. Well... It's time to go to sleep. Adios amigo.

     September 22, 2004-Grrrr... Starwars battlefronts servers are so messed up. I'm on socom right now. Starwars pissed me off. Why the hell would they get gamespy to host there online play. Gamespy is a sucky game reveiwer. They get no inside news. How could you trust them? Thats why this game might not be considered a great. It's gameplay is great. It's online play is not. I payed 50 dollars for this shit. It better f***in work or I'm goping to be pissed. I cursed out aol... why the hell does gamespy think I wont curse them... I'm just an in your face sweetheart. Lol. Why the hell are people growing out afros more? It's the dumbest fad. OMG! I'm sick. I get so pissed, so easy when I'm sick. I started freaking out this morning because my jacket had cat hair on it. I used the stupid lint roller for 10 minutes and it was covered again in minutes... It basically like having a stick up my ass.... Lol. I can't wait until October 6th. I get to go to the renaissance fair. I am going to spend all the money I have on jewelry. It'll be great. My phones are getting fixed tommarow. No more shitty connection. Weeee.... I am going to sleep. Adios.

     September 21, 2004-Hi. I bought a new game. Starwars Battlefront. It's sweet. Really sweet. I am making a new online provider. Canada Online. You've got mail eh? Dedicated to brian. My fallen "brotha". It was so fun. I'm getting sicker... It sucks. Want to buy candy from me? I'm selling candy for my vo-tech. I swear, those guys at this new site I joined deleted my post! WTF?! I can't even remember the questions I asked... What is up g? Well... I asked a question! *twitch*... ??????????Wow.   Aol is awesome. I can legally download music from them. W00t. W00tage. W00tle. w00t.... I am going to make a band called Prostate Pirates. The first CD is going ot be Swab Your Deck. The second will be Prolithic Pirate. I dont know anything else. Lol. Wow. It's been a while since I listened to ozzy. I'm talking a hit now, lol. Im just a rock n' roll rebel, I'll tell you no lies... Lol. I got it. What are you girgling... You sly devil. For some reason the song Billioni Dollar Babies is so romantic to me. By alice cooper. I don't know why. Maybe it's a chemical imbalance, lol. Ooo! At vo-tech we are trying to get this christmas song together. We have 2 bassists and a guitarist. We need another guitar player. I performance of grand scale! Well.... Time to sleep. Good day to you sir or madam. Bye.

     September 20, 2004-Hi. Wow. I was tired yesterday. Today in school everything was so easy. I was tired during history, but in math I as hyper. It was crazy. I'm so thirsty! Grrrr... I lost like 4 pounds in a day though. lol. Of course I gained 3 over the weeked. So I'm at 155 right now. Considering I was 200. My goal weight is 150. I think I may go past it, lol. Like 140. That would be so sweet. 140. That is like a girl weight. Hahahaha. Well... I had fun at school. 2 assemblies. One on cultural diversity. One on candy selling. Honestly.   I already sold 20 bars of candy. I am a master salesman. Oops, gotta be more PC. Salesperson. Adios amigos.

     September 19, 2004-Hey! What is up? Lol. I like cows. I also like cats, and kittens. I'm hurrying this update. I'm tired. Extremly tired. So extremely tired. Well, goodnight. Wait, not now. maybe now. No. Now. Nope, still not yet. Maybe in a bit. I don't know. My hair looks straiter in the morning when I don't come it after my shower. Upt. I think its time. Ooo.... Faked you out, hahaha, ha. I got you so good. Well... bye.

     September 18, 2004-Hi. People are dumb... I'm looking at this site for smackdown vs raw. I'm getting sick of looking. People keep asking the same questions over and over. The only time I like mentioning things over and over is when I get pity. I am a complete pity and attention whore. I am very open about that fact though. Who else posts on there website that there grandmother might die... Although the docters were wrong. She is probably getting out in a week. Thats what my mom thinks though. Not the docters. She may need to go to rehab though. Not drug rehab, strength rehab. Being immobalized messed up old peoples bodies. It's rather depressing. Lol. Hmmmm... My dad fell down the steps today. We all laughed. Glad hes not old, he might of been hurt, lol. When people get hurt it is funny though... I get very annoyed easily by certain things. People who yawn like... very loadly and annoying. I mean, like very deeply and not like an ahhhhh... Almost piggish. My friend danny's yawn. It annoys me to the point where I tell him I will punch him in the face. Honestly. I am completely serious about it. You know what else Idon't like? When people ask the same question over and over. Very few questions warrant the need to be said all the time. Just the questions how are you? Whats up? etc. Just general questions. When I get mad people cant tell... I'm not like a lot of people whos veins pop out and stuff... I remain collected, then I swear, then I hit. Those are my stages. If you back off on the first stage all is forgiven fastly. If you go to the second stage just apologize and leave me sights, all will be forgiven. The third stage is the point of no return usually. If I hit you your hated by me. It's that simple. I like the muffins with the blueberries in them. Yumm... The most common muffin is blueberry. So says the... me. My friend just got ice cream and it was so frozen. I swear. He was pounding it with a spoon so hard and nothing came off. Well... I'm going to watch wrestling. Adios.

     September 17, 2004-Hi. I like cheerios. They taste good. Real good. Yum yum gimme some... Anyhoo... I like cattle. They moo... I belive mooing is good. When you moo god loves you. That will be on my tombstone. I mean it. It's simple, yet elegant, in its simplicity that is. It's great... I like when the red water comes out, hahaha. I like gophers too... They make dams. Beavers make dams. They make them better than gophers. Gophers are funnier looking though. It is indeed a great debate. Well... Adios.

     September 16, 2004-Brian... Eye of the Tiger is from rocky.... No using it for penis references... My motto for the daily show would be, fake news is better than no news, lol. Megadeath \m/ I like Alice Cooper more... My hero.... Hahaha! He is though. Maybe someday I'll admount to a little more... well... I'd like to think of my-self as the human equivalent to a drone in the bee world. HOoly. Oh my dhali llama. I probably spelled it wrong. I rule so much I don't need to spell it right. I had to come. I don't have vo-tech tomarrow. I have an early dismissal tommarow. I'm going to get going. See ya.

     September 15, 2004-Hey. I wonder why I like marilyn manson. He isn't my hero. Alice Cooper is. Hmmm... I like Alice Cooper. God bless america. Lol. OMG! South Park is so funny! I like food. Dood tastes good sometimes. but sometimes it doesnt. That is when you run out of a bill, even if you are dating the person that made the food. I'll admit, thats not relevant. But oh well... I don't need to be relavent. Honestly. So there. you may need to make sence... Not me. *Smile* Adios.

     September 14, 2004-Hi. I made a new picture today. It's big enough to be a wallpaper, so check it out. It's neat. Originally I had the stoke black and it made it look so cartoony. I put it grayish and it looks better now. Honestly. It looks really neat. I really need to go to sleep soon. It's getting late. I am probably going to implement the color system soon. Not right now, because I have school tommarow. Maybe like, friday, when I don't have to be awake in school. Lol. Please check this picture out. I worked hours on it. Maybe I'll redo it later with a better backround. I dont know. I need to get sleep so I don't pass out and hurt my-self at school. Lol. Adios Amigos.

     September 13, 2004-Hey. It's the 14 month anniversary. Weee! We have overcome everything! From a christian conservative to a text box error. That is a good amount of scourges. Maybe some more. I'd like to play the game mafia again. It's been a while. I think I'd like that. I'd also like a day to go by that I am happy for a solid 24 hours. heh. I called my "friend" today and she was a total cunt to me. It pissed me off. I was a little hurt too... She was never that mean to me before. Oh well... Now-a-days there is a very limited few that could actually hurt me to the point of scarring. An extremely limited few. I mean, I think Jerry Seinfeild is limitedly funny. Heh. I think I'll try to impliment the new color scheme soon. I don't know though. I am going to get rested up for tommarow. So, adios and hasta manana.

     September 12, 2004-Hi. As I'm sure nooooooobody realized my sites 14 month anniversary is coming up. Thats a year and 2 months. I am not sure exactly what I should do. I was thinking about coloring each page differently. I mean... It wouldn't increase load times at all... It would give each page a more distinctive look. I think it would be a great addition. It also coincides with what I've learned in vo-tech. We are learning what emotions, and feelings certain colors give. It truly does work. Blue symbolizes safety. Which should mean that a nice blue sky should make you feel safe. For me though... A dark blue sky creeps me out. I don't know why. But when it is pitch black out and all youi see is the stars thats when I feel safest. Heh. Black is able to symbolize so much. It can symbolize power, evil, or even clearity. For me it makes me feel clearity. It also can be used for showing submission. For me I do wear it to show submission. Mainly a submission to life. As in, I just go with the flow. Wow. Tommarow I think I will give a tally of how many pages I have on here. That total always makes me feel like a loser. Eh. They get looked at. So that helps me feel better, lol. Hmmmmm... Are there any other points I'd like to make? Well. I haven't had a long thought of the day in a long time. I think its because I have lost my edge. I was afraid to admit it.. But maybe I have. I have't been motivated to do any art lately... I haven't been motivated to eat. Hell... I haven't been motivated to excersize. I've been excersizing though. I want to be thin. I am getting there. I've been steadily losing weight. Only like a pound o two a week. That isn't bad. The thing is I'm getting close to my goal weight. 150 pounds. It is good that I'm slowly losing it now. At first I was losing it too fast. When you lose it to fast, it will just come back. I have my metabolism going pretty fast now. Way faster than before. Where I was slowly eating my-self to death. Every time I look at my-self in a picture I can see how much thinner I've gotten, but in the mirror I see no difference. I think I'e been bettering my-self lately. I've been growing away from a lot of my friends though. I don't know. I guess I'm re-defining my-self again. Last time I did I lost a few friends. Oh well. It's been 2 years. I think its because I finally have a little money to spend on clothes and junk. So I can look the way I want. My parents don't care what I buy either. It's good I guess. I am going to try to actually talk to stacey today. I haven't talked to that girl in 4 months. I think... This summer seems like a blur. It went to fast for me. I hope life doesnt go that fast. If life pans out like my summer it will be too short. I mean, I'm not too crazy about it, but I would like to have lived it. It feels like from July until now... It has been in fast forward. I just don't like this pace. I think I just have finally become an adult. That would explain it. I mean... Adults always talk about how fast kids grow up. It's like a blur. Well... My blur started. I mean, I'm working, buying my own shit. Speaking of buying shit, I think I need a pair of boots. I haven't owned a pair for a while. They aren't even expensive, and they look awesome. I nice black pair of combat boots. Not yet though. I can't. I need to save money for Starwars Battlefront, Smackdown! vs. RAW, and maybe fable. I'm not sure about it anymore. It's obviously not a landmark game anymore. I am trying to buy what I want clotheswise now. So like, in a year I wont need a lot. Because in a year or two I'll be driving. I'm not in a hurry though. I already know how to drive. Trust me, driving isn't exciting. It is no biggy. When your little it seems all exciting. It isn't. I am a relatively negative person though. You may very well think driving is the best thing since caned tuna... Who knows. These big posts always happen when I least expect it. I though I would have ended it earlier. Oh well... I have a lot of shit on my mind. Hmmmm... I think my favorite quote is "Smile you cunt." I like saying that. It just isn't me though. I cover too many topics at a time on this page. Its great. Oh yeah. I didn't tell anyone. But I have a radiato wound. Not a car radiator, a house one. It happened thursday when I woke up. I have a radiator right next to my bed. It has a wooden case over it. The ledge on it juts out. I smashed my head on that while sitting up... I have a mild laceration on my head. Well... A laceration would be more of a cut. No. It's still a cut. Even though its not long. I hit the edge. It hurt so bad. I know understand what they mean by knocked silly. It's no play on words. Lol. My, my, my. I don't know why I said that. Ooo! I figured out how to make my hair straiter. I always comb it right out of the shower. No! That is bad. I know wait until it is completely dry. That takes hours, but eh. I never go anywhere after a shower. Even if I do my hair isn't tangled out of the shower. Not usually. I don't think I have a favorite band... I love marilyn manson, I love cradle of filth, I love Slayer, I love Children of Bodom. Heh. I must be a very loving person. Wow. This is a large compilation of thoughts. But I think It's enough. So. Tommarow, Look for an update. See ya.

     September 11, 2004-Hey. I love shredded mini wheat. Yummm... It's sooo tasty. It makes me smile. Yet sad. Happy, yet mad. Pious. Prying. Frying. Frolicing dear like. A true pioneer of cattle prodes. What was I talking about again? Ack. I poured too many shredded wheats out. I am full... Too full... I want to lose the battle to keep it down. But I will not... I stuck a fortune in my friends AXE container. "You will go on a vacation very soon." One of the two I got yesterday. I am still feeling awesome for getting two. Wow. We are watching wrestling and the guy has a maple leaf on his crotch. That is so canadian... Oh canada... I couldn't finish my cereal. So I made my freind eat it. Mwuhahhaa! I stuch his ear cleaning stuff in it. Not squirting it. Just pouring it in. Well... I'm going to let him online while he eats it. Adios.

     September 10, 2004-Hi. I like pandas. I also like cows. I talked about that before though. I had fun at vo-tech today. Nice busride there. Nice busride back. Not too loud. My friend gio is blind without his contacts. He ran into a wall. Oh. My grandmother might not die now. Reasons we can tell gio is drunk. (1) He is watching ed, edd, and eddy. (2) Hes been outting his contacts in and taking them out about 30 minutes now. (3) His freshly pierced ears are bleeding, and I'm not telling him... This is funny. My friend gio opened a fortune cookie and it was fortune....   I opened one and got 2. I'm that great. Well... I am going to get going now. Adios.

     September 9, 2004-Hi. I worked up the balls to call my friend. 4 months... Lol. I just like, have a very low self-esteem, and even though she doesn't seem very confident, she seems very elegant. I dunno. Marilyn Manson is hilarious. OMG! I like the Graham Norton effect. Homosexual referenences and neat guests. Next they need to have Slayer on. The whole band. They all are awesome. Cradle of Filth wouldn't be the best band for the interview. Dani Filth is the biggest ass when an interveiwer gets in his face about something. I remember watching this interveiw. "So Dani. Would you like to tell us about anything strange that has happened on tour?" Dani said," Ummm... No." Slayer was getting way more pissed at this dude, But Voivod. They just up and left the interveiw! Hahahaha! I started cracking up. Well... I am going to go. Adios.

     September 8, 2004-Hi. I got a new Cd Player. My mistake. A Portable Cd/Mp3 Player. It's sweet. I can use a data CD. 9 hours of music... Thats crazy. 20 hours of battery life. Crazy. I like cows. They moo. When they moo their eyes cross. That makes me laugh. Lol. I like drinking icy tea. Oh well... It's time to play the bass... I'm going to learn the canadian national anthem. Lol. Anyway. So... I really need to go. Bye.

     September 7, 2004-Hey again... Well... My grandmoms dieing. Heh. The docters told us today... Ironically my mic for my PS2 broke as well... I don't even feel like getting another. That one will just f***ing break. It's bullshit. Honestly. I have no idea why I make the choice to get up in the morning. Nothing good ever happens during my day. Nothing at all... It's such shit. I mean. This time I'm making sony pay for this shit. Hell... Don't buy the Logitech Headset for PS2. It will just break in 3 months. The longest it lasts with heavy use is 6 months. Mine lasted 3. The last one lasted 3. And my first lasted 3. It pisses me off so bad. PS2 took its 40 dollar one off the market. You know why? It doesn't f***ing break. Thats exactly why. Sony has finally done it. They have pissed me off... I have a sony computer, a PS2, Lots of PS2 games... Why is it only the headset that shits out on me? I am calling them up tomarrow. I better not get some Indian dude with horrible english or I will f***ing flip. So not only is my grandmother dieing, but my communication with the outside world is f***ed up. Good job sony... They control everything hooked up to my internet. If this computer goes... Oh, I'll just assassinate the head of sony. Haven't they heard of something called quality control? Shit. I'm going. Bye.

     September 6, 2004-Hi. How are you? I know people who arent that great... I am on your side! Lol. Wow. This chick on tv. You could hear her legs rubbing together. We all know how sexy that is. Wow. Hmmmm... This is sad. O don't want to go to school tomarrow. School depresses me so bad. I swear. It makes me want to try and drown my-self in an inch of water. OMG! It's pretty late and my ferrit is being so loud. I'm so lazy. I'm too lazy right now to get up and lay down. Well... Thats more tiredness. Eh. Either way. I like cattle prodes. Those could have gotten beaten by the almighty cattle prode shall die. Oh well... Adios.

     September 5, 2004-Noxzema Triple Clean Cleanser is without doubt the most painful acne product I've ever used. Luckily I'm a glutten for pain. I'm leaving it in until it doesn't hurt. I swear. It's been 20 minutes. It's taming down. It's noth that painful. Getting a cut on your ankle hurts more. Ahhhh! I gotta finish this picture I was making. It's neat. You can look at it on gravewire.deviantart.com Or, just click deviant art at the side <<<<<. I hate these stupid mainsteam movies that act like they are giving insight into anything. I'm still kind of sad... My friend krissi is going to college tomarrow. Here I am in 11th grade. God has forsaken me. Okay. It's been about 30 minutes with this stuff in and it smells like mint know. So I think it's time to wash this stuff off my face before it smells painful. Instead of good. Lol. Someone called. So it may bne in for a while. Lol. Yay. 45 minute mark. I rule. lol. Well... I need to wash my face before burns appear. Adios.

     September 4, 2004-Yay! I'm probably going to the Rocky Horror Picture Show. Weeeee! Something to keep me going, lol. I'm already excited. I am going to take lots of pictures too. Me and my friends. Weeee! I'm going to need help with my make up. I'm sure krissi has got that covered. I'm gonna be evil! Yay! I love dressing evil. It's more fun than a barrel of crack. Crack must be fun if it hooks people so much. What else hooks people like that. Gophers don't. Rainbows don't. I mean. People don't go out and say, I only have time to eat or watch a rainbow. Which should I do... I'll just watch a rainbow. I can eat when I have enough time. Thats pretty much my eating habits, lol. It's at the bottom of my list. Like, It's sad. Should I eat or talk on the phone. Phone. Should I eat or talk to people on the computer. Heh. Someone asked why my mom has a gun. I gave the best answer I could. Shes german. Well... Time to go. Adios.

     September 3, 2004-Hey. Let me tell ya. My luck with friends has been horrible lately. I think it's my choice in friends. It's a vicous cycle. I mean, I'm just the person they want to talk to... But the second I need a sliver of help I am just the most irritating horrible person on the face of the earth and should never speak to them again. Aside from all this shit I'm having to deal with, with my last two grand parents alive in the hospital. One has a fractured hip, and with the other... They don't know what is wrong. When a hospital doesn't know whats wrong for 4 days something serious is wrong. I hope the person which is responsible for ditching me comes to their senses. I am under too much emotional stress. The day before school begins I'm woken up at 7:30am with an ambulance driving up to my house coming to get my grandmother. Then I feel so guilty. My other grandmother fell and fractured a hip at the cemetary near my house. I go there all the time. I was there the next day after she did it for god sakes. I didn't even know she was hurt until wednesday. That was a week ago... Shes getting released tomrrow. Unfortunately... I think this is going to be the last time my grandmother is going to be in the hospital. She has diabetis, shes an amputee, she has a cateract, and now her stomach is extremely messed up. My friends choose great f***ing times to bail on me. Oh well... I do need people, unlike the person that ditched me. Well... bye.

     September 2, 2004-Hi. I had a nice day at vo-tech today. I also met a new and awesome person. Plus I got to hear two new awesome songs. Even better, my connection seems to be fixed. I was on Socom today, and didn't get booted. I haven't been booted offline once either. I am so happy. Plus I worked out today. I need to say something funny to please the masses. It isn't worth your money unless it has whiskers. That isn't funny. That sounds like one of those tips Mr Knoweledge from rocky and bulwinkle would say. What else could I say that is funny? I have a problem doing what I say I'll do. I also fulfill promises. Just not stuff I don't promise. Lately it hasn't been that bad. I've been doing better. I have been keeping true to what I say. For a compulsive non-doer- as they say.... That seems right. Anyway... I'm going to go now. bye.

     September 1, 2004-Wow. I can't believe I made it this far. Project Fallen is getting pretty good. I'm so pround. My little baby is all grown up! Okay. That was wrong. I'm sorry. Hmmmm... I hate school. I didn't realize how much I hated it until being there a day. I have semi-easy classes. Especially since they give you sped classes auto-matically if you go to vo-tecj. Which is really stupid. My dogs are so weird. They are standing on my bed starinbg at me. For like 5 minutes. Lol. I don't know why. I have school tommarow. Then I don't have it untill tuesday. That's good. Vo-tech should be neat this year. A lot of an-annoying people in my shop this year. Thats good. But on my bus. This chick has the biggest f***ing mouth ever. Grrrrr... I ed up arriving at vo-tech with a headache. Not even kidding. Lol. That is the first person to actually give me a headache single handedly. I'm going. School tommarow. Adios.