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Apocalypse

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    The Apocalypse in near, the end is near, fear, fear, FEAR!!! Mwuhahahaha. This is my little thought archive. Let the meyhem begin...now!

     April 30, 2004-I feel completely better. I just stayed home from school and slept. My mom made me stay home... From now one I'm going to tell everyone what music I'm listening to. It is done in most webjournals and this is my webjournal. So here we go. I'm listening to the beatles. An ironic song to my old post. Obladi, Oblada, Life Goes On. It's a peaceful song. I am a very morbid person. I think about how I want to die. I want to die old, on my death bed. I don't care how painful, I dont want any medication. I just want god to take me. I don't want a tear shed, I just want everyone to listen to Free as a Bird by the Beatles. I want it to be my death song. I want to die right at the end. I don't want to be alone either. I want to be surrounded with all my friends. I want it to be almost like a party. I want us to tell all of our good memories. I would die happy. If it would be tommarow or 50 years from today. I'd also ask someone to update this site with a final update. I don't care when I die unlike mosty people. As long I'm with friends, and smiling. It took about 4 pills and 12 hours of sleep to heal me this time. It probably only have taken a friend, but a lot of people abandoned me yesterday. I don't knoww if I'll forgive them. I might, they probably didnt know how hurt I was. In all honesty I'm going to find some new friends who it doesnt matter. They will listen to all my problems, without it mattering if I'm really hurt or not. The funny thing is everyone chose yesterday to have those little shitty stand-ups against me. It's like, please call. They are like, you call me! I never call people to tell them my problems, because if they call me they want to hear, but if I call them they may not want to. For some reason when I hear I'm a Believer by the Beatles, I think and/or smell tomato soup. I just think of a warm place too. It's great to listen to this song. And yes. I'm listening to a different song then I told you, because this is about the 10 minute mark here. I'm not in a huge video game mood. Once I update I'll probably play my bass a bit. I love playing it. It's not frustrating, because I know I'm just getting better playing. Unlike video games, you can start getting worse playing them. I already played my bass 5 hours strait, just standing there jamming. It's a great feeling getting a shower after that. Thats why I dn't shower in the morning. I shower when I get home from school. On day I dont go to school its always later though, like 12 or one in the morning. I like this site, you know that. It's great. It has a lot of content for just me making it. It's okay though. It's been 10 and a half months. Thats a long time. I've become a better writer since this site started. I've also become more responsible. My spelling hasn't gotten better though, lol. You know something funny? I don't listen to Rap or Pop, and I berely listen to punk. I just listen to rock. It's funny, because I never know any songs on the radio. I just know my stuff. I think I'm rambling, like most webjournals, lol. It what you want and you know it. *points at you through screen* I win. Really, updates this long will make people not read, lol. It's like, thats a lot... But I use such simple english it's an easy read. Well. I am going to go. Adio cowboys un cowgirls. *waves*

     April 29, 2004-I feel so f***ing horrible. I have a chipped tooth and my throat feels like a was prison raped. I had to go to school too! When I woke up and it burned to drink icy tea I knew I was f***ed up. I might stay home from school tommarow if I don't feel better. I think I might just need to stay home and sleep. I only have a few weeks of school left. I can put up with this shit a few weeks. I am like, ultra depressed, and sick. My tooth is killing me. It bleeds... Thats the plus side, I get to taste blood sometimes. I really don't feel good. Someone I thought loved me like a brother just told me to f*** off. I need people the most right now. A lot of people have decided to remove them-selves from my life. It hurts inside right now. Not like end my life hurts. But a deep pain. People just keep taking skims off my life with this shit. It's not like a skim is much. But a few skims is a good portion. People are taking swings so much now, and I'm just too tired to dodge them. Thats how I'm going to die... I feel like I'm going to pass out, and people are still trying to make me sad. Oh well... Bye.

     April 28, 2004-Hi. I'm doing this quest in Final Fantasy XI. I have to feed a giant bird grass... It was beaten almost to death. It's sad. I'm feeding it medical grass. It takes 6 hours. It's been 2. LOL. I got a while. I'd be asleep if it wasnt for this game. I had a rough day today. I was about to spaz out a lot of times. I mean. If I had a gun there would be 15% less people standing. I hate vo-tech at times. People just don't accept me. I'm not different. I'm not committing a crime wearing all black. It's time to go. FFXI time. Bye.

     April 27, 2004-Okay. I think my ferrit is the best treated animal in my house, because she is in my room. I was playing my bass an hour and a half today. Listening to music makes me want to play it. Lol. I think I need to sleep. I am really tired. I had a stressful day today. I was not in a good mood, and people just kept pissing my off. Overand over. It became so redundant. I figured out how much shit I put up with in a day because I'm different. I would have killed something if it werent for my friend krissy. I'm not saying she did a ton. I didnt need a ton done. I just needed someone to say, don't be mean to him right now. Wow. I let my ferrit out for hours today. I played viseo games for hours today. I get to read to little kids. This is going to rule. One sec, I'm going to put it on the kitchen table. Sorry. when I get tired I don't make much sense. I get toread to little kids thursday. So I have to go to the elementary school,   We have to get these permission slips signed. There. I'm going to go listen to music. then sleep. Bye.

     April 26, 2004-Wow again. Now someone wants tofight me. My ex girl friends brother does, just because I'm a goth. He called me a darksider.... So I called him a lightsider. To be honest I am a Christian, I just like Rock. I'll tell you what I don't like. I don't like people who try and fit in. If you fit in thats great in my mind, but when your changing your-self, and not being original thats when I hate you. If you are trying to be original thats bad too. You have to find your-self. I'm no longer a wondering soul. I know who I am, and where I am. The person who wants to fight me is a wondering soul. Just another ghetto, Eminem wannabe. If you are ghetto and original then I like you. If you are a prep and original I like you. They are nothing but labels. One of the smartest, most pure people I know is my friend stacey. She told me something. Something that opened my eyes and made me see me life, the world, and even death in a new way... Labels are stupid. It wasn't until I heard those words come out of her mouth thatI heard the truth. Prep, Goth, Ghetto, Punk... They are all just words, and they mean nothing. I am a human. Something no one has called them-self in a long time. If I die, I want that on my Tombstone. "I died a Human, I'll rot as one. I have exceeded the need for labels." It's something I think a toddler would carry with them-selves. I think it's something that can make the world better. I'm not saying, "Don't label your-self." I'm saying, "Don't NEED to label your-self." Because once we die we are dust. In the ground, or in a Urn. We are dust in the end. You can run from death all you want. In my opnion I'm just a light jog from it. It seems to be running with all it's might and cant catch me though. There are always points in our lives where we see the truth. When I saw House of a Thousand Corpses I said, I'm not going to be a scared little rabbit. I'm going to be a human. As a human, I decided a few things. If I die, I'll die the Aggressor. I don't think I want to die a person though, people make me sick, for the most part atleast. I'm not saying I want to die, or think its neccesary, I'm just saying it happens, and if my time is soon, I'll die swinging. But, I think my friend summed it up best, "Don't let it sink your cheerios." Just today I was bombarded with something. With what makes me sick. I was called a Homo-sexual, a Trans-sexual, a Pan-sexual, and a liar. That's ignorance right there. When somebody doesn't know you, and just for the hell of uprising says very untrue things, just because you don't fit in with them. To sum it up, which is the hardest thing to do, I'm sick of of all the super-ficial bull-shit. I need to go. Bye.

     April 25, 2004-Wow. I'm playing with my ferrit. She is so kewl. I am gonna start playing with her more. Shes so nice. She is like a kitten. She is atleast 7 years old too. thats how long we had her. She sure likes my bed. Lol. It's okay though, I like it too. It is nice, I sleep on it every night. Back to my ferrit. She is sooo nice to me. Her favorite drink is icy tea. Mine is too! She likes Cradle of Filth too. I love her. I gave her a hug earlier, and a bath. She needed it. The water was all ewwww. Yeah. I love Cradle of Filth. I like them more than Marilyn Manson. More than Alice Cooper too... Even more than Slayer. Thats a lot. You people are lucky I'm updating. I could be sleeping roght now, lol. Well, time to go. Bye.

     April 24, 2004-Wow. I had fun today. I was playing Final Fantasy, then I was eating pizza, then I went and bought some candy, and gave it to monkeys. Oh wait, that was a dream, lol. I have been listening to music more lately. I've been playing my bass more too. I like it a lot. I calms me. I sing along a lot. LOL. My friend takes some funny pictures. Maybe someday you will see, I need to go now, Its late. Good bye. I need sleep. ZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZz. Bye.

     April 23, 2004-The skipping is back. It's worse than ever. The older this computer gets, the worse it skips. I don't care though because my thoughts need to be seen and heard worse than the president of the united states. Let it be known. Lol. I'm a sad person, but I'm not a sad human. Sad humans listen to good charlotte. I'm being hit now, lol. I'm an ass too. Most people that listen to them are sad a lot though, it's weird. I'm not saying it to be mean, and I'm not saying its good charlotte, I'm just saying its like, somehow sad people flock to them. If they just listened to a little alice cooper they might not be sad. Songs about sex and not killing your-self is what sad people need to here. Alice cooper, any man with balls big enough to have a girls name is a man in my book. Lol. This skipping is so bad. Ewwww... Time to go, my comp is skipping badly. Bye.

     April 22, 2004-Hi. Guess what! I'm partying in Final Fantasy XI. That means I'm fighting along side 5 complete strangers. LOL. I humped someone. It was a midget, or something close, lol. It had a cat face. Ouch. I sneezed and it hurt. Wow. Thiswas gorrible, we were chasing a crab for minutes. It's not supposed to run. Wow. Today in school I had fun. Archery, lol. In gym. In english we are reading thew play the crucible. I need to go, this is too much at once, lol. I'm overloaded, and my day sucked anyway, nothing interesting happened. So adios.

     April 21, 2004-Howdy. South Park is so funny. Micheal Jackson is on right now. OOO. Today there was a huge update in final fantasy. It was insane. It messed up! There must have been tens of thousands of people downloading the patch. Final Fantasy is in Japan and North America for the Computer and PlayStation 2. That means a lot of people play. More than a lot. I kept trying to get on Final Fantasy XI and it kept giving me and error. So I let it alone and it fixed its-self. Thank god too. I calm down playing this game. It's so calming, not as calming as some good heavy metal music, but close. I'm in a party in Final Fantasy right now, it's neat. I'm playing with someone I don't even know.... I am trusting them wwith keeping me alive. It's crazy. I need to go play now, bye.

     April 20, 2004-Hi. What's up? I've had a hectic day. My teacher pissed me off today, she sent me out for wearing a choker chain. Then I got angry, and started swearing. Yeah. Oh well, lol. I didnt even get in trouble. It's sad, they made me take it off, but they said please. I agreed to take it off then. I come home and mt electric is messed up. So I come home and the computer is un plugged, and all my stuff is in this room... I was kinda pisse, but it really makes life different. Who would hav thought being in a defferent room could affect your thoughts on life, lol. I really feels weird. Taking a shower felt different, I walked into my computer room naked, lol. It was horrible. Im playing Socom. I am not giving this up for Finl Fantasy... I gave up SIMs. It sucks, but final fantasy is worth it. It's like electronic crack. I think I'm going to sleep. I'm doing a good job in socom for not playing much lately. I need to give them my screen name. So they can tell me when they are gonna have a clan war. I need to go, so adios. It's so late, so now, adios.

     April 19, 2004-Hi. Whats up? I'm playing final fantasy. I am now being discriminated on for being a goth. I was threatened to be jumped by some guy and his boys.   my ex's brother to be exact, just cuz he don't like me. I don't feel the love anymore, lol. I must be an ass or something that I can piss people off without being mean. If I was any meaner I'd be being sniped out right now, lol. This is sad, I'm updating while fighting in final fantasy. I played socom today. This hard drive really speeds it up... It's crazy. My PS2 is like a computer now. It's hooked up to my internet, its got a hard drive, and a keyboard attatched. It's great. I recomend they package all this crap together. This MMORPG is crazy. I'm addicted, I'm healing right now. My guy was really damaged. Like. A lot. I'm sure ya dont care, so I'm going to get going, adios amigo or amiga.

     April 18, 2004-Hola. I'm really getting agitiated with the auction house, but I did sell one this. I set its price at like 70 and someond gave me a hundred for it. I'm sure happy. I needed that. I'm now level 9. Thats not strong at all but It's good for owning the game 1 day. Lol. I owned it from 5 yeasterday till now. Thats a little more than a day. That is some intense playing though. I'm using hand to hand combat in it too, lol. I'm at 10 foot tall creature pounding the hell out of stuff. I don't know what else to talk about. This is the first real MMORPG. That stands for Massiver Multiplayer Online Role Playing Game. I got a hair cut too. That alone is crazy. It's pasdt my eyes but its still way too short. I want long black hair. But I might as well do something with hair. I have it, lol. Well... Time to leave, good byeto all and to all a good night.

     April 17, 2004-Hello. I got final fantasy, it's so great. I am already raising up levels and got a grasp of the game. No one buys my stuff from the auction house, I think its because its all for knew people so there is like a ton of it inline before me. I've been keeping to my-self in the game though. I haven't partied with anyone. I'd really feel guilty if I didnt update this site... It's like my pride and joy, other than Exodeus the Galka... Lol. I'm a galka in the game, they are giant hald gorillas half lizards. Wow. This computer is lagging so bad... My friend got the chappelle show dvd first season. They really do cut quite a bit out. I wonder why. Some of it isnt even that bad, and I mean, it's comedy central. Wow. My eyes are sucking today. I'll probably only stay up till 3... Hah...

     April 16, 2004-Hi. I sooooo want that new final fantasy. It's crazy looking. I really do want it. I wonder how long it will be till I get it. Today was fun in school. I got to watch someone do their senior project. My friend Krissy did. I was so nervous for her, she was shaking! It's basically is you will graduate of not. I know she has been accepted into a college too. So if she didn't graduate it would wreck a year of her life. Sometimes life can be hard, but oh well. I say take the good with the bad, since the bad happens more. It's sick at times.

     April 15, 2004-Hi. We might have a new girl in vo-tech and she seems really kewl. I hope hse stays. A lot of kewl people at vo-tech are leaving, either because they are seniors or because the class changed. It's okay if she stays. She is one one of those people that are energetic and have those personalities that are happy. I'm far from that, when I get hyper I'm like that with a twist of annoying, lol. Hmmm... I played real bad in socom today. Like, 6-6 games. It okay, I mean, evenness is good, but I can have 20-5 games. Thats good. Thats about as good as you see. Of course thats not like a record or anything. It not close. I've seen some games with one player completely dominating a whole team. A team can be up to 8 people. When they master working as a cohesive team it can be crazy. Hmmm... I did a lot of work in school. I'm starting to struggle in math. I'm probably going to get some help there. Ehhh... I had to draw this story board thing. I've been working on it since tuesday, and I mean working. It took longer because i did it rough draft. It was semi-good, but I like the final product. I made funny definitions too. I had fun at school today, except at family and consumer sience, I'm not into the Home Ec thing. I like gym, lol. I still feel guilty thinking about what I did to that sweet girl. Shes just so NICE! GRRRRR!!! Stupid me! It wasnt my fault. My friend told me it isn't, but In hope she feels better. I got her pretty good... Right in the side of the head. I'm really happy I didnt put any power into it. I forget that most females just aren't equal, physically to a guy. There I agree with my english teacher, girls are much stronger emotionally than guys. they can display it better, and they can use it when needed. Guys usually cant display emotion. We always respond like," Shut up dude", or "I'll f*** you up man." Yeah. Having a website can be really healthy, lol. I am letting out emotions right now I normally don't accept to my bestest of friends. I can't really display tons of emotion to people I don't know well, especially other guys. I really trust girls more for some reason, I dont know why. I think its because girls have been there for me more. Oh well. Emotions arent exclusive to humans, so i don't see why we get caught up with them a lot. I imagine ferrits have emotions. Imagine a ferrit feeling guilty, awe. thats a cute ferrit. Well. I took up enough of your time. Adios cowboy or cowgirl.

     April 14, 2004-Hey. I had an eventful day. People kept shootin at the goal in gym today to piss me off. I go to tip it away and accidentally hit some girl in the head with the ball. It hit hard enough to knock her contacts out. I feel sooooooo guilty. Like ultra guilty. She is so sweet too. Oh yeah. I got to flip a bunch of kids off. A bus full of 7 year olds on my way home from school. I yelled." You litle f***ing cunts!" They were doing loser signs at me and f***ing up the devil horns. I was in the mood to f*** people up. I wouldn't lay my hands on a 7 year old but I don't think they are afraid of me, but they should be. I am an elder to them. I may be 16, but the cocks are 7. I had a lot of jewelry on today. My spike colar, my choker, my dragon neclace, my bike chain bracelet, my skull bracelet, my cross, and my dog chain. I'm probably getting laser eye surgery. I need it. I have horrible eye sight, and glasses just start costing more and more. The practical solution is make it better... If they mess up I might go blind in one eye. That would look so kewl. One eye gray, one eye brown. Well... I dropped my pizza. So it's time to go. Well... Time to go. Bye.

     April 13, 2004-Hi. Guess what?! It's the 10th month anniversary!!!! Whooooo!!! I Got a few things to do to this site. More than a few. I need to figure a lot of stuff out that will be problems soon. OOO! I thought of a fun thing to do. It's going to be fun! You will see! F***ing awesome. Super kvlt! Just so you know it's going to be like the word of the day. It's called whats kewl. I'm gonna tell everyone whats kewl. Better than a fad. Better than a trend. It's kewl. Oh. If you don't like conforming stop using what I say is kewl. Cuz I'm a Conformist( not really) Lol. Well. I need to go work on stuff for the site.

     April 12, 2004-Hola! I couldn't get to sleep last night. I felt like I did nothing all day and it pissed me off. So today I did everything I could. I did this project thing too... Five poems about characters from the book Of Mice and Men. Some of them are good, some are even okay, then... LOL. I can't say I'm doing good in Socom today. It's like, bad, lol. I think I'll start wearing a cape. They are quite fashionable right now, lol. I like my trench coat. It's leather, black, and has chains. I like it. Its pretty awesome. Let me tell ya. A trench coat is very nice. Mine is rather heavy, but oh well. I like cows. They moo. It rules. They taste pretty good. Not as good as chicken. Well... Time to leave. Adios.

     April 11, 2004-Hi! Happy Easter. How are you? I'm doing good... Is Wayne Brady gonna hafta choke a bitch? LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   I think I'm going take a shower soon. Tommaorw I'm going to need to gel my hair too... Wow. I used some very aged nail polish. Lol. Not good. It's like, ewww... It's better tyhan nothing though. Oh well. I said I was gonna get a shower at 10:30. It's 10:28. Soooo... Lemme think if I even did anything interesting today... Umm... OOO! Guess how I balanced the shitty nail polish with the good stuff. I used some of the good stuff I found after using shitty stuff... Well... Time to go, adios cowboys and cowgirls, lol.

     April 10, 2004-Hi! How are you? Did you know I like to live life to the point, at every moment I can die happy? Thats how I choose to live. I like to know, if I die I wont be a ghost. God will be there for me. I wont have a mission to accomplish. Wow. I have like, 2 almost real friends I met from socom. It's sad. We play 2 games together. Runescape and Socom II. We will probably start playing Need for Speed Underground together too... Its crazy. I can do the voldo thing. Where my back as arched and my hands are all turned wrong. It looks weird. I'm just a humble pirate. I like me rum and me ship. The Dark Sabre. Me ship aye. My pirate talk, lol. It's fun. Well. Time to go, I need to talk to a lot of people. Well... Adios amigos y amigas.

     April 9, 2003-Wow. When people see this site they usually think that it is like, hard to maintain. or they think I spend hours a day on it. Every month I'll do real work on this site the 13th. It's anniversary. Every other day I just do the word of the day and the thought of the day. Hmmmm... I woke up at 12:30 today. I saw the move hell boy. It's kewl. It has nazis in it, lol. You know what I find out everyday? More and more people I know don't believe in god. It sucks. I feel like I'm the only one left, lol. Wow. If god truly exist I'm gonna be one lonely person up there, lol.   I'm gonna start up shway again. It's a fun word. Shway... shway, shway! Oh yeah! My and danny were , like, the only people at the movie. Oh yeah. 2 other people. 4 people were in the movies. Wow. That took 10 minutes. All together I spend 15 minutes a day on this site. I am tired. I think I'm going to sleep soon. OOO!!! I cut my own hair today, lol. My ex cut my hair a bit a while ago, but i had a few like, clumps still too long. Not like, literally... I mean like, a bunch of strands the same length. That type of clump. Not all stuck together like that breed of dog with dread locks. Wow. I'm having a stellar conversation with my friends girl friend. I might not be going for a while. I like this convo. Its likle, feuling me to stay up. Well. I'm gonna go. The only real reason I am updating right now is because shes writing a poem. This was at the top of my to do list, but friends are always above this site. If you help a friend today it'll help you tommarow. Especially me, I am, with no doubt in my mind insane. Maybe too insane to walk the streets, but with the help of my friends, which isnt really a giant group... but they all are very supportive or provide me with company. Since my family isnt really that close its about all I got. Friends, animals, and video games. Really though, when your talking to an animal its really a one sided conversation, lol. Wow. This update is getting up there. Mainly because I have a new energy in my mind. It's like a hyper knowing I'm going to go right into a good conversation with my friend when she gets back. It's always good to know there is someone out there who gives a crap what u say. How sad am I. I saw I love lucy come one and thought of telling lei, lol. Me and her aren't on talking terms quite yet. Maybe soon. I just need to know she wont get on my nerves, which are very fragile. I don't know if I'll be able to treat her as a friend... With all my friends I natually am very patient... but with her when I tried to be a bit ago it conked out. I would bea a complete ass for almost no reason. It was annoying me just talking to her. Maybe I cooled my jets a bit. Who knows. I'm just cooling off. She really did wrong me more than I ever have been before, and some pretty f***ed up stuff has happened in my life. It's probably the reason I'm insane. Ohhhhh wellllll... I'm not very serious. My friend, not the one mentioned above either, is a little saddened... So I said, Head or gut? She went huh? And I said, I'm giving you a free shot. lol. Wow. I'm like pouring my guts to you all. OOO!!! I ate too many skittles. I chew them a little then lick them, so they are still all hard and sharp. Yeah, my toungue was all cut up. But a toungue is like this thing in my vo-tech class called a jesus board. It heals up right away and gets smooth again, although the cuts stay there. Thats how a tougue is, but once u cut it ur taste is temporarily not as good, but sour things hurt it. OOO!!! I found out I'm flexible. I can do the thing Voldo in Soul Calibur does called the mantis. It's crazy. It's the excorcist thing. I can do it! I can't walk that well with it though. Maybe if I practice... hmmmm... New sexual postion *high 5* Oh my. I like, wrote too much, lol. I had a lot of shit on my mind. I can finally go to sleep. Good night.

     April 8, 2004-Hi. My hair messed up. It sucks. It's curved. Like a freak penis. It's curved forward. Once I get my shower it'll be awesome. Lol. Sometimes it gets worse and wore. Its long enough now I need to brush or it feels like a frog is licking my hair and ripping shit out. I like pop tarts. They rule.I am eating apple and cinnimon. It rules. YUUUUUUUUUMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!! OOO! Anime. You will never have the power to defeat me. Not without the wind scar. I want to see some old school anime. Lupin III! Thats my socom name ya know. I love that show so much. OOO! Lots of flavored filling. Appley goodness. I'm going to see Hell Boy. If I got the money that is. I dont look at money much. I think I ad 10. I think... Wait... Nope. I have nothing. lol. Big O! Had to say it. Lol. Made up[ a new word. Homotastic. Its homosexual and fantastic at the same time! Well. Shower time. Bye bye.

     April 7, 2004-I have created a new word, and I have created a new definition for an old word. The new word is intersite. Its internet+website=intersite. I rule. Now for this new one. Viced. Its when you hack into a computering device and do evil things. AKA Viced. It's the electronically white way to serve someone yo. LOL. I'm being stupid. Very stupid. It's OOOOkay though. Too many people are names Kyle. My name is Kyler. People are thefting a lot of my name... Oh fudgical. I wanna go outside with a big sword and go Brave Heart on everyone. Mwuhahahhahaha! Ya amish. I kill ya sucka, lol. You know whats funny? I dont have a STD. I should go get some to share with people. Because the bible says sharing is good. So if I get a STD, I have to have sex with everyone to get into heaven, lol. Hmmm... What else did I do today. In Fight Night 2004 I had a 9 round match that one in knock out. I won, but thats video games. So it don't count. Sorry. I forget sometimes. I'm in a heart to heart discussion at times. So I need to go. Bye bye.

     April 6, 2004-Howdy. This day wasnt that crazy... I watched a movie today. It's called one hour photo. Its a really creepy movie. I also purchased a new video game. Fight Night 2004. Its great. I love it. It's funny. I ducked out of the way of an uppercut. Then I did a wicked uppercut. It's crazy. Their head turned like 170. Not 180 but close. Then the fell while twisting, and started having a seizure. Like. Literally a seizure. It was insane. Hmmm.... I'm trying to top yesterday, but clam chowdered crouches are hard to top. They top twisting contorted torsos. It's true. I dont know what else to say. Now I'm just trying to fill space. Lol. Wow. My hair is soft. It smells good too. Wow. They use guitars a lot in rap now. I don't like that. I think the electric guitar difines rock. I think an acoustic defines country music. I think catchy drum beats mean rap. I think tecno is like, those weird noises that go bezzzew... Rock is crazy with those special instruments. Black metal is electronic keyboard and opera with really high pitched and low pitched screaming, and very distorted guitars. I love it, lol, I'm so white its not funny... Well. Time to box. Bye now.

     April 5, 2004-Hi. I had a crazy day. Okay. My dog knocked a bowl of hot soup onto my crotch. It hurt like hell. Luckily I was wearing underwear, lol. I think my dog wanted soup, atleast thats what im hoping... I hope my dog doesnt have a sexual attatchment to me... Let me think. I was comforting people today. I think thats nice. Lol. Thats like all I did today. Hey. I need to get going. Sleeping feels good. And I'm going to enjoy this vacation.

     April 4, 2004-OMG! Today was crazy. Basically I ended this shit between me and my ex girl friend. With the help of like, 6 people. She was going ballistic. It was really f***ed up. I thought she never lied, and it turns out we caught her in a string of lies. I was like, so surprised it scared me. I'm glad this shit is over. I hope it is at least. I am pretty sure it is. I talked to mike, or at least someone who knew about everything and was on his screenname, either way.(the guy who she went ballistic after) I'll be able to sleep tonight. We had a chat with like 8 people in it. It was in my idea, an intervention. From what little I talked to mike. Hes a kewl dude. Well. I better get giong. My phone is being stupid. bye.

     April 3, 2004-What the f*** is wrong with my ex. She keeps bothering me about being friends again. I told her I have more on my mind. I need to get a new girl friend. Isn't that a good concern? She don't need to worry since she has some penis pal waiting for her. Of course today I'm a little bleh, and she thought she had the right to lose her patience on me and give up on being my friend. She dont realize the troubles I have when I talk to her. It makes me feel bad to go past her f***ing house, yet she thinks its perfectly fine talking to me. Oh yeah. My friend Jesse gave my cat an errection. I also saw dawn of the dead. Good movie. Well... I'm going to go think of what the hell made her be so mean to me today. I bet she'll say this is talking shit of her. I bet she will. Everyone will agree with her too. Well. Bye till tommarow.

     April 2, 2004-Hello again. How much must I suffer? My ex want to use me. I'll take that thought with me to my grave. She wont give me my space. She hurt me when we broke up. Then she tried to get with me 3 times in 2 days and denied it twice. When she reads this she'll probably freak, lol. The truth is if she would have listened to me today, instead of f***ing with me, we'd be together. She is too stubborn to be with me. I may not have a strong will but I have a strong pride. She had her chance, and she gave it up with a chance at another guy, but unlike most people, I'm not going to talk shit on her, no. I'm just going to try and be her friend, but if she expects everything to be the same she needs to open her eyes. I have. I haven't changed. I've just realized something. All you can give is what you've got, but if you don't give that a relationship is screwed. There you go alexis. Thats your riddle. What did you hold back from this relatioship? It was a hell of a lot more than I did. I know your mind for one thing.

     April 1, 2004-Hi. It's f***ing crazy. Me and my girl friend broke up. Everyone was telling me I should, and it wasn't going to work. I was so hoping it wouldn't. I think it's the funniest thing though. I mean, look at what I put yesterday. People are like, hitting on me now. I told everyone its over. I personaly think I am the biggest loser in the world, and no matter what I do aside from curering cancer I will go unknown, and un-remembered. Don't let me go un-remembered. My fallen crew of peeps. Lol. Darn. Wrestling is mean, it wasnt one. I'm sure everyone saw it but me. I hate hockey. Stealing wrestling. GRRRRR!!! I can't wait for boxing!!!!! Fight Night 2004, f*** yeah. Well, time to go. C ya.

     March 31, 2004-Howdy. I love my girl friend. I missed her all day. She is at church. Waiting... Ehhh. It's a worthy cause. Do you need car financing? LOL. I'm a spaz. OOO! I did my work in school today. I still havent eaten dinner yet. I think after I update I'll eat. Eating great for you when you don't abuse it. Most things are good until you abuse them, like yahoo. I don't abuse yahoo at all. But I might need to start paying for this after 2 or 3 years. Lol. 2 or 3 years. I like to eat cow. I like to eat chicken too. I think I'm going to go eat... food. Mashed potatoes!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

     March 30, 2004-Hi. Wow. I got two poems up. That is a good thing. I must be out of shape, lol. I did to many sit ups working out yesterday. Eh, oh well. Its good in the long run. It just hurts like a bitch now. Now that I got that off my chest I can shut the hell up. LOL. Two quality poems up. She is a very modest person about her writing abilities though. Its very cute. Check it out. Okay? Oh my. I just realized. That means my webpage count is 62. Lol. 64 if you count the hidden ones too. Thats f***ing crazy. This is a free site too. Since I made it extra cheap with no pictures I don't pass any limits. (sweet) I'm planning on archiving the word of the day page. That was none start dissapearing. That will be yearly, or bi-yearly. Thats shway. LOL. I need to get going. See ya.

     March 29, 2004-I did my presentation thing with my bass. It went over great. then I got cheese cake, and this cinnimon cake. I thought the cinnimon cake had apple sauce in it. It was really fluffy. I could tell it had to much flour in it. It was fluffy, but didnt have a cinnimon taste. In socom today I had the most average games. I was trying new stuff out. I put mines places, which I normally don't do. I am semi-cautious in it. Mines can be stepped on and that means they can kill your teammates, and that means they suck. I was using claymores too. That was awesome. You set them off on your own with a detonator and that means they rule. I also was stealth killing. I was dropping down and killing people. I would drop down behind them and one shot kill them in the head. Another one is dropping right near them while shotting the hell out of them. Socoms a crazy game, but some people get in such a rut with it its just running out and dieing for them. I always take 1 person out. OOOO!!! I almost died today. I felt like that at least. I was all light headed and I had a headache, my vision wa sblurred, and my lips were soooo cracked. I figured out I was really dehydrated. I am going to start taking drinks to school. I have to. I was up until 2:30 last night talking to my sweet heart. It just makes life feel better. OOO! Tomarrow I will have that poem up. I totally forgot about it until I looked at my past updates. I was like, wow. I got an idea. LOL. I need to get going. Adios.

     March 28, 2004-Wow. Today was loooking like it was going to suck. I was just looking at videos for Fight Night 2004. That isnt fun. Wednesday I should have it. That rules. I like a lot of fish compared to a smaller amount. Yeah. Oh YEAH! Lexi came over today. Yayess factor met. I love when she comes over. Shes just so much fun to be around and she knows all the kewlest facts. Wow. Lately I've been cracking my neck too much. It's sick. I'm going to get going. I need to sleep.

     March 27, 2004-When in doubt turn to Alice Cooper. That should be todays title for tthis post. LOL. I did things today I said I wouldn't do. I vowed I wouldnt. If I could have just listened to Hey Stupid by Alice Cooper, nothing would have happened. If I could have written a poem, this wouldn't have happened. Instead or taking my rage out on paper I took it out on my-self. I'm a bit of a mess right now, but I'm loyal to this project of mine. The reason I called it project fallen was because I thought it was screwed. Then it became like, the best rant site, lol. It's sad. Now I have like 60 public pages and 2 hidden once. The glassary was supposed to be hidden originally. So I could navigate the site faster to fix mistakes. I decided it would be better to put it public. Maybe definitions up someday. I doubt it if things continue as they are. I can promise a new poem sunday or monday. I think I'm going to let my hair grow now. I want long black hair, like shoulder length. Just pure grunge metal hair. So I look crazy. It'll rule. I tried writting a poem today... I had no emotion left to write it. No sadness, no hate, no anger... Nothing to fuel the pen. Instead of hate, I had no energy, just annoyance. I really need help... I scared my-self. I woke up happy. I'll go to sleep hurt and sad. It reminds me of before, when my life was bad. It's not anymore. I have a awesome girl friend, lots of great friends, and life. It feels so unforgiving right now. It feels good to bitch to someone, lol. Here i get to bitch to a lot of people with little to no energy. I will seriously flip out on anyone right now. I'm very random at the moment. I thought of the most horrible thing today, I just thought of shoving a screw driver into a cows temple. If you seen my message board which I hope you have, I have a topic on them. How now brown cow. lol. I was bitching to everyone today. I smell like AXE calogne. My girl friend loves that stuff. Wow. This updates long. Why did you people make me do this... I don't want to update right now. I really dont want to. I need to go. I'm sorry, bye.

     March 26, 2004-Okay. I really don't know what to talk about today. It wasn't that exciting. My eyes really hurt though. Hmmmm... I think I fixed this computer. For all those that don't know I live with my mom, but I go to my dads and weekends. That means I use 2 computers, on is Windows ME, the other is Windows XP. Windows XP is better, but ME is waaaaayyy easier. Today was fun actually. I got to hang out with my girl friend, that always makes me happy. It fills me with joy. Like a glass of tea wear you poor too much and it's like, about to poor everywhere with one drop. I love that feeling. I'm listening to Alice Cooper. I love his music. Love is good on a bed of nail, gonna drive ya like a hammer on a bed of nails... LOL! Bed of nails by Alice Cooper. Thats a great man. He can sing so many types of music. Man makes your hair gray, hes your last mistake, you know you want a clean break. Alice is awesome. He might be better than Ozzy. I think I'll get going, I want to pay full attention to my girl friend now. Bye!

     March 25, 2004-Wow another update I'm not playing socom during. This might become a habit. I really updated like crazy yuesday. I think I already want to go. It's because I'm worried about a lot at the moment. Soooooo, yeah. I think I am going to get going now. I don't feel very good at the moment. Okay. I shall go now. Adios amigos, talk to you all tommarow.

     March 24, 2004-I am not playing Socom II at the moment. I feel angry and I have no idea why. I got my shower already. I usually get them right before i go to sleep. Not this time. I am really getting angry... I have no idea why. I am really f***ing pissed now. I really can't help. This isnt right. Okay. I feel a little better. My headache went away and I found my Pennsylvania Driver's manual. My girl friend knows a lot more than me, but I think that is natural for guys, lol. I am calm again. People say hi to me a lot in school. More than usual. I think I'm going to go study now that I got my Driver's manual. Soooooooooo... I'm going to get going. Adios amigos.

     March 23, 2004-I'm playing Socom II right now. I'm playing in a clan war. This is going to be crazy. My first clan war. *smiles* LOL. I got to watch Pirates of the Carribean, but I didn't enjoy it. Yay. My girl friend is happy. This rules. I love my clan in Socom. Just so everyone knows I'm not talking about a racist clan. A clan in Socom is like a bunch of people who play Socom together, usually... Wow. I sucked it up. I threw a grenade, but then I switched back to my gun and it was set to single shot. That means it only shot 1 bullet per time I clicked R1. It's like a semi automatic then. My clan friend is making bird noises, lol. Wow. I just learned that chanukah can be spelled lots of ways. I'm going to confront another source. My girl friend says that all the letters in parenthesis are optional, c)han(n)uk(k)ah, but its usually spelled chanukah or hannukah. that is interesting, yet a little confusing. It's also perplexing, lol. I used a big word. Mwuhahahaha. My tattoo itches, We are speaking like announcers in Socom II. I might get a boxing game, lol. I am getting resident evil outbreak. I know thatsd gonna be a scary game and it rules. I am gonna tell everyone what they one. Ewwwwwwww. I'm socom some major humpage is going on. OMG! We were playing leap frog in Socom! LOL! AHHHHH!!! The games over, we won. I did horrible though. I got a 5-5. Thats 5 kills, 5 losses. HAHAHAHA!!! I thought jesse was like the best at doinjg an Arnold personation, but right now Vash is. We want to start a show. B2C, the best show in the universe. LOL!!!! Vash is singing. HAHAHHA!!! I don't know if I want to. I was having fun. I wanna buy a hippy van, but instead my dads giving me his s-10. I am going to make that truck my pride and joy. My girl friend is fun to talk to, shes telling me feild hockey stories. That rules. Use birth control. Wow. This update is long. Dear jesus. Lol. We are talking about sex and kids. I died really quick. This sucks. Back to sex and kids. We agreed strip joints should have happy meal. It's my birthday and I'll cry if I want to, cry if I want to, cry if I want to. I gotta go. Adios amigos.

     March 22, 2004-Hmmmm... I can't remember what happened today. My computer messed up in school so I had to remake my turtle. Boo! Wow. Basement noises are funny. Noisy too! Good golly. Wow, my girl friend can do the laundry. I cant, I just cant. I always mess up. I'm hungry. I think I'm going to go get food. I don't know if I'll make pancakes or cereal. I'm hungry, pancakes it is. bye.

     March 21, 2004-Hello. Hmmmm... Let me think what happened today. OOO. Today was me and my girl friends 1 month anniversary. I gave her my favorite neclace. It's a dragon neclace. I bites the ring, and it rules. I love it. I love lexi more though, and she loved it too. So I waited till a good time. Our anniversary!!! Wow. I had fun today, just cuddling and watching the beverly hillbilly movie. I gotta get going now, so see ya. Bye bye.

     March 20, 2004-Hi! Today was good, but a little to much happened. I got 17 kills in one game in Socom II. But the main thing that happened was I have this blister wart thing on my finger, and my girl friend was hackin at it. With like a steak knife and scizzors too. It still didnt close up right. Thats what I dont like about band-aids. When they are on fingers they make the stuff not close up right. Sorry how my updates arent as full on weekends as usual but I do more. I found out I have 62 pages on this site. Thats crazy. Because of how I bult it I am barely taking 1/4 or the space they give me. As soon as I find a host I trust with my pictures I'll give them my pictures. Because I need like, to relieve some stress on my site with the pictures. I think this was a good update. Well. Oh yeah. Yetserday I felt like I was gonna die. My head hurt and my eyes hurt. Ouch. now time to scan for spelling errors. I found like 5. I fixed em. Time to go. Bye.

     March 19, 2004-I'm eating pizza. Jesse did a snot rocket. It was sick. I felt like one of micheal jackson's maids, having to witness something they didnt want to see. Sick tro the stomech, but powerless to stop it. lol. Crazy. I like food. Hmmmm... Salt and Vinegar chips rule. I like monkeys. They sound funny. Wow. I was watching the animal channel and I swear. I saw 60 cats. It's scary. The amount of cuteness stored in 60 cats... Killing 60 cats is equal to killing jesus... I swear. Sniffing markers is bad. It'll give you nose bleeds and brain damage. BAAAAAD! I'm going to leave you with my final thought. Although cats are red meat they arent a cow, don't eat then.

     March 18, 2004-Okay. I'm going to check out that game I heard about so much. Freelancer. It sounds good. I did a heck of a lot of work on this site today. I'll get into that in updates. Today in school I made a turtle. My girl friend requested it. Also, check out my new poem. Its great. I love it.. It's a little scary though. Morbidness! Mwuhahahahhahahaa!!! Okay. I'm better... I'm in a good mood. No school tomarrow. I like not having school. I got a 94 in gym! I was so amazed. I think it's because I don't a a pervert gym teachert who like to stare at us while we change. I now have a 25 year old gym teacher who acts just like us and watches MXC. Most Extreme Elimination Challange. It's a bunch of Japanese people killing them-selves in a sence. It's great. I think I'll install that game once I'm done here. All I have to do is update the glossary, the index page, and the updates page. I am doing so much right now. Well. Time to get going. Adios.

     March 17, 2004-Hi. I'm eating wendy's. MMMM!!! Chicken strips, homestyle. They are so good tasting, they are sexy... I like eating to much. Evetually I'll live in wendy's bathroom with a laptop, lol. I'll be a whining lunatic. MWUHAHAHAHA!!! I'm crrrrrrrrrrrrrAAAAAzy. I'm hyper. I'm trying to find an only space game. I wanna kill people in spaceships online... GRRRRRRRRRR!!! You give me games. NOW! Or not... I guess... I wanna play an online space game...! Please... I'm going to go try and find one. Tootaloo!

     March 16, 2004-Wow. I got out at 11 again! WOOOOOO!!! This time it was snow. Maybe I'll get out tommarow. That will rule. I am done with the Maxies Menu. I got it done. Wow. I was fun. But it took me from when I got home till like 6. I think I'm sick of all these racial stereotypes. If your black you got a big dick? That isn't how it works. Really, I mean it. If you were ever in a boys locker room you, you would know everyone is different. No 2 penises are alike, like snowflakes... I left the computer for like 20 minutes. I wondered around and then i cleaned my tattoo. Okay, it was more like a few minutes. I'm going to get going. Bye bye.

     March 15, 2004-Today was a little weird. At school I had to do that speech, but I think I did good! I don't know how I got that knoledgable in music. Stillnot in english, but o well, lol. OOO... Today at vo-tech we were coloring my hair with markers, lol. Crazy. Oh my. I just remembered. I got offered a ride home by 2 people I dont even know. That was crazy. They seem kewl though. I'm probably dying my hair black. W00tage!!! I think I want to play video games... Nope. I'm going on my own message board and doing an impression of a fish. Bye.

     March 14, 2004-I got this new game. Shadow Hearts... It's a great game. It has the most perverted storyline ever. I am really doubting the lenngth of this update. It's sorta late. It's not that late. I am running on 4 hours of sleep. My icy tea tastes fermented. I doubt I spelled it right... It tastes spiked, like a wine cooler. I am officially dieing. I did see Wrestlemania XX. It was crazy. I did that in substitution of my homework, which was to have a speech done. If need be I'll bullshit my way threw it. I usually get higher numbers so I might be tuesday. But since I just said that it'll be tommarow. My class is basically a sped class though, so I probably wont even need to give it tommarow. On thurday we were supposed to read the end of this story and do two worksheets, and not one person in the class did it. The reason I didnt was bacause the substitute was mean, not in action, but the tones she spoke in. They were neither respectful, or gracious. She really got under my skin. Wow. This update is going fast. I was looking for songs with backmasking in them, tohose are basically like those songs that, when played backwards, are supposed to have Satan in them. I took about 3 hours thinking of a system earlier today. WOW!!! My eyes want to sleep, so I'm going to leave. Bye.

     March 13, 2004-It's this websites 8 month anniversary! W00tageness! This rules. I'm going to start updating my message board with exclusive content. I don't like how its not being used, but it will now. I thought of something brilliant. OOO! I fixed something today. This site, I'm you noticed, Is missing its thought of the day for July 13, 2003 and half of the update to July 14, 2003. Text boxes in this have limits... I reached it, lol. I slayed its limit. I like the band slayer. I'm going to update my profile. Like now, so bye.

     March 12, 2004-I only had a half day at school today. I got to leave at 11. Wow. I want to play socom, but my girl friend is more imporatant to me. Waaaaay more. Today was fun. I watched a sad movie... Salem's Lot. My and my girlfriend didnt pay much attention to it. It's sad. I got to see my friend Megan for the first time today. She's really nice. A lot of my friends are nice. I think they all might be. I feel bad for danny. He left because he was intimidated. My girl friend is ticklish, and shes really cute. I'm Rick James bitch! I'm leaving now. Bye bye.

     March 11, 2004-Neat. I don't have vo-tech tommarow. Thats good. I got all the pain in the ass work out of the way too. I just have fun stuff. That always makes school easier. MMMMMM!!! Shrimp Spagetti stuff. No sauce. MMMMMM!!! Sorry. It's like an orgasm in my mouth. Shrimpy orgasm. YAYAYAYYAYAYA!!!!! Neato. Bye.

     March 10, 2004-Okay. This weeks crazy. I haven't played my bass in a week... That sucks. I've been playing socom II too much. Maybe I'll cut down. AHHH!! I haven't played SIMs in a week. When ever I dont I feel weird. So I'll probably take a shower than play with SIMs for an hour or so. I haven't been watching Anime much either. Damn. I haven't been doing much. Wow. My life has been lacking lately. Hmmm... My updates have been too... I think I want a shower, because I need to shave. I always shave when I take a shower. Wow. It's fun to clean my tattoo in school. I feel like I shouldn't be doing it there. I only have to do that for 7 more days. Okay. I need to go play SIMs and get a shower.

     March 9, 2004-This is not an update. Just telling you AOL messed up and cut off my service today. This is being updated march 10th, okay? okay.

     March 8, 2004-Okay... I am tired. I had a weird day. Yesterday was weird too... Lots of firsts. Today was a lot of firsts too. It's crazy. I think I'm going to leave soon. I hope you don't mind. I need to sleep, lol. It's late, real late. I need a shower too, and something to drink, and I need to pee. So I have to go. Okay??? Thanks. bye.

     March 7, 2004-Wow, I experienced the worst pain imaginable. I was swallowing worstershire sauce and I started laughing. It came out my nose... Ouch. Soda burns, but instead... Worstershire sauce is like, hell fire. Ouch... I don't think you get it. It burned like hell. I was in pain for an hour. OOO! My dad got a new car, an acura integra. It rules. He took me and Jesse cruisin'. Fun, my girlfriend cares so much she called a lot. It was sweet. I need to get going, see ya.

     March 6, 2004-I'm watching a video. Its about badgers. It rules. They are dancing. I put kittens as my desktop. Sty school I did. At my moms I have Dani Filth, and here its a skeleton about to give the grim reaper head, my dad picked that out though. Quoting danny," Son of a bitch, how did he get down there?" HAHHAHAHA!!! He sounds angered. If anyone wants to see the cartoon I'm watching click here. It rules. HAHAHHAH!!! Danny is now "f***in' pissed off." What a potty mouth danny has. Bye.

     March 5, 2004-Wow. I feel like I'm dieing. I'm angered too. People are too load... GRRRRR!!! What the hell. I was trying to talk to me girl friend because she was sad but they were way too load. I was playing the SIMs Bustin' Out. Good game, but they have no regular t-shirts. Everyone ios fancy and it sucks. Wow, it piss me off. Time to go.

     March 4, 2004-OMG! They made me do tiabo. WTF? It's not right, but because I'm getting a 90 I didnt wanna blow it. I would have a hundred if I didnt miss a day from being absent. I like gym! I dont like familiy and consumer science. I like cheese. Me and my girl friend sat okay too much. I'm going to sleep. Cuz online is not fun without her.

     March 3, 2004-Wow. Thats crazy. I was doing work today in school and they had me print this crazy thing out thats like 5 sheets of the same thing but all gay. Yeah... It's weird. I really can't stay because I need a shower. Then I need to go to sleep, because sleep is good. Real good. I need to sleep. Well... Sleep.

     March 2, 2004-Wow. My birthday present wise was great. But every other aspect sucked... I mean it. IT SUCKED!!! Why the hell are people telling me they arent gonna taslk to me on my birthday? 3 people. Really... That sucked... It only takes three people to f*** your birthday up. People were saying really mean shit to me too. How? This is messed up. People just try to hurt me constantly, I've learned to accept that, but why? I can't figure it out. It makes me angry. I am angry, and sad, on my f***ing birthday. Really! Why? I hope my girlfriend can cheer me up. She really can usually. She DID!!! I gotta get a shower now. Bye.

     March 1, 2004-Hey all. I am glad I started early. This would have been hell at 12. I am usually tired then. I had to adjust the archive, I'm gonna hafta do the glossary. Some crazy shit. Lemme tell ya. Thats bad english there. My english teacher would be ashamed... HAHAHA!!! I hafta read a childrens story in class tommarow, thats awesome. I wonder why I update this everyday. I mean it. I remember having a Blog, and I updated that like... none. I can't use proper english to explain that. OOO! I am most likely getting my tattoo tommarow. If not I'll be thursday! When I update tommarow I'll be awesome. Oh yeah. I love it. I don't know if I'll be getting tribal designs or a black panther. I always think of the racist group. Political party my ass. They are just as bad as the KKK. I wonder if spanish people or mexican people have racist groups... Hmmm... The Latin Kings maybe... Noooooo, they are a gang... Hmmm... I'm not even typing that in the search engine, bad results I bet. OOO!!!! GYM TOMMAROW! I love gym. More than family and consumer science. Home Ec, hehehe... I'm being evil. Home Ec. Mwuhahahahahaha!!!!!!    I'm so evil!!! I hope you read it!!! Read this that is! Yeah! One whole like of ! should be added to this from your conputer because its important. Moo!!!! HAHAHHAHAHAHAH!!! Crack, no, pot, no I'm not rockin' the gonj. Wow, I think I'm gonna go.