Apocalypse
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   The Apocalypse in near, the end is near, fear, fear, FEAR!!!  Mwuhahahaha.  This is my little thought archive.  Let the meyhem begin...now!  Also, if you were wondering if I ever talked about a certain subjects just press F-Ctrl.  Thats the F key and your keyboard and Ctrl is the most lower and left key on your keyboard, unless you are using a macintosh, in that case set your fingers on fire.  Also,  type in the subject and press enter when that box comes up.  Enjoy!

     August 31, 2004-Well...I have school tomarrow.  I really wish I couldn't say that.  Shit this sucks.  If I get any of those smartass teachers I'm going to be pissed.  I know my history teacher is cool.  Thats the only one I remember.  Lol.  I haven't seen my schedule since ummm...  A long time ago.  I have to look at the bright side.  It will be a little fun.  As long as I have my history teacher first.  I lost 40 pounds for school.  Hows that?  I'm not done.yet.  I got 10 more pounds until I reach my goal.  10 pounds is nothing.  That is probably a month.  I've noticed it coming of my stomach more lately.  My arms, legs, hands, even neck look thinner.  Thats good.  I mainly just had to much bulk on me for my liking.  Shit.  It's dark already.  This sucks.  This day is going to fast.  My last day of freedom.  Well...  I'm going to go do something creative.  Adios.

     August 30, 3004-Hi.  Today sucked.  I couldn't go for a walk today.  It rained all day.  Thats the on thing that really sucks about glasses.  If they get wet it's hard to see.  Hmmmm...  Anything else to talk about?  I got a new game today.  Starwars: Knights of the old Republic.  I only played like 4 hours, but my x-box like, attemted to shut of while I was playing.  Now it says 113244345 hours.  Oopsies.  I did something wrong.  Lol.  On a positive I lost weight today.  Thats always good.    Unles your like, 120 pounds.  Then its bad.  I have a honest question though.  Why would someone want to be like 85 pounds.  Its sick.  It looks sick.  85 poun means you have no fat.  Nothing.  Unless you  are a little girl.  You and your 5 year old sister aren't suppoed to weight just about the same.  Imagine they got a fat 5 year old sister.  They are like a hundred and there sister is 85.  That is going to make them stop eating.  That whole compitition.  Ehhhh...  I'm going to go.  Bye.

     August 29, 2004-Hey.  How are you?  I like monkeys.  I hate school.  School is horrible.  I have it wednesday.  Hmmmm...  I actually got to play a whole f***ing game in socom.  I got MVP because I'm that good.  So...  I only gained three pounds this weekend.  That means my metabolism is picking up greatly.  First week of my diet I gained like 7 pounds ovr the weekend.  Soon it'll be 2, then 1, then nothing.  I'm so happy that I'm finally getting better.  Also.  My ferrit bit my nipple.  I think I should stab my nipple witha ball point pen.  Well...  Adios.

     August 28, 2004-Hi.  I like penguins.  I saw Alien Vs. Preditor.  It's freakin' awesome.  The only movie better.  House of a thousand corpses.  That is one of my favoite movies.  That, Donnie Darko, Cradle of Fearm and Cowboy Bebop the movie.  All those movies make me want to stick a poker in me eyes when I'm not watching them.  That is funny.  Laugh...  Come on.  I'm waiting.  Still waiting... ...  Grrr...  Laugh or I will start cutting out your heart with a corn stalk.  You saw what I typed.  I meant it.  Oh, I went there.  I'm still not over South Park.  A taco that craps ice cream.  It's perfect.  Well...  It's go time.  Lets go lets go!  Bye.

     August 27, 2004-Hey.  I am updating.  Weeeee!  I new letter here.  A spelling correction heere, here.  Weeeee!  Who here would it a whole chicken?  For a good amount of cash I would.  Like, bones and all...  Like a thousand.  Ouch.  Processing a chicken.  Ooo...  Orgasmatastic.  My eyes hurt so bad.  It's like, not right.  How much pain must my eyes go through before one dies.  I would love that blind in one eye look.  On grey eye, one brown eye.  I scream for Ice-cream!   Ahhhhhh!!!!!  Boo!  Wakka wakka.  Wee woo wee woo.  Sorry.  I need to cut this short.  I am dieing.  Adios.

     August 26, 2004-Hi.  How are you?  I'm good.  My dad is getting my bass in november, so I get to buy video games.  I may get Starwars Battlefront.  Hmmm...  My connections been better lately.  Wow.  Ripleys Believe it or Not is on at great times.  Meow.  I like cows.  They moo.  Moooooooooooooooooooooooooo!  I mooed for you.  Be happy.  I am going to say w00t.  Lets see if I lost weight.  No6t really.  I'm at 164.  Grrrr...  I knew I houldn't have eaten today.  I'm going to cut back tommarow.  Saturday and sunday too.  I'm going to need to cut back.  My connection still sucks.  Still better...  Hmmmm...Do not give up.  Keep trying.  I don't know what you want to try to do.  But yeah.  Keep it up.  Bye.

     August 25, 2004-Hey.  Today I noticed my arms have more definition.  Hell...  My feet do.  It's really sad.  Hahahaha!  I'm watching Family Guy.  Peter keeps getting mauled by a raccoon.  Great comedy.  You know whats funnier?  The movie half baked.  Hahahaha.  I got that shit on DVD.  It's great.  It was really hot today.  So I'm going to bitch to you about it.  It had to be like 90 degrees today.  Can anyone say hide in a freezer with a penguin named bob?  I can, and just did.  Looks like the boys are in more trouble than a junebug in molassis.  Thats pretty thick molasiss too.  You know who iss awesome?  John Kerry.  He reminds me of Lurch.  From the adams family.  I am hungry for a taco.  Earlier I was hungry for meatloaf.  Oh well...  Friday I'll get my dad to get me some.  Meatloaf kicks ass.  Hell...  I'll eat it right out of the wrapper.  This stuff from this italian place in the mall.  Well...  This place behind that mall...  Mmmmmm...  Rocl the vote!  Bye.

     August 24, 2004-I'm hungry for meatloaf.  If I had a girlfriend I'd bug her till she got me some.  im always like that with my girl friends.  I have weird tastes too...  I always end up with people the complete opposite of me.  Personally though.  If the person can stand me and will hang out with me a lot, then thats all I require.  My collar bones are starting to stick out like crazy.  It's great.  Hmmm....  Meow.  I like pita bread.  It's tasty.  Well...  Time to go. Bye.

     August 23, 2004-Hi.  I went on an adventure today.  It was crazy.  I went to the park.  Well...  One of the people I know from school was sitting there in the park playing an acoustic guitar.  Two of my friend's friends were sitting there by the person I know from school.  The person said "Hey Kyler!"  My friend's friends Carly and Iris were all hey.  Then they followed me.  So we started walking around together like 2 hours, lol.  Then this dude I didn't know, rob, showed up.  He drove us to the mall.  At that point I was all.  How did I get to the mall.  It was crazy.  We walked around there for a while.  Then we all got our picture taken in this little booth along with like 5 other people.  Then I came home.  There is more for the adventure.  But thats not appropriate.  Lol.  Fun.  Well.  Adios.

     August 22, 2004-Hi.  I feel like shit.  I am soooo tired.  The bags under my eyes are black again.  I got like 10 hours of sleep too.  It's crazy.  I wonder.  How weird would people stair at you is instead of shouting USA you shouted oosa!  OOSA!  Say it with me.  OOSA!  Good boys and girls, and hermaphrodites.  I want to have a hermaphrodite as a friend.  That would be neat.  I mean.  Woah.  I really cant explain why.  I just like to meet people that are different.  Well...  Thats how I will leave you.  Bye.

     August 21, 2004-Hey all.  I'm just sitting here doing nothing.  Lol.  I was looking at swords, but nothing is on my most wanted list other than a 6 string bass and Smackdown! vs RAW.  I figure until then I'll just fix up my ESPN football a bit.  My created team is was to good on it.  I'm probably going to make a good offensive line.  That is where my team is lacking now.  I have problems keeping my quarterback safe.  Lol.  Football is banderous, so good bodyguards are required.  I am going to have a mediocre defenseive line, because I actually am pretty good with defense.  I'm probably only going to end up with one non-rookie.  Just to be team captain.  Oh well...  Lol.  I thought of something funny.  If you chuck a nurf ball aty a police officer, can you be arrested?  I wonder if they have a code for it.  A 5-15, nurfing a police officer.  Lol.  A 99-56, Assulting a police officer with a frozen turd.  A 6-24, Eating goat without a licence.  I beat there is even worse real ones, since those are fake...  Hopefully.  So, I downloaded this thing today called SimplyTalk 2000.  It has the speech engine of Bonzai Buddy.  That lovable purple monkey.  So cute and sweet.  I was listening to my older posts on this site.  I am one crazy f***.  Really.  I am and always will be.  My eyes are hurtin.  Lately they have been a lot.  Hopefully this week is a good week.  I hope I will lose a lot.   I'm going to exercise extra hard this week.  Maybe I'll lose a lot of weight.  Who knows.  My eyes hurt like a bitch, so see ya.

     August 20, 2004-I'm starting to fear that yahoo will take away my website.  They didn't take my oldone away though.  It had a story which it's premise was a cat man  would go around beating the helll out of hippies.  I guess as long as I don't have any pictures of chicks straddling ponies I'm alright.  The funny thing is all my pictures on the site have no humans.  Lol.  Or animals.  Just demons.  One demon.  W00t.  I do have a site that they most likely would say deals with satanism.  Yahoo can be sooooo stupid sometimes.  I went to create a member progile and was trying and trying.  It kept saying Your Identitiy contains invalid characters.  I put Kyler.  Thats my name.  It doesn't have invalid characters on my birth certificate.  Grrrrrr...  right now yahoo is on my good side.  Other than making me waste a half hour.  Which I would have done anyway...  Hmmmm...  After looking at this dudes website I see why my diet is working so well...  I am eating way less than most people do or should.  In the last week I've probably eaten as much as most toddlers eat, lol.  I've been exercising.  According to this guy 1 pound of fat will burn 50 calories in a resting session.  Right there.  That is why I am losing weight.  I am building muscle, and eating less.  I shall not be jumbo size for long!  Yaaaaaay! Bye.

     August 19, 2004-Hey.  I'm eating today.  I normally would feel guilty, but it's mostly vegetables.  So, for once eating doesn't make me feel like a pig.  Right now I'm 164.  I might be more later, or I might be less.  It all depends what metabolism is in.  It should be pretty good.  I worked out a heck of a lot today. My metabolism should be running full power.  Plus its hot out today.  I have no air conditioning.  Luckily I have a fan and plenty to drink.  That means I'll be peeing a lot, lol.  I just randomly thought I'd through that in somewhere.  My internet connection has been acting up.  I think aol doesn't want me playing socom.  It kicks out on me while I'm on socom and the computer.  Well, a new development.  Someone called and my connection went out a split second.  It was enough to scare me.  I thought aol was going to conk out on me.  Luckily yahoo page builder works on dial-up.  New development.  I will soon be getting a six string bass guitar.  That is what my dreams are made of.  I have gotten pretty much money over the summer through my job.  I bought a game over the summer though.  It was a 20 dollar game, but still...  I'm not going to be buying many games at all.  I'm saving for the bass.  The only game I am garranteed to get is Smackdown! vs. RAW.  I need to.  Other possible game are Fable, Tony Hawk Underground 2,and WWE: Day of Reckoning.  OMG!  I almost dropped a cup of Icy Tea on my crotch.  I'm glad I have good reflexes, but apparently my motor skills suck, lol.  But uhhhh, yeah.  Tony Hawk Underground 2 isn't a major one.  So I can just wait till christmas.  I love being Christian.  WWE: Day of Reckoning...  Un-needed, since it's basically a demo of SmackDown! vs. RAW.  Fable is sort of needed.  Not really.  So right now I have $180.  Assuming the rain stays tame I'll have 280 in a month.  That is enough for the bass I want.  It's made by a new company.  So it's cheap, and good.  They have some great reviews and its shipped from Union, New Jersey.  So it isn't much shipping.  My folks will gladly pick up the slack of shipping, and stuff.  Like 20 bucks.  This is probably the cheapist six string out there.  I garrantee its good though.  You know what sucks?  I have this phobia of being alone.  Like, majorly.  I need to constantly be on the computer, or on the phone.  Uck.   Competitive eating is the most discusting thing ever!  Yuck.  This dude ate 50 hotdogs.  I could probably eat 6 without regurgitating.  Lol.  Later I'd feel sick, but still...  I'm going to go try and play socom.  Adios.

     August 18, 2004-Hi.  I'm watching tv.  Right now I'm 165 pounds.  I only need 15 more pound to reach my goal weight.  Thats pretty good.  Thats ;ike another month of dieting.  I'm so psyched.  I'm actually doing it.  I'm getting thin.  I'm not sticking my finger down my throat, I'm not taking pills, I just modified my diet and am working out regularly.  W00t!  South Park is so funny.  It's that episode about Spontanous Combustion.  I like the goth kids.  They are so funny.  "Life is pain."  Hhahaha.  Thats funnier than a herd of old people falling down.  I'm now watching the olympics.  It's kinda neat.  I like watching gymnastics.  It's just crazy loooking.  I'm bored.  These olympics are getting boring.  Stupid swimming.  Wow.  Right now USA has 29 medals.  I am not feeling to funny today.  Adios.

     August 17, 2004-Holla holla holla holla.  I have no idea whats doing on.  I ate today.  Yum.  I'm talking to people on the computer and PS2.  Wow.  I keep thinking of stuff to say and losing it.  Whenever I get hurt I think ,"Would it make a good movie?"  Lol.  That is the thought that goes through my head the most.  I am selling peanuts for 30 cents each, any buyers?  I'm so tired.  OMG!  I'm so tired.  i just noticed.  I went a whole day without anyone being mean to me.  that is like, a first.  Some people were actually nice to me too.  W00t.  In like exactly 2 weeks school starts...  Grrrrrr....  School sucks.  Oh well...  I'm gonna get going.  See  ya.  Boo!

     August 16, 2004-Hey.  I believe ebonics is the end of mankind.  As you adapt the language many people will be left behind, untill finally its so different no one understands eachother.  Take for instance.... "fo shizzle my nizzle."  Now most of my white friends will agree,"What in the hell does that mean?"  I shall tell...  It means,"I concur with you whole heartedly my african american brothern."  You could also say 'hell yeah!"  It's like a whole other language... I actually had to go on urbandictionary.com That's the whitest moment of my life.  You have to agree I have a good point.  Socom is sucking horribly right now.  So skippy.  So laggy.  I am so pissed.  I play socom to have fun but because the f***s that own it dont maintain the servers it is sucking really bad.  We all stopped playing and are just talking.  Weeeeee!  Well.  Bye.

     August 15, 2004-Hi.  Okay.  I admit I freaked out a bit yesterday...  Woosh.  OMG!  I had the weirdest dream.  Okay.  The whole basis of this dream is you should know I am as close to insane as you get without haing to worry about being locked up.  I like to call this legally insane.  Well...  Lets say the start of my dream was me calling my friend who I've been kind of scared to call.  It's 2 and a half weeks untill I start school.  So I have thought about calling her.  I have been isolating my-self from people lately.  That sucks because I've been doing it subconsously and I am actually a peoples person.  That wasn't part of the dream, that was just like... backround information.  Now.  It started with my calling her.  So, although I'm sure shes been working a lot lately we got to hang out.  Well...  We kind of found that we liekd eachother, which is complete bullshit since we are 3 years apart.  I am 16, she is 19.  Although I have dated someone 2 and a hlaf years older I never cleared the 3 mark.  Well...  Back to the dream.  See...  She said she was going to come back to the vo-tech I go to to visit, since she graduated it.  Well...  I have no doubt she will do it.  But now, we hung out in my dream.  We were at a bar, or maybe a restaurant.  I don't know, neither of us are old enough to drink, so lets say a restaurant.  Well...  My friend gio who I've had numerous conflicts with comes up and sits next to me.  He was, " So you got your-self an Ultra-goth."  Well...  You see,  my friend who in this dream I'm dating believes labels are stupid.  She convinced me this was true in minutes.  I still believe this.  So she beats the hell out of him.  The perfect evening comes to an end.  Well...  The big day comes and school rolls around again.  She happens to know exactly when my lunch rolls around and she visits me.  In real life I know she drives, but I also realize she most likely doesn't know where my actual school is.  Well...  You should know that she lives a bit away, not a long distance, just a good drive, like, an hour I guess.  But yeah.  She drug my into the boys bathroom(in the dream).  We didn't make out or anything.  Just pissed.  Then she drug my outside.  Oh yeah.  Something you need to realize about this dream is in it, if you stuff your-self into a trashcan you transport to any place with another trashcan.  So me and my friend stuff our-selfs into a trashcan at my school.  Then we end up at my dads.  The funny thing is the two of us end up in the trash can under a shelf, so we hop, whil inside it.  Then we like, fall out.  Did I mention this is a weird dream?  So, my friend krissy is at my dads.  I have no idea why...  Also.  This wasn't a R rated dream.  But me and my friend(not krissy) enter a room and I don't know what happened.  We came out happy.  I just don't think it's fair that in my own dream, I don't get to see why me and and my friend are smiling.  Big smiles, lol.  Well, then my, my friend, and krissy enter the confines of that tenny trashcan again.  We en up back at my school, and enter the vo-tech bus.  So, This guy was a real jerk to me that happens to ride the same bus.  I'll admit, there is a lot of shit to get on my case about.  The fact, if we use labels...  I am a goth.  But...  Yeah, in my dream I beat the living hell out of this guy.  On a bus, and don't get in trouble.  Lets not dig into that any further.  Well...  When we get to my vo-tech and start having a blast like we used to in class.  Thats all I remember.  Oh wait.  I remembered something.  I missed the first day of vo-tech in the dream because of my and my friend being at the restaurant.  That's the end of the dream.  I think it's because I have this huge thing where I don't want to be alone, I'm extremely afraid of anyone judging me, and I really am a different person.  When most people get to know me they back away, and just lose interest.(I'm guessing)  But yeah.  I also am going back to vo-tech basically alone.  Most my friends at vo-tech were seniors.  They aren't going to be there when I go back.  You know what I'm thinking...  F***!  But yeah, I think this dream is basically forcing me to call my friend.  I really will feel like shit untill I do.  Well... Not shit.  I have ups and downs...  I really don't feel like going back to school.  Well...  Okay, I do.  I like new experiences, and judging from what my teachers been saying about vo-tech, next year will be...  But uhhg, yeah.  I find I like rather butch women.  Not to the point they don't shave, thats ew.  But to the point they aren't girly girls.  Well, sometimes I do like girly girls.  So I guess I need someone with split personalities.  Well...  I've had a girl friend with split personalities.  Well...  Not many people that new her thought she had split personalities.  No one agreed on her though.*cough cough*  I dated her, it's so obvious.  Yeah.  So her brothers in jail.  I wonder if he still wants to fight me, lol.  Most people dont like hearing certain things about what their sister could improve on...  Shhhhhhh.  lol.  He started it, I ended it, then he went to jail on drug charges.  But yeah.  I am still feeling weird after that dream.  Ahhhh!  I really don't enjoy the feeling I have right now.  Thats why I am going to keep updating my site until it's time to leave my dads.  Lol.  Then when I get home I'll probably listen to slayer.  Adios.

     August 14, 2004-Hi.  Well...  I'm bored out of my mind.  I swear...  I wish people would make up there minds on my health status.  Am I fat or thin?  I peronally think I'm a discustingly fat pig just waiting to have a heart attack.  No matter how much I exercise, no matter how little I eat, I don't get any thinner.  It's driving me f***ing insane.  Why does god give some people those awesome fucking metabolisms and stick me with this shitty ass f***ing half retarded one.  I swear, all I want in life is to be thin.  God wont give me this.  Why?  I'm, starting to think it's impossible.  I am just about ready to stick my finger down my throat.  At least then I'd see my meals aren't adding to my bulbous stomach.  The only thing I've notice is a bit more endurance while exercising.  My friend who has been thin and evenm had abs all his life is begining to get fat.  Just you wait.  I'm going to make fun of him, just like he has done to me.  I'm actually catching up to his weight.  We started almost 50 pounds apart.  Lol.  I'm hoping by next year I am thin and muscular.  Wow.  I'm definitally more agile than my friend Danny.  He well...  has trouble getting up off the couch.  I'm watching the Olympics.  Pommel Horse.  That  was crazy.  I'm glad I can't do that.  I have an honest question.  How long is it going to take for a gay person to assassinate bush?  If I were gay bush would be dead.  Honestly.  That man is asking for it.  Pow pow.  Ahhh!!!  Herrs now makes Steak and Worstershire chips.  Thats great.  Well... Bye.

     August 13, 2004-Hi.  It's friday the 13th.  W00t.  It's the 13th months anniversary.  This brings up a funny memory out of the blue.  2 years ago I when tto the Holocaust Museum.My friend went too.  And her wore a shirt that saud kill the witness.  He was booted out of the museum.  The funny thing is he is jewish.  A jew not welcome in the Holocaust Museum.  Hahahahha!  Also.  Check out deviantArt.  It's the website I put all my art on.  I like some of my pictures.  They keep getting better.  Wow.  I am really tired.  I'm sick of people trying to use me.  I swear.  If it's not one girl trying to get in my pants without dating me its another girl trying to date me when I don't like them.  I'm not even a picky guy, most people just don't understand me.  I don't understand why no one can understand me....  Actually, thats a lie.  A few people do understand me.  A select few are gifted with the abiltity to understand me.  I am frustrated because I need a girl friend, but I am not going to say yes to just anyone.  I need a lot of attention.  I am waiting for someone who will pay a lot of attention to me.  I alsso need someone wo genuinly loves me.  I think those are the two basic things all reltionships need.  I need someone who would do anything to me.  HOoly!  It's raining like the dickens.  Wow.  It wouldn't rain till 7pm.  It was trying since 4am.  Lol.  It's now 2am the next day.  W00t.  You know what makes me kewl?  I have a cell phone.  Tremble in those words.  You heard me....  Are you trembling?  Good.  Good...

     August 12, 2004-Hi.  Wow. I was taking a walk yesterday and noticed there is a dialisis center near my house.  If my kidneys ever conk out I'll be lucky.  Thats not a joke.  I always think about what will happen if I get sick or in ultra bad health.  I'm too young to write a will.  It sucks so bad.  The rdio reception in my room sucks so bad.  My alarm clock dont even work.  Lol.  So I need to switch to buzzer.  OMG!  The coolest guy in the world is on Divorce Court.  The loudest f***ing lady ever is on too.  I swear.  She has already lost this case.  She threw him out of the house for doing the wash wong.  At least hes doing the wash!  Honestly.  Shes so ungrateful.  She would be able to sstrut her ugly ass around in her hoochie clothes without him washing her clothes.  She looks just like Raineesha from Reno 911.  Well....I need to go get dress for work.  See ya.

     August 11, 2004-Hey.  I still don't know what to do for the 13 month anniversary.  Honestly.  Hmmmm...  I like cheetos.  Maybe that will work out to something.  Okay.  No it wont.  Lol.  Oh my gosh.  I got it.  I'll put a link to that site that I put my pictures on.  I'm watching Mad Tv.  It the bid with the parents that do everything in their underwear.  OMG!  I feel so bad for this guy on Mad Tv.  I was watching that Micheal Jackson biography saturday, and laughing my ass off...  Wow.  My ears are healing up really well...  I think they are completely healed.  It's been a month.  I'm probably going to wait till the 16th to put new earrings in.  I'm going to gauge up to a regular size.  They pierce it ultra little.  I'm just going to stick a cool looking earring in.  I don't care what gauge it is.  Oh yeah.  I got socom working.  Weeeeeeeee!  I took a walk though so I haven't played it today.  Wow.  ???????????????Thunder.  I keep saving incase the internet or computer shits out on me.  Hmmmm...  What should I do for the anniversary.  I thought of one thing to do with this site, but I value my eyes.  I don't feel like pullying it out with a spoon and incasing it in a window washing liquid.  I think I'll right a really f***ed up story.  I mean like, one of those stories that make people uncomfortable.  I don't know.  Golly...  Oh yeah.  That new wrestling game is crazy.  It's not out yet.  Smackdown! vs. RAW!!!  It's going to be a blast playing that.  Well...  Adios.

     August 10, 2004-Hi.  AOL is apparently having connection problems...  I don't think it's my modem.  This is a new f***ing modem.  Rawr!  Ack....  Socom wont go on.  It keeps saying Invalid Account.  I think AOL is having troubles.  Like.  It's dieing, lol.  I'm gad I worked out today.  I still got that natural high going on.  I still have no idea what to do with the site for the 13th.  Especially right now being on dial-up.  Lol.  Wow.  I'm watching southpark.  The mall cop maced cartman.  The funny thing is cartman could have sued the mall cop.  Lol.  The whole episode is about how cartman wants to make ten million dollars.  He could have made a shit load right there.  I'm getting kind of pissed.  No one is letting my sleep today.  Hahahaha!  Southparks funny as hell.  They are a boy band and they went to audition for a gig in the mall.  "I think your good, just not as good as sausage and cheese..."  Lol.  It's sad.  Hmmmm...  i think I may add a button on the site to deviant art.  The site I use to show off the pictures I make on the computer.  Lol.  Some of them suck, but I have fun making them.  Some random person asked for my a/s/l.  Age/ sex/ location.  I was all...  16/ male/ PA.  They were all 16/ female/ PA.  Lol.  Now I've confused them by speaking of cheese.  Cheese in all its dairy goodness, unless your lactose intolerant, or a diabetic, or don't like cheese...  Yeah.  I'm going to get going.  Adios.

     August 9, 2004-Hi.  I haven't done much today...  I took a walk...  Went to sleep...  I played video games a bit...  Anything else? Made my grandmother dinner, and ummmm....  Thats all...  Garsh.  I think I want to learn kung fu.  The wire type.  Lol.  I'm excited about the new wrestling game for the playstation 2.  Andre the Giant was probably the best wrestler ever.  Hell.  He could pack down a keg of beer a day and didn't even die of liver problems...  Thats insane.  I'm bored.  I have no idea what i could do for the 13 month anniversary...  Hmmmm...  Well.  I'm bored.  So bye.

     August 8, 2004-Okay.  I know what you people probably thought, and the answer is no.  I'm not dead.   My dads computer is busted.  It's being fixed and it still isn't.  I ended up staying with him an extra day too.  So basically I had no way of updating this beautiful hunk of cyber space for the 6th and 7th.  You know what though...  This has been building up for a while and its happening now...  I am going to tell my basic beliefs on a few things.  One thing I believe is all love is beautiful.  gay, strait, it don't matter.  One thing I also believe is love is to be shared between two people.  ????????????Not between a network of people.  Lately I've noticed a lot of my friends who happen to be girl have happened to be going with other girls or kissing other girls just for attention.  You know how I know its for attention?  There obviously isn't any love in these relationships.  That pisses me off when people aren't together for love.  I was really irratable today too.  Some of these people who angered me really got a good "toungue lashing."  Lol.  Well...  I really needed to get that out of my system.  Adios.

     August 5, 2004-Stomp on the Devil!  The antichrist took about 3% of one of the shows I watch in the morning.  I'm not working today.  OMG!!!  Worst people on this show I'm watching.  It's Called Life Today.  They actually had a pregnant girl on just to say...  Hope he comes out a Conservative.  I've been up 12 hours, weeeee...  When you start a fire, put it out.  Stomp on the Devil!!  W00t...  I'm watching Ricki Lake...  This girl "Aint Bubu da foo."  Okay.  IOkay.  I was starting to have problems losing weight.  So I basically gorged yesterday and didn't gain weight.  Today I lost 3 pounds.  I like to think about a diet like playing football...  Losing weight is good.  So you do running plays to hold your ground, and when your ready you try a passing play for a huge gain.  Tommarow I might get into the 160's.  I was actually an obese kid, so this is great.  I haven't been this weight since like... 11.  Well...  Time to go!  Bye.

     August 4, 2004-Hey.  How are you?  I'm okay.  my dad got his stolen car back.  It was missing its wing, its nose was smashed in on two sides, it's passenger side headlight was busted, its passenger side turn signal was cracked in half, it's driver side turn signal needs a new lens, it was huge black streaks down both sides, rap music was on the radio, all my dads insurance papers were behind the car in the street, the front passenger side rim was bent,,and when we got it, the windows were covered in beer.  This society we live in is horrible.  I like, hate it.  It makes no sense to steal my dads car. There are plenty of nicer cars.  On our block for god sakes.  ???I'm really angered...  Grrrrr.  We got it back at 4:30 this morning.  I haven't slept in 36 hours so ummmm... good night.

     August 3, 2004-Hi.  I walked over an hour from my dads to my moms just for all of you loyal readers, lol.  That and my workout station iss better than my dads.  I only work out with 40 pounds.  I find I actually get a better burn because I workout longer then.  He works out with like a 100 pounds.  I'm sure he cant lift as long as me because hes using a 100 pounds.  Wow.  It's good to be home.  I don't have any music at his house.  I'm going back in a bit.  I don't know when his computer will be fixed.  I need to here some old school rock n' roll.  AC/DC, Alice Cooper, Iron Maiden, etc.  Then I need to hes some heavy stuff like Slayer, Satyricon, etc.  For some reason when I look at etc.  I think it should be ect.  I have no idea why.  I feel pretty good after that walk.  I am like, literally covered in sweat.  After I update this site I am going to workout.  I am in a good mood right now.  I really would like to get to working out before my endorphins when out.  I think everyone would benifit from working out.  You get the best natural high.  I'm like addicted to working out.  It's great.  You feel so good about your-self afterwards.  I think the first few times I worked out it was because I felt really bad about my-self.  I am blessed with a good body that doesn't get hurt much, doesn't even bruise easily, and I was just letting it go.  It really shames me to think how bad I got.  I lost 25 pounds now  anf thats not including the fact I've been working out.  I probably gained like, 5 pounds in muscle.  See.  It's easy to gain muscle weight if you work your whole body.  Most people get discouraged working out because they can't do much.  Eceryone, I highly recommend putting like 20 punds on a barbell(the long one) and going at it for a minute or two.  Wait like 10 or 15 minutes, and try again.  It might take you a minute and a half to feel a burn that time.  I'll admit, working out will makee you hurt afterwards, but I fell so good about my-self afterwards.  It's like I'm on ecstasy without the risk or dieing from dehydration, lol.  I am probably less funny.  I'm a ****ing idiot after I work out.  I'm all w00t.  I know this guy Brian who hates when I w00t.  not say w00t, I w00t it up.  Hahahahhaa.  W00t brian.  You heard, errr, say that.  W00t!  just for you bri-dog, hahahhaa.  Oh yeah.  Message for brian.  I am walking through the ghetto with a keyboard just for you.  Hahahahha!  Well...  Work out time.  Adios amigos.  Wait.  I just had a revelation.  I think the reason some people are really critical is because they don't work out a lot so they don't get enough endorphins released in their bodies.  You know who you are.  Most likely people still like you though, so don't worry.  I can picture like 30 of my friends reading thing and confronting me.  They would be all," Hey, did you say I'm a critical person?"  Hahahahhaha!  Bye!  God damn it.  I keep thinking of funny shit a minute after I ex this out.  I was talking to my friend on the phone, and out of nowhere she hears me say," Don't jump on me. this things huge and has no handles.  Look, I'm holding it with two hands."  She says," Oh my god Kyler, I wasn't aware of that, but its good to know."  I was all," Ack.  I'm talking to my dog, about this cup I'm holding you nympho."  Hahahahhaa!  Well, bye.

     August 2, 2004-Hi.  I think today sould be national hedgehog day.  Groundhogs arent as cute and they have their own day.  They are probably stronger or something.  Oh yeah.  We took my dads computer to this guy to fix it.  He says its windows.  It has a built in safety feature, when it thinks its not working properly it will shut down to protect your computer.  I have seen that computer in some horrible shape.  This must be bad.  I still remember we tried putting RAM in my grandmothers computer.  This was years ago, when I was like 11.  We bought the wrong type and all the monitir would display was pink, lol.  Many shades.  It was crazy.  Pink and light blue.  It may have shown a little teal as well...  My memory is not great, lol.  Sleep time.  Bye.

     August 1, 2004-Hi.  I ordered the motherboard.  So in 5-8 days I'll start building my dad a new computer.  Oh yeah.  I worked out more today.  50 minutes.  Thats pretty much for me.  I spent like 15 minutes on the arms alone, lol.  They wouldn't feel the burn.  Rawr!  Lol.  Heck.  My chest felt the burn when I was done with my arms.  I will pump you UP!  Lol.  I'm going to walk to my dads tommarow.  Thats like 45 minutes of walking.  Thats good.  The U.S. government recommends at least 30 minutes of physical activity.  Oh yeah.  My dads computer might be getting fixed.  It might just be windows.  If thats the case then we are lucky.  We will have 1 and a half computers.  Hell...  Soon maybe even 2.  I'm going with my dad to take this computer to the computer guy.  We are going to re-install windows and hope it works.  That computer is an ass.  Thats why we need a new one.  So I'm fixing the problem.  I think santa should be a defensive lineman.  He has to be 500 pounds.  Hahahahaha!  I should start "b-ballin'"  Lol.  That's sad coming from my mouth.  I am one of the people who lean to the dark side.  I'm not going to say evil.  Just leaning...  Weeeeeeeeeeeeee!  I'm going to go now.  Adios amigo!

     July 30, 2004-I wonder.  Why don't all cows die of heart attacks?  Really.  I noticed some people really dont like being called by their names.  I wonder why.  Probably because some people have names that don't suit them, like gary.  It only suits gay men, but lots of strait men have it.  Grrrr!  Listening to music makes me want to play it.  This will be my last update until sunday.  Unless my dads computer decides to work.  At least I can still go on socom, and xbox live.  I need to get a shower before my dad comes and pack everything I'm taking.  I want to get into a speed metal band.  My eyes really hurt yesterday.  I was up from 6am until 4am.  Think of that, lol.  I didn't feel tired.  I think it's green tea.  I'm listenign to like, viking music, lol.  It just has 2 electric guitars, a bass, a keyboard, and 1 singer.  Of course drums.  Ack....  I just woke up.  I really want to try a banjo out.  I'm gonna learn to play one by the end of the weekend, just for the comical property.  Lol.  I should go on the side walk in a pair of overalls, and a straw hat ad play it, and say,"Mmmmhhhmmmm I reckin."  I'm just trying to get the most computer in I can before the weekend.  Not exactly the reason I woke up at 1:30pm.  Lol.  Well....  I need to get a shower before I go.  Adios amigos.

     July 29, 2004-Hi.  Those slight pains haven't left me yet, but they aren't getting worse.  I'm very excited about some great news.  I get to build my dad a new computer.  It'll cost about 200 dollars.  Thats pretty cheap for a good computer.  Hes been getting good parts and putting them in a bad computer.  Luckily...  So I'm just getting a new motherboard, and some new R.A.M.  All the other parts are coming from his old computer.  Think of that.  You don't need to understand computers to know how much is coming out of his old one.  A lot.  Later we will put some better parts in.  I think an animal died somewhere around my house.  It smells like rotten potatoes mixes with moldy bread with a hint of ginger.  Wow.  This game coming out for X-Box...  It's called fable, and is a remake of a computer game of the same name.  That computer game looks like something from nintendo.  Thats at best.  Well...  My dad doesn't have a computer now because his old one died...  Thats why I get to build a new one.  So no update saturday.  Adios.

     July 28-2004-Hi.  I still have some slight pains in my stomach.  It's getting better though.  Thank god for pepto bismol tablets...  Personally I like the liquid more.  The original, not the cherry.  Did you hear their new motto?  pink tastes better than you think.  Hahahahahahaha!  Work tommarow!  Woo!  W00tage!  Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!  Family guy is the funniest show ever!  "The underpant.  Lose 'em."  "Run along stewey.  Daddy had a rough night'  Hahahahaha!!!  For some reason I cant break 175...  I wonder why...  I lose 25 pounds and thats where my body wants to stop...  When my stomach is finally better maybe I'll weigh less.  I imagine any weight isn't that accurate to how much I'm losing.  I am lifting weights and walking.  I am gaining weight in muscle while slimming down.  I'm getting more defined, so thats pretty neat.  Well...  I'm going to get going.  Adios and good day, also, pip pip cheerio.

     July 27, 2004-Hi.  Wow.  My stomach is killing me.  I've asked around.  Nobody can figure out what it is.  I mean some horrible pains.  I was like, doubled over.  Loosly translated... Ouch!  Hmmm...  Wow...  This new football game I got is really neat.  I tackled the quarter back and he flipped over!  Hahahahaha!  Ouch!  When I'm sick I am very violent.  I am going to lay down.  I feel like I'm dieing...

     July 26, 2004-Well...  I am at a loss about my dads computer.  It isn't the  RAM, the fan, or the harddrive...  I am so clueless to what it could be...  My dads car got stolen too...  Never say he doesn't live in the ghetto...  Lol.  What to say...  I like chicken, I like liver, meow mix meow mix please deliver.  What else needs saying...  OOO!  Thats all...  I'm kind of pissed.  I was playing socom and a member of my clan killed me and we were on the same team.  He had the worst excuse...  He said he accidentally did it.  One shot to the head isn't an accident.  Then I'm playing with a clan that is very closely associated to mine and they tried to vote me out of a room...  That really angered me...  I'm going to go play bass...  Bye.

     July 25, 2004-Hi!  My dads computer is so messed up.  I am going to need to stick that restore disk in....  Then lets hope it'll work...  If that doesnt work I'll start pulling the R.A.M. cards out and check to see if they are burned out.  Anyway I am sure I'll have this fixed before he gets home from work.  I think that will be nice.  I need to walk there too.  I am going to leave at 7:30.  Right after I watch this televangelist.  Yes.  one minute until benny hinn...  then I'm walking to my dads.  Thats definitaly a couple miles.  More than a couple actually...  I am suck a Hinninite!  Lol...  I'm so anxious to go fix my dads computer...  I'm so jelous of my ferrit.  How thin she is...  How does she do that?  She eats food meant for a creature 3 times her size...  Cat food.  They don't have ferrit food, and if they do it could be fed to a cat, trust me.  Your supposed to feed them kitten food...  Why are all these people crying on Benny Hinn...  They are just singing Holy Holy Holy Hole!  I think that's illegal...  Lol.  I am going to go fix a computer now.  Adios.

     July 24, 2004-hey.  I'm just sitting here.  I got a new belt because my current one is too big.(yes)  That tells me something good.  I am on the last loop of this one.  Lets see how long until I'm at a good loop.  This belts size is 32.  I dunno what my other belt was.  I'll just call it fat...  I really was getting pretty fat...  I definitally jump-started my metabolism exercising.  It all started when I read this thing about how your bloodtype really affects how you should eat and your proper diet.  For my blood type I need to exercise regularly and eat healthier, and in turn my metabolism will burn fast.  I just powerbombed my friend danny.  Hahahha.  I did a sit down powerbomb.  My dad has ants really bad right now.  He has earwigs too right now... hmmmmmmmm...  Its because of the fact its been thunder storming for a few days now.  It isn't supposed to stop for another few.  F***.  I hate bugs.  Those earwigs are really discusting.  I did need a new belt.  I had that ghettotastic look going...  I hate that look.  I preffer my pants to cover my thieghs... In some of the more extreme cases I'd need to mention calves too.  I left my piercing cleaning solution here at my dads.  I'm glad I'm aloud to use peroxide too...  I like my piercing cleaning solution more.  It's easier to clean with.  Well...  I best get goin, yeehaw.  Bye.

     July 23, 2004-Hi.  I am sitting here.  I am typing.  Go me.  I ate chciken today.  I woke up at 3.  Didn't go to sleep till like 9, but I only got up at 3.  Hmmmm...My friend is eating half a chicken with his fingers.  The same who just a little while ago stabbed my arm with a ritz bit.  Only a little bit of blood.  More than enough from a ritz bit.  A hard peice of baked cheese...  Meow...  I shall steal your soul.  Wow...  I am not the antio-christ...  Just follow me and you will get into heaven, no its and or buts...  Oh come on.  It'll work.  I'll steal your soul...  I mean...  I wont steal your soul...  Yeah.  Not steal your soul.  I will not steal your soul.  I promise, scouts honor.  I'm not a scout anymore!   Hahahhahahahaha!  I mean.  I wont be a scout, errrr, anti-christ.  I will help you get your soul into heaven...  Ohhhh!!!  New anti-christ question.  "What if the anti-christ comes while I'm driving my car and appears right in front of me and makes me drive my car off the road and hurt someone.  Will I recieve eternal damnation?"  Answer.  Do what you do, kill who you kill, burn when you burn, w00t!  I am going to go.  Adios.

     July 22, 2004-Hi.  I worked today.  I heard new stuff about Smackdown! Vs. Raw.  It might be online.  It has create a belt, create a pay-per-view, the create a wrestler is better looking.  I'm watching a televangelist.  I think I will become one.  Mwuhahhahahaha!  They will start calling my the anti-christ.  I'll have the people follow me to their deaths.  I just want people to avoid the anti-christ and go to heaven before he arrives.  That comment right there makes my the anti-christ apparently.  Mwuhahahhahahaha!!!!  I shall steal all your base.  All your base are belong to me.  !!!!!!!!  I shall take your bases.  I will dominate.  Dominate you all...  Sorry.  I had a moment.  I have then temporary spazstic moments.  I am speed typing.  i am staring at the whole keybourd.  I just have to stop to check my spelling and catch up with my thoughts.  I think in sounds and not words.  So I can mis-hear my-self.  My secritaries think in words and that way they can type faster and comprehend words more so they dont need to catch up with there faults.  Ack!!!  Argggg!!!!!!!!!!!  Katchup bottle!  Meow.  Meeeeeeeeeeeoooooow!  Through my savior Jesus Christ I shall convert you all to his divine presence.  You just watch me.  i will do it and you will soil your-self in his almighty presence.  That wasn't me.  It wasn't Jesus talking through me.  OMG!  I'm kidding, lol.  OMG!  You have to hear tyhis.  this girl on this show I was watching yesterday I was a total dumbass.  The was all,"My and my boyfriend recently borrowed money from my father to buy a house.  What if the anti-christ comes before I can pay it back.  Will I go to hell?"  Me and my friend were making fun of her.  We were all," What if I'm at the store and I'm buying something and the Anti-christ comes.  What if I don't get a chance to pay."  Hahahhahahahha!!!!  Okay...  *Pop*  Ouch.  I hafta go.  bye.

     July 21, 2004-Hi.  How are you?  I am officially a Rap teacher.  I am officially white too but thats the least of my problems.  This stupid weather is costing me some major cash.  It's pissing me off...  Wow.  I'm just watching videos on ebaumsworld.com  It's one of my favorite websites ever.  I just got hyper and its kinda late, lol.  I dont feel like typing.  I feel like stealing everyones souls and pissing on there body whichare now shells of their past beings because I stole their souls and sold them to satan.  Mwuhahahahhahahha!!!  I win.  I win it all!  Hahahahahaha!!!!!  I must go now.  Bye.

     July 20, 2004-I am going to post the lyrics to one of my favorite songs ever. 
I want candy, bubble gum and taffy
Skip to the sweet shop with my sweetheart Sandy
Got my pennies saved so I'm a sugar daddy
I'm her Hugh Cronyn, she's my Jessica Tandy, I want candy!

Gonna get ya ass kicked
Nasty
Do it to your daddy, embarass your own family
Just 'cause you came in front of a kid and his candy
I need candy
Any kind'll do
Don't care if it's nutritious or "FDA approved"
It's gonna make me spaz like bobcats on booze
A hyperactive juice that only I can produce

Use a giant dril
Bore straight into hell
Releasin ancient demons from a sleep forever spell
So they can walk upon the earth
And get resituated
And hawk the diet pills that MC Pee Pants have created

Mess up the mix, mix up the mess
Come on down yo, here's the address
I said six, one-two Wharf Avenue
Six, one-two wharf avanue

That is so awesome.  It's from the show Aqua Tenn Hunger Force.  It's from an episode where a giant spider tried to dig a tunnel into hell.  Read the closely.  It's from a guy called Mc Pee Pants, lol.  I'm going to memorize the whole song.  I'm going to go sing it more.  It's the socom apocalypse.  There are like 200 rooms in every Room.  It's so sad.  Well...  Adios.

     July 19, 2004-Hi.  I hate thunder and lightning.  It makes the electric go out and makes my connection speed slower for like an hour.  Oh well.  Hmmmmm...  I wonder why wrestling stopped using Marilyn Mansons song The Beautiful People.  It really makes no sense.  It's better than that shitty rap song they have now.  Metallica, the worlds biggest band?  Thats a lie.  Just because they have a movie they are the worlds biggest band?  That means they are bigger than the beatles and they a bigger than jesus.  So in turn they are bigger than jesus.  I think not.  I will respect Metallica more if they don't have quility control over their commercials.  They had a few good albums back in the day, then a horribly shitty one.  One so bad people made fun of them for re-uniting.  Judas Preist is better and I don't listen to them, lol.  Those guys on wrestling.  I wonder if one of them ever did something really discusting before coming out.  Like pissing on an electrical socket.  Or spiting on blind children.  Good lord.  Edge finally stopped using that crappy Rob Zombie song.  Rob Zombie is becoming a much better director than a Musician.  Personally I think Rob Zombie has been going downhill ever since White Zombie was gone.  Hellbilly Deluxe was mad on steam left from White Zombie.  Lol.  That was his best album.  I liked him more when he was a zombie and not a retarded preist.  His stuff has lost all quality.  My best advice.  If you are out there Rob, take it from a fan, Revert to your former glory.  Play your old stuff.  It worked for Alice Cooper, it can work for you.  Oh lord.  That new skittles commercial disturbs me.  The one with the eagle feeding the man in the nest skittles.  That is a case of what were they smoking.  Todays main topic has been quality.  Wow.  I have the hiccups.  Damn.  Edge is a great wrestler.  HAHAHHA!!  Orton said, get the f*** up.  1, 2, 3.  Edge did like 8 specials...  Yay.  Edge kicked out.  I'm not telling the end.  For those on the central and west time zones.  That was one hell of a match.  All I'm saying as it should've been for the world title.  Well...  Socoms been laggy as hell all day.  Maybe it'll be better now.  Adios.

     July 18, 2004-Hello.  I caught a turtle today, lol.  My friends grandmother called and asked me and him to go over and get the turtle that wondered into her yard.  I grabbed it, put it in a shoe box, and let it out in my dads yard.  Then I gave the shoe box back, just incase you were curious.  You want to know whats funny?  I'm typing.  Mwuhahahahahahahah!!!  I'm typing evil thouhts, kill, kill, die, kill, then die again.  Be a dark angel.  Be a light angel too!  Be a fallen angel.  Be an angel fish.  Nooooo!  Be a swan.  For halloween, a swan, yes.  I'll be a cow, but i need someone else to be part of the costume.  Lol.  Moooo!  Noooo!  Meow.  You heard me.  Meow!  I didn't do much today.  Hmmmm...  I played socom.  I'm really good with a handgun.  I shot up some terrorists, w00t.  All the weight I gained over the weekend from sitting on my ass, I've already lost.  Just from working out once, lol.  I've been working out twice a week.  This was the first sunday this week I worked out.  I'm going to start working out 3 days a week.  That would be best since That means 1 less day to sit on my ass doing nothing.  Maybe go for a few walks a week too.  I figure the more I do the more weight I'll loose.  Plus the thinner you are the bigger your dick looks, lol.  The bigger your boobs look too.  I am gonna get going now.  adios.

     July 17, 2004-Hi.  I saw a neat movie.  The Day After Tommarow.  It's got great special effects.  It was one of those movies I think I would have rather seen it with a girl.  It was like, not actiony at parts.  Those are the parts you make out.  Me and my socom buds are using socom to cheat the phone companies.  All of us live far enough away from eachother that it would be long distance and we talk for hours, lol.  Since my one friend lives in Seatle.  Thats umm....  Far.  I live in pennsylvania.  Death, woooo...  I'm getting thinner and more flexible...  I can lay down and make my leg broken.  I can now do the voldo thing by bending back.  I cant quite do it the proper way yet.  I will be able to someday, that I promise.  Lol.  I like peanut butter.  I don't like it much, but I do.  I preffer chicken.  Never with peanut butter of course, lol.  I haven't tried it.  Someone should try that and get back to me on that.  Wanna know something funny?  I really do like this new layout.  It's really neat.  I like how it looks engraved.  One thing funny is when I first made it I didn't like it.  I always likes the bloody looking project fallen though.  At first I was going to put the rune for blood up there where its japanese for project fallen.  I may.  All I have to do is save a picture of the same size over that picture.  I may sometime.  I may make it engraved, but no brightness.  I dunno.  It looks neat now.  I just used the generic filter in photoshop forit though.  The blood is the generic filter.  Plus many many touch ups.  Darker in some spots, lighter in the others, more red in some.  I think I may have made it look a little thicker than regular blood.  Blood is a little like gellitin though.  It thinkens after sitting.  I should put crusty scabs around it, lol.  Well.  I'm going to play socom.  Adios.

     July 16, 2004-Hi.  Just updated a little, nothing much.  If you noticed the void isn't up right now.  I am going to make it really neat.  Very visually attractive.  I'm surprised thats it's one of the most visited pages on the site.  Nothing compared to Apocalypse.  It's still really veiwed.  It was a cheap thrill I guess.  I'm going to use Adobe Photoshop to make it look interesting.  I'm going to go for a Reboot/ Exorcist look, lol.  It'll be neat in the end.  This site has been reborn, lol.  With pagebuilder being a bitch lately I cant do much.  This whacky geocities HTML too.  I check a page out in Dream Weaver MX andits all out of whack.  Everythings in weird spots.  Thats a professional HTML editor.  Not as professional as doing it on your own.  It's still harder than this.  I'm too lazy to do that for my own website though.  This yahoo page builder is a very dumbed down version, so it's reltively simple for me to get used to.  I use it more than Dream Weaver anyway.  I'm not sure if I'm even spelling it right, lol.  I noticed lots of people go though a goth faze.  Like everyone goes through their own little down with god, I think he doesn't exist phase.  And they create the generic kinda evil screen name with a twist.  DvlsAngl9756, Devilguy65749, you know, those generic things.  Me personally, I never really went through a phase like that.  It wasn't as generic.  I was all down with god, till I figured out how stupid that is.  Honestly.  If there wasn't a belief in god society would be more screwed that it is now.  Sure people are blowing them-selves up for their god, but atleast they die happy.  I'm sure the 30 or 40 others don't... well, maybe some.  A giant involuntary suicide.  If you don't want it to count as suicide dont ride buses in Jerusalem.  I swear, that baby rape thing in africa is still on my mind.  The guys don't ever get in trouble really.  Maybe they consider it free speech, lol.  All joking aside thats really horrible.  I think Africa is the shithole of the world.  I'm not saying Black people made it that either.  There are plenty of countries that are mostly black that rock my socks.  I'm mainly not going to say continents because Africa is the only mostly black continent.  America would have to be mostly spanish.  I mean, all of south america, then canada.  Canadas just about all white, but there arent really many people there.  South america is like, a quarter of the continent is apartment complexes.  It's weird.  I though of something though, why don't rcists just move to Canada?  It's mostly white.  It's weather isnt really that bad either.  Canada it's self isnt racist at all...  I like to think whatever race populates most of an area is going to be hated more.  The reason being there is more people to piss you off.  Really.  I'm too lazy to be a racist.  I like burning things, but going to rallies and making clothes, I mean, what, does the KKK go to the store and buy their robes and pointy hats?  lol.  I don't really have the spirit either.  Those are some dedicated people in the KKK.  I'd like to be in boot camp with one of them.  They would keep the attention of me, especially if the Boot Camp Intruster dude was black.  It would be like Jerry Springer.  Wow.  Thats a good Idea for a show.  A member of the KKK joins the army and gets a Black leader.  It will be this generations Gomer Pile.  Cletus!  Lol.  You know what I hate.  When people just IM you asking about someone else, and don't even talk afterwards.  I u;sually don't say bye to them.  I only say bye to people who say hi.  Because Goof bye is the end of every good conversation.  I don't know if I want to go quite yet.  Hmmmmm...  I have horrible puncuation skills.  I always want to use commas more than I should.  It's not bad when I catch my-self though.  The main problem is I type the same speed in which I'm thinking.  Well, a little slower.  So I don't really pay attention to my typing.  I kind of wish I typed faster than I think, because sometimes it's hard to contrate on thinking because I'm trying so hard to catch up.  Thats when I have to take like a minute to rest my brain while my hands catch up.  Typing to me is very basic.  I look at the keyboard while I do it every now and again glancing at the screen.  Wow.  I'm in a weird mood.  I'd like it to be Halloween.  I feel like it should be.  I should dress up like a robot.  Well.  I'm leaving.  Bye.

     July 15, 2004-Hi.  What's up?  Nothing for me, lol.  I preffer my women shaken, not stired.  I have no idea what I'm saying, I'm sorry.  I'm not reponsible for my actions!  Asian peoples eyes look like cat eyes.  I saw on ogrish.com that they have an eye lid reduction surgery because genetically asians have more fat in their eye lids.  The corner of their eyes are more narrow though.  Not to be racist.  I just though it was interesting that they have a surgery to make eyes more open, lol.  I saw this horrible thing about africans raping babies.  It was on oprah, sad...  Just so you know I mean Africans, as in people living in africa.  They think it will get rid of their A.I.D.S.  They cut the babies from their vagina to their ass.  Then rape them...  I think when people do that in your country very often...  They shouldn't be aloud to live alone.  Ehhh...  I'm going to go.  Adios.(Couldn't eat from baby rape)

     July 14, 2004-Hi.  I did it.  I did something that I garrantee is a world record.  Me and a friend, stayed in a socom game room, and we talked for 12 hours...  No I'm watching a vodeo to like, my favorite GWAR song.  Sick of you.  It's great.  I went to sleep at 12 in the afternoon.  Someone fell asleep while we were talking.  Neither of us who did the record.  This one should be in the record books.  I feel kind of like shit right now yet, lol.  I got like 6 hours of sleep, and stupid thunder and lightning kept waking me up.  I only have one explanation why I left.  God was pissed.  Right at the 12 hour mark it started thundering and lightning out.  It disconnected me from the games lobby.  Then I went back in and it disconnected me from the games lobbby again, then the network.  I signed onto socom and it kicked me from the lobby again.  I was getting kind of scared.   Thats not normal.  I'm going to assume it was thunder and lighting, wink wink.  Then again, if god wanted to strike me down he would'ne done it by now, honesty.  I'm going to shower while its calm out.  Adios.

     July 13, 2004-Well...  It's a year of falling.  I feel like giving a huge speech about how no one thought this site would last, so I will.  Hell, I didn't think so.  I've been talking on Socom for like 3 hours.  Okay.  More now.  Lol.  Only in my clan do people stay up 4 hours after they were supposed to sleep...  One of my friends from socom told me a nice fact.  We brought up something...  Online you can find anything.  You could find a Half Asian, Half Black, Canadian, Bald, Transexual midget with a tattoo of elvis on their left butt cheek, and a C-Section scar.  Okay...  I'm gonna go.  Tommarow I will probably update the tour and junk.  I got quite a bit to update yet.  It's getting updated before school though.  A lot will...  Me and my Socom friend are just sitting here making some crude socom drawings.  We have created a new product.  Did your girlfriend ever make you wash your mouth out with listorine before swabbing her deck with your toungue?  Well, get even...  New, Clitoristerine.  It'll be the next big public hit.  Seriously.  I need to get going.  I've been sitting here with page builder open for hours.  One thing I just thought of.  Tis is a lot more easier to maintain.  I don't need to move that black thing down anymore...  That was annoying.  This is way easier to update.  I'm going to go.  It's a common device of destruction.  You will figure that random comment out.  Mwuhahahahahha!  Bye.

     July 12, 2004-Hi.  I advocate violence.  Not much, just enough so its funny.  Violence!  Commit horrible acts of violence.  VIOLENCE!!!!  Sorry...  It was an accident.  That shouldn't be there.  Oh wait, yes it should.  Maim things.  Hit them with stale bread until they lay there unable to move their thumbs.  Because in the end, thats all that makes us human.  That and love.  Love for violence.  The violence that hurts people, and makes us laugh.  Who wants to see me get stabbed by a robot?  Then I'll eat a salad with Balsamic Vinager dressing... of DOOM!!!!!!  My ears are getting better.  My piercings are loose in my ears now.  So there isnt any swelling.  I don't know what to say now.  So I'm going to clean my piercings.  Well...  You are still here?  I actually did clean my piercings, lol.  Well...  Tommarows the sites one year anniversary...  I hope everyone will enjoy it.  I'm not sure what it will bring.  Well...  Tommarow will be a long update...  I'm going to start it now...  Adios.
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    July 11, 2004-I noticed, until someones afraid your lifes in danger they usually don't care.  I garrantee if I put on here," This was the worst day of my life, I have a knife and licorish whip and I know how to use them!"  Someone would IM me in about 30 seconds after they see it.  Personaly, if I did that I'd just be some little attention whore.  I mean, I want to control my own death, but I don't want to commit suicide.  I wouldn't do that because its pointless.  I believe in god and heaven and stuff, so I believe suicide=hell.  Although hell seems like it would be a neat place, I hate the heat.  I hate sweating, heat, and punishment.  If I'm going to be in pain, it's not going to be punishment.  Screw that.  I noticed this all yesterday.  My friend was having a cow after I told my other friend who was talking to her to get off the computer.  I f***ing hate when people bitch to me about something I've done.  It's like, didn't you have anyone to bitch to other than me?  At least have the decency to talk behind my back.  I really hate confrontation, and would much rather hear about someones problems with me from someone who doesnt have a problem with me.  You know whats funny?  Funny is funny.  I swear people have sucked all the funny out of me with a crazy straw.  ?????You know what sucked?  I came home today, and all the plugs in my room were plugged in different spots...  I expect people to use the computer over the weekend, but not re-arrange all my shit.  My jelly beans were spilled on the ground, my cell phone charger, tv, ps2, x box, and the extention cord used to plug them in were unplugged.  Then the socket was blown that they were plugged into.  I don't want to know.  I just am going to act like it never happened and say, that socket was always blown and dark like that.  What the hell, my speakers arent facing the right way...  I'm glad I caught something early...  They were turned all the way up.  I caught it before I turned the computer on.  I'm glad.  I already having hearing problems.  So my current mood is like, I want to beat someone, and I want to beat them with a peice of paper...  It wont hurt them, but I'd keep it up til I passed out, and then I could wake up feeling good...  Unless I hit something, then I'd be all bruised, ouch.  Wow.  These posts are always long when I bitch.  Thats great.  No funny.  Just bitching.  I'll say something funny.  Don't worry.  Well...  It's been about 5 minutes thinking.  Maybe you should worry.  I just sent the longest, saddest IM trying to cheer someone up...  I am not crazy, it was just a joke....  This was all in one message,"u dont hafta talk, ill just talk to my-self...  so if she dont wanna talk to anyone, maybe the both of us can talk to her, no, ur name is pedro, not hector, fine hector, stop talkin about that, his screenname was lancer boy, he either plays pokemon or is gay, and i think its gay, rainbows are the gay symbol, that first is for black power, no.....  how should i know if its spelled ill nino, i slept through spanish last year, no, ripping piercings out isnt sexy, its just painful, unless u scream like a, AHHH!"  I'm sad...  I know...  That isn't funny though.  I thought of a good marketing gimmick though, PokePorn.  Martha Stewart getting raped in jail isnt even funny to me.  This sucks.  That show Life and Death always gives me a good laugh.  It's not on...  I think I'm going to go on socom and blow some steam off.  Shooting electronic things helps.  Just gotta remember that it's a game, lol.  I've been pretty good with that, but who knows.  Well.  Socom time I guess.  See ya.  Oh, andf this isn't a cry for help, crying involves tears.  Bye.*cue laughter*

     July 10, 2004-Hi.  Wow.  People are pissing me off today.  Like majorly.  Everyone has their little f***ing problem with me and don't want to talk to me.  What the hell.  I didn't have a good day at all...  I wasn't even invited to one of my best friends birthday parties.  That's like, exetreme bullshit.  I don't even know what else to say.  People have been treating me like a second class, inferior, piece of shit, citizen or something.  Yesterday, today, hell, probably tommarow.  I was so close to going and punching someone in the face.  Like, literally.  I had the fist ready.  With the last of the patience, composure, shear empathy, I had I told them to move.  I honestly was going to punch someone.  Everyone around my could see I was about to break things.  I'm not talking about innanimate objects either.  I was going to take someones arm and turn it inside out.  I'm still like, I kind of want to hit someone.  I'm not that happy.  I think I'll try to hold out and not hit someone.  Everyones like, laying down right now, so I'm basically alone.  I swear I am going to get the new layout on like, all 60+ pages of this site by Tuesday...  I think thats going to be an all nighter.  All I here is,"Jesse move your hand" "EWWWWWW."  I'm out, lol.  Bye.

     July 9, 2004-Okay.  I didnt get to go to the music place...  That sucks balls...  It's okay.  It was out of the leaving parties control.  Here, for everyone today I am going to do the most pointless and horrible act of l337 ever.  Okay....  Here we go*breath* pr0-p53ud0-c0n7r4-n43-4n71-d1535748l15hm3n7-4r14n-4l1571c4lly.  That is pro-pseudo-contra-neo-anti-disestablishment-arian-alistically and that means, behaving in the manner of a person belonging to the movement opposed to the new version of the movement opposed to the first movement.  Come on.  That's some major l337-ality.  I'd like to thank fact-index.com for that important piece of imformation.  I put a link directly to the longest words.  Look around on there, its pretty neat.  Oh yeah, as far as I can tell that is the longest word ever l3373d.  Now its master l337.  Oh my...  PR0-P53|_||)0-(0|\|7R4-|\|43-4|\|71-|)1535748|_15|-||\/|3|\|7-4R14|\|-4|_1571(4|_|_Y  Oh my god.  That is an accomplishment.  This is the first time in histry this has been done.  Just so everyone knows the letters F,J,P,Q,R,Y, and Z are not changed in master l337.  It's impossible.  Well.  I need to get going.  So see ya.

     July 8, 2004-HI!  I'm hyper.  I've been messing with that smarter child thing for like, 20 minutes.  It pissed me off.  It auto-matically assumed I was insane, lol.  I proved it right because it pissed me off.  It was kind of inappropriate.  God knows I don't know how to spell or define that word so live with it.  One person has gotten a sneak preview of that convo, lol.  They loved it.  I like it, it's b-e-a-utiful.  I'm running it through Word Processor.  OMG!  I had to IM it a hundred times being an ass.  This is the first one going up.  Lol.  My ears haven't bled once since I got them pierced, thats an awesome sign.  This can't wait till the year anniversary, lol.  Which is July 13th.  The evilest tuesday of the year!  I swear.  Okay....  This is what I found on my Summery Report... Top search word used to find this page 56.18% typed "smackdown here comes the pain create-a-wrestlers"  Good lord....  My site is most veiwed by Wrestling game fans and/ or people who like to layeth the smacketh down.  Gee golly, thats all I'm saying about that.  OOO!  I am going to tell you how to know I'm hyper.  First.  I got booted offline 4 times spamming a robot.  Second...  I was screaming the lyrics to the song Brass Monkey by the beastie boys loud enough to scare my ferrit.  Third.  I yelled at my bladder for making me need to pee.  Thats the second time I've done that in 24 hour time period.  I am thinking.  Anything else I've done.  I tried playing socom II while my tv was off.  Actually, unplugged, my ferrit unplugged it.  I got 3 kills.  I still had my headset on and a sniper was near me.  I told them my tv was off.  they were shouting,"Shoot!!!!"  I shot.  Thats from waking up at 9 for work, no work, then sleeping till 4.  I like to think, What good is all the violence in the world?  Then I thought.  If there wasn't violence.  There wouldn't be Boxing.  If there weren't boxing, there would be no Rocky movies.  If there weren't no Rocky Movies I wouldn't know the song, Eye of the Tiger existed.  If I didn't know that song existed I would have dug a mass grave and thrown ever album ever made by the beegies into it out of spite.  Figure out what I meant by that, and you have figure out how to recover the music industries 40-60 percent drop in sales last year.  The answer.  Rocky VI!!!!  Well...  I need to put that Smarterchild convo up, so bye!

     July 7, 2004-Hi.  I'm going to the music place to see some local bands!  Wooo...  Ohhhh!!!  Lupin III is back.  W00t!  Wow.  I have work tommarow.  Money, yay!  I like money.  I'm kinda pissed at people who don't need to work for what they want.  I worked for these earrings.  I hope my hairs shoulder length by the time school starts up.  If not it will be soon enough.  So thats cool.  After Lupin III and Family Guy I'm off to bed.  Those are two awesome ass shows.  Those and Aqua Teen Hunger Force.  You know what must suck?  Working for pennies.  I mean, pennies should be edible.  They should be stamped jelly beans.  They could have boxes of pennies for sale.  I wouldn't eat one though, lol.  Make them poison, mwuhahahha.  The hobo population would lessen.  I think that would suck for them.  More people would like pennies then though.  What should I talk about.  Hmmmmmm....  Wow.  I should do aerobics before I was windows.  Lol.  Some light callistenics.  Maybe I should go buy my own squeegie.  Then I can practice properly.  HAHAHAHA!  Okay.  Why did my ex e-mail me.  That's how I know she hasn't changed.  She always had to be right and get her word.  I really don't understand why she e-mailed me on her brothers screen name.  I really don't want to communicate with her after how she treated me for shit for a monrh, then started to think everything is perfectly fine after a few months.  She thinks she is so f***ing lovable...  If she thought that e-mail was nice it wasn't.  It was like a paragraph of bitching, then a lump of shit to justify it.  It was like.  I wasn't on the computer and I didn't type anything.  I'll admit I commented that cabin fever wasn't scary, but she was the one that put it down, then was all, oh shit I shouldn't have put it.  I was just running back and forth making Orange stuff(?)  You think I want you?  HAHAHAHA, sorry.  Well, a sorry was more than I could get out of her a few months ago, when her brother "went into her adress book" and got my number.  Then proceded to laugh her ass off while he threatened to come kick my ass, then her quarter brother went along and said he would come too.  I shut him the f*** up though.  I told him to come if he wanted to.  He was telling me to come to him.  The next  day he said go wait at redners, Ill be there.  I waited and nothing.  Then I tell him to come to me dads friday and give him directions and nothing.  He acts like I'm scared.  Everyone acts like I'm scared.  Fear never stopped me from anything.  I have work tommarow, I can't deal with this shit.  I am going because I have better things to do than recieve e-mails from people just trying to get their way.  See ya later alligator.

     July 6, 2004-Hi.  I wonder when I'm most creative....  Hmmmmm.  I'll tell you something I do know.  Sony needs to fix its f***ing servers for socom.  It's so laggy.  Yay!  I got myu ears pierced.  I got these pyramid spikes in right now.  Shit.  The Rundown is funny.  Too much rap though.  I'm watching it right now.  Lol.  This sucks.  I'm thirsty and I lost the remote to the dvd player.  Grrrr...  Wow.  This is a good action flick.  Okay.  Saddest ending ever...  I'm not telling which sad.  You figure out which.  I'm going to sleep.  I have nothing interesting to say.  I'm too tired.  So.  I'm off to bed.  Adios.

     July 5, 2004-Hi.  Whats up?  I'm just sitting here.  I'm actually doing it.  I'm becomeing my goal weight.  My goal weights 160.  I'm not dieting drastically.  I'm just not snacking or anything and my metabolisms pretty fast so I am burning fat fast.  It's a bitch getting my metabolism up to its current speed.  I've been working out and eating less.  I know the dangers of not eating.  You can become infertile.  Thats not a risk I'm willing to take.  I'm sorry, but my children will thank me for their lives someday, lol.  Holy hell...  I actually scares me to think about if I had kids.  I hate kids, but I know I'll grow to like them.  Wow.  I really haven't been hungry lately.  It's just too hot to eat.  It's like torture to eat.  I've been eating, just it really sucks.  Wow.  I haven't listened to the band dragonforce for a long time.  Like a month.  I just remembered that because I'm listening to them now, lol.  You know how happy I am its cooler tonight?  If I end up staying up till 6 again I'll take a walk, lol.  If not I'll take a walk when I get up.  It hard for me to loose weight usually because it's hard to get me to sweat.  Right now I'm losing weight from a faze I went through where I basically got depressed and ate a lot.  Now when I get depressed I play the bass.  Speaking od the bass I need to cut my nails.  It's kind of hard to play when they get at all long.  I'm going to the Silo friday.  My friend is picking me up.  Yay.  I really need to get out.  It's been like 2 weeks.  I mean like actually getting out and going to a club.  I don't have a car or I'd go more often.  Right now my dads thinking about giving me his car instead of his truck.  I would rather have the car.  I'm not too great at parking.  Especially with the truck.  At least it isnt a big truck.  The car is really small, but its still spacy inside, and even has a good amount of trunk space.  It's just the back seats are so squished.  It's like horrible.  This living without kazaa thing sucks...  It's okay though.  I figured out if I just type the song name into aols search engine I can find it to listen and maybe even download for free.  I was wathcing the Texas Chainsaw Massacre.  That shits crazy.  Hes scratchin the wall and his nails came out.  You need to see it.  If you've seen the first one an liked it you will love this one.  The last one had like, the best special effects or the time.  This ones even better.  I've been working out, go me.  Not working out a while made me kinda weak.  Well, not weak, weaker.  I'm naturally build pretty sturdy.  Hell, I'mm supposed to be thin.  When I was a little kid I was.  I'll get there, I'm just not doing anything drastic.  My stomach is burning, not on the inside.  My abdominal.  Thats good.  I had to put weights on my feet to keep them down, lol.  I hope if I get muscular I don't get stupid, lol.  Not all muscular guys are dumb, I know.  I just hope its not my fat giving me a little bit of brains, lol.  I have 2 movies I need to see.  I've watched 3 scary movies in 2 days, lol.  I have 2 non scary movies to watch.  The haunted mansion and the rundown.  I really need to brush my teeth.  I brushed them at like 4 and they already feel sick.  I think it's the fact all I drink is icy tea.  The only other thing I drink is milk, and thats only when I eat cereal.  I think thats kind of sad.  Oh, and in school.  But I doubt I'll be eating school lunch anymore.  I go so sick of their food, it wasn't bad or anything.  It's just my school served the same stuff in like 9 day cycles.  It's like, I dont know.  At the end they were really trying to get rid of the hamburgers too...  I really don't like red meat much though.  I eat it, but I like white meat.  Chicken is my absolute favorite though.  Chicken nuggets, fried chicken, bbq chicken, regular chicken, chicken parmesian.  Yummm...  I don't eat veal though.  I cant bite into it without feeling sorry.  When I'm angry though I'll eat it, lol.  I'll be all.... grrrrr.... dumb baby cow, if it din't wanna be eaten it shouldn't have been born.  The main reason I don't eat it is it sucks though.  It's the worst white meat.  Pork is way better.  I think I proved chickens my favorite though, lol.  It's the healthiest too.  It's the least fatty, and that means it doesn't clog your heart.  I think I think a lot more in the summer, lol.  My creative process is heightened from the fact I'm not suffering from a lack of sleep.  A lot of people are anti-goth, I wonder why.  It's so f***ing stupid.  All it is is a label.  It so stupid, I swear.  I wear black, that means half the people in the universe automatically hate me.  I know for half the people that hate my its because they are jelous I can actually express my self through my clothing, my work, and my life in general.  Just so you know not in my job work, in my artwork.  I don't know how much I can express my-self in my work.  I go from right to left...  Lol.  The best job to express your-self would have to be crossing gaurd, lol.  Wow, the people on my buddy list have colorful icons.  I like my bas so much.  It kinda sparkley and red.  It has a white plate and metal plate at the controls.  It's sweet.  I think I'm gonna go to sleep.  Almost no ones online and I really am tired.  Plus.  I might get my ears pierced tommarow.  If not then thursday.  So I need sleep.  I get to get shots through my ears.  Woooooo!  Well.  Adios.

     July 4, 2004-Hi.  Happy Fourth of july.  Hopefully for you atleast.  ????????I'm not having that great of one.  Okay.  My ex...  Why can't she leave me alone.  ??I just want her to leave me alone.  She really hurt me.?  I mean it, really hurt me.  I think she wants me now that she cant get the person she dumped me for, lol.  Like hell I'm falling for that.  She hurt me so bad.  She had her brother call up and threaten me and say he wanted to fight me, and I could hear her laughing in the backround.  I know for a fact she went on one of my best friends screen names and f***in tried to hurt me.  It was workin a while.  I smartened up though, she was actin just like her, not my friend.  She hurt me pretty bad though.  I take pride in the fact I know most my friends pretty good.  I could tell tell I pissed my ex off, and she swore at me.  My friend, the person she was trying to personate doesnt swear at me,  Plus, my ex gets mad real easy, my friend is very hard to get mad.  So anyways, I said," You don't swear at me, this isnt margie."  I think her and margie talk, because I asked a question.  She knew the answer, but she didn't answer it completely right.  Thats what makes me know it.  Lexi is the only person who is aiming to hurt me.  The only girl atleast.  F***.  She got her brother after me.  Anyone who knows me knows I'd fight until hes running away like a chicken or out on the ground, or till I'm dead.  Either way, it doesn't matter.  The only things I have in this world are my pride, and my friends.  Both of which are worth fighting for.  Plus, once I get some adrenaline flowing, I don't feel pain and I don't feel pity.  My concience shuts up.  I'm telling  you though.  My ex better leave me alone, her and her family.  If she turned my friend against my though...  I'm scared.  Seriously though, I've tried to forgive my ex.  I mean it.  I, in right mind and soul, tried to forgive and forget.  It didn't work.  Not at all.  Just talking about her pisses me off.  It's like opening old wounds.  They wont close up.  The way they she talked to me made me feel like everything was my fault, yet everyone I talk to says it was hers.  I hope she lets me alone.  She picked the worst time to try this shit too.  I was watchin scary movies.  Wait, everyones going to be impressed.  I should be a detective.  I swear.  Here is how I knew lexi was there.  My friend slipped up.  I told her the scary movie I was watching.  I said," I'm about to watch Cabin Fever."  She said," Lexi says that isn't scary."  Thats the first sign.  Second sign...  Whoever I was talkin to I was tellin what part of the movie I was at and they obviously knew it.  Then I mentioned a part at the end, not the ending though.  Just a funny thing during the credits.  She said," I never saw the movie."  I was all, what?  I was like, you fooled me.  I just had a stressful day with all this shit.  The whole reason I don't love the girl is she changed.  Shes just gotten so mean and she like, keeps using slang.  I hate slang.  Not all of it, just these gay ass fad words like "Word".  They annoy me so much.  Notice I haven't really bad mouthed her here.  I'm not into that shit.  I'm just so pissed right now.  She ruined my day.  Hopefully my parents are going to set off some fire works or something.  Since they had to work today I figure they will later.  I'm going to go.  I just needed to vent.  Oh shit.  My eyes hurt so bad from stairing at this computer all day.  I woke up at 4pm.  Then people automatically started bitching and shit.  Hopefully I can calm down and get this swearing under control.  This is what happens when I get pissed.  I don't get violent or anything.  I just get loud and swear a lot.  If someone hits my I get violent.  Thats not often though.  People either think I don't look tough or think I'm insane.  People know not to fight crazy people.  Seriously though.  Why whould my ex IM me on her birthday.  I remember everything about her.   She has had a string of horrible birthdays, turning to me after getting someone to threaten my life is the worst way to do it.  Shes got her boyfriend or whatever the f*** he is IMing me calling me a pussy.  ?If they aren't on good terms they shouldn't call me that.  I'll break their nose.  I honestly don't care.  I really don't even joking with that word.  It's a fight word to me.  Well, I think I'm actually gonna go.  First I'm writing an e-mail to my friend, making sure she isn't angry at me.  Bye.

     July 3, 2004-Hi.  I've basically gotta stay up till 8 to wait for my friend to get a ride.  Then I'll Probably go to sleep.  I'm not a huge fan of sleep during the night.  I love it to death during the day.  The night is just so magical.  The starts are shinning, the moons out, blazing brighter than fire, and the sky is blacker than coal.  Sometimes its even purple.  Sometimes I just like to leave and go for a walk when its dark.  Then watch the sun come up.  Thats a great sight.  Watching the sky turn every hue of blue.  Really, black is a hue of blue.  I know that from my vo-tech class.  It comes from the dact black is the polar opposite of a base color.  It's really a junk color.  It's all colors combined.  Although when all colors are really combined its a dark brown.  You dont need the get into other things brown, because now you know.  I'm listening to one of the greatest online radio stations ever.  Rothmetal.com.  I probably listen to this a lot more since I stopped using kazaa.  I just deleted it one day and said, never again.  I've been clean a while.  I mean, it's great to be able to listen to any song you want whenever you want, but legal trouble is exactly what I don't need.  Personaly, I think, music artist have enough damn money.  Here I need to use a free webhosting service, because I can't afford to buy this.  The main reson I used kazaa was because I'm really into black and death metal, both of which you wont find much of at a local music store.  These bands are scattered.  Homoiratus-Greece, Abigor-Australia, Cradle of Filth-England, Finntroll-Sweden, I could definitally go on.  Just so you know, Finntrolls the funniest think you will ever here.  Not like GWAR who is trying(I mean, F*** an Animal is the name of one of their songs.)  Finntroll is like... If polka and deathmetal were getting into the habit of jail raping eachother.  I would just like to share, my eyes are so red right now.  They look like Micheal Jackson tried to Eye F*** me.  My eyes are virgins.  Hopefully that is.  I'm just waiting for blood to pour out of my eye.  Even one drop.  I shoulding say I'm waiting, I should say I'm on the look out.  You know what commercial pisses me off?  That one for that show Into Character.  Where hes trying to become a baseball player of something.  One quote enrages me about that f***ing commercial.  "Why would a regular man dye his hair."  I may not be regular, but I know plenty of regular people who dye their hair.  Rawwwr!!!!  Oooo.  I played and beat a new video game.  Red Dead Revolver.  It's really good.  I liked it.  I thought it's player models were a little too basic.  Like, they were too monotone.  I have to admit though, it's very impresive, how alike a western movie it is.  One game that I'd say is officially 2nd best western game is Sunset Riders for the Super Nintendo.  I played that game hundreds of times.  It's very replayable when your 10, lol.  What made it great was you cold beat the game with another person playing.  It made it kind of easy, but it wasn't really.  I'll admit it, that game was almost impossible for me to beat alone.  I did it.  I remeber that game perfectly.  I remember Red Dead Revolver perfectly too...  I beat it a few hours ago.  I'll admit it's a short game, but it is worth the money.  After you beat the game you get a hard mode.  Trust me, it'll be a challange to beat then.  The weapon assortment is great too, I mean.  They have everything from dynamite to Long range rifles.  I like the game.  I mean.  Me and my friend have completely different styles we use.  I am more of a Twin Handgun, and Breech Rifle, Dynamite guy, and hes more are a single handgun, Long Range Rifle, Knife guy. Then there is a showdown mode.  You unlock a lot of levels through the story mode, and a ton of character.  I garrantee 40 characters.  Thats atleast, and I'm taking a safe guess.  I do that a lot.  Look at me, rambling about video games.  I was rambling about music, Night, video games, and now I'm choosing to ramble about pita bread.  I was rambling earlier about pita bread to my friend casey.  I think I scared the poor girl with my knowledge in the subject.  I believe pita bread is the ultimate in bread standards.  It's better to wrap things in since it holds juices better, since its thicker.  Tortillas leak, I think we have all had it happen once.  That orangish grease dripping on your hand from the tortilla.  I really hate that, it makes me feel violated.  I am hoping I find a band soon.  I am getting pretty good at the bass.  I can pluck out some neat riffs.  Well, a lot of neat riffs, lol.  Trust me, thats not being cocky, I put a lot of work into making sure I am well balanced in the music I can play.  Wow.  This band is awesome.  Vader.  I only heard them a few times before.  I'd download there songs if I had kazaa.  The truth is I messed it up, lol.  I went to clear space in my smaller hard drive.  The one the company put Windows on for some reason, and I moved it all to my second on.  I switched the second one to the master drive.  I went to use kazaa a few weeks later, and it wouldn't load, just an error message, it's okay though.  I am no longer tempted by the beast, plus I never used it much anyway.  I was like, if I heard a really kick ass song, I'd download it.  There aren't many really kickass songs being released anymore.  All the godly bands are losing their greatness.  Rob Zombie, Metallica, so on.  Rob Zombies been going down hill since Hellbilly Deluxe, the CD that finally drew my away from rap and to rock.  And metallica haven't really been able to top the black album in my mind.  I don't listen to Metallica much, I wouldn't consider my-self a huge fan at all.  I mean, this new CD, rawr.  I've heard better songs sang by a deaf midget.  No, a deaf midget with a bad out break of herpes.  Incase your wondering, at the time I'm righting this I'm so bored its not funny, lol.  My last two posts were sucky and short.  This one seems to be going well.  For some reason when I think of things going well I think of penguins.  I just noticed that, hmmmm...  I'm a strange fellow.  But hell...  If you made it this far you must like it, or absolutely hate it, or quite possibly, you think Metallica is in their prime now, and you want to see me make a fool out of my-self with bad grammar.  Hmmmm...  I'll admit, I write in run-on sentances a lot.  It's because I right what I think while I think it.  Sometimes, well, actally a lot I'll remember something Im ake a point of mentioning here.  See.  Right there.  When I contradict my-self.  Thats because I'm thinking.  You are going through my thinking process with me.  Poor you.  When in Rome, do as the Romans do.  If you noticed, I don't bad-mouth many people here.  I don't bad-mouth many people anytime.  If someones talking shit on me I will be much obliged to bring it to their attention, and rectify the matter.  That ends in bad bad terms usually...  When I'm pissed or sad, I am not that pleasant.  You know what I don't like.  I don't like when people say hi, the say brb.  It kinda pisses me off.  If any of my friend are reading, it's not aimed towards you.  Everyone does it sometimes.  You know what, I do that a lot.  When I wake up in the afternoon I will sign of for like 15 minutes and be all, like... confused, lol.  Then I'll take a shower.  I like showers a lot, they refresh me.  Sleep doesn't even refresh me.  It's showers.  Sleep gives me energy and keeps my healthy, but it's icy tea that gives me the greater deal of my energy.  Without it I'm a zombie, lol.  That remends me, in england icy tea is a rare find, and some people haven't even heard of it.  For those of you who don't know what it is, its a beverage made by a Company called Clover Farms.  It's made from real tea leaves, I know that much for sure, I just can't figure out which.  I can tell you its heavily sugared and has a ton of caffiene in it.  It's great tasting to me.  It runs in my genes we get addicted to it.  Me and my mom polish off about 2 gallons a day.  I'm gonna go.  I'll update again tomarrow, as always, bye.

     July 2, 2004-Hey you.  I know you.  Your that person who is looking at my website.  Aren't you?  Yes you are.  Star at the monitor blankly to unlock the secrets of the world.  Honestly.  The secret of the world are, numerous.  I don't know them...  I'll take a guess.  The secrets of the world are cattle and lemmings have no fear...  Dogs don't lick them-selves for pleasure, but rather for the sense of worth, and everythings big in texas.  Well...  People are bugging me to get on.  Adios.

     July 1, 2004-Hi....  Happy 1st of July.  Oops, wrong day, lol.  I'm out of it.  Wow.  I hate posting the first time.  It looks so sad, lol.  I'm so evil.  I mean it.  I did something both wrong and probably illegal.  I'm still laughing.  I made a fool out of this guy.  Only one witness.  I'm not telling, and never telling, what happened...  I'm just going to go on socom and act like I never became a criminal.  Bye...
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