Muddy's Journey

The clock was striking midnight. In the Temple, father and mother were impatiently awaiting the arrival of their first son. After an hour of anxious waiting the new life began to emerge. It took several long hours before he pushed its way out trough a long tunnel. He greeted the world by his voice and started to sense the stimulation of the new unknown surroundings. Mother took her son into her arms and father said hello and greeted him. Then he told his son about his life future, about what is to come and about his life mission. They named him Muddy. And that's how his journey of life began.

Soon after his birth little Muddy mysteriously disappeared. He vanished without a trace without any possibility of logic explanation. Nobody knew about him, nobody suspected anything. Little Muddy could have been kidnapped by evil creatures and dragged on about vast deserted plains, always overlaid by haze, where the sun shone only few moments a year.

After a long roaming about Nowhere, the sky suddenly cleared and Muddy found himself standing by the Road of Life and Death. As soon as he set his foot on it, he lost his consciousness and an immense force began to take him along this road directly to Eden. But all of a sudden, his faith decided differently, that is to direct Muddy another way. He found himself on the opposite end of the Road of Life and Death, not knowing where he was.

After taking a short rest, Muddy set out to go on. Very soon he arrived in the Silicon Kingdom. It got his name from the Silicon Mountain, from which were mined all the necessary raw materials. This Silicon Kingdom was vast and very strange. There were many palaces here. In each of the palaces worked many learned men; they were preoccupied with numbers, various symbols, alchemy, mystic forces, tiny invisible balls. They cooked various potions, they built some glowing and noisy black boxes and they made imitation ears, eyes, mouths and other mysteries. Muddy enjoyed himself there tremendously. He became an apprentice of one group of learned men at certain palace. Over time he learned so many things that he became one of the wisest learned men in the palace. And then it was decided that Muddy would study further at the major palace among the best of the best.

Thus, Muddy set out on a journey. He was very excited. But soon after he got settled down in the major palace, he learned that it is not at all like he imagined it would be. The learned men weren't as wise as he thought, they were cruel and arrogant and there wasn't as much friendship as in the old palace. He was very sad. Once he went for a walk and he arrived to a Mountain of Knowledge, which was near. From the top of the mountain he could see wide and far. He saw what he had not seen before in his life. On the horizon to the right he saw gorgeous nature, full of colorful flowers, green grass, clean water and clear blue sky. That was Eden and it was beautiful there. All rivers and creeks were flowing into the Lake of Hope, which he saw straight ahead of him. And on the left it was black and deserted, dead nature. Volcanoes erupting all around, hot lava flowing and fire burning. That was Hell.

Muddy got the desire to live in Eden. He decided to leave the major palace and the Silicon Kingdom and he headed from the Mountain of Knowledge towards Eden. But soon he discovered that the road was not easy. It was winding, obscure and bumpy. He tripped many times, fell down but got up again and went on. The further he went the more it seemed that this road leads somewhere else than he wanted to go. When he got to the next mound and looked around, he saw that the road leads directly to Hell. And of that he was very afraid. He made many attempts to turn off the road, but he always found himself back on the road to Hell.

The more he strove to find his way to Eden, the sooner he got back to the road to Hell. He was all exhausted from trying to find Eden. He learned that the picture of Eden is false and that in reality it does not exist. He just wished from all his heart that Eden existed and he belonged there. But there isn't any such place. It is just a phantasm. So he gathered his remaining strength and set out towards Hell. He knew for sure that it really exists. And there he will find his refuge. There he will gain a lot of new power and he will revenge for the sorrow he had suffered while following the deceiving picture of Eden. Muddy soon reached the gate of Hell but they wouldn't let him in. The devils requested that he signs on for his life and death, but Muddy did not want to do that. Perhaps there was not enough faith in Hell inside him, he had his doubts and he hesitated. He still had a bit of faith in good in him and so in the end he went away. He did not belong to Hell nor to Eden. He didn't belong anywhere, he was not accepted anywhere.

He set out to another way. This one was very narrow. It led between the Hell and the Lake of Hope on the opposite shore of which Eden could be seen. The road that he was standing on now was between fire and water. It would be enough to take one wrong step and he would fall down. He would either burn in the flames or he would drown in the water. Muddy stopped many times and asked himself whether to return to Hell and sign on with his blood or whether he should go back to the Silicon Kingdom where it was nice and safe, or whether to jump in the lake and try to swim towards Eden knowing that he possibly could not swim that far and might drown. Or he could just keep standing still. But he went on and on.

After a long and troublesome journey between Hell and the Lake of Hope, Muddy arrived to a small Chapel. Not believing anything nor in anything he said his prayers and went on. Soon he got to a School, which was crowded with people. He said to himself that School is nothing for him anymore, that he already knows more than enough. But to his astonishment he found out, that to this School go people who know much more than he does and that they have a lot in common with Muddy. They had similar thoughts, worries and problems. Muddy did not have any better things planned anyway, so he started, even though with big doubts, attending this bizarre School. He was quite nicely surprised and fascinated by how much he had learned there and how much he got to understand. When the School was over, he felt much stronger and confident and he decided to go to Eden. Now he could see everything much more clearly and the road was lit by the sun above the horizon. Soon he realized the words his father had told him right after he was born.

On his way to the sun he met a gorgeous Princess, he fell in love with her. However very soon he began to gradually loose her and one day he lost her completely. The Princess vanished from his life just as fast as she appeared and all that was left was a memory of her and a immense scar in Muddy's heart. The life joy was replaced by sadness and tears, he missed his Princess and he felt great sorrow that their love did not go as far as it could. He kept calling her back but in vain. In spite of it he kept going towards Eden but much more slowly and downheartedly than before.

It seamed that his journey to come also won't be easy. Unexpectedly he arrived to a vast Desert. It was dry and barren there. He was hungry and thirsty. His strengths were slowly leaving him and the sun was scorching him with no mercy. After strenuous striving he reached a Gate, which divided the Desert from the Oasis. Muddy knew that the Oasis is the outskirts of the beautiful Eden. At the Gate were parading guards back and forth. They saw Muddy and how torn, dirty and exhausted he was. For that reason they did not want to let him in for a long time and they left him standing outside . . . . .

1. Day of St. Eveline

My son,
You have come into world of bad to do good
Love and teach the others around you to love
Forgive and teach others to forgive

You will be gifted by immeasurable abilities
You will be different from other people
You will understand and know much more
And that will hurt you immensely and Death will be your shadow

Your beginnings will be difficult
You will often feel alone, weak, disappointed and unable
You will often be mistaking and feel uncertain
But you will find the right way
I will always stand by you
And whenever you need me, approach me
My arms are open for you
I wish you much good luck

With love, Your Father

2. Ignorance in Anomaly

Hello, I am your digital brain

Numbers and symbols that's my only world
The red rose blossoms I can even count
Just a group of atoms our nature is
The one God created in just six days

Object: live nature
Chemical composition: hydrogen, carbon, oxygen, nitrogen

Why do you admire the diamond so
Which you had been given by your sweet beau?
It is just piece of rock so very cold
Chemically the same as a plain piece of coal

Diamond has a cubic structure
I don't know the word ADMIRE

I do not know friendship and I hate love
More likely I would read magnetic tape
Love and feelings those are pure weaknesses
Away with it for infunctionalities

Warning!
Fatal program error in the main module!
Illegal instruction FEELING caused general failure of the system protection

Now look at the color of the lemon
And measure its wavelength, please don't be wrong
Can you hear the bird so nicely singing
It is nothing, it's just the air vibrating

Everything is nothing that vibrates

I don't want my body from bone and flesh
Aluminum and Titan will never clash
Do away with veins, plug into socket
Much better performance you'll get by it

Super-scalar processor, multitask operating system
No errors, no feelings, just high performance

I've traded in my brains for processor
Smarter than any college professor
Silicon system is more flexible
And that is how I feel much happier

Silicon based brain is the choice of your life!

3. Unfathomable Awakening

Last night very bizarre dream I dreamed
About how out of cocoon of mine I crawled
What I saw there got me mesmerized
But soon after my life has guttered and away it died

Standing at crossroads, gazing in the distance
I am facing road I would be frightened of
Asking myself if what I have lived up to now
Is true objective of my existence

Seek and find
To satisfaction come
Avoid all grief and suffering
More love to give
As much in return taking
Live up your own awakening

Anytime I happen to look back now
I see an absolutely illusory world
Hear the reality knocking at the door
So why was it, my soul used to be so blind?

4. Anxious

[ Instrumental ]

5. Path to Pandemonium

Thence cry from the distance
Soon blood will flow about
They drag a miserable wretch here
Cruel penalty to perform

"Wanted to love someone
Oh, how ridiculous
You were too deep in love
So give us your soul now"

Water in the kettle boils
Devils glow with cruel joy
Another poor creature's roasting
Horrid end can't avoid

"Wanted to know more
To know it all inside out
So you've signed on for life
Your death sentence signed"

Why have I gone such a long fatiguing way
To search me out a love?
There isn't any such thing anymore
Thus revenge rages in me

I have unveiled my genuine face
I am devil, liar and cruel beast
Now I'll pay back all the debt
Against you turn my pain!

6. Fire and Water

[ Instrumental ]

7. Prayer to the Rising Sun

Holy Spirit, thou who leads my life, where you are, tell me
To me, the God is dead - absolutely
I believe in nothing and that does not satisfy me
I'm waiting for things to change and the time to advance

There once was a human being
Who had lost his happiness
He couldn't find it for ages
And he couldn't bear it anymore

A wise old man proposed to him
And this is what he said:
"Serve to people, love and welfare
And you'll find your bliss again

But first discover yourself
I am here to help with that
Meanwhile you will realize
That so far you have been sleeping sound and deep"

So man begun to search
Foremost for his own heart true and real
What's his decided life mission
First he desires to know

Meditated for long days
And after all that lonely time
Understood why it sounds so odd:
"Happiness is within you

Our fate is in our own hands
No one's deed can change
What other man's brought upon self
By letting his happiness drown"

Is here anyone who would accept me the way I am
Forgive my sins, which I've committed from pure ignorance?
Is here anyone who would simply love me?
Who'd give me enough strength to fight my enemies?

. . . evil . . . fear . . . must disappear . . .
. . . hate . . . pain . . . must go away . . .

Holy Spirit, thou who leads my life, please take my thanks
God's back in my heart and protects me again
All right, in the mirror you've made me look, and it was cruel
I slept, but time has come to awaken and go on well

8. Tale of Love

The Prince is crying salty tears
He will loose his Princess soon
Many lovely flowers succumb
His soul's pining away yet
Soon the sun will cease to shine
Which is rising from her face
Half of his heart he will loose
Prince's life will pass away

Oh my girl, my only maid
Wish my heart to dedicate
I have painted your portrait
Much loving you
My beloved now gone away
To you I've to find the way
I love you so, that's to say
Return, come back

Before the fate tears them apart
They will share their Love so sweet
Gazing into others eyes
By the candlelight they sit
Flame between them raging wild
That will never cease to burn
Flame of Love passionate and bright
Full of beautiful memories

Don't hesitate
'Cause now the time has come
Listen well
To the voice of heart

The Princess is now lonesome
Longs to return to her Prince
To live again those precious moments
To read his poems once again
Her destiny is in her hands
Would she let them suffer on
Will she make her dreams come true now
Will the force of fear prevail

9. Gate to Oasis

Weakened pilgrim is roaming trough the desert
Almost breathless he's nearing oasis
As dry as bone by the intense desert heat
Too exhausted to make another move

But when he sees a gate on the horizon
He right then forgets all suffering
Gathers all strength hoping to reach his target
Where there's only less than a mile to go

Still, the close to the gate the worse the road
It looks impossible to get to there
But after strenuous try, dear pilgrim
By the oasis gate is sitting down

Gate to oasis is gate to life

As he's sitting, looking 'round, he spots two guards
Oasis gate-watch walking to and fro
He gets up and wants to enter trough the gate
In the oasis his wounds to heal

Oh, but the gate-watch would not let him proceed
Just laughing at him stupidly and loud:
"What a ragamuffin with us wants to live
Beauty around would seem strange to him

Welcoming pilgrim, who has ever heard
So, let him roam back where he came from"
Old man was beaten, from water banished
Perhaps by now from arms of life torn out

Gate to oasis is gate to life