WELCOME TO THE WORLD OF NASHAT ELTOUKHY

The author of this page is 'Nashat Eltoukhy' the 20 years old boy who lives in cairo , egypt . i study commerce at the college here in Ain-Shams university in my third year right now and maybe the next year too , i'm not sure will i pass this year or no , i hope i will of course.

      Sometimes i get the feeling i want to write a poem then i hold my papers and pencil in the moment and write what i'm thinking of but i don't see myself a poet , sometimes i get the feeling i want to paint then i just paint but i'm not a painter , sometimes i just need to hold my camera and make a photo , then i do this immediately but am i a photographer ? i don't think so . so what's it ? i think my poems aren't bad , my paintings aren't awful and my photos is good . i think that the whole problem is that i can't find my way to concentrate in it but if i find it . but when i find it i believe that i'll be another person , a person who cares about some work in life , a person who have beliefs , a person that life has a mean to him .
      When i found that the computer and programming means something to me i was very pleased that i finally found a way to walk in , i finally had a chance to be myself or to be the person i was searching for inside me . but till now i'm not sure is the computer and programming field is my way or it's just passing time and then i'll say my used word 'i discovered that this field is not my way , i didn't find myself on it !'.
      Now i'm trying to treat the computer as my world even though i'm still not sure about this . when i try to learn the internet i find it very complicated field , when i finished learning the HTML i thaught that i know how to develop any page or at least how did the develober made it , and then i found the java , i hated it just because i don't know how it was developed , even the chatting , the simplest internet application that made for the ordinary user , when i tried to be in a higher rank than this i didn't make anything , that was on the irc servers when i tried to be an operator there's thousands of commands that i don't know . i think i should work harder and harder to be the commander .