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Disclaimer: This is a result of expressive therapy.
Any beloved person who feels a permanent warning,
please do not give it another thought.
Exhale, inhale, exhale....there....
neutralize
any unintentional adrenaline attacks.
now, tell me how you are.
i started to feel that i'd hit empty. (i was scared.)
i was afraid that one more straw would break this camel's back.
What to do at such a time? what to do?
i found writing helps to force out the foam. journalling.
letting a poem happen.
usually from there the next step happens.
this day, the step took me to paper, brushes and waterpaint.
the tools took over.
stuff poured out of me at its own speed,
with a lot of tears and words and hitting the red and searching for light and more and more feeling.
at a certain point it just stopped.
It was enough.
january 19/2001
