December 2000 Journal - Who Knew This Could Happen?

Dec 29/2000 Morning sometime...

Life is good - nothing major to report. Watching movies, working, and relaxing... best week I have had in a long time. Been sleeping 12 hours a night. It's wonderful! :)

My coffee pot broke. But instead of throwing it out every morning I stare at it picturing coffee in it. - Hoping the mere thought of caffeine will wake me up. *It's not working - but I feel better just the same.* Life without coffee sucks! Blessings on the fact I still have some lemon tea left.

I was given a DVD *sleepy hollow* the other day for a Christmas present! :) Of course - the dvd still doesn't work - but it thrilled me just the same! :) I adore getting movies - even if I don't working equipment in order to enjoy them with.

FYI - SIGN THE GUEST BOOK! (bloody lurkers - say "Hi." Make me feel desired.)

I got some of my final results back from classes - *sigh* did not do as well as I wanted - yet don't care either. Odd - I walked out of these classes *for the most part* knowing more then ever needed - and yet still couldn't get the whole "test" thing down. Why do I fail so miserably at tests? The stress and migraines just weren't worth it. But so happy I can do fancy things with Macromedia now. It's an odd combination of feelings. Failure in one way - success via another.

I went to an open house last night for a cmt company downtown in the Pioneer district. One guy seem obsessed with following me around with the cam. Another woman and I found him later in the ladies rest rooms. Not sure what to think about that. *mmmm* - Anyway - the location of this place was cool. One of those older buildings down there - odd entrance, etc. - climbed a hoard of steps to get to the top floor of the building to discover a loft around 3000 sq. ft of open space. Full hardwood floors, expansive ceilings, good view of the sound, pool table, futons, lazy chairs and a fab. Network system all in the same room. Was my dream apartment. I'm almost wishing the company goes under just so I could buy the space and live there. Party itself was ok - met some interesting people. Lots of cute geeks, CEO wannabe's, a VC thrown in for good measure and an sculpture? *I'm not sure how that happened, must had been a friend of a friend?* All and all - good wine and good time.

New song - Once Upon a December... Napster it... Anastasia soundtrack.

Dancing bears painted wings
Things I almost remember
And a song someone sings
Once upon a December

Someone holds me safe and warm
Horses prance through a silver storm
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory

Far Away
Long ago
Glowing dim as an ember
Things my heart used to know
Once upon a December

Someone holds me safe and warm
Horses prance through a silver storm
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory

Far Away
Long ago
Glowing dim as an ember
Things my heart used to know
Things it yearns to remember
And a song someone sang
Once upon a December

They're over!!! I came home tonight with such a sense of relaxation/relief. How grand it is to have the last test over and done with it - I do believe my brain actually shut off these last few days.

Other fun things that have happened - Monitor crashed and burned... along with power source and fan. So Joel and I went shopping for new parts. (I really like this whole expense account thing he has.) - Also bought some new connectors so hopefully my DVD will work. *Should buy a DVD to find out - eh?* A result of all this hardware shopping is my floor littered with nuts, bolts and tiny screws. My poor old fan is kind of spewed around my tiny floor next the old monitor. I feel like I'm in a MIS room. It's great! I'll have to clean up before the afternoon tomorrow, though - mother stopping by.

Although - classes are over with for two glorious weeks - I do have a load of work to catch up on for Divergence. Somehow or other I will have to finish a project or two before Christmas (Hey! FYI - I need some designers! ASAP! - Gotta be able to story-board and do adv. flash. - photoshop/image ready/etc.)

I'm also looking for a good Content Management Tool - something similar to zland.com management system.

Other then all that - I'm doing much better... Zen night was good - I laid my heart out to Gog and Mog, cried, and slept like the dead. I am getting a clearer picture on where this next year will take me and how to utilize what I have learned this last one for its best benefit. I do wonder what I will be doing this year for New Years, though. Keep your fingers crossed - I am hoping a friend and I head off to NY. May be a pipe dream - but a dream I must have.

Speaking of dreams - I don't believe I have dreamt anything in quite some time. At least nothing that I can remember... What does that mean? Am I too exhausted to dream? Or are they so dull even my subconscious doesn't want me to remember them?

When a man says "I'm horny" is that supposed to do anything for me? Where in the hell do they come up with these pick up lines? - Was on ICQ the other day and got the "ohhhhhh u fine baby! Waaannna do it!?" *Who gives birth these things???*

Staying with a friend tonight after another final. :) Zen night - need this. I plan on drinking tea listening to "deep" music and not utilizing my brain one ounce other then looking at art books. I always have such a good time there. I also plan on having a cry tonight too. Long over due. Plus, it will clear my mood up and get all this negativity out of me.

I went and stared at blogger again for another hour today - trying to figure out how to get my notes to be published via their tools. I'm even more lost then before - But damn it - if 14 year old girls can figure it out - so can I!

Didn't sleep a wink last night, so I ended up crashing all day today. Catching up on everything for finals... which started this week. *ugh* - Did I actually learn so much - or just forget so much?

I added falling snowflakes - What do you think? I found them at Lisa Explains All. She has a ton of scripts.

For those that didn't know - Top 50 Simpson moments

UGGGGG!!! Men drive me batty. What is up with this whole control thing? Does it actually look like I should bend over backwards to ease their selfish egos?

Watching I Love Lucy trying to calm down. I think I have a fever too - might be part of the reason my patience is so low.

I have been inspired by blogger - Doesn't really mean I understand how the darn thing works, but inspired I have been. The idea of a semi-daily journal does excite and well - annoy me. Questions raise to my mind - 1) Me keep a daily log of my events? Is that possible? 2) Is my life really exciting enough to do such a thing? 3) Will I endlessly try to compete with Russ's online Journal *Dark and moody* Which those that don't know him - He really isn't so spooky as he dreams he should be. Alas I digress.

Boredom arises. I should be studying for finals but can't get up any energy other then stare at a napster download and wish my blasted DVD worked. Techy guy was supposed to come over today and help me fix all my gadget but he got caught up in a flash Vs Mac problem. (Why doesn't Mac like flash?? What did Flash ever do to Jobs?!?)

I would like to make a disclaimer right now - Spelling never counts on these pondering. Simply cause I can't spell nor do I have the time (even in my lazy moments) to look stuff up.

Off to figure out if Dreamweaver loves me - btw, those that are getting and "error line 153" - there is no line 153, so I have no idea why it says there is an error - any clues or helpful hints would be appreciated.