tuesday. 23 december 03
5 months le...he sounds sad.. for ill treating me? haiz.. dunno how to tell him.. i may be unhappy and complained alot about stuffs that happened.. but that really doesn't matter.. all that matters is that i love him.. how i wish he would understand this point and stop reapproaching himself.. hopefully.. i will still able to type 6 months le at next month's blog.i should be happy.., serene @ 2.09am
saturday. 19 december 03
haiz.. u have a bf. he tells u he dun like to talk on phone. so u didn't call him. he calls u, say u bo xim never call him. haiz.. u dunno how much i start to hate him now. its not just bcoz of this matter.. i feel like a dirt now.. i'm not important at all. he sounds sad and pek chek everytime he call me. why? bcoz of basketball. TELL ME. WHAT CAN I DO? i cannot do anything.. NOT AT ALL. i can't tell him to relax.. or dun worry so much about basketball ball. WHY? coz he will get angry and shut me off with STOP ASK HIM TO CHOOSE BETWEEN ME AND BASKETBALL. i didn't. i hate him. i really see no point in this relationship anymore. i bet he must be thinking why i like to get angry so much.. why can't he understand that he is too much...I HATE EDWIN, serene @ 2.19am
friday. 18 december 03
things are getting messy.. seems like jiejie is not very happy with the recent happenings. we celebrated his birthday for him.. hmm.. to him.. its like.. we are taking this chance to enjoy ourselves? this is hurting.. we just want to let him know that we remember his birthday and he is important to us and we love him. haiz.. first ep training is terrible i guess.. seriously appreciate the effort jiejie put in, in this mix, but there are still certain parts that need editing.. how should we voice it out without hurting him? we tried to train.. but seems that everybody minds are diverted.. some want arcade.. some want food.. and distraction. jiejie gave ideas.. but some, we felt that its rather unsuitable.. can't we voice out? or just quietly accept then is wat he meant by respecting? it happens everywhere. not only to jiejie.. like in redx training.. we not happy with toby's idea we tell straight in toby's face that it sucks. he also didn't think we are not appreciative, but he took it as an opinion to improve.. i guess different people take things differently..season of wrongdoings, serene @ 1.32am
thursday. 17 december 03
today's jiejie's birthday~! -hugx- happy birthday jie. life so hectic now.. hmm.. like training for the sunday performance from wed to sat's evenings.. and i have to work in the morning to afternoon.. *buSy* ya sunday's the performance of my group[that includes me!] i think its at 8.30pm at the spot between wisma atria and wheelock place. =P after the hectic schedule for this 21st dec performance, we have to rush training for another performance that will be on 24th dec. thats the xmas eve. at the same spot, but 7.30pm instead. after this.. there will be another performance..[am i getting naggy?] that will be 31st dec, countdown at orchard. i think its suppose to 10.30pm? hopefully bahx. =). haoz le. go bed le.. tml is the start of all trainings..NitExx~!~!seasons greeting~, serene @ 2.32am
sunday. 13 december 03
had training today.. tiring..but fun. we didn't get to do much besides learning the intro from toby. toby wore a really nice adidas trackpants.. lolx.. so i bought the similar one for edwin.. its abit ex..but i love to spend on him..[gonna get lecture from him again for buying for him..~] had dinner with mum and sister and bought jumpers as cny's clothing. i think that last time i actually wore jumpers was 10 years ago.. man.. but it look kinda cute nowadays. =p going to watch infernal affairs III tml..or later?.. hope that its good and not disappointment. xmas coming. as usual xmas exchange! still thinking what to buy for my dear friends.. definitely something practical as i believe this kind of money shouldn't go wasted. =) hey friends.. when i wanted to give u something for xmas, don't tell me u dunwant.. its my way of loving u. =)seasons greeting~, serene @ 2.42am
thursday. 11 december 03
bing le... didn;t go work..feeling lethargic and feverish now.. slept the whole day today.edwin called once..but didn't offer to bring me to doc.. why my friends can like concern about me more.. and he can't.. ask if u ask him how come u didn;t offer to bring me to doc.. its not a sorry given to u as an answer.. but excuses.. and ya.. this is a new layout.. a very simple one.. which i think it will be gone after xmas or even before that.. infernal affairs III rocks.. but abit sad.. dunhave edison or shawn inside. hehe... kk.. go rest le. ciao..sick..., serene @ 11.22pm
sunday. 7 december 03
i feel like a dummy now.. being called on when needed, chuck aside when not needed. at least this is wat i felt.. i swear... if i were to get another bf, he must be a nonbasketballer. i really wasn't my fault to start disliking basketball.. try if u have a bf that tells u he have trainings on mon,wed,fri and tuesday and sunday he wun be free coz he wants to play more basketball or something like training.. and on the only thursday and saturday that he is free he want to rest.. OK FINE. I cAn't take it. I can't tell him that too.. why? coz he get pissed becoz i dunlike his hobby. maybe he dun. but he really sound pissed. maybe should learn like wat she said. take this period to try forgeting him and dump him. kns.. i need to tell somebody this or else i will go crazy.. kns..... i hate myself.i hate serene, serene @ 2.12am