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Real mom?

I never had a real mom, but
I've had a mom that's real
In all the things that moms should do,
And all the things moms feel.

I never had a mother, but
I've had a mother's love.
I've had the kisses and the hugs
That the therapists speak of.

I guess I should be crazy with
The things that I've been through.
But I've had all a kid could need
Because I have had you.

Love who needs it?

Love who needs it?
You take that word and toss it around.
What if it hits the ground, will you die?
Will you live?
Who knows when you'll say it again.
Take that word and hold it tight,
love isn't a game that can be won.
Love who needs it?
You need it.
I need it with love you'll never be forgoten

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The person inside

Life in the hands of the beholder.
Love in the hands of him.
A life that is inside out early enough to
give in.
A smile to brightin a hallway.
A laugh to make you grin.
A tender heart to see the real person
within.

This site was made for all the poem writters. I am not like most girls are in there teen's ( I AM BETTER) I love to write because that's about the only thing that I am good at any more!

Here's some back ground information about me: I am 16 and I have life pretty hard. Life well it sucks! I am suffering from depression and not many people know that though! Anyone that gets on my bad side doesn't stay in my life very long. I belive in love yes and I belive I will find it! But other than that I am a great person and I love to be with any one that makes me happy!

"The path of the righteous man is beset on all sides by the inequities of the selfish, and the tyranny of evil men. Blessed is he, who in the name of charity and goodwill, shepherds the weak through the valley of darkness for he is truly his brother's keeper and the finder of lost children. And I will strike down on thee with great vengence and furious anger, those who attempt to poison and destroy my brothers, and you will know my name is The Lord when I lay my vengence upon thee"
Ezekial 25:17

<---<<Well this is me! I look so good in this picture. I don't know what to put here! So yeah!

"I don't suffer from insanity I love every minute of it. "
Ashly-

~*POEM'S*~

Reality

I can't take it any more, heart beating like
never before.
I am gone, I am lost, Some one please help.
No one can take me out of this but my heart
beats and my life resists.
Take a knife and slit my wrist is that the
only way out of this?
Taking my hand holding it close wishing
there was another way.
Watching the knife sliding across my wrist.
Head feeling light, vision fading slowly, I
fall to the ground not knowing.
Scream in the black room, crying the tears
of fear.
Heading pounding, blood draining, life
resisting, mind going.
Fading to nothing like I never lived before.
My body's gone six feet under, spirit lifting life ending.
Seeing the entrance of heaven, I am to late
the gates are closed.
I am to late, falling heading twenty feet
under.
Falling to the fiery gates of hell.
Looking up at what I lost.
I lost the love I once had, the life I once
lead.
It's over now I am gone no one to care, he
got what he wanted and he didn't want me!

False Love

Tears finding a trail down your face.
The words flowing out of her mouth, she�s not thinking.
Telling lies, spreading rumors, taking control, ruining what is good,
Making what was pure and happy in to torn and ruined.
Destroying what self respect you had, trying to gain love.
Tricking you in to falling for a lie.
Telling you what you know but telling in the false.
She�s what you call a mother.

Blood Every Where

Blood on the counter
Blood on the floor
Blood in the living room where I fell
Blood in the hall way
Blood in the bathroom
Blood on the sink
blood in the bedroom
blood on the bed where I feel asleep
blood on my pillow
blood in my eyes
The wound that created the blood is covered with my fathers ties
Life as you see was not as easy as it was attended to be

The End

Since my world has decided to fall apart. I'll just sit in a corner and cry. There's nothing else for me to do. So, leave me to curl up and die. I don't want the world to see All the pain within my eyes. And I don't want to go on Hiding behind all these lies. I don't know what to think, I'm lost forever in dreams. My life has been a mess, and nothing is as it seems. It's hard to tell what's real anymore when my whole life has been pretend. The only thing that fills my mind are thoughts of my inevitable end. Should I overdose on pills? Or just simply slit my wrists? Which way is easier? Tell me. I just need a way out of this. I could always use a gun, Or maybe hang myself from a tree. Anyway to help me escape All the pain inside of me. Tears slowly creep into my eyes as I make a final choice. I ignore my conscious, and listen to my pain and life voice. I won't change my mind Like all the times before. This is it for me I just can't take it anymore. Take me far away, to a better world. I need to be someone new: a happier, simpler girl. I need to know what it's like To actually be myself. So I can worry about me Instead of everyone else. Death is my only escape, my final way out. I don't care what you think, this is what my words are about. You have no say On what I decide to do, But just so you know This is all because of you. Too many stinging words. So many actions never done. I don't care anymore. You lost, and I have won. All my pain will stop, When my last breathe arrives. You'll never get to apologize Because I won't be alive. Today is the day, I have made my decision. I took 10 maybe more, and I see me lose my vision. I hit the floor hard. Unable to stand. The pill bottle remains Tight within my hand. I don't know what else to do but simply cry. I lay still staring at the wall. Knowing this is the day I die. Numbness in my head, while my heart is breaking. I don't know why it is anymore. I accepted I was never to your liking. You never gave me a chance. You just threw me aside. You could have cared less About the emotions I would hide. So, I gave up on you. I decided I had no need for life. I could never handle peer pressure, the pain, depression, or strife. I hope you feel like shit, Knowing you caused this all. None of this would have happened If you hadn't made me fall. My world has come down on me. I can't take anything anymore. I don't know how much longer I'll be able to hold on for. The pills have now set in And my final breathe is here. Even though I hate you now I still wish you would have cared. I fell in love with you. But now you'll never know. I guess you'll have no problem letting me go.

all fo these have been copy righted please don't attempt to jack! thanks!

A lose of some one close

Death of a human is death of a soul.
A soul goes on living but the human is lost forever.
All that is given to the people that cared is a dead body,
and the memories they shared.
For the memories they shared will never
compare to the life they had together.
A person's lose is another man's heart.
A heart that will go on beating and deal
with the pain that it caused.
What a person would do for one more day
with the person they lost.
Don't let one lose bring you down because
one day some one will lose you.

Caught in love's hollow walls

I am trapped in a body that isn't mine.
Taken over by the life that I once lived.
Remebering the un-real,
imaging the un-thinkable.
Re-living pain and tourture,
that is bringing so many tears.
Taking the power that was given,
supplying what is still un-known.
Helping out the weakend and loving the un-loved.
Comforting what is gone and hating what is still here.
Wanting to surrender to the life that once graced this world.
Feeling the pain of some one I lost,
rembering the pain he lived through.
I am just caught in love's hollow walls.

Don't blame your self

When life get's to hard to handle,
don't blame your self.
When love get's frustrating,
don't blame your self.
When the color's of the rainbow just don't
look the same,
don't blame your self.
When the face in the mirror doesn't look
like your's,
Don't blame your self.
Don't give up faith good things come to thoes who wait.

This is my sister, I love her with all my heart. Just watch your self around her she can be a bit of a brat. Her name is Mae.

I didn't think

It was late at night my friends and I were with this guy.
He smelt like beer but we didn't care. He drove around a
corner and hit this car head on. We were all scared but
there was no one near. As I climbed out of the car I felt
no pain and the I fell and saw a pile of blood that laid
beneath my head. My mother had worned me never to go with
some one that smelt like beer. well I guess now it is my
turn to go as I look down at my body and wish I was not a
ghost. I wish I could tell my mom it wasn't my fault. But
all I had to give her was a bloody body on the hard
concret. If I had one wish I would wish to be alive with
her and tell her that I love her. Now i am gone no one to
change. I pary to god and tell him I am coming for the
girl on the concret, is me dead in her sleep.

I never thought

I never thought I would see the day,
that love would be found.
I never thought I would live to see the
death of some one close.
I never thought I could close my eyes
long enough to chase the fears away.
I never thought I would find the day when
I fell in love.
I never thought that someone so close
could end up so far away.
I never thought I would see the light of glory in front of me.
I never thought I would ever get the troubles that I held away.
I was wrong.

Is it worth it?

Is it worth it to take the time
to take the time do something
that you know is not
really what it seems
Is it worth it to love
something that is
meaning less in life
Is it worth it to move on when you know
that special thing is gone
Is it worth all the trouble
of creating a human when
you know they are all going to
end up the same
It's worth everything you put in to it
If you think you can
than the world is in your hands

Life more perfect?

Life is perfect for me,
but bringing you in to it would make it complete.
My looks are beautiful,
but would look better standing next to you.
My personality is great,
but could get better when I look in your eyes.
My figure is perfect couldn't get better,
but with you in me it could only become more perfect.
Life as you can see would be perfect if you where in it.

Live like a king

Time to live like a king.
Walking all perfect next to his queen.
Taking her hand,
holding it tight.
Asking her the question that every man frights.
Will you my queen help me in re-newing our
vowes under the old willow tree?
Sweating of the palms, biting of the lip.
Ready to give up all faith,
when she gives a glimps of happiness and
states that love is so true that nothing will do.
Standing under that old willow tree
they state what was really ment to be.
It's now time to live like a king and a queen.

pain

Tears fall from the face of the ones you love.
Love so dearly, you try to comfort but get
pushed away.
Try to joke but get nothing but tears.
Try to smile but get nothing but frowns.
Try to laugh but get nothing but sobs.
Trying isn't enough when you lose someone
that means the world to you.

Play with my heart

C'mon play with my heart.
Make me laugh and make me cry.
Make me glow and make me shine.
Make the love you play around with last a life time.
Make the love we make last an enternity!
A ring of life.
That shining moment.
Where you ask two heart's to become one.
C'mon play with my heart,
so I can make your heart beat with mine

The person inside

If life was ment to be easy than people would have been made complex.
If people had a reson to be here than why aren't they all here.
If people take time to think they don't know what to say.
If you have every wakeing hour with the person you love inside.
Than your life is officaly complete.

Let the love of one person, be the happiness to another.
~~Ashly~~

All Written by: Ashly Henney (me)

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A bottle of pills on the ground.
A half drunk can of beer sitting on the table.
A knife on the counter and drops of blood on the floor.
Life that was once warm and comforting is now cold and ruined.
From what a messed up life or a screwed up mind.
It�s to late to find the answer because they�re gone and can�t be saved.

all fo these have been copy righted please don't attempt to jack! thanks!

Forgive

Forgive the sun who didn't shine, the sky had asked her in to dine.

Forgive the stars that heard your wish, the moon prepared their favriote dish.

Forgive the rain for it's attack, the clouds have tears they can't hold back.

Don't hate the birds 'cause they are free, don't envy all the things they see.

Don't block the wind, but hear it's cry. Or else that wind may pass you by.

Forgive the storm it means no harm, could not resist to show it's charm.

Forgive the earth that never turns, don't hate the sun because too much burns.

Life intends to not cuase pain, the flowers bloom from all the rain.

The storm will come and it will pass, the sun that shines, it grows the grass.

The wind it cannot help but cry, the stars at night light up the sky.

Forgive the world which we live. We'll all find peace if we forgive!

The Blessing

A real mother is a blessing

Given to a lost soul with a heart full of pain.
Refilling that heart with love.with love.
Even if it takes years to fill.
A father isn't enough I need you I was lost.
Thinking nothing could ever find me again

Mom you looked past what problems I had
Only to see that I am a great person under it all
Thinking that I could always do it
Having faith in me
Even when I didn't have faith in my self
Really loving me for me.

Thanks for showing me that a mother is a mother and not a
Hatred person that only cares for them selfs.
And never cared who she hurt in the process.
Thank you.

I knew I was happy when my father found you

Living a life with a perfect mother is a life I am willing to live
Only if that perfect mother is you.
Various people wonder why I choose you over the one that gave birth to me.
Even if they knew they'd never believe me when I say "Your a perfect mother and I love you"

Our Bond

I call you "Mom," though you are not my mother,
But more a mom than any mom could be.
I've come to love you more than any other;
You took me in your charge and set me free.
You let me run and kissed me when I fell;
You kept your eyes on me and let me stray.
I learned things hard, which means I learned them well,
And got to know myself along the way.
My hope and faith and pride are all from you.
My roots are in your heart; you are my home.
You will be part of everything I do,
In all my thoughts a wise and lovely poem.
For all our lives we'll have this common ground:
You were my rock when else I would have drowned

The gold shines through

All my life I knew only one person loved me as much as you love me now
That person is now your husband
Now there's two people that I know I have in my life
To share all the good things I do with
To talk to when I need support
To be here for me when I need them

A real mother never abandons her child
Never to say good bye with out a good bye kiss.
Always to be here for her child even if she doesn't want to be
I never had anything that a real mother is supposed to be until I had you

You showed me what a mother was about.
You took me in just like I was your own.
Never to tell me no when I tried to talk
Always whiped my tears away when I cried.
Kept me in thought when I wasn't around
Never left me out of anything

Loving some one as special as you isn't a task
It's a privilage.
My father and I get to feel what it's like to be loved
To be loved by a heart made of gold.

Self reflection

When I look in to the mirror I see some one.
I see a person that's loved by many people.
A beautiful lady some one I care for a lot.
Some one I can talk to, with out getting in trouble.

Some one I know from the inside out.
That has nothing to hide.
That makes me happy when I want to be
Makes me shed tears of happiness.

Looking in this mirror I see not a reflection of me
But a reflection of you in me.
Your more than any girl could ask for.
You make even the worst feelings fade to nothing.

You'll never know how much I love you until
You look in the mirror one day and see a reflection of me in you.