Author's Note: Finally, one of my fics that I actually finished! YAY! Anyway, here's some background info so the story makes sense. Pan is the person who is telling the story and she's been having kinda fainting spells. Trunks is the guy that she pours out her heart to. Her mother of course is Videl. And lastly, her friends are Bra and Marron. Enjoy! ~*Princess Pan*~
"Why. Why does my life have to be so miserable?" I ask myself over and over each day. Every night, before I go to sleep, I reflect on how the day went. Weather it was the happiest day of my life or it was the worst day of my life. I look upon how I reacted to something and wish that I�d handled it better. Every night, I ask myself why I don't do something right and why I sometimes I don't care. And why I'm not like everyone else. When I ask my mom why I'm like this she says,
"Because sweetie, you are your own person and don't have to be like everyone else." I know this is true but sometimes I ignore that fact for it doesn't help me any better. I asked my friends of what they think and why my life is so depressing. They reply,
"Your life is fine. It may suck sometimes but you'll get through it. You don't have to be like everyone else. You can be different and we're ok with that." I know my mother and my friends mean well, it's just that they just don't understand how I feel.
For a while I've been feeling so miserable and haven't been able to get perky like I once was. Once in a while I return to my normal, happy going self, but it doesn't last very long and I go back to being miserable. I have been very dizzy lately and I don't know why. My friends fear the worst but I know that I'm going to be ok. Twice now I've almost fainted. I expect that my problems are really effecting on how I function. I know I'm going to pull through my miserable state that I'm n for now but sometimes I also fear the worst. I never really opened myself up and explained all my troubles to anyone. Except one person. He is my best friend's brother and is very dear to me.
When I explained to him my troubles, he told me that it would be all right. I told him that he didn't understand but he said that he did. I asked him all of my problems, like does he have to get perfect grades or you get grounded for at least a month? Or that everyday that he lives in fear that the person that he likes is going to find out that he likes them and he didn�t want them to know because he really doesn�t want to know the reaction? Or that all of his friends have someone to hold and he is the only one that doesn�t have anyone? To this he replied yes. He tries extremely hard to cheer me up when I�m feeling down. Sometimes he succeeds, and sometimes he doesn�t. I know that he cares about me but not the way that I want him to.
He likes someone from his school and isn�t aware of what I feel for him. My friends say that he likes me but they�re just saying that so I will feel better. There are two words that I see or hear almost everyday that reminds me of him. I ask myself why? Is this a sign of some sort, telling me to tell him about what I feel for him? I�ve come close to telling him how I feel but that was only because someone else liked him. Now she says she doesn�t even though I think it�s not true.
Every night I have a dream about him. Again, I ask myself why? And again I don�t know if it�s a sign if I should tell him about what I feel for him. That�s it, I�ve kept it from him long enough. If I don�t tell him sooner, than he will be out of my grasp. But I�m afraid of how he will react to it. How is this going to end? If he reacts like I think he will, I will question myself why.
Author�s Note: Yeah I know, it�s a really gay ending. But I couldn�t think of what else to write! Anyway, Pan is actually me, in real life. That�s how I feel about this one guy. Although, Pan was going to tell Trunks her feelings for him, I haven�t told the guy I liked what I truly feel for him. What do you think? Do u think I should take my chances and tell him or should I just play it safe for now. U can e-mail it to me or write it in my guest book. Thanks!
~*Princess Pan*~