First kick : Gleneagles on 10 September 1988

Education level: Anderson Junior College (3months)

Cherishes: everyone who knows me by luck or by chance. I'll always remember your presence. especially mentor, family, all my friends, ORULA, all my maids + my precious dog- pico :)

Misses: those who had left me... 

Preferred to be known as: Prilala*

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hey everyone! i've shifted to....

http://musicalsops.blogspot.com

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Above and below are the pictures we took on be yourself day and the next day. I guess i must be cracking a lot of ppl up especially ppl like welyon and marco polo. humpf. TAF er yi mah!

Wheeeeeeee!~ i had a hell of a great time yesterday! i went out to let my hair down and enjoyed from morning till night. and i mean REALLY enjoy. =) hees. 

i really wanted to ice-skate but due to the sudden change of plans.... hees. we did this first. 

meet at AMK 11 but somebody was late. hahas. shan't mention names! =P hee. then we headed off to.... hmm.. bUkit something de.. one stop before Jurong East? yup. West MAll.. and bought tickets for Madagascar! And i tell you! it's an awefully GREAT GREAT show. It cracked me really hard. haas. Hmm.. since we had an hour, we strolled around the mall in circles while i tried to look for my JJ album. But mei you! hahs. nia mind. then met MEI Peng? wah. so ulu also can bump into ppl! da zhu was worst! he met xue ting ( aj 1st 3mths de) then *coughs*coughs* Sanjid. hahas. =0 yup! oh well.. Sat an mos drink LARGE coke- muhahahs. forgot about the time.. then quickly go see movie lor..

wah shiok mans. kept laughing until cannot stop. but something was for sure.. the theatre a lot of kids nehs! just like me! what can i say? tsk tsk.

hhas. so then.. instead of iceskating.. we went to jurong east to kBOXed in an ultra mini room. hahas! was fun lahs! the ice tea was like WOAHH- sour. haas. kboxed until hmm.. i think 7 plus. next up! we went to eat dinner at the market. :) noodles that was simple but really nice. yummy!

then went home lor.. coz we were like SO FAR away.. by the time go home.. hahsa. late le bah?

the ride was sure long. WE took the green line.. change to red line.. then took a bus home =) it was like woahh..... long but pretty meaningful. Talked a lot of nonsense obviously. Got xiao zhu to RUBBISH all the way.. how to not make use of the THUMB (time) meaningfully nehs? hehehs. 

today's the most enjoyable day in the whole week i believe! Something that was simple. But really lightened up my day after a whole series of events from the last term. Gosh. I'm evolni le!

oK.. i think i shall stop talking. Need to prepare to go for TAF. this is ridiculous. hahas.

wheelalooooo!~ it's the holidays already. i'm suppose to like start MUGGING for the common test but i dun seem to have the mood anymore. 

So jinxy. hahas. uploaded the pictures already on shutterfly. if you want to view it.... yeah. jus tell me and i'll send it to you.

yesterday received a message and i was really really really upset to hear about it. how could this happen? damn it. one by one.. He has not really been fair has he? i don't know.. i know i must be damn mean to say it. aye. Whatever..... don't understand why all the good people in the world have to leave this world. it's just not fair isn't it? 

but nonetheless..... i send my greatest condolences to his family... yep. 

Janice: i want cheng teng. FOC from chengz why don't want? hahas. ((: shall try to contact him then. 

Qihao: Miss you so much lahs! aiyoh.. so long never see you le. hope you're doing fine in NY

Calling all NYJCian to go for some petition to maintain it's name instead of Chung Cheng Junior College. yup. --> ordered by secret to do so one..-.-"

Xiao Hong: hahas. hope you recognise your name here. YES i meant YOUR NAME. hahas. ok. i'm so mean. :p  thanks for willing to hear my woes for the past 5 months without complaints. And sometimes to hear me crying 'live'.  thanks again yesterday. Hope we'll stay this way forever. I mean not the WOES that continues to pour.. yeah. i mean the great bonds ((: 

Be Yourself Day was actually quite fun. =P Hip Hop was 2505's theme. really glad that we're bonding le. yeah. keep trying tentatious.. 

OH yeahh.. choir. here's an update of what happened.

AJ:         

President: Chin guan      Vice president: Liang Hao :)

Secretary: Zhi Xiong      Treasurer: Han Quan

Logistic: Kang Seng       publicity secretary: Yin Tong

Welfare secretary: Hannah         STudent conductor: Shaun lee, Zi nuan

Sop Sls: Xin Yi & hui ying

Altus Sls: Zi nuan & christabel

Base: malcolm
Tenor Sl: Ding Jie

Isn't this awesome? hahs. and the thing i'm most proud to say is that Those who run for the posts and got in are my GOOD FRIENDS :) cheers. bUt hor.. this means.. u all always have committee meeting lehs. then i how? mei you ren pei wo hui jia le lor.....  

sobs..... but whatever. It's a good thing to rejoice. You guys got what you wanted. =) and i've such a great SL. Sop will rock the world. -ihope- hehhs. of course! got NIANG2 to help us along the way. :))

I'm so sorry ahhhhh. never update for like 3 months..

aiyoh..... so much cranky things happened in AJ. 

fail 3 subject.....

got great friends..

i'm in tough...

i'm back in AJC choir

Choir= gold of honours

i can't go prague anymore

my gd buddies in choir are in committee =)

welyon's in SC

we are finally clicking with the class

some people i've known and met have changed like 360 degree turnabout.

i feel that i'm being influenced by the ppl around me.. i know what i want..... but i feel like if i don't compromise to them...... i'll be bad girl.. in a fix spot.... hais.. especially when it comes to ethical and religious issues. hahahs. i don't know.... just totally dumbfounded.

Feel that the only thing that motivates me to school is seeing and meeting friends..... and of course.. choir.

Nothing feels more stress than to be put in a class of geniuses of 6-pointers and a great deal of hardworking students that prolly works two-four-seven each month! i admire them.. coz i don't have that ability..... 

i feel as if i'm made redundant.

i feel so weird inside me. one part of me just feel like a total loser while the other side is still looking at the bright side. sometimes, i just wish i could do something right. everything i do, i always seem regret it.

i'm spiritually low now. i have no idea what's and why this is happening. everyone keeps reminding me that He has a better plan and He has it all worked out already. but why do i still feel damn low?!

must be the devil.

sometimes.. don't know why i'm doing tutorials too...... do for the sake of pleasing the teachers..

Any troubles i couldn't bear, you lifted me upon your shoulders.......

but this time..... i feel so stupid. nothing i do works right..... i came gushing down with tears when i feel so guilty the 3rd time i denied that i was doing fine in my school. I knew perfectly well i wasn't. They were shocked. Shocked about the "amazing" results i attained. A great deal of difference from secondary school. PASS + WOW grades VS FAIL + Aiyoh GRades

tmr is be yourself day..... i going for guitar + harmonica concert. support roland with my hao ban wansu, zhi xiong, shaun and kang seng. :) these people are the best people i can rely on when i really needed them.

Wansu: Thanks for being there whenever i needed you. There are so many things i choose to tell you than to others. In fact, the simple reason is just the word Trust. I trust you. yup. As for you, don't feel too sad or bothered by those short-lived memories. Keep them in your heart. They're precious. We don't need possessions to lift up our spirits. Instead, if you really wish he'd be happy, you'll really be happy. I'm serious ok? smile and dry your tears. no cry anymore. if you need one.. here's a hug for you. *HUGS* thanks for being that one person who will spend time talking to me. and of course, bao tou to me what my brother bao tou to you.. hahahas. :p

i love myself now. i learn that sometimes, you must let go. it may be scary how things come to you all at one go..... how i wish mentor was here to guide me again. Now that i'm big, i feel like i'm forced to fly away from my precious home. hhaas. independent.. but i've failed in academics and cca i guess..... hope mr gan isn't mad at me or something. i irresponsible girl.. he labelled me.

:( i'm so sad.

suddenly, i feel like giving the HOD of science a tight slap. i miss seeing barry in the clique of us. Suddenly so not use to it. One by one, my close friends are leaving. Even my parents know i'm like so happy in my 1st 3 months of life lahs. and suddenly, it's all broken.

I've been crying for 3 consecutive days. Congratulations lala.

Today, i cried not because of barry... it's because i realised i landed myself into CHENG AH YI class, and a 2505 class which i'm totally feeling left out, totally alien, and it's like so freaking scary. People seem to dao us. the six out of the tentatious seem to be the minority in the class having no say. But this anthony seem to be like so WOWly friendly. he got the same freq. as us- someone who is much better of course. i found another qihao.puden. look alike. hAHHas. :p

Yeahh. it's so sad. i enter the OLD homeroom of 2505 ( which candice prolly say "haha. shuay.. get back to tht stuffy room) yarhh.. and the only thing that struck me of was the notice board, the lights, and the pathetic OHP screen. 3 things that can make me cry is that. i'll jus think about michelle trying so hard to jump and jump and jump. while barry will deliberately pull the screen low low and comment to me. " EH lala, u sure u can reach this screen anot?" Yarh.. one more THING. it's amanda.. who freakingly started the whole damn tears. I was like CONTROLLING lahs... until dao le AUDI, i suddenly jus scold barry.. hahs. was it SCOLD? i mean.. like say, " you know the class ahh.. wa.. see the board.. walao.. i think of jasmine they all..etc..all ur fault..." then ArBISh.. all the tears flow down like nobody's business le.

Suddenly, no one to laugh with me during lessons. I michelle telling me this starting phrase " AIYO LALA! wo hen xiang.... then she'll giggle." i realise i no more lab partner le :'( i suddenly there's no more jAsmine to say how violent or mean i am. there's no more Candice to act gay. And no more barry to add 'legs' to be as tall as fang liang and to clear away the plates. :( NoBOdy to play 'thumb-like' cai quan le. cries.

i literally cried it all out and they were like aiyo lala... dun cry le... and came the pat on the back with a tissue. Hais.. they must be thinking.. why we all so siao one.. can cry dao zhe yang. i dunno how the hell we bond until like that lahs.. it's really something closer than my family.. i've got to admit this. hais...

Suddenly feel like i don't belong to this new 2505 le. I miss the old one where the diff. cliques will still click together somehow. why is it like that?

Can't say much things for barry too who is starting to catch the INdian accent from his class of 8 scholars coming from china, malaysia n india. Hais.. he dun seem really happy there too.

Something i wry about for the 2 separate ways of 25 n 28 is PW. yeahh.. that's right.

i was even more saddened when it was CCA carnival. :( totally worrisome. i really miss choir loads but there's something telling me i should never never return that place which made me really sad. the whole world's telling me to stay... i really miss them loads especially the awefully goofy good lot of seniors... all so nice. yeah. n i'm gna miss the choir J1 boys. my only buddies there. shaun, chin guan and zhi xiong.. yarh lor.

Suddenly, i felt so lost. i dun even know wad CCA i wanted to join. at first wanted to join guitar to learn.. but figured i might jus end up the only STUPID SOUL doing the beginners stuff. like that damn CHUM lehs. :(  furthermore, because i took up econs, i really cannot afford to go join choir again...i know i cant cope. in the end, i jus sign up BADMINTON recre. hahas.

I think ppl who are reading this find it pretty interesting sia. how come lala this year so GUAI4. never go join those CCA got competition and be damn involve. Instead, i go and join BEGINNER's stuff for myself and Recreational sports? `laughs. one big laugh for myself for doing such a silly thing. such a big change right? but guess wad.. i think i'm gonna try the SYC. hah. it'll rock my world big time if i can't form an a capella.

dear everyone. i know this blog totally sucks and no one can really see it.. but yeah. i really heck abt doing a revamp anymore..hahhas. that's lazy me alright.

sheesh. here's something personal here.

Hong Guang: be strong and face the reality bravely. If you ever need to cry out, do so ok? your senior here will be here for you always. You might hate the things that are happening now, but some things, you gotta take things in your stride. It's God's will. no one can change it. it happened already. I know you may find it so unfair, why things have to happen in such a way, but promise me, you'll be Strong ok? cry it all out, and make sure that you lead your life ahead happily and make it big one day. Your mom will really be very proud of you.

now back to ajc life. i'm staying in Anderson. That's news i guess? yeahh. hahas. The thing is i'm gonna quit choir coz i'm feeling sad there. I wanted to drop econs, but my dear 2505 encouraged me to take.. so i took it in the end. dIe le. hahas. oh well. but i'm sure i can do it! yep.

i realised that i'm gonna miss 2505 loads. the best class with the most fond memories that will leave in my heart forever. the thought that we'll never be as close together again.. really makes me feel so sad. i feel like my heart is so dry and empty now.. mich, jasmine and jt will be going away. one RJ one CJ one poly. :( will really miss them. esp. mich.

mich: too much words to say, yet only the word MISS YOU is the words i can think of now. YOu're really the best friend i've ever made. From orula to class 2505 again. Sighhs. Perhaps you might think lala no emotions de, never cry when ya cried until so emotionally on the last day. Really, i was trying to control my tears, it was all almost coming out when i gave you the hug. only that i managed to control it after what barry said- i promised i wouldn't cry. You're the only one whom i dared shared my secrets to in JC. You're the only soul who knows how i get my daily sweets and mentos. really.. why must i know you! if i don't know you, i wouldn't feel so sad lor. =( will our paths every cross again? i wonder. but i know God's blessing will forever be by your side, coz i'll be praying hard for you dear.

as for 2505, we've shared plenty of memories. Eating together every breaks, cracking jokes together. We queued together for the same food. we wld push all the plates to barry. we would bang the piano hey jude singing out loud. going sentosa together- playing v ball and soaking in the water. piggy-backing each other trying to form the pyramid. our punkakes adventure. our bao every friday! our PE sessions with charmy charmy and ms ong and another round of run with jasmine doing cheers! the times suaning greenacious and pinkacious. Jiang ming with his drug addict look. Chen lao shi who is always only doing CAI DEN MI. amanda with her ultra cold jokes being our OGF. mich. doing the crazy actions and being the HOUSe provider. the times we wld cuddle together and watch the gRudge while barry wld take POOH's ears to cover his eyes! the times we spent at barry's house playing with Max and eating instant noodles. the times we wld hang around taking pictures and beg mdm yam to let us off for lunchtime concerts during maths period. how we wld void the scary man of the class with the girl's bodyguard- the guys! guiding us all the way. yew ting giving me mentos. eating prata together. dancing and cheering like nobody's businness.

this list can go on forever and ever..

all these while, i nv felt such close bond before even in Peirce. The thought about parting with one another had nvr been so deep before. SOmetimes, just browsing the silly pictures we took and reading bck the memories thru the letters by everyone,and even the video plus powerpoint presentation makes me wna cry.

How i wish this clique will remain forever.. but, like they always said, all good things have to come to an end. i'll really miss the gd old days.

furthermore, my precious orientation ONE mates- orula. you guys simply rawks my world.

without you guys, i don't know how to become LAME le. hahas. yeahh. really. Esp, with mich and xianglong + qihao leaving.. i'll miss calling the siao za bo, the pervert and the secret. :( i'll always remember the times our orula wld get together talk cork and make an effort to turn up for each dwelling outings, lunch and dinner. it's really very nan de that our clique in the dwelling can maintain such friendship for so long. I'll really miss the times we spent together and i hope that we'll last forever. we'll miss sL saying he wants to ba ppl face. how roland wld go rnd bombing ppl like babu and calling SL gugu loud loud @ TP..  teckhao who will go opps bu hao xiao. secret who is always so tanned. Xl who haf so much cork 2 tell. welyon who always cheat our feelings. mich who wld sit there with me 2 laugh @ the jokes. Yingyi the dustbin :p and the FREE GIFT event at parklane. hahaas. (our little secret) the times where they tried to do the matchmake sessions.. which i shld say.. erms. obviously succeeded?

i really wonder which dwelling in AJC would actually go and meet up, play pool in Plaza sing, eat at parklane, see movie in balestier, and go all the way to Welyon's house just to dance! not forgetting the silly events where we wld talk cork, eat lunch lame around n tok bad abt PAtrick! haas. Also horr.. the stupid video clip we made.. really hilarious to the core. we shld show it to michelle really. <wo na cai fa xian, ta men dou zai li mian> opps. hahas. BU HAO XIAO! yeahh lor..

hahas. all the times in ajc. really makes me smile yet makes me wna cry. In life, i nvr liked to be apart. yet, it always have to happen.

here's a song dedicated to all who had made a difference in my life. To all, i'll miss you lots.

Say Goodbye" By S Club

Oh Yeah,

In The Years To Come,
Will You Think About These Moments That We Shared,
In The Years To Come,
Are You Gonna Think It Over,
And How We Lived Each Day With No Regrets,

Nothing Lasts Forever,
Though We Want It To,
The Road Ahead,
Holds Different Dreams,
For Me And You,

Sometimes Goodbye Though It Hurts In Your Heart,
Is The Only Way For Destiny,
Sometimes Goodbye Though It Hurts,
Is The Only Way Now For You And Me,
Oh It's The Hardest Thing To Say,
I Miss Your Love In Every Way,
So Say Goodbye,
But Don't You Cry,
Because True Love Never Dies.

In A Year From Now,
Maybe There'll Be Things We Wish We'd Never Said,
Maybe In A Year From Now,
Maybe We'll See Eachother,
Standing On The Same Street Corner,
No Regrets,

Each And Every Ending's Always Written In The Stars,
If Only I Could Stop The World,
I'd Make This Last,

Sometimes Goodbye Though It Hurts In Your Heart,
Is The Only Way For Destiny,
Sometimes Goodbye Though It Hurts,
Is The Only Way Now For You And Me,
Oh It's The Hardest Thing To Say,
I Miss Your Love In Every Way,
So Say Goodbye,
But Don't You Cry,
Because True Love Never Dies.

And When You Need My Arms To Run In To,
I'll Comfort You,
Nothing Will Ever Change The Way I Feel,

Sometimes Goodbye Though It Hurts In Your Heart,
Is The Only Way For Destiny,
Sometimes Goodbye Though It Hurts,
Is The Only Way Now For You And Me,
Oh It's The Hardest Thing To Say,
I'll Miss Your Lovin' Every Day,
So Say Goodbye,
But Don't You Cry,
Because A True Love Never Dies.

orula and 2505: you're the best thing that ever happened in my life.

You: Thanks for being there always.

i know all these will last because true love never dies. be it the love in a relationship or a friendship, this flame will burn till eternity.

was there ever a time u feel lost and needed someone to lend u ur shoulder? was there ever a time you feel like crying..... but u have nowhere to run but the toilet? was there ever a time u feel like you're in a dilemma and think that life jus sucks? i think my life is.

my life is so screwed up. :(

dun feel like talking.

dun feel like smiling.

all the small little things and events can really add up to sadness. who wants to rmb the sadness? but ya, u got no choice. it just comes to you.

yew ting: thanks. tho' u didn't know what happened at all, ur words have consoled me to a great deal.

most people online: sorry i didn't reply or only reply one word. wasn't myself.

lala's temporary out of order. yarh.

kind of lazy.. yeahh. but also because i'm tired and busy. over choir and more outings + homework.

yeahh. wanna see how my life is going on?

be sure to check this out yo?

http://picolau.mypicgallery.com/

25/05 simply rawks. hehehs

Sheesh! more than a week since ilast updated this. Since janice complainT! hahahs. There u go my dear. :) u rawks. i love u lots u noe. i miss u lehs.SEE! SEE ur picture down therE? heehee. so big loR. :p

woohoo. jus wna tell ZEE world out there how much i lurve my class NOW! wahh. so active but a bit of mugging style. We have BARRy FRANk. and bLUe bARRY? hahhas. and Even CHICKen FRANK! JAveLin also got. hehehes. only SC25/05 will know wad i'm talking about. :)

i really enjoy my stay at ajc. Tho' the teachers there can be really sucky, but i seriously can't bear the new friends i have made. I think the ORULA really is the best. I can't believe my good friends in ajc comes from my orientation group. My class is more of a Working group. Yay.... not even my long stay in CHoir every day gained me much friends. In fact, i dun seem to have made much during Choir. diao. maybe only wansu, zhixiong bah.. the rest all the CEdarians. all together de. so sian. yep yep. oh.. ahahs. and cat. high's principal's son? hee hee. plus cHin guan lor. all the nicer ppl. wierd it may seems, i make more friens with the males in the choir. the GIRLs all is aiyoh. nia mind. then now choir hoh.. got the dance. the Joy FUL joyful still not too bad. it's TRIOS. hahas. but we go together.. dunno whether to feel NEUTRAl. Kang Sheng's my partner. I dunnno why. but there's this fear tt lingers when we always haf to dance lor. Haiyoh!

ayE! dun wanna talk about him lahS. only one word. pa4 pa4. Shawn laugh loR. HrmpF.

Then now... my dwelling de laugh. Aiyoh. First d.p now him.. diao!i got no fate to DANCE in peace.

right..... okay. life's seem to be sweet. woohoo.

tmr got x-try. this is HORRigible.

still think SLY sing nicer lor. hahahs. for this song only. :) HEeeeee.

eeks. Valentine's day coming. SIanS. every year i give everybody things. hAhahs. this year i run out of ideas lE. somemore on tht day got test and choir nehX. so Sickening. :(

spoil my plan on making things. and going out with my FRIENDS. Hrmpf.

Ah doii. i knock my head yesterday at shenglong's house. ALl because of his bed and his brother's bed! got division de.. michelle they all dunno whether to laugh or help sia. hahas.kind of embarassing tho'. SoB. it was so painful that i reach home le then cry... aiyoh. First time i felt this burning sensation added up with a great deal of painful contractions on my head!  damn giddy. my goodness. the whole night.. couldn't slp well sia. i slept on one side of my body nia. Kaos. got pins and needles on my two arms... must be the knock. Haiyoh..... but phew.. i feel better but the pain is still excruciating lor. aye.

i think i'm a fortunate little lala. haaaaa. WHee.

blur i may seem, but God's really been kind to me after all. hee hees.

prilaa*/21/01/05/22:15/hari raya!

Lazy Me have Not been updating. Lazy Piglet have Not replied any mails. But i'll try. Sorry for the delays everyone! Pretty busy with my buzzy Life!

Wow. today's a public holiday. And my life each day is so 'happening'!

CHOIR : 1730-2000++  ( mon, wed, thurs, fri)

Tutorials: ONE BIG STACK

PEIRCE Thingy: CIP @ bishan tmr.

My Class: haven't happening yet- but soon to be

Dwelling: dinner or lunch or games with some guys and girls.

TODAY: i go KLKK one whole morning till afternoon.....

1) breakfast @ mac.

2) movie = elektra (goodie good good!) LIDO!

3) pool @ lucky, while walking met crazy fellows who bugged us to donate and use the same TAI CHI! 5 bucks for dunno wad. shit. now i recall.. did i fork out anots?

4)  walk to cineleisure for LUNCH- yoshinoya!

5) KLKK to HMV- met JIAYU & HONGJIE + shuicheng & his gurl

6) walked out under the hot sun to plaza Singapura. JALAN @ carrefour (dots) and bought water. hahs. lame.

7) take MRT and BOUNCE back. sat to marina bay and back to jurong east direction. lol.

8) walk to bishan BusTop-take mrt-take bus-then go home again. Lol.

felt like a fortunate little princess all of a sudden.

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Jan is angry. I don't know what to do. My sms exceed. I did not PURPOSELY not message her. I lian aaron and puden nv. reply nehx! haiz. I would love to go out. But i seem to have a 'date' with my dwellings and I don't wanna miss the open house on sat. for NYP-think it's the last day. I missed it because of choir!  Oh well.....

and yarh. tmr we're doing CIP. I dunno where BISHAN BLk 123 is lor. maybe playing pool after CIP bah.. i guess i shall skip NYP for my dearest friend. I don't wanna lose a friendship for nothing :) cheer up jan. It just happened to be that one here one there can't make it.

Heard life in CJC was tough. But when the tough gets going, the going gets tough. ANd i'm pretty sure that our dearest GIRL can make it WOR! jia you- dun give up. BE yourself. some people are just like that. don't be affected by them my dearest bestee.

yeahH.

one whole stack of tutorials! i feel like crying! my heart boils even further when ChoIr screwed up the dance part- we kept redancing yesterday! Haiz. because of choir... i'm missing lots of fun with my dwellings. I could only make it for DInner yesterday. But it was pretty meaningful, able to hang out together at night lor. and yay, yesterday welyon sit same bus as me go home. but me only like 4 stops. Diao!

YEP. I haven't touch any tutorials. I hate Econs. coz i don't understand a single damn bit. i can't answer all the graphs! I just have to look at the questions and i BLOW UP mentally. Chem's worse. i feel so stupid after aTTEMPting the questions. PHYsics..... my teacher is so boring. and GREAT. how did i became the MATHS rep? -clap hands!- ya man. And stupid physics.. must do the PArachute thingy! FUN fair- they planning COME MY HOUSE! lol. dots. nothing to say. scarly they come my house play bridge nia. Chinese ahh.. teacher so lame. always play game.

oKay. i betta stop yaking. I shld get going. hahas MUGGING TIME!

I dunno what's wrong with me -

I'm so scared of an undesirable outcome-

yet my heart was touched again and again-

no matter what i said, u're still there-- waiting-

why must u be so nice..... make me feel so guilty-

i could merely say THANK YOU for being such a wonderful close FRIEND-

All the things we always wanted to do, i'm seeing it all in the jC. students just hop from one class to another when they are not suppose to- which defines this as CRASHING. and many of us are staying in school during lunch and breaks to do our homework- that's mugging.

ahhas.

I'm lazy to update lahs.

I'm prolly the slackest girl. WEnt back to peirce yesterday..... wow. Big changes. my god. The bookshop infront is like WOW. the colour made everything feels like a museum? i dunno.. v. creative and zen looking. The classroom blocks. omg. There's a fountain in the middle! the CAVEroom looks so awesome. And wohH.. my teachers are looking greater than ever. The piano at the bookshop disappeared. it shifted to the mini 'auditorium' hahas.

and i learnt that many of the girls and boys.. diao. talking about how shuai or chio the ppl there looks. Which is quite true lahs. choir itself.. so many cute de- diao. me also? hahahahs. ok.. just DAY-dreaming and stating facts ya. the president.. dao.. but yarhh. hahas. the student conductor- funny and looks like a cute maniac scientist! :p lol.. okok. This is so NOT me. lol. right..

i miss my sec. sch friends. Ooooo. i received an overwhelming hug from janice. :) shiok lehz. ahhaas. too bad, mr cheng wasn't there when i went. Kinda miss all the teachers esp. auntie wong, ms Khor, chengZ, huang lao shi.. but they all go course. :( sob.. no choice. .then jus leave the card on the table. yepz.

choir screwed their performance and was v. upset. lots of tears flew across the rooms with our student pianist flying into rage. I tried my best to talk sense into her. she calmed down- but when i came back.. dare she go again. hhaaz. wierd lahs. But cheer up Peircean Voices. IT media did screwed up. But did u guys came promptly on time? Dun jus blame them. At the end of the day, brooding over the old things have no use. U guys should have jus bucked up, and be versatile. Shift your attention to a more realistic way. Can't prove ur vocals to them? Use ur persuassion. There u go! we have 21 ppl signing up with majority being BOYs. mr ong will be so proud of u peepo yay? :) cheer up. rmb. we're the best!

hahas. they all went out after poking balloons. was pretty scary. they burst like everything lor.. and we took some pictures :) woo hoo. wei jie was violent lahs. haas.

I dunno where they went. yarhh. i went to eat KFC with my dwelling mate. After which, we went to play pool till like 840. Felt really tired but hang on lah, since we should always be enthu. HAhas- A good leader will never show his tiredness-it was realllllllly fun!

hee heez okay.. i better stop praising myself and get on with life. hahaz. ya.. in the end.. lame lahs. i kept laughing at the pool..... and was practically feeling sneezy.....unfortunately, i got home, and fell sick. the big headache churned out to actually be a fever which almost drowned me to bed-- but it was a really enjoyable day.

Goshh. i'm feeling better today lahs. :) of course.. got medicine mahs. And again- hahas, my family dunnO!!! oh well.

yepz. I'm okay le! so glad lahs. not sneezing anymore. jus that i doubt i can bearly reach a high C on the keyboard on monday. hahas. feel a bit clogged up in the nose.

sheeeeeesh. so many tutorials and piling h.w! omg. and i do maths half-way sian. do chem half-way diao. haven't start phy. econs- dun wanna think about it. so chim. I'm so prone to addiction. every minute i'm msging my dwelling mate! SMS-fever. hahas. ya lor..... frankly speaking, this is the first time i see a person so enthu in SMS-ing! But i end up laughing at the messages when we try hard to suan each other. AIyohhs. Ppl say i 56K only. i so sad.. hahas. neighbourhood peirce sure 56K de mahs.... :p

I am so glad i came to AJC. Because i met a lot people who are so nice lahs. Example, michelle and eric- kaox. so touched they willing to teach me long division sia- auntie wong nv. teach!!! hehez. xiang long is i tell u lahs. C-C (sissy) hahas. chung cheng. KK. .and he ahh.. always lunch time- talk about those Rubbish found in the toilet lahs. shan't go into details! welyon, always trying to keep lots of things from us! he should be call SECRET rather than Qi hao lor. oh yahh. tht da we go bOwl.. was fun lahs. they keep ka-jiao me with stupid D.P. How did things circum. to such a stage!!! omg. this is stupid okay. yarhh. the girls went home- i stay wid the guys who visited NYP for lunch ( cos i had choir!) and ya lor.. we talk lame- diao. roland damn funny. always trying to change the subject when the Topic was very depressing---> about results. ahahhas. his reaction ah.. makes me laugh at times also lor.

roland ah roland.. when can u stop being a happy FRUIT? can stop making me laugh?

dots.. during break. xianglong asked me a v. wierd question in front of so many people.... dots..... haiz.. i also dunno actually..... hais..... then SMS, roland also the questions and topic all so wierd one.....make me so xin ku to answer..until i say.. let's drop the subject.  If you think u noe what you're thinking, i tell you, it's not what you're thinking. So please don't take a de-tour within your mind and think YY! ( sounds familiar?*) yarhh. wadever.

Sian diao. tmr going collect scolarship le. finally..... hahhahas. so good night.

the life of a jc student has finally overwhelmed me after the days of the orientation were over. I finally faced what we call tutorials, lectures and even PDG group + tutor. I discovered the different style of learning and the time slots of the cca which ranged from 530-8pm, on practically 3-4 days a week. LIfe suddenly seem so busy.

For me? I don't know. I only knew that a few people from my class itself. And yarhh, glad that a few of my MCS friends and PsS friends were in the same class as me. Oh, berry fr. cat. high- heard to be aaron and junwee's pri sch and sec sch friend. hahhaz. yarhh.. looks shuai lah. how come al the handsome ppl fr. cat high? hahhahaa.

yeahh.. hardly hangout with them since the day we BUMPED at the homeroom at that pathetic 1025. i've been really hanging out with my dwellings....

the essence of 'smarties' filled the air no matter where i am in aJc. even in my class, even in my orientation group de. ya lor. hais.. now i know how my brother felt when he was all alone in njc. i think i more worse lor..... everybody so clever. Initially i did enjoy myself lahs. I still am, but dunno why..... suddenly feel so stupid man. when they started comparing PSLE scores.. i was like, oh god. save me. somemore ask me lehs. I plucked up the courage and told the TOP student- half of your last 2 digits..hahahhahz. wierd hoh? ya larh. and........ we have RGS vs CCHS. hahhas. this michelle and xiang long keep talking to each other about homework, and always squabbling. ahahs.

OH well. what to do? Anderson wor.. i'm totally not confident of whether i can stay at Ajc. Reflections are v. important- FAMILIAR AJCIANS? hahahs. okok. yarhh.. apparently i noe i didn't do well and all i hope now i get the MOST 13 and the least.. at least give me 9 lahs. hais.. dunno if i can hit at all. Among all the girls and boys, somehow, i feel out of place lahs. My group itself got ZHonghua-AHmad ibrahim-RGS-cat high-chung cheng-chij (tp & st nicks.) oh well.. then sudddenly pop up one peirce..... lalalllas.

so stress sia. my group..... all PIA* finish all their homework.  and me...? i pian pian haf to lose my file yesterday and get a big scolding from my mother on the phone which left me on the verge of crying. sighhs... now everybody finish le lahs.. left me.. so i must pia. but i so slack. go play bowling today somemore. Oh, i found my file le. diao.. some kind soul picked it up. phew..... oh well. THANKS :) to that unknown who found it and to all who had expressed ur 'heartfelt condolences' to the lost file. hahahas. and yarhh. thanks. and i still feel so bad for making someone rush down so fast.... and walk aimlessly when the file was still unfound.....sorry.....damn sorry.

hais. oh well. since everyone pia FINISH le. today dao wo le. i must finish all my maths 9233, phy, econs and (chem?) hahahs. crazy.. as if got so easy like that. sian.. i'm in Anderson Choir now. Congrats to myself for getting past nelson kwei. right..... auditions went smoothly except tht i was too nervous on the first round and the 2nd audi by kwei himself, i manage to cool down abit. But went damn off-key when he played like almost to the end of the board.. this is NUTs. okay. so paisei. hahas. oh well.. i'm in soprano one with a bunch of damn DAO ppl. dunch noe.. i feel uncomfortable there in choir. must sing and learn 16 songs for the concert @ VCH and the SYF pieces- sunset, wings and dunno wad lahs. they somemore going to CHad Republic i think i july. This is lke gonna be so.... diao. busy. 5:30-8. lalalals. late one minute = one dollar. shucks.. choir is gonna be FILTHY rich with me being a LATE QUEEN.

today cca carnival- i only sign up one MORE. besides choir, i wnt for harmonica. tho the time CRASHES! omg. hahahhahas. so lame- WHEEL OFF!!!!!

hais. i go pia le.

 today dunno why so moody..... tho' i played quite a good game *for rusty girl not bad le!!!*.

ya lor.... damn moody. i think i write this blog, my expression is also moody. oh well..... trash heap prilala is feeling down and moody. i feel inferior. So happy at times. so down at times.

"Learning is  not about the length. It's the depth."

wheeeee. finally! Priscillia the great has returned for an update! and bleah. i'm so lazy to revamp the whole layout since i've stopped using blogger. so HAng ON and dunch ya get bored with my layout yarhh?

bangs head*

i'm still in dreamland with my new friend ROLAND messaging me- calling me pig. Ahh.. first it was aaron from that catholic high. now hiM! oh well..... can't help it if i'm tired right? heeheez. I call him siao da bo and he calls me siao za bo.

word of the day in ajc= baboO! and roland's always trying to bomb baboo or waKondA! :P crazeh guy right?

right.. k. u must be getting really bored now N urs truely is gonna make u even more FAN MEN than ever! muhahahas

shake it shake shake it.

amidst in a whole new environment of unfamiliar faces, stood up a crazeh jc2 girl and a pretty studious jc2 boy. One that goes woOhoo and the other that just hangs around with us chatting enthusiastically. Ladies and gentlemen, DRUMs please* we have jeanette koh and edwin yeo- the OGLS of ORULA! muahhahaas. `evil laughs.

Yeahh. the first friend i made and was gum with was this girl from RGS- michelle tan and another girl called KIan Te from KCPSS. yeps. They two were really nicee and i'm loving them lotsa! Came another girl by the name of Chiew CHing. Wooooo.. so many hot girls and hot boys from zhong hua! yarh lor.. leaving lala the only gal from zee ulu neighbourhood sskoool-peirce. but right..... hehez it's quite fun stil!

from the first day- the fourth day of orientation, we've been cheering loudly, hearing boring talks from the teachers, playing awefully awesome games, and learning how to dance wildly. muhahas. it's really ShioK! I'm starting to love Anderson! yEpz. so.. u see, tho' i was not inspired to go to my first choice ajc, i'm still loving it. I told ya i'll make my stay the most enjoyable :) and woooooHoo! i make it oooookay?

right. we learnt mambo no. 5 and michelle kept laughin at me. u noe why? sighhs. i'll feel evil if i were to right it here. okay.. nia mind. only smart people knows* winks. let me give ya guys a clue -d.p? Many thought that dancing with their partner was horrifying.. but when they turned to look at mine.. they shakes head. hahas. oh well.. teck hao still laugh at me. hmmph! yarhh lor..... :'( that moment was the worse climate at ajc then. also the worst PERIOD in my life! i tell u.. wad a day to start in AJC! but right..... stop laughin u guys and girls. STOPPIt'! grrr. hahahahs.

kk. stop being lame lala.

and yesh.. we have great leaders in the group too! Eric- he's also an indonesian! woohoo! more more more! yeahh.. quite a gentlemen. and hmm. he's always leading the cheers :) yeahh. ooooo ooooo oooooorisssssha! oh yarhh.. we also got learn Boriquitto as well as slam dunk da funk. The last one totally sucks tho' it looks damn cool. we have really lousy Teaching session that day.

hehz. my group the girls. quite sian lahz but still not too bad! we do at least talk and as a group, we're even much more united! yarhH. the guys, abit siao de lahz. especially izhar and roland. Roland's always trying to bomb other group and i can't help noticing some similarities between roland and teckhao. bahh.. they're both FANS of felicia koh. oMg. can u believe iT? hahas.. our tribe MASTER. yes.. no wonder teck hao so intersted to join student council. hehehz

shakes heads`` guys are just guys i suppose?

and yarhh. they both like SHE and is joinin the guitar club. woW. surprising rightS?

urs truely wanna join something new and exciting but manz...... i'm kind of worried about the CCA points since i'm not familiar with student concil and i doubt i even joining it. yeah lor.. i admit that i really love choir a lot..... but everything's gonna be so different. no more BeAR to play the piano and no more onG to rawk me on. :( goshh. n i heard the conductor nelson kwei, is pretty nasty. I'm like so..... u guys noe my character. i can have everything under the sun but i just lack patience at times and sometimes, i can't stand certain people. Yahh....

moreover, i can't jump and play sports well. No way am i joining the sPORTs here. Odac sounds fun, but i doubt i wanna join that. and hmm..... I wanna try photography club! but. sounds like one that can bring me no cca points even as much as i would enjoy it. RIGHT! publishing stuff would seem GREAT but how great? i don't know. yeahh.. that's right. i WANT TO join harmonica..... but am i up to it? can i even read the scores properly? what is it like? should i even continue choir since jeanette, and bear wants me to continue? sighhs.. how i wish i can join TWO CCAs. man... hahaz

i sound troubled don't i?

I feel like joining GUITAR CLUB. HARMONICA. CHOIR. so MANY! but only one can get through the finals in my mind. the question is- which onE?

hahas. right...... i think i'll try the auditions first. if i can't get through it due to my ultimate sore throat. THAt's fate! i'll go for some blowing or strumming session! HEHEHHz..... :) not a bad idea eh?

ooo.. yesterday, in zee morning till afternoon we were all together as one dwelling-oRula. and we met up with CLass 23 to play some games. They're really nICe people. we went to do CIP together and we combed the entire place of 7 blocks- collecting newspaper, old electronics and clothes. YeAH! we really were GOOD.

then during the break, we went to NOVENA where the guys happily roamed around the streets themselves. They came back claiming that teckhao was having a diarrhoea! but wad's the truth? he went to get the small printed Tees for jeanette and edwin. KOOL! To think i actually believed those terrible lousy stories. hahas. Nice job on the lying part GUYS!

And woohOO! we ate @ LJS @ novena after the arrival of edwin. and yUp. I saw WEIJIE. ooooo. still looking as SHUAI. hahas. yarlor. and i called kevin to tell him. hehez. Kev. went back to peirce. Heard everyone stopped talking about our beloved Ms Ho le. :(

it's really a sad thing. Thinking of Miss Ho makes my heart sinks sometimes. ok. She's in Paradise. It's a good thing. Don't cry anymore.

When we returned to AJC, we played some game and man.. i hit the jackpot-10 Times for being DUSTBIN. Why am i losing my concentration so easily and always so blur..... ahh. mIss Blur queen mahz. hais. Yar lor.. i was named the Trash Heap* while yingyi was named the DUSTBin with friends all over in singapore. hahhas. really funny tho' some were chum. i'm still not that bad. i only did small forfeit. the others had to do the skit! POooooor thing. hehehz. :p

Campfire was not at all called a camp fire yesterday. it rained. Sucks man. worse.. the stupid lightstick of many kept leaking! but yarhh.. still quite fun. we watched the skits and stuff. cheered on. did the FEVER, HOT thingy, which michelle and I lurve translating the cheer to chinese. Welyon was like OH boTher..... he wished he didn't sit infront of me. I kept throwing the stick at him.. dunno why still but for fun i guess :p

YeaHh.. we danced slam dunk da funk when the rain stopped. Sucks that part. it was a whole lot of confusion. but heeheez. my hp was inside eric's pocket who was so afraid that his perspiration my ruin the phone! beahh.. beats better than putting in my pocket and Dropping it right?

YeahH.

Roland...... that bugger. he ahh.. siao Da Bo lah. call my siao zha po. Hmmph! yeahh.. went home with many of my team ppl when kevin wanted to pangseh me. But i saw him. So good.. wait for me. hahas. -vomits- he really good friend right? hehez. Shall nv forget kevin who acted as that retarded gay. hahas. disgusting.

and Wohoo! i discovered that WElyon stays jus behind tTsh, zhixiong is like staying at mcnair only, kev near muh.. and wooHO! we all stay so close! but yarhh.. hahas. took the same bus @ zhixiong and we were talking about choir stuffz. sian.. a little worried oon my decision on the CCA.

Stop being paranoid lala.

OK..... yeahh! i got into the same class as Priscilla and Priscilyn the twins! wooohoo. Michelle too in my class. SC25/05 not bad not bad. but haiz.. i'm so sad.. wansu not in the same class as me. so are the orulas.

OH well! BUt I love you guys out there to bits. Muahhahs.

Kbox is fun! woohOo. I still like wo de ai.. pool.. yeahh. tmr we playing pool! waHH. can't wait. hAHas. jus learnt that catholic high boys are like really expertise in pOol loR. hahas. Wanted to go swimming today. but yarhh it was raining. Shucks..... class 23 en wei is cute? hahahs. lala goes crazeh as usual after some nervous breakdown. Don't care me kay?

My god.. i'm behaving like TECK HAO. but i'm not as crazy as him. I only say for fun because it's a fact and i forget about it. Hahs. he hoh.. still talking about felicia. Sian! yawn! Stop saying le.. hahas. i beg u.

shUdes.

oh did i tell u my group got one shuai ge? hahas. he's from chung cheng high main. Xiang loNg. hahas. he's pretty close with jeanette wor? but yarhh.. heard lotsa stuff like they both haf their partners le. heeheez. ayiahh. wld not can sabo them right?

right. tata. u must be really bored by this really long entry.

heard janice joined ODAC. omg.And huiXin is the president! hahhas. poor thing. Oh yarhh. yesterday, i go meet puden and his friends in the morning before heading to school. Wierd anot? actually was waiting for Shi han to walk past, so i can intro. but she haven't walk past us. Then we left lor since lala running late. hahas. sorry lahz. make u guys go innova so early. i cannot remember his SA friends anyway. Wad ZaG and OYster de. :p

Muhahahas! It's the beginning of a very new year again. My.. how fast time flies. And on monday, most of  the 'sec 4s' are moving on to a new life in the JCs.

I'm such a kind-hearted girl. do u need a paper bag to store ur vomits? hehehz. I'm planning to donate my one-day salary. OK. this don't sound like a very big sum of money, and it's a shear fact that i'm defintely not going to donate my whole year's savings to the Red Cross (because i need to survive too). NOw, i'm making myself sound very stingy am i? Hmm.. right. I BETTER stop saying. hahas. Yepz, i am going to donate! YES YES YES! best is donate to the biomedical side. so afterall, i'm just trying to help.

I was completely touched by this family's story of Tsunami. Allan- my mom's boss. he had described the scene as a very chaotic one where he was separated with his wife and grabbed his daughter tightly while the waves of 6 metres high came in like a roaring thunder and came down with a WHOOSH on the many people. He was one of them. He clinged on tightly to something ( i can't recall) and yarhh.... the water was up to his chin. As for his wife, he only learnt that she was ALIVE after the water and waves had subsided and became much calmer. She explained that while she clinged on tightly to the tree, her other hand saved a New Zealander. She pulled him when she saw him being washed away! How brave! She's like so skinny and she actually had the strength to hold herself and pull the NZ guy in battle with the strong current from beneath! My.... she's my HERO.. hahas. They met up only after a short while..... it's like so heng~ Looks like we human can't outbeat Nature and it's hellish for those who met up face to face with nature. Heaven seemed like nothing that helped no one.. but those survived seemed so heavenly so suddenly. A 27-year-old man actually survived w/o food after being found after 5 days from the day of the incidence!

ok. Yawn.. u must be bored to tears now. right.. let's start with what i did yesterday!

I went to da jie's house. IT was as beautiful still! hahaz. i finally can speak proper Teochew i think. Not very fluent but at least i could communicate with my grandparents when my parent's when to fetch them. They sat next to me. and i actually ask my Ah Gong why he used a newspaper and not an umbrella in Teochew! WAHH~ i shock lehz. my mum laughed really loud at the funny accent which came along while i spoke. OH well!

We explored the house. and yarhh.. i help my sister to make drinks for the older ones. And man, everyone felt that they CANNOT dirty the house.. we were all panicking when someone drop food, all spill water. hAHAs. Really~ my sister will scream. hahas. no lahh, they were v. nice. I spilled sugar. Trust me, what's worse? the sugar actually blended in with the marble tiles of the cabinet! my god..... ok.. but at least bushy-eye-brown him nv scold me. :)

we ate the food and had to order a second round coz it wasn't enough! and yarhh.. we watched the Video of their wedding first. And when it moved to the CHina trip thingy, we all left the TV leaving the older generations to watch. HAhahs. We go to their study room and yan jiu the computer and MP3 which my cousin got for his b'day. so good............ creative some more. Lol! and then we played scrabble whereby i lost terribly, with my 2nd sis as the ultimate winner, outbeating us by a 100 points! And then we played bridge. was really funny lahhx. then change to scrabble again~ this time i was 2nd. hEhehz. so happy. N yarhh... we played UNO. COuldn't stop laughing because they nv shuffle properly! i kept drawing cards for no blue. and adam kept giving draw four to my sister, whereby he ask me for blue. and i kept requesting for yellow to andy. AHahs. it was really funny lah. my sister BUrpEd out loud suddenly which sent us laughing upside down. Andy was like, i thought i off the television? How come i hear a dinosaur? da jie laugh until cannot ta-han.yarhh.. we played until 1++ and screamed HAPPY NEW YEAR @ 12. we 3 sis posed stupidly at the camera. i was TWO. my da jie was 2 ZEROES like she gna box. my 2nd sis was like FIVE. we giggled non-stop. finally a nice picture came about. how nice. but sad.. my 3rd sis wasn't there. she would haf been the other zero. hahz. just nice- SCISSORS PAPER STONE> hahas. ok.i'm lame again.

Yepz. Oh! the J2 student Jeanette from AJC called me. MAn... mY tribe is Orisha and i'm in the dwelling of  Orula. Cool huh? and i'm suppose to look out for a White flag on the 1st day of school. cool.....  dots... i figured that it's wiser to take 851 in the morning. coz 162 dun come soearly an that 162's route is mUCh mUCH longer! duhh.. i wanna take MRT lehz. but i lazy to walk to the MRT. Moreover if i everyday change bus just to take MRT, i really PRo~ so ex...

yawn~~ yesterday hoh.. jie and andy brought adam, 2nd sis and I home. THe rest left like @ 11. In btw, we went to the drive-thru @ kallang jus to eat popcorn and fries. hahas. My da jie, so poor thing. she vomitted. i don't know wad to do. We could only call andy not to step on the brake so hard.....

hope she's fine.. sian. i slep at 4 and guess what time i woke up? FOUR! omg..... i wouldn't have woke up tho' if my mom didn't call my handphone.....

ok.. heard they wna go out tmr. don't know if my mom and dad will see to it anot. sianz. maybe i try to PHYSCO my brother along..... hehehehehz! plus the power card- WANSU- maybe the effect will be TIMES TWO! @_@" hEHEEz.

great... let's see about it tomorrow. i might just disappoint u all. ya. not sure.. but hahhas. Tata!

After hearing news of the terrible Tsunami Tidal wave, I shall send my heart-felt condolences to those who had failed to survive this natural disaster. My jaws were wide-opened as i perpetually watched the killer wave swallowed the hotels houses and almost everything thru the news. I saw how those tourists and visitors struggled to overcome such an unexpected 'visitor' who is trying to claim their lives. Worse of all, the death toll has reached to as high as 28, 483 and amongst these, are singaporeans. Some have yet to be found.... two kids and one women.. my goodness.... and i think got somemore.. It's such a shocking event. Many were injured. One of the them was my mom's boss who went to Phuket. He quite gum with me. hahahs.. lurve his child lotsa. omg..... He and his wife all didn't die.. the whole family. Phew.. they only had bruises on their fore-heads. They could have escaped those injuries- but i'm grateful they beared those bruises. It was the evidence for their love towards their 2 children... :) I wouldn't want to cry ya know!

yeahh.. wad a tragedy for a christmas present from God. Let's hope more will be rescued and that the death toll will STOP increasing..

Every second someone leaves the world while a new baby is brought in to this world. We should actually treasure the importance of each and everyone. we'll never know what may come tomorrow. Treasure before it's too late. Hence, I always try to be contented with whatever i have. although i may be skinny ( i wna be fat) and i complain lots, but yarhh, i'm glad i have a proper set of bone structure. I may not have the X-factor and looks like cherr, but at least i am myself! I may neglect and be annoyed by what my family does to me at times, but at least, i have a some-what complete family... So we should always look on the bright side of the day each time and be glad that we are better off than the less fortunate.. :) dun ya think so?

do more charity when you can afford.....

Time flies. and wow.... shocking. lol. 3 jan reaching le.. oo.. i'm feeling excited!!! can't wait!  bLEaghh.. i'm tired. yawns. as usual, i went to work hard and gain more work experience. actually, quite tough and not to my liking because it wasn't my choice... but yarhh, at least i'm spending each day and hour very meaningfully (except for the work time) but.. dots.. because of this..... i can't watch my fav. movie tomorrow. :( i'm so sad and angry.... i was waiting for it's release but, i can't believe i have to forgo it le..... phantom of the opera.... nvm. i go see the BIG MUSICAL next time they come round Singapore. Hmmph! ~~~pissed

i was a grouchy little piglet today. my dad scolded me for going to play badminton. " You not tired ah?" just that simple sentence that was brought about in a full-blast volume. and i was darn pissed. i know i shouldn't be rude..... it's not my style of working. Usually i will just complain to myself. But man.. i said in a harsh manner..... "If i don't go, i'll nt have anymore time and chance le! I'm not even suppose to work for you lor. U all keep calling me sleep after i come home! then next day go work? stupid..... i'm really wasting my youth and energy ..."

omg.. that was what i said. can i take back my words? sighhs.. but he didn't say anything.. he was guilty i guess? dunno.. not my intention thou'. oh well.. manz.. wassup wid my parents nowsadays? going out seems so hard now! they think i went out with a group of guys! They say i go pool with HOOLIganS because the place is for hooligans! DOes that mean i am one too? shucks man.. i can't believe they are so outdated. my dad say still can.. but my mother! omg.. my bro. didn't hear it.. i was hoping he heard it and help me say some words since he was with me on the first day @ orchard. now my parent's think i've changed..... since when have i changed? I only more grouchy mahhx. I am not those that can work then go home sleep de loR. I must at least do my sewing would not i will nv. finish it.... :(  n i also wanna go out with my friends to play. So i'm bound to be tired the minute i get home and settle my own stuff. Go work so early so obviously i'll be a grouchy Priscillia rights? Hais.. they noe me so long le.. they don't know this mahx? Just because i mixed with a few new friends fr outside they think i change. tell me.. where have i changed then?

I'm already bones.. please don't let me be left only my soul.....

so sorry i was late for the badminton guys. THanks fer returning the shawl shingx. :) badminton was fun and hui li's bro was more matured than i expected. thought he'll be like darryl's brother! :p okok.. hahas. my hand suan le.. lol.. tired. hl, darryl, daniel and jing hao walked home while ws, jan and i walk to the J8. oh.. b4 tht i saw jia jun. wanted to msg him de.. tell him hw come he looked so SIAN and wierd. hhahas. but yarhh.. nvm.. i dun understand how his name got MISSING in my hp list. oh well..nvm.

WE 3 go eat tako ball and i was the only one who ate the sea creature octopus while they ate bacon and cheese.. ooo.. nt bad. n yarhh..... lol jan stil eat wad chicken ball and chicken satay de. me only eat the chicken satay. ws best.. eat the ball dun wan le. i was hungry ya see! no lunch! U see.. how can my work be an experience huh? More like slavery.

Grrr.. i angry le. utterly pissed by the way my parents are reacting to the fact that i go out and i still come home for dinner. Worst timing ever.. when i was going to pierce my ear @ this time of the year, (due to clashes of pool and their mistaken identity of their DAUGHTER-me) they interpreted by giving the look that i'm behaving like those Lians on the streets. Hello........ do i even look like one? i tot i look like a lunatic and a crazeh childish PIGlet! how can i not be angry..

Shhh.. whoever reads it dun tell my bro. go read.. dun want this incident to be round the house... no one noes it when they Say me on the phone.............. 

Pool yesterday was great lah. happily waited for dearr aaron and julia for half-an-hour! needless to say, jw and wq was really late. ws was at least late for a good reason. hahahs. i shall shut my mouth now cos i'm one of those late queens in this particular holiday outings. sry.. i was pretty early and i bumped into darryl at CKTang inside. he with his mama.. then his mama left then we both walk around while i decided to eat my lunch at mac- french fries.. how pathetic. not enough time to eat full meal lahh..

i play with sx and jan at first.. at first is jan + me vS suxian but i think i damn pro.. i shoot the eightball in... ahhH.. then me vs two of them.. god.. call a lousy me play with two of them!!! noooo... but hahs. in the end the game play half-way.. ws joined in and we realise that we four were together AGAIN playing the same table AGAIN! hahas. previously was the day before with my kOr. :p and lalallas... when we change table swop partner.. i shaked heads.. because i partner with a POOL-Pro- pu tian!!! ahh.. puden is like damn good.. teaming with him only makes me feel guilty because i felt like i ruined all his opportunities in winning each game in the shortest time! right.. i guess wansu too.. she teamed with another pro- aaron. hhaas. HuiLi was with jun wee. wei qi and who aahh.. forgot le..  ohh.. xinru and darryl.. yahh.. i think wq and julia?? nt sure.. can't really rmb actually. sux and jan lah.. as usual~ :)

right.. it was really fun lahh. ws lost her wallet in the arcade when somebody actually tried to sit on it and pretended that they didn't felt it.. stupid fools. got camera loR.. u hide also no use..

ws and i played house of the dead and we kept making lotsa noise.. jw and wq best* exchange so many tokens! for what!!!! aiyohh.. puden wait until tired le.. me too.. we couldn't wait to go home.. everyone.. hahs. so we hanged on while they played. they donated one token for us to play our photohunt.. jan and sux poor thing. Experienced many HAnds over-head and from behind them. lol.. and we died.. we all cheered for RJ-jun wee and NY- wq when they play the stupid game... apparently, NY was a bigger winner that night.. that ghost was so Ya Ya on the sport. hahas.. jun wee was perspiring profusely. he practically set off a 'rain' on himself.. omg. but overall, good game good day. hahahs :) i good soul accompanied wS to the bus stop just to sit the same bus! the rest go take mrt. Aren't i a kind little piglet? :p

aiyohhx... ok.. shall bid gdbye here.. coming online isn't that ez now.. but yarhh. i can't wait for new year's evE! going jie's house.. i'm gonna physco them to play Bridge!

GoshH. on the 23 i went swimming wid janice. Yarhh.. we were so lame. we both had arrived, and we waited for 15 minutes for each other! u know why? cos she was inside waiting while i was outside. Stupid... until she call me... then i was like, ehh.. i waiting for u.. then i go in, then u know lahH! hahas.. we both "waliao!!! lame!!!" it was an amazing swim. i swam little and obviously i had not much of a stamina. hahahhas. jan was too fast tht she was one and a half laps ahead. okie. she's not fast. I'm 'wols'. yar lor.. then on my 6th lap while it's her 8th lap, hahas, we decided to set off together. and loL. i swiveled after i kicked too hard and the muscles act up on me.. it was kinda funny. i shouted ouch so loud, and i tracked half-way, turn arnd and head back to the front..... lucky janice taught me how to swim the other way, so yarhh.. i don't know how i did it with those terrible cramps, but yarhh, at least i didn't drown like the other time when the muscles act up. i was so guilty. janice had to swim 2 laps just to look for me.. sorry gal. in the end, we went to the baby pool to massage. and then towards the medium pool, i slipped and fall.... i told u guys b4 le. hahahs. right..

on the 24th. I worked. came home slacked and use computer. wanted to take a bath, but yarhh.. there was a painter at my house. so u know.. no one was at home.. so yarhh.. n darryl came so freaking early okiE.... he came at 6pm and i was like WHAT? u reach le... omg... i wanted to fetch him but i had no keys to the new door. lucky my mum came back. and so yarhh.. i told her i go fetch one guy.. she was like guy? wad guy. hahas.... as usual. i fetch him lor. then he say early mEH? yarhh.. i got him green tea, threw him some photo albums and left him stranded at my hall while i took a quick shower. hahs. n yarh.. went ot bring things down. met ws and jan who finally came. yarhh.. then we all ate dinner which was like my reunion dinner with my friends. Lol. ate til so late tt pu tian haf to call me. lol. we ran to the church after taking a detour on a bus.... lucky we won't late especially when one of the gates were locked! so lame.. yarhh

ok. the show was fine. we laughed too loud at times. hahS. see wansu blog/jan blog? especially the nGs. puden face so big.

right. we hang out at his church for quite a while jus to decide where to go. and yarh. sent ws off to the bustop n wait for the bus to come. went back to the church. the church ppl play table tennis and chatted. while we fools sat outside on the big protruding drain singing out loud. puden change clothes and pei women. hahs. we went back in n played concentration which obviously was too LOUD and we were recommended to stop playing.

they came to my house to party. played bridge and eat big time. yarh lor. my dog was so .. nvm. ok sorry if he shrieked too loud in the lift.

and yah. they left my house like 1++ since xr mother scolded me.. hahas. okok, she talk too expressively le..so i call her go back with darryl n jan. they shared a cab home. yar lOR.

today?

i've been reading people's blog. Tho i don't know tris... heard a lot from wansu and jan. and i'm feeling so worried for him! i mean it's like, sighhs.. if the situation were to be falling on me, i would be so watery all day.....and defintely at a lost. ur mum will really be fine my friend. let's all pray hard.  ````````pray```````

and i slept till 2pm! wad a pig me.since aaron replied.. yarhh, so i replied tht i just woke up. and he realised tht he tot he was a pig for sleeping till 12 plus.. nonetheless, he finally found an ultimate pig me. hahs. Welcome to the pig club opened by xin RU. hahaX Opps. not so loud. SHhhH! later xr see le angry. Hehehz

and ya..... on the TV was me too... i kept watching Tv and talking big times with shao Hui. ThanKS fer that sharing session. hahas.

how much of a fool had i been again?

But yeahh.. at least i'm proud that i spit it all out fast. :)

sometimes, knowing too much isn't good because you'll end up finding out more than you don't wish to.

So what defines Correctly? Amazing... it's really amazing. I never knew that the inner feelings could be planned incorrectly de. wow...... this is a definite wide-eye-opener for me. ok.. now i see much more than i usually don't.

honesty is the best policy? hahahas. Ok..... just don't understand why some events don't link. why one can bother to do so much and let it end up like nothing happened. Like i was jus a POS at the end of the story?? but it's ok. at least i know I dont harbour much feelings.

Love is like a butterfly. Hold it too tight, you'll crush it. Hold it too lightly, it'll fly away from your palm. But if that love had not harboured into one's heart, no matter how hard you hold it, play with it, it's still going to drown into that deep blue sea.

iF it Is. it is.

phew* basically, i should thank myself for being so honest so fast. at least this little ordeal is finally over...  it's nicer always to be friends because Single rawkS my woRld. hahhahahhas.

what a day  i spent my christmas ! fancy me chewing on cheeseballs all day round.. aniway, thanks fer all the gifts everyone.... i can't believe we daughters and son all forgot to give my mum a christmas prezzie. sad.. nvm. New year?? hahs. Okay.. i can't believe i haven't watch finish my summer scent after dragging it since my o's. Those songs..... makes me more depress than ever.

Kung Fu hustle was lame. Funny but.. not satisfying lehz. i still can't get it why my bro they all laugh until so... LOUD. And i can vividly remember the shadows of Adam exchanging french fries with a stranger wid my popcorn, just 2 give my sis some fries. i was so embarrassed. ALL three of us hide our face while he went to ask his neighbour. So Paisei!

okk.. i suddenly remember that someone commented that i write practically EVERYTHING including my inner thoughts inside.. oh dearr. and i don't even realise it. MAybe because i don't mind sharing? anyway, yarhh, shall cut down on my words and craps then! :) :) :)

my cross stitch really sux. i ran out of strings.....

whatever thing that beeped thumped me out of nowhere. the sudden shriek of the hand phone sent a shiver down my spine, and right down till my abdomen. the sensation came. it was filled with a massive feeling of pain, fear, worries, confusion and adrenaline. My body could not hold me on further, i really need you. it was that force, that carried my 2 legs as quickly as possible, yet making my heart thumped 10 times faster. Finally, i found you- how much i really needed you. yet how much i fear of it... it's the toilet. but i finally found out my body has a weak reaction. whenever i fear of something that might take place, or be at  a lost, i really need the toilet, or my legs will be jellied.No, correction~ it's the main source of my gastric pains..... serious... and i dunno why...

looks like i'm grounded after christmas. No one said anything, but the feeling is so right.

thaNk u GurL fer sharing with me about it. I guess we feel much more comfortable after letting many years-old secret out of our chest yeahh? heeheez. I also worr! :) thanks a lot. by the way, i'm referring to the TWO of u. hahaz! yes U!

i wonder if anyone visited the hospital after eating the cookies ws and i baked? :X hope not.

basically i'm going to join harmonica and choir. if it's too heavy, i'll drop one and maybe join a less headache cca- SC? hahahs. no don't think so. i dun haf what it takes to be a leader. i'm a loser? maybe. OR maybe photography club. :X wad the hell... okok.. i shld join some sports.. too bad ajc dun haf bowling. only the one i want but put 2nd choice, then nv go in- haf.. sighHS!

have u heard your heart beat from where u stand before? if u felt before, that's what i'm feeling....for some reasons, it's not excitement. it's not happiness. it's not love. it's not everything. it's something complicating. hUH?? 'what toking u'-quote quote frm jinfa. ahh... i think it's the same feeling before u enter an examination room for ur oral. HAHA! :X

MERRY CHRISTMAS to all my DEARRS

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ouch..something tells me that my whole body hurts. i fell down at toapayoh swimming pool concrete steps n a loud thud came onto the metal drainage covered with lines. so paisei. that's alright..... but i can't bend my back fully... headache-ing in process....sobs. haiz..... i'm filled with muscle pains, orh-che, and wierd 'compilation' of bones..... ahhh....

 of course silly me. hahas. who fall down le can move about so FLEXIBLE? after all, i'm poor at balance. :D

Happy burfdae to u! Happy burfdae to u! Happy burfdae to *pause 1 sec* HOT DOG!  happy burfdae to you!

*winks

 happy burfdae my dearR sweEtie Cuttie janICe!

hahahahahs. dun hair stands woRr!

oh! and edmund too. i didn't forget yours :) same day as jan. mahX!

Yesterdae was fun. I went an hour late for the same reasons as usual. And i went to rent a bike, only to find out that they were at the SAILING CENTRE there! THAT'S so FAR!!!!!!! was like... wHAT? hahas. i cycle half-way wid 1 big bag of gifts and presents fer everyone.... and no basket on tht stupid bike. Right. so heavy.  cycle dao CHUAN le coz the day before, me go swim alone! wow wow mE! right.. just kept swimming and i really gt fed-up when this guy swam and kicked me TWICE! sickening swimmer... forget abt it. yup. so tht's why i ride the bike tht time.. so exhausted.... and the bike really suc*s k.. i cycle dao blur le.. even puden, jianye, junwee and aaron ride pass me and OIII i also nv hear. hahaz. until pudding wave big big.so funneh. I ride in front, then jun wee ask.. 'why the girl dunno way one, come late de, only girl ride in front of us ahh?' quite funny the way he say. And then they decided that they should be my bodyguard of the day. i rode in the middle while the four of them at the sides. WAHHH! Lau Lau so HONOURED!!!!! ``cries to tears.

hai song dun look like the haisong i met before. dunno.. maybe i poor memory. the 2 of them keep sticking to each other. HEHEHZ! i go change at the toilet.. come out le hoh.. jun wee still haven't come out! diaO~~~~~ need to comb hair comb so long de mahh..... wahh.. i heard jan treat all of them ice-cream. Sobbs!! shld noe i come earlier le. but nia mind!

we continued cycling till 'near the end?' the sailing there lahh.. then they settled down to talk awhile. then play bridge. Xin Ru cards pro* so many chio bu.. cannot even see the numbers properly... what ella, haibe, selena.. kaox. S.H.E. hAHas. they all complaining at first. then they kept switching groups. Apparently, Jun wee was the one..... whom jan. claimed tht those play wid him partners de hoh.. sure lose de. (actually right, is the other way round. LAUGHS``) kidding lahh.

hui li and i played frisbee but stopped pretty soon coz it was reaaaaally sandy and hot + thirsty. settled down to talk abt lotsa stuffs and xy joined in and out. lol. GREEN TEA RAWKS? hehehz.

 soon,time flew and it was FIVE! my god.. so fast.. and then arnd 6 plus 7lyk tht.. i think they say haisong they all wna go le.. then aaron they all also want to leave le.. so sad. NvR got to talk to them muCh then they go le. hahaas. yup. Everyone started to exchange their presents wid them frantically!!!! woHHH... hahax. then we ride back all the way. was in front riding wid aaron, xin ru and jian ye? i think so. nt sure abt jian ye lahh. we kept talking on the way and laughed coz of xin ru cute way of riding the bike. oh ya.. jun wee was way ahead of us.. lol. he v. evil.. he ride slanted one.. purposely want to bang into all of us. lucky LALA is a pretty CalM girl wid GooD balanCe. HEHEHHZ! i shall talk more about BALANCE later! :p

yup. apparently, jun wee failed to scare me down the bike. hahaz. nice try man. aaron and I dun dare ride PASS xin Ru. scared she XIA DAO. oh yarhh.. heard she fall down before i even reached the place. hahas. that was a little bit evil to laugh yarhh? We finally reached. and we hang out a little while at the corner there... heard jian ye was waiting fer his dad. so aaron and jun wee waited loRr! then we talk cok again lah as usual. XR... she ahh.. so evil. tot she want to pass me present.. somemore walk my direction.. aiyohh.. scarly duno pass who de.. i was like CHEYX!!!! so malu.. aaron, puden and jun wee laugh until cannot stop manz. :D yaya. in the end.. jian ye say " i'm eating dinner with them" and aaron and jun wee was like WHAT? waliao EHHH!@#&$^&^%@!#!#(*!hahaha.. really funny lahh. then they left le lorr.. while we continued riding. ehh. no wait. i left out something. Jan's godbrother - yi4 hui1 ( i hope i got it right this time!) came while they were waiting fer jian ye. introduced one another.. and dots.. apparently jan intro me as LALA how nice! dun anyone rmb my real name? REPEAT AFTER ME. it spells P.R.I.S.C.I.L.L.I.A- PRI-SCI-LL-IA! yes... that's right. hahas. okie.. i'm being lame.

 yarhh.. we rented more bicycles and off we went, bidding farewell to the 2 boys frm catholic high. then we cycle loRr. we cycled to the beach there..... and we played. we force the guys to TUO XIE coz they reluctant to come into the sea. hehehz. it was fun. i got splashed really much for my shorts. hahas. they all dun dare go too deep coz nv bring extra clothes. only MUH brought shorts. hehehz. puden Pro. he want to throw ppl into the sea, dun let ppl throw him. somemore he got extra clothes + underwear KaeZ!!!!! evil right he? we schemed and planned against janice. she tot she cld ran away frm the -throw into sea- event but nAHHH.. ur contact lens can't protect u much. neither did ur hp and camera. COS we snatched them ALL away! wahhahas. It took me great pains to snatch away the phone, while the others tickled her non-stop. then when i manage to get it, hEHeHZ! puden and jian ye carry her.. i think xy also? dunno.. yarhh.. den... dunno why, end up i carry her legs, and then, puden and i SWING TWICE and flung her into the sea. we laughed really loud. it was really fun.. but gasp! sand and seawater went into my eyes.when i got home, took out my contact lens, kaox... really red beneath sia.... like the sand rub and rub until got one patch on the cornea. DAmnn... really painful. oh well.. jan too... the seawater had her really painful on her c. lens esp. it's her 2nd day of wear. yarlohh.. but after that fine le.

then we started scheming on PUDEn. but he's too fast for us. and he v v bad!!!!!! I BEND down tht time.. u know what he did....? he kick my buTT! or wad ever.. pushed me real hard kae.. nearly Fell FLAT onto the sea water..... but lucky i manage to catch my BALANCE, crouch low and got my footing right. hahas.i chased him really hard.. but i too slow le.. he too fast le. wad to do??? we 3 ppl attack him also no use man! den xy did the 'secret' attack .. he nearly went into the sea.. but dunno why it turned out the other way! xy got into the sea instead. ORHHHHH... pudenn.. ni can le. hahahs. we were like laughing. xr evil lah she.. darryl and i walking on the sand only hoh.. she go and pai wo men.. ppl see le hui wu hui de u know! :) we were basically jus a bunch of ku-ku lah. cheeky bananas all of us. hahas. ONe more thing.

i realise that our grp the guys all from BOYS school de, besides darryl lahh. nt bad woR? puden- S.A, jian ye,aaron,junwee= cat. high. Yi-hui-- the chinese high. haisong-RI. bluRr le mah? Wagagagaagaas.

and they are all scared of TICKLES!!!!! WOHOOO! can bully them le. ONly darryl not scared. so moral= all boys from boy schools scared of tickles! wahahas. u know how i found out? first aaron was the one who ka-jiao me, so i did the tickling thing and his reaction, i tell u, was so damn big..i felt my hand got stucked somehow..he so scared! and then i know myself tht puden scared le lah.. then i test wid all of them since they were standing on one line. hahas. all MOVED! okie.. i shan't laugh! yi hui the hand POWER sia. he pushed my hand away. SMART guy. :) i scared le.. cannot tickle them.. coz i also scared. wahahas. they tried to gang up and puden's the smart one. he knows my neck will itchy de... tot only the gals know. shucks`!

we went to mac since xy said she needed to leave soon! so we were like.. okok.. so fast.. then eat at mac. oh yarhh.. i forgot, wS and lynette joined us! we ate at mac. then talk lotsa crap lahh.. i went to change into a new set of clothes. but was freezing cold at mac. then eat finish le.. act, puden, xy n jan go return bike and fetch xy to bustop go home de.. but then hoh, ended up, they came back.. and say tht we must ALL Return bike! lol..... since it was NINE too..... so yarhh.. might as well. many events took place lahh. i think i shall leave it to the birthday girl to talk it all out.

we sang song at the bench outside sprayed snowflakes at jan. and we sang it to HOT DOG! hehehz. really loud manx. took some snaps. and then.. yarhh. talk a little here and there. shings called half-way. pass phone here and there. then hoh, came my bro. call. he freaked out when he learnt tht i was still at east coast. Time was 1045! lol. he was like WHAT? STILL IN EAST COAST? and obviously he shout so loud for my papa and mama to hear. then in the end, we decided to go home loR. they were deciding to take bus home when suddenly my dad called me and offered to hitch me a ride home. WOW! then i say fetch 5 of us -toapayoh de go home.. then he say no problem. but then.. i only found out later tht my mum went too, so apparently the car couldn't fit us well and we had to squeeze really hard. hahas. poor puden! had to sit wid jian ye wid close-close contact. KIDDING. sry if the car was so squeezy and squashy, tho' i know u play squash de.

LAME! we make a lot of noise. hahas. my mum recognise janice only. and puden talked too much about S.A. My mum asked me, '' how come u know so many ppl from boys school de?" i was like DIAO~~~ 3 big drops of sweat man. i sat on xr's lap and yarhh.. hahas. i was pretty light still~! they all dropped off. and poor jianye.. he the only one live in bishan. All the bishan de follow wansu and lynette for a TAXI ride. cool hoh.... sry abt tht guys.

reached home at like 1145? coz my mom and dad came pretty late to fetch us lah, thou they left the house so quickly. I tot why my dad so gd fetch me.... i realise tht he want me to go work for him. oh well! oh yarhh.. i finally got a chance to OFFICIALLY ride on the car. Yesterday was the first time i sat on the new car for a ride. everytime i only take a PEEk at it from outside or jus sit a while to andy's house de. Ya Lor. pretty comfy? guess not.. since there were so many of us in the CAR!! lol. but papa/mama didn't say anything. lol. jus the boy's sch thingy. i jus say.. ORhh.. all janice friends. she invite de mah.. HAHAs sry janice! i used my name. then mom keep asking me where everybody go. den she say, hUH? nobody go AjC wid u ahh. lol.. panic? guess not. i have my WANSU mah! :) :) :) i shy``` that's what wansu will say- doing tht actions too. a pretty famous action!

MAN! i wanna watch phantom! and tonight i gna watch KUNG FU hustle wid my sister and brother + ADAM! YEAHh. they book for us de.. but aiyahh. actually promised puden abt watching it nxt week wid everyone esp xy? hahahhas. yarh lorr.. in the end me spoil the whole thing. i think go w/o me is fine.

in 3 days time it's christmas. and it feels like nov. stil- at least to me! i must be working too hard. nv. spend my hols. enuff and properly. working and slogging my life out. everything i do is half-way. and everything i do now has no break. WOW! time efficiency increased!!!!! i can sleep as late as 5 am. and wake up at 6 am or earlier to work. and then after work go swim or go out wid friends.. den slp again at 12-3am. i pro sia. no wonder i so tired. i wanted to go for a swim jus now.. but i go scolded by my mum.

"u every day work. tht day go swimming. nxt day cycle so long at east coast and come back late. today u wanna go swimming when u only haf 3 hours of slp yesterday???!!!!" diao~ she so fierce that i immediately say tired dun go le.... :( i really want to go swim de mahhx. i really want to go play and do something rather than work de mah. i really want to play badminton de lor. :( :( so where does the problem lies? with my eagerness and big ego to do my own things like sports? or the work.....  the big angel next to me tells me that i'm evil to say that it's my parent's fault to call me work. sighhs..  i dun recall my sisters or brother working for him at all... only my sis once or twice.. but not for 2 months!! :( my life is in a hectic. yar lor.. so i end up on the computer. and i continue my cross stitch.  wad a boring life i lead. at least school days were much more carefree. so wad if i get my pay.. they're all delayed and eventually it'll come to a forget thing. i dun care abt the money. i care about the way i lead my life........ i want to be able to fly and given a choice of my own. Not freedom totally. i stil want my little house... y they dun gif me a chance to fly out and see a bit more..... y they work me out? y do i haf to subject myself to like that? tho' after they heard that i was pissed by the work thing, mom asked me if i wna work.. how can i say no? i nv. had a choice. if i say no.... they'll b so disappointed. and for some reasons, no matter how paranoid i can get, i never want to see a look of disappointment on their face. what more, they're half a century old le....

this is so.... i dunno. Causing me a big migraine.

Hmm... got someone's present wid me.. hw am i going to pass it huh janice? i also nv pass mine lehz. sighhs. big headaches again......... i'm not a steady pom-pi-pi girl afterall. so unstable at times tho i claimed to haf gd balance.

 RIGHT```

i dunno wad to do.....

sighhs..... bigger headache.

Today, was bakery day. I woke up early just to get to fareast flora to get some wrapping paper for the cookies. afterwhich, i came back, grab a few bites, lay out the ingredients. Soon after, wansu called me and i realised she has reached! wow.. faster than expected worr! HEehhz. she so scared of my dog. well, at least she only shriek when pico jump or smell her. she scared of his fur.. itchy?? don't know. we keep laughing. my dog is a GROUCHY old man. hahaz. opps. dog i mean. yup.

we baked. laughed. and had to bake twice coz it was not enought. we stole a few bites. and that's us alright. fancy the walls of my kitchen filled with the dough? no lah.. kidding! anyway if there were dough, it was me. coz i keep pressing the button by accident. hahaz. my maid was a good helper. She help us to see if we can start squeezing the dough. And she say! SO SOFT! WHY U HEAT UP THE BUTTER? SO SWWEET! and we had to add flour. hahaz. IT was a little 'disaster' at the first round. NOt really a disaster. quite smooth for us actually. The 2nd turned out smoother. we knew what to do. and this time, we did not forget our most important chips. hehehz. I'm loving the cookies lotsa! we wrapped like 15? cool huh. but omg.. it's gna LOU FENG le.. so iput in zip log bag, let's hope it doesn't turns soft. But overall, today was fun lah. We even went to NTUC to buy flour AGAIN. haha!

WAnsu must be shocked by my sister who was so noisy. and her boyfriend keep suaning me. WS, did u realise that ADAM who came, looked like a Eurasian? hahas. he's a Malay-Indian-Chinese worr! Look like Chrissy Poo mahh? and mom didn't say anything tho' she knew that. Cool huh? Lucky Sis. lOl.

we ate dinner at my house. my maid cooked fried rice and wansu tot tht my dinner everyday was like that. HAhaz! Interesting thinking worr! then we 'flew' to bishan mrt to meet jinfa and vone. Cool.. we were late, but the other ppl were later! dots. We went to the salvation army. I don't know why i went tho' i'm a buddhist. but aiyahh.. see see also won't die right? yarh lor.. but it was like... dots. quite nice to hear the songs....but the play they put up made the whole row of us nearly fall asleep. even darryl! hahas. oh well.... actually i did not wish to attend because i would be attending a similar one at puden's church. My mom would kill me if she finds out i've been going to another religion place, she'll be hopping mad. I think it's alright wad.. go and learn about other religions. hahahaas. she was like WHAT? when she realised where i was just now. but she didn't kick a big fuss after that. Not because of the religion thing. She was just afraid that my religious group will hop here and there- but i assured her nono. And yarhh.. so puden's gna have this evangelistic thingy at the Novena Methodist Church there.. cool.... he's acting. I dont mind going but the worse thing is i found out tht xy, jan like dun wana go le. cannot make i think....... sian. i also dun feel like going le. but then hoh, if we ALL dont go, he sure upset de.sighhs. wad to do nehz?

Blehh.. i'm so tired and exhausted from the many events. My mom knew my password.. she freaked out. she saw all my mails. she was shocked by the password especially. I can't believe it. But she wants she see lah. i have nothing to hide. i want to change my password.. but my memory is failing me. i scared i can't remember the new one. hahas.

 okiee. where is my heart positioned at? Why am i linking everything to examples like the firewood? the fishing rods, the flame? the tank? I made myself and yourself confused! I don't understand what anyone can see in me! My heart boiled so quickly within a minute when u say Da-tie ceng re.

 gd night. i'm off!

We had a bus that brought us to the church for the memorial service of miss ho and her husband. It was a v. touchy and emotional moment where many once again laid their tears for the couple. The large turned-out did not surprise me at all, with almost thousands over students frm NYJC and Peirce, ex-students, families, kins, church cell groups as well as close friends! indeed, Ms Ho and her husband had touched the lives of many and that includes me.

For some reasons, i know she'll be watching and hearing us up above in paradise, and she's happy because she saw Him finally. yupz. that's what the Pastor said. I dunno.. but i know i wept profusely dui le. HOng guang, and sebast they all too. cld hear their cries frm my back. Jan and i held each other hand. I looked down frm the 2nd storey and screened through the crowd. everyone IS crying. Practically touched and hurt by the fact when Mr Chew (our principal) spoke his heartfelt words. he was shaky and he made a much more meaningful speech as compared to the principal of NY. yupz. sighhs.. this is so sad. My eyeballs are dropping soon. Darryl cried too. He only broke-down when Mr John's brother spoke in Cantonese. It must be really emotion-ating tho' i couldn't understand a single bit.

Everything was v. yarh lahh..... sad. THEY showed the pictures of their PASt and even the new zealand pictures which the cell group manage to retrieve and load it onto the com fer everone to see. it was awesome... we sang songs which were quite easy to catch yet made one's eyeballs swollen again. Yeahh..... we all wrote a small card and placed it in the basket.

for all the memories u have created, the footprints u have left, and the teaching of the 'silver swan', i'll never forget. You're always live in my heart.

many things happened over the past few days. Dexter has returned from his trip and i was sure glad to have him talking with me, sharing his experience and thoughts. Yeahh... dun be sad tho' u didn't attend the memorial service bahh. :) take care of ya health brother!

I got posted to Anderson Junior College. Congrats prila* but heh? why does 'adorable-looking' prila looks so sad..... ?her 1st choice isn't it?

bleaghh.. dunno. jus dejected. aj dun seem to haf evrything tht i wan. lack the excitement. Oh well..... choose le. so no choice right? hahas. S.A wld be fun but it wld lack the cca i really wanted. NY..... evryone's going there. cool huh? Like the whole sch ..... Ajc.. found out so far that sonia, wansu, priscilyn, myself, nigel and maybe KEVIn going there. Yeahh. assless going! haH! heard that our dear dear Puden and Aaron ( the 2 gd friends who met at marinal bay) got posted to INNOVA and not their desired Jcs. cool..... oh well. they fit the saying! 'that's wat's gd friends are for'? hahahs! Jun wee got 10 pts and he got into RJC. wow..... catholic high boys are impressive aren't they? my cousin posted to RJ too. expected lah hoh? as fer wq.. who knows. he might get into HC/ VJ yarh? dunno. we'll find out when he returns frm korea BAhh!

had an exciting moment wid the choir who expand their lungs last evening. I saw it coming when they announce tht Silent night was dedicated to Ms ho and husband. Murmurs of whispers traveled across those who were witnessing the choir at the  Bugis. Nt a bad performance except tht they oversang. had dinner @ mac near raffles city. and we climbed the sheares bridge. this time, i had blisters. that's fer wearing heels. WAs laughed loudly by bEAr. the scenary was refreshing n ican't recall when was the last time i perspired at such an alarming rate!!! ben. too. haahs. he ka-jiao me about Sakae and we hooped into topic a little and we slipped out again. :) he's a gd bear u noe?

there were huili, darryl daniel, jan, xr, bear n me. cool!!!

'walking in the winter wonder land!'

bahh..must work tmr... i hate my life.

Lala.. she's not strategically located at the hearts of many people wor? hahas. no wonder always got quarrels between the border lines. what am i talking about. this is so pathetic.

Dun ferget our deal wansu! Sunday i'll fetch u. bahh.this means i must  clear up the mess! hahas~

mood: crying and very sad

my tears are flowing like a river down the nape of my neck the moment the news struck on me. it came down on me, sending my mind into memories. flashes of memories screened thru my mind instantaneously. I cried really hard and even till now. The article made me worse. I feel so lost. I feel so small. I really miss her a lot. why did it all turned out to be this way? a terrible happening in disguise? why... so many people.. why her?

no matter how much u used to pump us, u know we never bear a grudge on you? u've been an excellent maths teacher, pe teacher, mass dance teacher, a netball teacher, and even my remedial maths teacher-in-charge. Do u know how much we all missed u? how much we want to bless you on your honeymoon....and hear from you all your stories and experiences?

HEaven is unfair. All of what you all said is all WRONG. i hate u for telling me those. "For every decision God has done, is for a certain reason."  WHY? why did God  take a so nice teacher away from us?  A so good daughter away from her family? t. This is.....making me laugh! I'm laughing bitterly...

THIS IS SO RIDICULOUS!

when she's gone, we realised how much we really loved her. How much we wished to tell you that Ms Ho! You're my fav. teacher! How much she had sacrificed for her students, family and her marriage. I can't help it but scold the damn truck for crashing into the car in that stupid new zealand.... she jus wanted a honeymoon HAPPY. NOT this! why!?! ANSWER ME!

it's all too late. there's nothing i can do...

dear miss ho,

All we ask is your understanding up above, and we hope you can hear us from above. We bring our thanks to you from the bottom of our hearts..... for your encouragement and everything. No matter where you are, you'll always live in our hearts..... forever.. we shall nvr forget your advices and talks. U made us laugh, cried, chilled and pissed. But we still love you a lot. take care my dear.

i know i'm stupid. i always cry.. but i haf the right to cry. that's my choice not yours... jus let me cry...

`will need ur big hugs tmr jan.   `` sniffs*