nitrogen coarses through my veins. i despise you. a deep-seated hatred is what i feel. you smile with her vigour, vivacity of which my heart had pined. with so little sympathy, you tear apart my everything. you rape my eloquent dream. i hate you for the way you live. and i hate you for the way you are. you believe yourself as my tormented loved-one. you are nothing like her. nothing at all.
do you know how it feels to die?!?!?
you've taught me to hate myself. i thank you. i didn't know such crystal discomfort could come from self-loathing. a needle pulses in my heart. you held her before my eyes. i lose hope. i lose faith. lose my sight through scalded eyes. put me back in the fire, cos i'm not quite dead yet.
do you know how it feels to die?!?!?
he kisses you when i'm standing there. then you tells me how nice it feels. resting your head upon him, you tells me that true love is real. i'm still thinking its something pereverted that i don't need. then you comes and i'm on my knees. i offer my heart. i offer my hand. you're still fucking him. he's better than me at everything.
do you know how it feels to die?!?!?