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We live in one of the fastest moments in the history of the human race. We live in Christian era when God has sent His very own Son to bring us the fullest revelation of His Love and His inner Life and to share that Life with us. We live in the time of a Council, when there is a special outpouring of grace and light to enable the People of God to achieve a deeper and fuller insight into the Revelation. And certainly the Second Vatican Council was one of the most significant of the twenty Councils that the Lord has granted to His Church in the course of her twenty centuries of life. But over and beyond this, we live in the time of a second Pentecost. The humble Vicar of Christ, Pope John XXIII, dared to call upon the Father to send forth the Holy Spirit in that same powerful and unique way in which He did at the birth of Christianity. The Spirit is abroad now, among us as never before, enlivening us and calling us forth to ever-fuller life. In a very real sense this is absolutely necessary. For the human family had made such strides forward that it is only by a real quickening of the Spirit that the Christian can hope to respond to the many new challenges of our times in a faith-full way. One of the more significant changes for Western civilization, where Christianity largely resides, is the evolution from a conceptual era to an experiential one. Since Gutenberg's woodcuts first touched paper, the printed word and the ideas it disseminated more and more dominated Western culture. But in these last decades audiovisuals have led men to seek an ever-fuller experience of reality. Technology's success has awakened desires; its failure to satisfy awakens deeper desires. The spirit of man has come alive in a way that now transcends cultures. And the man of the West finds that the stirring within him is the same as that which stirs within his brothers and sisters in what has been considered the "primitive" culture of the natives of many lands and in the more ancient cultures of the East. The Christian
who is nurtured in this climate is no longer content to ruminate on truths
of dogma to develop motivating thoughts and feelings in an effort toward
union with God. He wants to experience God as present, loving, and caring.
And the Lord seems to be very willing to respond to this aspiration, which
ultimately springs from His providential care of those whom His Love has
created. I think this is the significance of the widespread charismatic
movement. Among those who open themselves to the Spirit of God, He seems
to be granting, in what is commonly referred to as the "Baptism of
the Spirit", that kind of experience of Himself, which the classical
mystical writers have called a grace of union. But not all are attracted to seek the experience of God in the enthusiastic and communicative climate that surrounds most charismatic groups. There are many who are drawn rather to seek this experience in the quiet of their own inner sanctuary where the Word dwells in His eternal stillness. There is ample evidence of this in the multitude of Christians who are flocking to the masters of the East to learn the methods of Zen and Yogic meditation, especially the transcendental meditation taught by Maharishi Mahesh Yogi. A couple
of years ago, I had occasion to visit a Ramakrishna temple in Chicago.
Here I found twenty-four disciples gathered around a relatively young
swami. The man was not unusually impressive, but he certainly lived what
he taught and evidently spoke out of a personal inner experience. His
disciples were an impressive group, twenty-two to fifty-five years of
age. They expected another twenty-four to join them that year and were
inaugurating a subsidiary ashram in nearby Michigan. All twenty-four were
from Christian backgrounds. When I asked them what had drawn them to the
temple, they invariably answered that they could find no one in their
own Church who was willing to lead them into the deeper ways of the spirit
where they could truly experience God. Then they met the swami and he
was willing to do that. They still worshipped Christ, but now unfortunately
as only one of many incarnations of God. In their search they have somewhat
lost their way because there was no Christian master (or, to be more faithful
to our own traditional terminology, no Spiritual Mother or Father) ready
to guide them, sharing with them from the fullness of his own lived experience. Over the
years in retreat work I have talked to many, many priests and religious.
I have found that in most cases, though not all, in the seminary or the
novitiate they have been taught methods of prayer and active meditation.
In many cases they have also had a course in ascetical and mystical theology
in which they have heard about the various stages of contemplative prayer.
Unfortunately they have usually been left with the impression or have
been actually taught that it is a very rare sort of thing, usually found
only in enclosed monasteries. To seek it is presumptuous. One must plug
away faithfully at active meditation and perhaps someday, in the far distant
future, after long years of fidelity, God might give one this precious
but rare gift of contemplative prayer. In no instance have I yet found
anyone who had been taught in the seminary or the novitiate a simple method
for entering into passive meditation or contemplative prayer. This is
sad. Especially in face of the fact that Saint Teresa of Avila had taught
that those who were faithful to prayer could expect in a relatively short
time - six months or a year - to be led into a prayer of quiet. Dom Marmion
believed that by the end of his novitiate a religious was usually ready
for contemplative prayer. One of the signs that Saint John of the Cross
pointed to as an indication that one is ready for contemplative prayer
is that active meditation no longer works - and experience very many priests
and religious do have. Faced with this experience, and with no one showing
them how to move on to contemplative prayer, many give up regular prayer.
A faithful few plug on, sometimes for years, in making painful meditations
that are anything but refreshing. Given this state of affairs it is not
surprising that Christians seeking help to enter into the quiet, inner
experience of God find little among their priests and religious. We know
that if a person desiring to seek the experience of God in deep meditation
does go on to one of the many swamis found in the West today, he or she
will be quickly taught a simple method to pursue this goal. "Sit
this way. Hold your hands this way. Breathe thus. Say this word in this
manner. Do this twice a day for so many minutes." And if the recipient
does this, he or she usually has very good experiences. We can see this,
up to a point, as a good thing. For often, whether the person knows His
name or not, he or she is in fact seeking God. And in carrying through
this exercise, devoting mind and heart to this pursuit, he is actually
engaging in a very pure form of prayer. The sad part of it is that his
pursuit and his experience, probably of God's very real presence in him
in His creative love, is not informed by faith. Sadder still is the fact
that, in not a few cases, grateful recipients, so helped by the swami's
meditation technique, begin to accept from him, also, his philosophy of
life, abandoning their Christian heritage. Some of the greater swamis,
such as Swami Satchidananda and Maharishi Mahesh Yogi, certainly advise
against this, but such advice can fall on ears deafened by an almost cultic
veneration for a truly selfless master. These good
masters from the East are truly a challenge, whether they intend to be
or not, and in more ways than one. For one thing they certainly remind
us that the effective teacher, at least in the area of life-giving teaching,
must be one who lives what he teaches. To try to teach the Christian Gospel
with its strong bias for the poor and its way of daily abnegation - "If
you would be my disciple, take up your cross daily [not monthly or weekly,
my novice master would say with emphasis, but daily] and come follow me"
- while busily pursuing the same pleasures and immediate goals pursued
by the worldly materialist is to condemn oneself to a fruitless ministry.
We must teach more by what we do, what we live, than by what we say, if
we want our hearers to take us seriously. The swamis'
response to seekers makes us ask ourselves, Are there not in our own Christian
tradition some simple methods, some meditation "techniques",
which we can use to enter into quiet, contemplative union with God? Before
responding, I would like to say we Christians should not hesitate to make
use of the good techniques that our wise friends from the East are offering,
if we find them, in fact, helpful. As Saint Paul said: "All things
are yours, and you are Christ's, and Christ is God's." We should
not hesitate to take the fruit of the age-old wisdom of the East and "capture"
it for Christ. Indeed, those of us who are in ministry should make the
necessary effort to acquaint ourselves with as many of these Eastern techniques
as possible. Not that we will necessarily find them useful in our own
prayer seeking, though this might well be the case, but that we might
be prepared to enter into intelligent dialogue with Eastern spiritual
masters and, more important, that we might be prepared to help our fellow
Christians, who do learn these techniques and find them helpful, to integrate
them into their Christian faith experience. I think it is a fact that
many Christians who take their prayer life seriously have been greatly
helped by Yoga, Zen, TM, and similar practices, especially where they
have been initiated by reliable teachers and have a solidly developed
Christian faith to give inner form and meaning to the resulting experiences. But to return to our question: do we have, in our Christian tradition, simple methods or techniques for entering into contemplative prayer? Yes, we certainly do. Some might draw back at this statement. The idea of using a "technique" to communicate with God, Whom we have the privilege of knowing personally, seems repulsive. And to expect to attain to contemplation by a "technique" smacks of Pelagianism. So let me explain. First of
all, "techniques", methods, are certainly not foreign to the
prayer experience of the average Catholic. The rosary is a "technique"
- and certainly not one to be readily discounted. It has led many, many
Christians to deep contemplative union with God. The Stations of the Cross
are another "technique". So are the lgnatian Exercises, which
are directly ordered to contemplation. Well enough known in the West today,
at least by name and reputation, is the ancient Eastern Christian technique
of the Jesus Prayer. We have, in fact, many Christian techniques. The use
of a technique or method in prayer to help us come into contact with God
present to us, in us, and to bring our whole selves into quietness to
enjoy that presence and be refreshed by it, is certainly not, in itself,
Pelagian. Mystical theologians have not hesitated to speak of an "acquired
contemplation" - in distinction to "infused contemplation"
- a contemplative state or experience which the contemplator has taken
some part in bringing into being. All prayer is a response to God and
begins with Him. To deny this would be Pelagian. God's grace is not operative
only in infused contemplation. When the little child lisps his "Now
I lay me down to sleep¡K" if there is any movement of faith and love
there, any true prayer, grace is present and operative. Every prayer is
a response to a movement of grace, whether we are explicitly aware of
it or not, whether we consciously experience the movement, the call, the
attraction, or not. God present in us, present all around us, is calling
us to respond to His presence, His love, His caring. We are missing reality
if we think otherwise. When we use a technique, a method, to pray, we are doing so because God's grace, to which we are freely responding, is efficaciously inviting us to do this. That we have been taught the technique and have responded to the teaching is all His grace at work, inviting us, leading us, guiding us to have a deeper experience of our union with Him. That is why it takes a certain courage - or foolhardiness - to learn such a technique. For it is, indeed, an invitation from the Lord to enter and abide within. Not to respond to such a loving invitation from the infinite God of love is sheer tragedy. Yet, to respond to such an invitation is to open oneself to a transformation of conscience and consciousness, with all that that can lead to. One's life will never be the same again. Yes, we
do have in our Christian tradition simple methods, "techniques",
for entering into contemplative prayer, a prayer of quiet. And without
more ado I would like to share one such method with you. The one I have
chosen is drawn from a little book called The Cloud of Unknowing.
This is indeed a popular book in our time. At present it is available
in four different paperback editions. (The one edited by William Johnston
and published by Doubleday Image Books is the best.) The author is an
unknown English Catholic writer of the fourteenth century. He could hardly
have put his name to the work, for all that he teaches belongs to the
common heritage of the Christian community. At the time
of our author's writing there was a vibrant spirituality alive and widespread
in the Christian West. The swell had begun with the great Gregorian reform
in the eleventh century and the ensuing monastic revival. The great Cistercian
abbeys of the twelfth century often housed only eighty or ninety or a
hundred monks, but had two, three, four hundred, or more, lay brothers
who laboured in the granges, opening up new land or developing sheep runs,
or who were active in the markets and agricultural trading centres. These
men were not unlike the figure of the staretz made familiar to us by the
novels of Dostoevski. While they shared their agricultural concerns with
the hired help, the neighbouring peasants and serfs, or sold their wool
in the markets, they did not fail to share at the same time something
of their spiritual awareness and their simple ways of prayer. These holy
men were followed by the enthusiastic sons of Saint Francis and the other
mendicants. All, even the poorest, the most illiterate, the villainous,
were invited to intimacy with the Lord. The fourteenth century was a high
tide for the Christian spirit in the West. Unfortunately
it would soon enough ebb. With the Reformation, the monastic centres of
spiritual life would be swept away by the new currents that flowed through
much of Europe. And on the rest of the Continent the prosecution of Quietism
and Illuminism by an overly zealous and defensive Inquisition would send
contemplation to hide fearfully in the corners of a few convents and monasteries.
A great movement of the Christian spirit flowed away with the undercurrent,
only to surface and return under the impulsion of the mighty winds of
a second Pentecost. These winds blow across the face of the whole earth.
They certainly are not contained by the Church. But the Church, the Christian
community, cannot afford to be slow to respond to them. True renewal must
begin with each Christian responding to the call of the Spirit within,
to the call to the centre where God dwells, waiting to refresh, revitalize,
renew. This simple
method of entering into contemplative prayer has been aptly called "centering
prayer". The name is inspired by Thomas Merton. In his writings he
stressed that the only way to come into contact with the living God is
to go to one's centre and from there pass into God. This is the way the
author of The Cloud would lead us, although his imagery is somewhat
different. The simple
method he teaches really belongs to the common heritage of man. I remember
on one occasion describing it to a teacher of transcendental meditation.
He replied, "Why, that's TM." I could not agree with him. There
are very significant differences, but perhaps it takes faith really to
perceive them. I can also remember, when I was in Greece a couple of years
ago, finding a Greek translation of The Cloud of Unknowing. The
late archbishop of Corinth had written the introduction. In it he stated
that this was the work of an unknown fourteenth-century English Orthodox
writer. He was certain it belonged to his Christian tradition. If one reads
The Cloud of Unknowing on one's own, as perhaps many of my readers
have, one is not apt effectively to draw from the text the simple technique
the author offers. This is not to be wondered at. One will have the same
experience reading books on the Jesus Prayer. As the Spiritual Fathers
on Mount Athos pointed out to me, no Spiritual Father would seek to teach
this method of prayer by a book. It is meant to be handed on personally
- tradition. The writings are but to support the learner in his experience
and help him place the practice in the full context of his life. This,
too, I believe is the case with The Cloud of Unknowing. Simply
reading it will not usually teach the method. But one practising the method
will certainly draw encouragement and understanding from reading the text.
This is not to deny the inherent difficulty of reading a writing that
comes out of the living Christian culture of six centuries ago. If we
were to try to take all the strong pious statements of the author as prosaic
twentieth-century factual writing, no Christian with one whit of humility
would deem himself worthy of approaching this prayer. The author's poetic
imagery might also put us off. Yet the rich, perennially valid substance
is there. And anyone living in the tradition and sharing the experience
quickly perceives this. At this
point I find in myself certain hesitancies, realizing, on the one hand,
the need for more simple, concrete instruction, and on the other, questioning
the wisdom of trying to hand this on through the written word, acting
in a sense contrary to the traditional way of the Fathers. Yet the desire
today is so widespread, the teachers so few, that it seems prudent to
risk the endeavour, relying on Holy Spirit, the true and only Master,
immediately present to the reader, to translate the printed word into
something living that can engender true life. And so now let me try to spell out the "technique" of The Cloud of Unknowing a little more concretely, adding some practical advice and explanation. To do this I would like to sum up the method in three rules. Every time I say that, I imagine I hear our humble author turning over gently in his grave. To give rules is the last thing he probable would ever have thought of doing. But we practical twentieth-century folk will probably find putting the method into rules or guidelines will facilitate our use of it and our ability to pass it on to others. But first
let me say a word about posture. Some wonderful ways of sitting have come
to us from the East. They are ideal for meditation. But unless we are
long practised, and in most cases, have gotten an early start, our muscles
and bones do not too readily adapt themselves to these postures. I think
for most of us the best posture for prayer is to be comfortably settled
in a good chair - one that gives firm support to the back, but at the
same time is not too hard or stiff. As the author of The Cloud
says, "simply sit relaxed and quiet¡K" (c. 44). We do not
want to get too comfortably settled or the body will receive the signal
that it is time for sleep. The back is most comfortable when it is straight
and well supported. The head should be settled comfortably on its own,
not leaning back on anything. If we should perceive it has fallen forward
during the prayer (not an uncommon experience) it is good to bring it
back up. For if it leans far forward it can inhibit breathing and put
a strain on neck and back muscles. Most important,
the body should be relaxed. When our Lord said, "Come to me all you
who labour and are heavily burdened, and I will refresh you," He
meant the whole person, body, soul and spirit - not just the spirit. But
the body is not apt to be refreshed if we begin the prayer physically
tense. Sitting rigidly for thirty minutes or shifting about, distractedly
seeking comfort, will probably result in only more tenseness. It is similar
to sleep. If we go to sleep with the body tensed, we will wake up not
rested but only more tense and tired. It is important then as we settle
in our chairs for prayer that we take what time we need to relax. Perhaps
some will want to employ some exercises. This is good if they will help
us to be more relaxed as we pray. Settling
down in our chair and letting go, letting the chair fully support the
body, is sacramental of what is to take place in the prayer. In centering
prayer we settle in God, let ourselves go, let Him fully support us, rest
us, refresh us. Posture
and relaxation are important. It is good, too, if we close our eyes during
this prayer. It is true, some techniques like Zen call for keeping the
eyes open. But these are usually effortful techniques. This method, however,
is effortless; it is a letting go. "It is simply a spontaneous desire
springing suddenly toward God (The Cloud, c. 4). And the more we
can gently eliminate outside disturbances the better. That is why it is good, if possible, to make this prayer in a quiet place, a place apart, though this is not essential. More important is that it be a situation in which we will not be disturbed in the course of the meditation. I have meditated this way in airports - certainly not quiet places, but no one will ordinarily disturb you as you sit there among the many waiting passengers. Quiet, though, will usually be found helpful. Psychologically, also, it is experienced as helpful if one has a sort of special place for meditation - a place apart, even though the "apart" may be only a corner of a room where there is a presence sacramentalized in Bible, icon, or sacred image, and the going apart involves swinging around in our chair from desk to shrine. The physical setup and the bodily movement reinforce the sense of passing now from the frenetic activities of the day to a deeper state of prayerful rest and divine refreshment.
But now let us get on with the "rules" for entering into centering prayer - the prayer of quiet contemplation.
So, once
we are settled down in our chair and relaxed, we enter into a short period
of silence. Sixty seconds can initially seem like a long time when we
are doing nothing and are used to being constantly on the go. Better to
take a little more time rather than less. Then we move in faith to God,
Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, dwelling in creative love in the depths
of our being. This is the whole essence of the prayer. "Centre all
your attention and desire on him and let this be the sole concern of your
mind and heart" (The Cloud, c. 3). Faith moving toward its
Object in hope and love - this is the whole of the theological, the Christian
life. All the rest of the method is simply a means to enable us to abide
quietly in this centre and to allow our whole being to share in this refreshing
contact with its Source. Faith is fundamental for this prayer, as for any prayer. We will have no desire to enter into union and communion, to pray, if we do not have at least some glimmer in faith of the All-Lovable, the All-Desirable. But it is essentially a "wonderful work of love"; a total response to Him Who is known by living faith. When God
makes things, He does not just put them together and toss them out there,
to let them fly along in His creation. "One is good - God."
And One is true, and beautiful, and all being - our God. And everything
else is only insofar as it here and now actively participates in Him and
shares His being. At every moment God is intimately present to each and
every particle of His creation, sharing with it, in creative love, His
very own being. And so, if we really see this paper, we do not just see
the paper, but we see God bringing it into being and sustaining it in
being. We perceive the Divine presence. If this
is true of all the other elements; how much more true is it for the greatest
of God's creation - the human person, made to His own very image and likeness.
When we go to our depths we find not only the image of God, but God Himself,
bringing us forth in His creative love. We go to our centre and pass from
there into the present God. Yet there
is still something even more wonderful here for the Christian. We have
been baptized into Christ. We are in some very real, though mysterious
way, Christ, the Son of God, the Second Person of the Blessed Trinity.
"I live, now not I, but Christ lives in me." As we got to the
depths we realize in faith our identity with Christ the Son. And even
now, with Him and in Him, we come forth from the Father in the eternal
generation, and return to the Father in that perfect Love which is Holy
Spirit. What prayer! This is really stupendous, beyond adequate conception.
Yet our faith tells us it is so. It is part of that whole reality that
revelation has opened up to us. And it is for us to take possession of
it. We have been made sharers in the Divine nature by Baptism. We have
been given the Gift of the Holy Spirit. We have but to enter into what
is ours, what we truly are. And that is what we do in this prayer. In a movement of faith that is hope and love, we go to the centre and turn ourselves over to God in a simple being there, in a presence that is perfect and complete adoration, response, love, and "Amen" to that movement that we are in the Son to the Father. In this
prayer we go very deep into ourselves. Some speak of a fourth state of
consciousness, a state beyond waking, sleeping, or dreaming states. Tests
have shown that meditators do achieve a state of rest which is deeper
than that attained in sleep. Have you ever had the experience of suddenly
being rudely awakened out of very deep sleep? It is rather jarring, to
say the least. We do not want to come out of contemplative prayer in a
jarring way. Rather we want to bring its deep peace into the whole of
our life. That is why we prescribe taking several minutes coming out,
moving from the level of deep, self-forgetful contemplation to silent
awareness and then a conscious interior prayer before moving out into
full activity. When the time we have determined to pray is up, we stop
using the prayer word, savour the silence, the Presence, for a bit, and
then begin interiorly to pray the Our Father. I suggest
saying the Our Father. It is a perfect prayer, taught us by the Lord Himself.
We gently let the successive phrases come to mind. We savour them, enter
into them. What matter if in fact it takes a good while? It is a beginning
of letting our contemplative prayer flow out into the rest of our prayer
life. The best time for meditating seems to be in the early morning, after we freshen up, and in the early evening before supper. But this is something each one has to work out for himself. Right after eating seems a poor time. One's centre is someplace else! Nor is it good to take a stimulant, like coffee, just before "centering". That is rather like trying to go in two directions at once. It might
be good to say a few words here about sleep and meditation, for it is
to avoid sleep that we are tempted to take coffee or the like before praying.
If we have not prayed in this deep way before, we are apt to wonder if
we have not fallen asleep. Saint Teresa of Avila in her Interior Castle
tells us that "in the prayer of quiet¡Kuntil the soul has gained much
experience, it doubts what really happened to it. 'Was it nothing but
fancy, or was it asleep? Did it come from God¡K' The mind feels a thousand
misgivings" (Bk. 5, c. 1, no. 5). We pass beyond self-awareness.
The prayer is deeply restful. At the end all we can recall is a certain
period of blankness. The nearest experience like this we have previously
known is that of sleep. Yet somehow we are usually quite aware that we
have not been sleeping. However,
it certainly is possible to fall asleep meditating. The author of The
Cloud has some consoling words for us. He tells us not to worry if
we do fall asleep, even to thank God. Our Father loves us as much when
we are asleep as when we are awake. If we do doze in the midst of this
work of love, we will probably awaken rather quickly. It is good then
to return simply to our prayer. It will usually be a very good prayer,
for we are now relaxed and rested. However,
if we are regularly falling asleep during our prayer, we should perhaps
ask ourselves some questions. Maybe the Lord is trying to say something
to us. Maybe we are simply not getting enough sleep. This is a common
failure among dedicated people. And there is a subtle bit of pride usually
lurking in it. We are trying to do more than we should. "If the Lord
does not build the house, in vain the masons toil¡Kin vain you get up earlier
and put off going to bed, sweating to make a living, since He provides
for His beloved as they sleep." We belong to the Lord, and so should
do what He wants us to do - no more and no less. Our falling
asleep may simply be due to the fact that we are getting too comfortable.
The body is getting the signal to sleep. We need to try, perhaps, a more
upright, somewhat less comfortable chair. We strongly
recommend two periods of contemplative prayer in the course of a day.
It introduces into our day a good rhythm: a period of deep rest and refreshment
in the Lord flowing out into eight or ten hours of activity, and then
another period of renewal to carry us through what is for most today a
long evening of activity. This is certainly much better than trying to
base sixteen hours of activity on the morning prayer. Twenty minutes
seems to be a good period to start with. Less than this hardly gives one
a chance to get fully into the prayer and be wholly refreshed. Some will
feel themselves drawn to extend the period to twenty-five or thirty minutes
or perhaps thirty-five. On a day of retreat or when we are sick in bed,
and our activity is curtailed, we can easily add more periods of contemplative
prayer. This might be better than prolonging individual periods. Those
who are generally living a contemplative life may find somewhat longer
periods helpful. For most,
the real asceticism of this form of prayer comes in scheduling into our
daily life two periods for it. Once we are going full steam, it is difficult
to stop, drop everything, go apart and simply be to the Lord. And yet
there is a tremendous value here. All of us
theoretically subscribe to the words quoted above, "If the Lord does
not build the house, in vain the masons toil." But in practice most
of us work as though God could not possibly get things done if we did
not do them for Him. The fact is there is nothing that we are doing that
God could not raise up a stone in the field to do for Him. The realization
of this puts us in our true place. Though, lest we do get too knocked
down by such a realization of our insignificance, let me hasten to add
that there is one thing that we alone can do for God. And that is the
one thing for which He created us, and which gives us our infinite importance
and worth, and that one thing is to give Him our personal love. No one
else can give God our personal love. It is uniquely for this that He created
us. This is our great significance. The very God of Heaven and earth wants,
and needs because He wants, our personal love. I have run
into a situation in marriage counselling a number of times. The couple
is unhappy. The wife is dissatisfied and the husband cannot see why. He
goes into a long recital of all he is doing for her. He is holding down
two or three jobs, building a new house, buying her everything. But to
all this the wife quietly replies: if only he would stop for a few minutes
and give me himself! I sometimes think that God, as He sees us rushing
about in all our doing of good, says to Himself: if only they would stop
for a few minutes and give me themselves! Yes, we
theoretically subscribe to the fact that God is the principal agent. But
we push frenetically on. Nothing can help us so much as to get a real
grasp on the fact of God's allness in our accomplishments - and the peace
and freedom that come from such practical realization - as actually stopping
regularly and letting God take care of things. He really can. We can trust
Him to manage His world for twenty minutes without us while we meditate
- and not mess it up too much! And if, while we pray, someone has to wait at our door for ten or fifteen minutes, he or she will probably learn a lot about prayer while waiting - certainly more than if inside listening to us talk about prayer. Actions speak louder than words. Those around us will not fail to notice, even though we might prefer they would not, when we begin to give prayer prime time in our busy lives. It is important
to be faithful to the time we set for our prayer. When we determine to
contemplate for twenty minutes we should faithfully stay with it for the
full twenty minutes and not cut corners when work is pressing or the thoughts
and tensions are many. It is at such times we most need this refreshing
time with the Lord. And it may take all of the twenty minutes to reestablish
our needed inner peace. A question frequently asked is, How is one to tell when time is up? If we contemplate regularly for the same amount of time, we will soon find that we come out automatically at the determined time. At first, however, that will not be the case. What we do is when the question comes to mind, Is it time? we just take a quick look at our watch. If it is time, we close our eyes and begin slowly to come out of the prayer. If it is not yet time, we gently resume our prayer word and go on with the meditation.
As the author
of The Cloud puts it: "If you want to gather all your desire
into one simple word that the mind can easily retain, choose a short word
rather than a long one. A one-syllable word such as 'God' or 'love' is
best. But choose one that is meaningful to you. Then fix it in your mind
so that it will remain there, come what may¡KBe careful in this work and
never strain your mind or imagination, for truly you will not succeed
this way. Leave these faculties at peace" (c. 7, 4). What we
are concerned with here is a simple, effortless prolongation or abiding
in the act of faith - love - presence. This is so simple, so effortless,
so restful, that it is a bit subtle and so needs some explanation. A spiritual
act is an instantaneous act, an act without time. "The will needs
only this brief fraction of a moment to move toward the object of its
desire" (The Cloud, c. 4). As soon as we move in love to God
present in the depths, we are there. There a perfect prayer of adoration,
love, and presence is. And we simply want to remain there and be what
we are: Christ responding to the Father in the perfect Love, the Holy
Spirit. To facilitate our abiding quietly there, and to bring our whole being as much as possible to rest in this abiding, after a brief experience of silent presence we take up a single simple word that expresses for us our faith-love movement. We have seen the author of The Cloud suggests such words as "God" or 'love". A vocative word seems usually to be best. We begin very simply to let this word repeat itself within us. We let it take its own pace, louder or softer, faster or slower; it may even fuzz out into silence. "For it is best when this word is wholly interior without a definite thought or actual sound" (The Cloud, c. 40). We might
think of it as if the Lord Himself, present in our depths, were quietly
repeating His own name, evoking His presence and very gently summoning
us to an attentive response. We are quite passive. We let it happen. "Let
this little word represent to you God in all His fullness and nothing
less than the fullness of God. Let nothing except God hold sway in your
mind and heart" (The Cloud, c. 40). The subtle thing here is the effortlessness. We are so used to being very effortful. We are a people out to succeed, to accomplish, to do. It is hard for us to let go and let God do. And, after all, if we do, if we expend great effort, then when it is done we can pat ourselves on the back and salute ourselves for our great accomplishment. This prayer leaves no room for pride. We have but to let go and let it be done unto us according to His revealed Word. The temptation for us is to change the quiet mental repetition of the prayer word, which simply prolongs a state of being present, into an effortful repetition of an ejaculation and to use it energetically to knock out any thoughts or "distractions" that come along. This brings us to our third rule.
I want to emphasize that word aware. Unfortunately we are not able to turn off our minds and imaginations by the flick of a switch. Thoughts and images keep coming in a steady steam. "No sooner has a man turned toward God in love when through human frailty he finds himself distracted by the remembrance of some created thing or some daily care. But no matter. No harm done; for such a person quickly returns to deep recollection" (The Cloud, c. 4). In this prayer we go below the thoughts and images offered by the mind and imagination. But at times they will grab at our attention and try to draw it away from the restful Presence. This is because these thoughts or images refer to something that has a hold on us, something we fear, or desire, or are in some other way intensely involved with. When we become aware of these thoughts, if we continue to dwell on them, we leave our prayer and become involved again in the tensions. But if, at the moment of awareness, we simply, gently return to our prayer word (thus implicitly renewing our act of presence in faith-full love), the thought or image with its attendant tension will be released and flow out of our lives. And we will come into a greater freedom and peace that will remain after our prayer is over.
We can see
how pure this prayer is. In active forms of prayer we use thoughts and
images as sacraments and means for reaching out to God. In this prayer
we go beyond them, we leave them behind, as we go to God Himself abiding
in our depths. It is a very pure act of faith. Perhaps in this prayer
we will for the first time really act in pure faith. So often our faith
is leaning on the concepts and images of faith. Here we go beyond them
to the Object Himself of faith, leaving all the concepts and images behind. We can see, too, how Christian this prayer is. For we very truly die to ourselves, our more superficial selves, the level of our thoughts, images, and feelings, in order to live to Christ, to enter into our Christ-being in the depths. We "die" to all our thoughts, and imaginings, no matter how beautiful they may be or how useful they might seem. We leave them all behind, for we want immediate contact with God Himself, and not some thought, image, or vision of Him - only the faith experience of Himself. "You are to concern yourself with no creature whether material or spiritual nor with their situation or doings whether good or ill. To put it briefly, during this work you must abandon them all¡K" (The Cloud, c. 5). There is
another consequence of this transcending of thought and image. This prayer
cannot be judged in itself. As it goes beyond thought, beyond image, there
is nothing left by which to judge it. In active meditation, at the end
we can make some judgments. I had some good thoughts, I felt some good
affections, I had lots of distractions, etc. But all that is irrelevant
to this prayer. If we have lots of thoughts - good, lots of tension is
being released. If we have few thoughts - good, there was no need for
them. The same for feelings, images, etc. All these are purely accidental;
they do not touch the essence of the prayer, which goes on in all its
purity, whether these be present or not. There is nothing left by which
to judge the prayer in itself. If we simply follow the three rules, the
prayer is always good, no matter what we think or feel. There is,
however, one way in which the goodness of this prayer is confirmed for
us. Our Lord has said, "You can judge a tree by its fruits."
If we are faithful to this form of prayer, making it a regular part of
our day, we very quickly come to discern - and often others discern it
in us even more quickly - the maturing in our lives of the fruits of the
Spirit - love, joy, peace, patience, benignity, kindness, gentleness -
all the fruits of the Spirit. I have experienced this in my own life and
I have seen this again and again in the lives of others, sometimes in
a most remarkable way. What happens, the way the Spirit seems to bring
this about, is that in this prayer we experience not only our oneness
with God in Christ but also our oneness with all the rest of the Body
of Christ, and indeed with the whole of creation, in God's creative live
and sharing of being. Thus we begin, connaturally as it was, to experience
the presence of God in all things, the presence of Christ in each person
we meet. Moreover, we sense an oneness with them. From this flows a true
compassion - a "feeling with". This contemplative prayer, far
from removing us from others, makes us more and more conscious of our
oneness with them. Love, kindness, gentleness, patience grow. Joy and
peace, too, in the pervasive presence of God's caring love in all. Contemplative
prayer helps us take possession of our real transcendent relationship
with God in Christ, as well as our real relationship with each and every
person in Christ. I have written
enough, and more than enough, on three simple rules, and perhaps you are
eager now to take them up and begin to meditate. So let me simply recapitulate
them here:
May these simple rules prove to be for you, and all those with whom you share them, a gentle, loving invitation from the Lord to a fuller, richer, deeper life in Him, a life marked by the fruits of the Holy Spirit. When a number are praying together - and some find this very supportive - it is helpful if one takes the lead. After everyone is settled, the leader opens the prayer, articulating the act of faith. At the end he or she recites the Lord's Prayer aloud. The opening prayer might go something like this:
I think it is important - certainly very helpful - when we are teaching this simple method of prayer to others that, after we have explained the three rules, we actually pray with them. If it is at all possible, it would be good to meet with them several times in the course of the following week to pray again with them. Let there be plenty of time for questions and sharing about the experience. As we have pointed out above, and will develop in a later chapter, such sharing is faith building and confirming. And faith is the absolutely essential starting point for all prayer and all Christian life. Excerpt from DAILY WE TOUCH HIM: PRACTICAL RELIGIOUS EXPERIENCES (pp41-68) M Basil Pennington (1998), St Pauls.
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