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my personal story.... |
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I was the kid who went down to the local corner store and sneaked a porno "mag" inside a skateboarding magazine. I would take a peak at some material to fuel my young imagination. My earliest memories of what would be a long and intimate relationship with pornography. I remember waiting in anticipation for when I was old enough to buy my own magazines and bring them home. But I couldn't wait that long.....
There was a corner store where the clerk would go to the back room to get something and leave the store unattended. It was my chance to steal one of those juicy magazines and bring them home! And I managed to steal quite a bit of them. The excitement and rush was incredible and I would be rock-hard all the way home. I couldn't wait to rip off that plastic cover and gorge myself with its contents.
But it's all fun and games until you get caught. And that I did! By a store clerk and by my mother (she found them). And so my first taste of humiliation, lies, and embarrasment. Not to mention, that clerk ended up going to my high school. Much to my dismay. |
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And so the story goes on a few years and I collected movies and magazines on a regular basis. It is so embarrasing, I found out, going to a sex store or a corner store to buy pornography. At the corner store, you wait until there is not a soul to be seen and quickly choose your material, avoid eye contact and promptly leave the store with the goods properly wrapped and hidden. At the sex store, you wait until there is the least amount of witnesses around (GOD forsake anyone you KNOW!) and quickly walk into the store.
And then the internet came around and OH BOY! that's where the trouble really comes! How many hours of your life have you spent surfing the internet for pornography? If you are an addict, you know what I mean. |
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THE INTERNET ADDICTION |
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The internet is a place where my inner monster thrives. We can be alone for hours surfing around looking for countless fantasies and girls to google for hours on end. It is the place I wasted my college years instead of studying and getting good grades. Instead of meeting new and interesting people, or participating in some social, or physical interaction with those people called "THE HUMAN RACE". Yes, many years have been wasted staring at my monitor and all the images from the almight internet.
Things that you perhaps never imagined could be viewed as fresh material to masturbate to. And the internet will certainly take you places that you never knew existed....twenty-five pop-up sites later....
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So this is where we come to the present. I have been a fan of internet pornography for many years. Ok, for about eight years. Wouldn't want to reveal my true identity though would I? And so the paranoia settles in....
I have done some crazy shit in that time. But never, I repeat NEVER! did I and would I want to cause harm to any other soul. So you have a nice guy/porno addict.
And it has cost me. It cost me a lot. And this is something I can't coat with kind words or funny stories.
The point I would like to make here is that we are everywhere in this world. Nice guys, responsible parents, professional careers, and just about any kind of life-style. We all have fallen victim to our pornographic demons. |
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