HOLD ON

Hold on
Hold on to yourself
for this is gonna hurt like hell
Hold on
Hold on to yourself
you know that only time will tell

He raised his hand and knocked on her door.  She opened the door and her face lit up when she saw it was him.  

God she looked amazing how am I going to do this?  He had to shut down and remain in business mode so that she wouldn't be able to read him.  It killed him to be trying to salvage her relationship with Sonny but he wanted her to be happy.  She deserved to be happy and if it was going to be with Sonny she needed to tell him the truth before it ruined their future.  

What is it in me that refuses to believe
this isn't easier than the real thing
My love
you know that you're my best friend
you know I'd do anything for you
my love
let nothing come between us
my love for you is strong and true

 

C:  Jase! 

She flung herself into his arms.  As always he caught her perfectly and he cherished being able to feel her in his arms.

C:  How do you always know when I need you (she whispered, her voice a bit shaky)? 

He pulled away from her his face blank.

J:   Did you fake your own death Carly?

The look she gave him ripped through him.  It was a mixture of disbelief and betrayal.

C:  What are you talking about Jason?

He brushed past her entering her home.  "Don't do this Carly.  I know you were in Sickamore Bend the day before your funeral."

She just gave him a blank look the pain evident in her eyes. 

J:  Someone saw you Carly.  They saw a woman matching your description in a dinner eating a chilidog and cheese fries.  Are you going to tell me it wasn't you?

Hold on
Hold on to yourself
for this is gonna hurt like hell
Hold on
Hold on to yourself

Carly didn't say a word, mostly because she was in shock.  One minute she was on top of the world to see him standing on her doorstep the next minute the wind was knocked right out of her body.

J:  Carly -

C:  What? What is going on Jason? 

J:  Sonny called me Carly.  He knows your story is full of holes.

C:  So your only here to see if you can catch me doing something wrong?

She hated the way he was making her feel.  Why did she ever come back?  She should have just taken Michael and left this town and everyone behind and started over like she wanted to.  But then she never planned on finding Sonny and Alexis in bed together certainly didn't plan on almost dying when her car went off of a cliff. 

Jason watched her closely.  One minute her eyes were filled with pain the next minute they had turned black and cold. 

Am I in heaven here or am I...
at the crossroads I am standing
So now you're sleeping peaceful
I lie awake and pray
that you'll be strong tomorrow and we'll
see another day and we will praise it
and love the light that brings a smile
across your face

J:  You need to tell Sonny the truth he deserves to know.

C:  I don't NEED TO DO ANYTHING. 

J:  Yes you do or I will tell him the truth.

How could he even accuse her like this, judging her like she was on trial?  Jason was supposed to be the one person in her life that knew her like no one else.  How could he honestly think she could do such a thing?

C:  You honestly think that I would fake my own death?  She stared at him hoping that this was just a joke when he said nothing she snapped.  You think that I would willingly put my mother through a funeral or hurt Michael like that?

J:  I think you would do just about anything to get what you want.

Carly felt that jab right in her heart, she nearly doubled over from the pain she was feeling.  She looked him right in the eyes and got really close to him. 

Hold on
hold on to yourself
for this is gonna hurt like hell

C:  So now I faked my death?  Well let me tell you something JASSSE, (she spit out his name with such fiery) the nightmares I wake up to every night aren't fake!  Do you need an in-depth blow by blow of every second after my car flew off the cliff?  Or how about I tell you how scared I was when my car hit the water and sank so quickly.  Or better yet you probably need PHYSICAL EVIDENCE.   Check out my fingers (she held up her bruised hands and fingers for him to see).  This is from trying to claw my way out of the car while it was filling up with water. 

By now she had started to cry as she relived her accident all over again.  Jason had to stop this he knew she was telling him the truth and that obviously Sonny was wrong. 

J:  Carly stop….

C:  No Jason I want you to have concrete physical proof.  Oh wait this is a good one.  (She began unbuttoning her blouse then threw it on the floor revealing a huge bruise across her chest where her seatbelt had restrained her.)  Is that enough proof or do you need more?

By now she was hysterically crying and Jason couldn't believe his eyes, her whole upper body was covered in bruises and cuts.  He tried to approach her, the hell with Sonny he couldn't stand to see her like this. 

J:  My god Carly, I'm sorry.

She recoiled from his outstretched hand.  "Get out!" she screamed at him.  "I want you out of my home!"

J:  Let me help you.

C:  I don't need your kind of help Jason.

J:  I'm your best friend I can help.

Carly stopped crying and an amazing calm came over her.  His words were like a slap in the face.  Her face turned to stone as her words bitterly came streaming out of her "My best friend?  I don't know how you do it, you stand there telling me you’re my best friend when you come in here and accuse me of faking my own death."  

She lowered her voice and sadness washed over her face as she briefly let her walls down once more.  "YOU JASE, were the ONE PERSON…. her voice began cracking as she continued.  The ONE PERSON in my life who was supposed to know me better than anyone else."  

The realization of that statement hit her and she again became angered and her walls went up again.

C:  You haven't been here for me Jason for years you are no friend of mine.  Now get out!

Jason again started toward her wanting to just hold her in his arms and take away all her pain.  "Carly please I am so sorry."

She scrambled away from him her eyes frantically scanning the room for a weapon, her hand found Michael's baseball bat immediately.  She held the bat up in front of herself, "I said get out Jason!" 

Hold on
Hold on to yourself
for this is gonna hurt like hell

He could see how hard she was trying to hold the baseball bat up, her bruised body fighting her all the way.   He backed away slightly as Carly's grasp gave way and the bat fell to the floor.  As soon as the bat hit the floor something inside Carly snapped and the tears that she so bravely had held back came crashing through.   She felt the room closing in on her and things started to get dark as the mental and physical exhaustion and trauma finally took over. 

Jason watched her falter and grasp the couch to support herself.  He ran to catch her collapsing body before she hit the floor.  He fell to the floor on his knees with her in his arms.  "Carly?  Carly?"  Panic washed over him when she didn't respond immediately to him.

Carefully he got to his feet and placed her onto the couch.  He grabbed a blanket from the chair and covered her thin bruised body, she was still unconscious and her breathing was heavy.

He paced in front of her as he dialed Bobbie.  The phone rang and rang until Lucas finally picked up.

J:  Lucas I need to talk to Bobbie.

L:  Who is this?

J:  Its Jason is she home?

L:  No man she is on her way to see Carly….

Jason hung up abruptly as he heard the knocking at the front door.  He hurried over and flung the door open.  Bobbie saw the panic on his face and he pulled her inside. 

B:  What's wrong?  Where's Carly?

She looked over seeing Carly on the couch.  She rushed over to her side and began checking her over.

J:  She collapsed just a few minutes ago and I can't wake her up.

Bobbie checked her pulse and knew that Carly's body had just finally given into the exhaustion.

B:  I'm surprised actually that her body held out this long.

J:  What's going on Bobbie?  Is she going to be okay?

B:  Her body finally gave out Jason.  What are you doing here?  When did you get back?  Did you get her upset? 

She stood up her eyes piercing his demanding answers.  Jason's eyes dropped to the floor, ashamed that he let things get so out of hand.

B:  You better start talking Jason!

J:  I thought she might have had faked her death.

B:  What!?  One look at her Jason and anyone can see that no one would do this to themselves. 

J:  Sonny told me…..

Bobbie cut him off.  "Sonny?"  "Well Sonny has been quite busy hasn't he?  Do you have any idea what he has put Carly through these last few days, hell these last few months?  I think you should leave Jason.  You obviously upset Carly so much so that she collapsed."

Jason wasn't going anywhere he was determined to get to the truth. 

J:  No!  I'm not going anywhere Bobbie.  I want to know what is going on.  Is Carly going to be all right?

B:  Well open your eyes then Jason!  Carly has been through so much that her body can't take anymore and it obviously shut down.  She will wake up when her body has decided it's had enough time to heal.

J:  Is she in a coma?

B:  Jason she is exhausted.  You need to leave her alone.

J:  Bobbie please; please fill me in on what's been going on.

Bobbie took a deep breath and took another blanket off the couch and put it over Carly, carefully tucking it in around her.  She tenderly brushed a few stray strands of hair off of her face.  "Everything is going to be okay baby.  I will take care of everything."

Bobbie roughly grabbed Jason by the sleeve of his coat pulling him into the kitchen.  She looked at Jason with fire in her eyes.  "Look here Jason, my daughter has been through enough shit between what you and Sonny have done.   There isn't much more she can take; she just doesn't have anything left to give you.  So you go back to your boss and tell him that he is now dealing with the entire Spencer family, not just Carly but all of us.  So he better stay away from Carly and Michael or all hell will break loose….and before you ask; that is a promise.  I don't waste my time making threats!"

J:  Woaw!  Wait a minute.  Obviously things have happened that I don't know about.   I don't know what Sonny has done Bobbie.

B:  So you’re an innocent in all this then right Jason?  I mean my daughter just collapsed from you upsetting her. 

Jason's expression showed his true sadness "I never meant to hurt her Bobbie…her happiness means everything to me."

Bobbie saw the sincerity and sadness in the young man standing before her.  She paused a minute looking into the blue eyes of the man her daughter loved so much.  "Jason you want Carly to be happy?"

J:  Of course.  That is what I have tried to give her.

B:  Well she isn't happy Jason.  She is miserable.  Sonny has done nothing but bring my daughter heartache and pain, and if you are going to try to talk her into going back to Sonny you can leave right now.

J:  I thought that…

B:  You thought what?  That a man like Sonny Corinthos could truly love or understand her?  Or did you think that Sonny would treat Carly like a human being?  If you thought that Jason, then you were wrong!  He is nothing but a cheating bastard that has broken my daughter's heart for the last time.

J:  Cheating?

B:  Oh he didn't tell you?  (Bobbie laughs sarcastically and shakes her head)  I guess that shouldn't surprise me.  Your boss slept with Alexis in the same bed he shared with Carly.  Actually Carly caught them, the same night of her accident.  Sonny didn't care how he made her feel.

J:  I know exactly how she felt; she was devastated.

Bobbie softened a bit remembering when Jason had found Carly and Sonny together.  "I know you do."

J:  So Carly has left Sonny and he wants her back?

B:  Alexis is pregnant.

Jason's mouth hung open as he sat down in a chair.  "Pregnant?  It's Sonny's?"

Bobbie sat down next to him at the kitchen table.  "Yes it is Sonny's baby."

B:  Jason let me sum things up for you.  Carly has been trying to divorce Sonny for a while now.  He won't let go; apparently since he thought Carly was dead he suddenly loves her again.  She just wants to be free Jason; she wants to be free.

J:  I didn't realize.

B:  Jason let me ask you something.  When you heard Carly was dead did you believe it?  I mean did you feel her really gone?

J:  No. 

B:  Everyone thought I was crazy insisting she was alive.  But I knew she wasn't dead; I could feel it.  I just knew my baby girl was alive.

J:   I knew she couldn't be dead.  She had to be alive because……(he suddenly became silent).

B:  Why Jason?

Full of emotion he quietly whispered, "Because my heart wasn't breaking, and I could still breathe."

B:  Exactly.  Jason if you not going to be an active part of her life I think it would be best if you left now. 

J:  I'm not going anywhere.

B:  I see.  So just to make sure we are on the same page here Jason.  I want your word that you will not allow Sonny to come near her or Michael.  I mean it Jason.

J:  He will never hurt her again.  I promise you that.

B:  What are you plans? 

J:  To keep her safe.

B:  That’s not what I meant.  What are your intentions toward my daughter?

J:  That’s up to Carly. 

Bobbie laughed.  "You two are a perfect pair you know that?  I thought my daughter had the market cornered on avoiding answering questions." 

Jason just laughed.  So you think she will be okay?

B:  Let's go check on her.

They both headed out into the living room.  Bobbie again checked Carly's vital signs.  "She could sleep for a few days Jason.  We just need to make sure she is comfortable." 

B:  You can go if you have things to do.  I will stay with Carly.

J:  No I am where I need to be. 

B: Fair enough, then I am going to go meet Leticia at the park and pick up Michael.  I will keep him with me until Carly is better.

J:  Thanks Bobbie.  I will send some extra men over.

B:  Don't push her Jason.  This time it was just her body that gave out on her.  If she is continued to be faced with stress and pressure her mind will snap next, and then I don't know if we can save her.

J:  I will keep her safe.

Bobbie put her coat on and headed for the door.  "I will check in with you this evening.  Call me if anything happens."

 

Hours Later:

Hours had passed and Jason became restless.  He began walking around the living room looking at the various photo's Carly had hanging up all around.  As he headed back to be near Carly he noticed a photo album on one of the tables and picked it up.  He opened it and began looking at the incredible photos of Carly and Michael.

 

I just want to be with you

Part of everything your going through

Like it was before we came unglued

Holding every piece you tossed out

Nothing fits without you around

Like it did before we came unglued

 

 

He was amazed at how big Michael had gotten.  Carly had taken pictures of everything, from his first day at school, birthday parties, Halloween, Christmas, just everything.  The picture that really caught his eye was of Carly and Michael together at the park.  His finger traced over Carly's face as he realized he had missed all these events, and milestones and he didn't like it.  It was time he tried to get his family back.  He didn't want there to be any more pictures without him. 

 

As nighttime came, Jason fell asleep in the chair next to Carly holding the photo album on his chest.

 

I just want to be with you

Part of everything your going through

Like it was before we came unglued

Holding every piece you tossed out

Nothing fits without you around

Like it did before we came unglued

 

 

The Next Day:

 

Morning came and Carly found herself going in and out of sleep.  She would have her eyes open for a few seconds only to have them close and have sleep fall upon her again. 

 

Loud pounding at the door awakened Jason.   He scrambled to answer it before whoever it was woke her up. 

 

J:  Alright, I'm coming.  Keep it down.

 

Carly heard the loud pounding and managed to keep her eyes open for a little while.  She remained on the couch and just listened as she tried to make sense of her surroundings.

 

As he opened the door he came face to face with the man who had ruined his family. 

 

S:  Jason! What the hell are you doing here? 

 

J:  Keep your voice down, Carly is asleep.

 

S:  Good she is here.  I need to talk to her.

 

Sonny proceeded to barge in but didn't get very far as Jason grabbed him pushing him back towards the door.  "What the hell?  Jason have you lost your mind?"

 

J:  No actually my mind is very clear.

 

S:  Get out of my way.  I need to talk to my wife.

 

J:  Your not going anywhere near Carly.  

 

S:  Excuse me?

 

J:  You heard me.  You lost all rights to Carly when you betrayed her with Alexis. 

 

S:  She is my wife Jason.  I won't tell you again; get out of my way!

 

J:  Jason took his forearm and smashed it up against Sonny's throat pinning him against the door. "I won't tell YOU, again Sonny.  You stay away from my family."

 

S:  Your family? (he chuckled)

 

J:  That’s right.  My family!  I am taking back what I never should have trusted you with.  I trusted you with the most precious thing I had and you betrayed that.  It's over Sonny, your not wanted here anymore.

 

Sonny and Jason exchanged ice cold stares as Carly tried to listen as she fought to stay awake. 

 

Sonny pushed Jason off of him and straightened his clothes.  "This isn't over Jason.  Just remember who started this."

 

J:  Get out of here Sonny.

 

Sonny left and Jason took his anger out on the wall in front of him, punching a hole through it.  Somehow the pain that shot pulsated through his hand made him feel better.  He took a few minutes to gain control over himself before turning around to check on Carly. 

 

He knelt down by her side and gently touched her face "I'm so sorry Carly.  Somewhere along the way I stopped fighting for you and I am so sorry." She heard his words clearly as she fluttered her eyes trying to come out of her slumber. 

 

An immediate smile spread across his lips as he watch her waking up.  It took her a few minutes to focus and take in what was going on around her.  As soon as her eyes focused she met his bright blue eyes.  The eyes that always calmed her, always made her feel safe; the eyes of her best friend were staring back at her. 

 

J:  Hey.

 

Still unclear what the hell was going on she just stared at him as she slowly sat up. 

 

C:  What happened?

 

J:  You passed out.

 

C:  Where is Michael?

 

J:  He is with Bobbie.

 

C:  How long have I been out?

 

J:  2 days.

 

C:  2 days?  (she asked confused)

 

J:  Its okay Carly.  Bobbie has been here checking on you.  She said you were just so exhausted your body gave out.  You just needed to rest.

 

Her mind became clearer and she began to remember the fight she and Jason had.  She stiffened up as he moved to sit next to her on the couch.  Jason saw her defenses kick in. 

J:  Carly I am so sorry.  Bobbie filled me in on everything that has been going on.  I know you didn't fake your accident.

 

C:  Your damn right I didn't.

 

J:  I know that.

 

C:  Sonny was here?

 

J:   Yeah.  How much did you hear?

 

C:  A little.  You kicked him out?

 

J:  Yup.

 

C:  I wish I had been fully awake to have seen it.

 

Jason just chuckled.  "He won't give up you know."

 

C:  He doesn't have a choice.  Plus Alexis is having his baby.  He'll give me my divorce so he can marry the mother of his child.

 

J:  I don't know what to say.

 

C:  You don't have to say anything.  My marriage to Sonny was twisted from the beginning.

 

J:  Do you love him?

 

C:  A part of me will always love him, but I can't breathe with him.  Some people are too toxic to each other and you just can't breath with them. 

 

J:  And other's you can't breathe without.

 

Truer words had never been spoken.  The two sat in silence as they each pondered their next moves. 

 

I just want to be with you

Part of everything your going through

Like it was before we came unglued

Holding every piece you tossed out

Nothing fits without you around

Like it did before we came unglued

 

 

C:  When I first opened the door and saw you standing there I was so happy to see you. 

 

J:  Then I attacked you.

 

C:  Yeah.

 

J:  That should have never happened.  I am sorry.

 

C:  I know you are.

 

Jason reached out and took her hand in his.  "I have missed you Carly.  I have missed us."

 

Carly squeezed his hand "I've missed you too.  Things haven't been the same without you around."

 

J: I know what you mean.  So are you saying you wouldn't mind if I was around more?

C:  Why are you home to stay?

 

J:  Do I have a home to come back to?

 

C:  Port Charles will always be your home Jason.

 

J:  No.  You and Michael are my home.

 

Carly turned to face him.  "What are you saying Jason?" 

 

J:  I am saying that you, Carly are the person I can't breathe without, and I want to come home.

 

Carly was speechless.  Her eyes filled with tears as she searched his eyes still not sure what he meant completely.  Picking up on her confusion Jason knew it was now or never to tell her he loved her.

 

J:  I'm saying I love you and I want you and Michael back.

 

C:  You love me as your best friend?

 

J:  Yes as my best friend. 

 

Jason took her face in his hands "And I love you as the woman I want to share the rest of my life with."  He leaned in and captured her lips in a sweet tender kiss.   She melted into his arms and kissed him back, slowly enjoying the feel of his lips against hers again.  Jason pulled back and rested his forehead against hers.  "That is if you still love me?"  

 

Carly just laughed,  "I have never stopped loving you Jason."  She quickly grabbed the back of his neck and pulled him into a smoldering kiss, this time leaving no doubts in Jason's mind how she felt for him.  He felt her nibble on his bottom lip and smiled as he realized he finally had HIS Carly back.  This time they would face what ever came their way TOGETHER.  Finally ………together. 

 

 

I just want to be with you

Part of everything your going through

Like it was before we came unglued

Holding every piece you tossed out

Nothing fits without you around

Like it did before we came unglued

 

The End

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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