Drowning
They both had finally wrecked each
other. It was amazing actually it had taken so long, but in the end they were
both alone and left with broken hearts. It had been a month since their
betrayals and they of course had run into each other and every time one look
into the other's eyes they would destroy each other all over again. Each one
had tried to move on and live without the other but in the end they were alone
and miserable with an empty void in their hearts and souls.
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It was a typical day for him. He
went to the warehouse and spent the morning staring at the numbers in front of
him, and just like the day before she again crept into his thoughts. Her smile,
her long blonde hair, those brown eyes and her scent, she haunted him every
waking minute of his days. The ache filled his entire being, and like every day
he got up from his desk frustrated yet again and made his way down to the docks
where he knew she would be. Where he knew he would be able to watch her from a
distance.
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Another day spent sitting on their
bench looking out over the water. At first it was desperation that led her to
the docks each day. Desperate to run into him, to see his tall muscular frame
looking out over the water waiting for her, but as the days passed she found it
was the only place that brought her any comfort. Unfortunately with the comfort
she always found more pain as well. She would spend her time reliving the past,
remembering all the good times. The times they would just sit together on their
bench his arms tightly around her, or the their days spent at Jakes playing
pool and dancing. Then inevitably she would see his face and remember the pain
in his eyes the night he had found her at Sonny's. As if on cue the tears
sprung to her eyes as the sharp pain ripped through her heart. She had tried so
many times to apologize, that was again her intent that night she went to
Jason's. That infamous night (she half laughed), the night she had found him in
bed with Elizabeth Webber. Her life stopped that night. She knew she had no
right to expect anything from Jason. She had slept with Sonny she was the one
that had betrayed him first, but it didn't help the betrayal she felt seeing
him with Elizabeth. Now she just shuffled through each day trying to forget,
not live or move on, but just to try to stay numb and make it to the next day.
After all that was all she felt she deserved.
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He stayed in the shadows watching
her like he always did. There was just something different about this day.
Normally he would just watch her. Day after day he would watch her cry and look
out over the water, always wanting to go to her but never letting himself. For
some reason today though, the intensity drawing him to her was so strong, and
he was so tired of living without her. He had tried to hurt her by sleeping
with Elizabeth Webber and he succeeded. He hoped that it would somehow make him
feel better to know that he had hurt her like she hurt him; but the only thing
he found was that the ache to have her in his arms grew as each day passed.
Elizabeth was nothing more than an annoying child he had used to hurt Carly. In
the end they were both alone and miserable and for what? Pride or
self-preservation? It all seemed like such a waste. Elizabeth could never take
her place in his heart and soul. Carly owned him completely. She was tattooed
on his heart. Finally not being able to stay hidden any longer he stepped out
of the shadows into the light of day. He closed his eyes taking a deep breath
feeling the heat of the sun warm his face. It was time they both stepped into
the light of day and ended this misery.
He slowly approached her. She
stiffened immediately feeling his presence. It was like another sense she had,
a radar of sorts. She always knew whenever Jason was in a room by the way she
could sense him. She remained still; not knowing what she could possible say.
His heart was raced faster and
faster the closer he got to her. Quietly he sat down next to her. Her scent
filled his lungs, god he couldn't do this anymore, he couldn't be without her.
They sat for what seemed like an eternity in silence, neither knowing where to
begin or what to say.
Don't pretend you're sorry
I know you're not
You know you got the power
To make me weak inside
Girl you leave me breathless
But it's okay 'cause
You are my survival
Now hear me say
I can't imagine life
Without your love
Even forever don't seem
Like long enough
Carly was the one who finally
spoke first. "Well Jase you were right." He remained silent.
C: I did wreck you. You always
said if you let me I would wreck you.
J: WE wrecked EACH OTHER.
'Cause everytime I breathe
I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
More silence ensued. They each sat
still looking out over the water wondering where they could possibly go from
here. Finally he turned to face her. "Carly look at me." She
closed her eyes, trying so hard to control all the emotions that were tearing
her up. "Please Carly." (He whispered the desperation evident
in his voice). Slowly she turned to face him. Unable to look him in the eyes
she tried to focus anywhere she could in order to keep the tears from
overtaking her again.
He lifted his hand up to raise her
chin. He needed to look into her big brown eyes he needed to see if she still
loved him. She closed her eyes then opened them looking deeply into the ice
blue eyes that so many times had saved her. It had been so long since they had
been this close; it was all she could do to stop herself from flying into his
arms. As she looked closely she could still see the pain in his eyes. The pain
she had brought him. She tried to turn away but he stopped her.
J: I can't go on like this anymore
Carly. I just can't do it.
C: I know Jase. I'm so sorry, I
never…..
He put a finger up to her lips to
silence her. "No more apologies. We both hurt each other. I need for
you to hear me out. Please?"
She only nodded.
J: I can't stand the ache anymore
Carly. I ache constantly without you. It has been tearing me apart for months now.
I've been drowning baby. I can't do it anymore, I just can't.
C: Are you leaving?
J: No! God no. I'm not leaving
Carly. I can't imagine my life without you in it.
C: I don't understand Jase. We've
done so much damage.
J: I know. I think it's finally
time we stopped don't you think?
Maybe I'm a drifter
Late at night
'Cause I long for the safety
Of flowing freely
In your arms
I don't need another lover
It's not for me
'Cause only you can save me
Oh can't you see
I can't imagine life
Without your love
And even forever don't seem
Like long enough
Reaching up she touched his face. God
to touch him again, so many times she had come so close. Now he was right here
in front of her. She wiped the tears that had fallen onto his cheek away.
He leaned into her hand, marveling in her warm gentle touch. She was always his
saving grace, only she could sustain him. He needed her like oxygen to breathe.
C: Can we get past all the pain
Jase?
J: I'm ready to baby. I want to
put all of the past mistakes WE BOTH made behind us and move on. I want to move
on TOGETHER.
'Cause everytime I breathe
I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
C: I want to Jase. I want that
more than anything. I've missed you so much.
J: I've missed you to baby. (He
leaned his forehead against hers, taking her face in his hands and whispered). "I
love you so much Carly. I need you to survive baby. I can't survive without
you."
C: I love you always. You’re my
heart and soul Jase.
Leaning in he claimed her lips
finally. After months of pain and desperation they both let go and freed
themselves of all the betrayal and hurt. Nibbling on his bottom lip he smiled
and eagerly opened his mouth longing to feel her sweet tongue.
Go on and pull me under
Cover me with dreams, yeah
Love me mouth to mouth now
You know I can't resist
'
Cause you're the air
That I breathe
Everytime I breathe
I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
And baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning your love
Breathlessly they pulled apart
both still holding each other's faces.
J: I want you so bad.
C: Then take me. I am all yours
Jase, always yours.
Without further hesitation he
stood and extended his hand out to her. She smiled and accepted it pulling
herself up next to him. He pulled her close, whispering in her ear. "I
can't wait to feel your skin again baby." Giving her earlobe a little
nibble she let out a low moan. "Jase."
Before she knew it they were back
at his room at Jakes. Their hands making work removing each other's clothing as
their lips worshiped the other's skin. Maneuvering her over to the bed they
both fell backwards onto the down comforter. She laughed as Jason's body
covered hers finally. His weight a welcome presence to Carly, she rubbed his
back enjoying being with him again. As Jason's mouth claimed her's again, his
leg parted hers. She pushed against his chest a bit causing him to break away
from her lips.
J: What's wrong?
C: Jase do you have protection?
J: I do but I don't want to use
it. I want us skin to skin from now on, and if we should happen to make a baby,
even better.
C: Jase!
J: Hey I'm serious about us Carly.
We are together, now and forever! I want us to have kids, lots and lots of
kids.
C: Lots and lots?
J: Yup! You are it for me Carly. I
want us to have it all. The whole fairytale, I think we deserve it.
Carly couldn't believe her ears.
This man the one who was everything to her was finally committing to her once
and for all. It was all she ever dreamed about, and to give him children was
beyond words for her. It meant everything to her. Thru tear filled eyes she
touched his face and gently kissed his lips whispering, "There is
nothing more I want than to give you children Jase, god I love you."
Go on and pull me under
Cover me with dreams, yeah
Love me mouth to mouth now
You know I can't resist
'Cause you're the air
That I breathe
Everytime I breathe
I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
And baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning your love
Lifting her hips Jason sank into
her in one fluid motion "Carly", he cried out as her warmth
welcomed him home. She gasped as he entered her, filling her up like never
before. They were finally home. They were finally one again.
Everytime I breathe
I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
And baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning your love
THE END!
