With nobody to share my thoughts I was annoyed with myself. Soliloquies became an everyday feature but even then, I had nothing to talk about. Though I was blessed with the means and the urge to do so many things, I could not. And this weighed me down. I realised that I was just existing. So much so, there were times when I was made to think that this aunt of mine had an enimity with our family and this was her revenge.
I was losing my balance, and life no longer was the sweet pie, it used to be. Call it stupidity, but all of a sudden, I had realised the importance of friends. I knew I had been a scoundrel. Being a Libran, I always believed in evening out things, and I decided to go about it as soon as possible. After a lot of trouble, which then made me feel good, I got the addresses of five of my best friends of yesteryears. The easy part was selling my whole property, the house included and convert it into cash.
I intended to distribute my wealth equally amongst my friends and then commit suicide. I was so determined that in a week�s time, I had made all arrangements. Incidently, the day happened to be the 8th of June � the best friend�s day.
I did not want my friends to have any complications after my death, hence, I mailed them their share in cash and settled down to business. I had already bought a bottle of rat poison that the local chemist had suggested. You being one of those young types might think that I am bluffing my way into your heart, but no sire, that�s not what I am.
After some whiskey, which I agree I needed to calm down my nerves, I drank the poison. Yes, the whole bottle. I don�t exactly remember anything after that, not because I was in a coma or something but everything happened so fast.
I survived the suicide attempt, and was admitted in the hospital. When the hospital authorities enquired about my relatives, I told them that I had none and they could contact my friends for anything. Afterall, I had made amends. You would be surprised to know that nobody came to see me during my four day stay in the hospital.
As you may remember, I had sold everthing that I could call my own in a bid to help my friends. As a result, when I was discharged, I landed up on this pavement. If you are curious to know how I paid the hospital fees, I gave them my wrist watch.
