1st August 1997
I grab my dad�s knife
And I cut my own flesh
I bleed so much
And turn into mesh.
My heart is blackened,
And no need to wonder
My love for no other
No likeness or fondness.
�Heartless human,�
Should be my name
That is the truth
No one should be put to shame.
I�ve been cheated on, left and right,
And you now wonder,
Why I have no love
For anyone, anyone at all.
I lay there and bleed,
That�s all I can do,
�til the lord lets me go
So I can have my turn.
(This was written when I about hit rock bottom in my life. This was the turning point in my depression� This was just before I started flipping out. I've been better since shortly after I turned 18.)
