11th of January, 2001
Journal entry in my college English journal�:
Describe your best friend.
My best friend is a lot like me. Actually, she is my �carbon copy.� My best friend is my shadow. The reason I make this statement is because every person I�ve called my �best friend,� has either died or stabbed me in the back. If I make the statement that my best friend is my shadow, I know I can�t get hurt by anyone else. My shadow will never stab me in the back, and I know if my shadow �dies,� it�s probably a cloudy day. My shadow is always at my side, and apparently I get along with it. If I had to say my best friend were a living object though, it would be my father. He has always been there for me; even when no one else was (or is). If my dad died, I�d probably kill myself or go clinically insane. My dad won�t be around forever, so that is why I need another male in my life (who will eventually become my husband). My dad is calm and rational when I�ve done something wrong, honest and trustworthy, loving, caring, hilarious, serious when the occasion calls for it, and emotionally strong. I want to be just like my father someday, but for now, I�ll be like my shadow.
A poem I wrote about three years earlier� 7th of May, 1998
Some say
Their best friend
Is a person.
With skin,
Full of life,
And running free.
Well I say,
My best friend
Is my shadow.
She follows me
Everywhere,
Everywhere I go.
My shadow is like me,
Deep, dark, mysterious.
My only friend
Is my shadow
On a cloudy day
I have no friends.
I just sit
And ponder.
It all depends
On the weather today.
