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One of the greatest joys of my life was rocking my baby to sleep.
Being a mom has brought me some of the richest friendships of my life. Friends that were there for me when I worried that my child would never sleep through the night and would surely still be nursing in college! They have encouraged me and influenced me in ways that they may never even realize.
I saw my marriage in a different, even lovelier, light. Watching my husband be a father and seeing how gentle he was with my little ones made me love him even more.
I would sacrifice anything to protect my children. Before having children, I didn�t realize what it was like to love in this way.
Becoming a mother has offered me a capacity to love and protect that I had not known before. I remember gently swinging on my hammock in the backyard, my seven-month-old son snuggled sleepily to my chest. As we swayed rythmically side to side, listening to the birds, smelling the moist earth after a morning rain, suddenly our movement flipped us into the air. I arched my body instantly, maneuvering myself in an indescribable way to land below my child, rather than on top of him, as gravity would have it. He landed safely upon me. It was a complete and instinctual love that caused me to protect him with myself. It is a beautiful and satisfying feeling to care this deeply.
Of all the things I've done in my life, nothing feels more important than the responsibility of raising a person brimming with self-confidence, the ability to love and the desire to contribute to society.
I have read that the human personality, and self-esteem, is more or less defined by the time a child is three. So far, I think I am on track. I am proud that my little one has never known a moment without love. As she grows older, she may not always recognize that love comes in a variety of forms: She may gripe about limited TV viewing, or roll her eyes at the thank-you letter that I insist she write. But one day, my daughter will get it.
Being a mom feels like the most important job in the entire world. In effect, I can create a masterpiece! Sure, my son comes with genetic material that controls more than we know, but I have the awesome ability to direct those inborn traits to their fullest potential.
I can't be perfect at motherhood. But the well-being of my child demands that I always do my best. One day, she will blossom into a woman who is in charge of her own destiny, and is appreciative of the life she has been given -- if I do my job right.
If I could, I'd put "mommy" on my resume, because nothing has taught me as much responsibility, or given me as many new skills, as this 36-inch wonder -- who is now finger painting the living room wall.
The most rewarding, and surprising, thing about motherhood is how much I can affect the future, even after I am gone. My son will one day graduate from climbing the dining room table to scaling much greater heights. And a lot of that is up to me.
Seeing the look on a baby�s face as they see the world and are in awe of all the new things around them was and is my favorite part of being a mother. That wide-eyed curiosity that babies have as they discover a butterfly or a flower or the moon on a clear night � that is something I will never forget. Babies bring to mothers a new awareness of their surroundings, a reminder of just how beautiful our world really is. Seeing the world through a child�s eyes is awesome. |
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