Well we will see how long Ill be back for this time.
8-17-02
Wow its been a while since I updated my site. I feel so so terrible about that. Its a mystery how the world is still alive even I havent been updating. I havent spoken to anyone for years it seems like. I know ofcourse that it has only been a couple months but still it must seem that I have either been abducted by aliens or ummmm something worse I guess. Its 3:00 right now in Maryland\DC I am still awake because of the crazy schedule I have had to keep working two jobs. The computer that I am on isnt even mine (shows my dedication) it is some ancient laptop that feels like it should have been burried long ago. It is a Pentium I, 200 mhz, and 32 megs of ram. The only convenient thing about it is that it is a laptop and I am lying in bed at the moment. I am listening to Neil Young who reminds me a lot of the band grandaddy. Who really cares though. Im sure someone is reading this and is like WOW!!! REALLYYY!!! Well if someoe actually is they should be ashamed of themselves cause he or she is an idiot. I am also an idiot because I keep this retarded webpage that no one ever looks. Actually I dont even expect anyone has seen this page except for a select few..you know who you are. Ofcourse you do because you are looking at it at this precise moment. Well maybe I should go find something else to do other than write (rant) on and on. Wel goodnight folks. Ill be around if you wish to talk to me, and I know you wish it my SN is XcrimsonswordX on IM I also have another one...but if I dont tell you dont take offense its just probably that you bore me..
4-17-02
Well its been 10 days since my last entry (for all those with poor math skills) and nothing too exciting has happened. I visited some friends, but didn't get a chance to visit all friends. My apology then is sent out to all I didnt get a chance to visit, if my apology really has any effect on anyone. I had a lot of fun hanging out with old amigos (amigo-says that I am understanding of all cultures) of mine. They had a nice apartment, although it mainly consists of stairways. Not that I have anything wrong with stairs, just sometimes it can be a little overdone, especially if the apartment is small as it is. One can only have so many stairs to still be considered cool in my book. The amount of their overly-stomped stairs is definetly not cool, even if one is a spiral stair-case. What else have I been doing...hmmm. I have been listening to music and reading. If anyone wants one of my lovely cd's and I know that they are truly lovely then only ask and I shall contemplate on giving you one. Well I feel that I have allready spilled all the contents of my heart out on this page, so I better leave. My fingers are not at all tired of typing, and I am not even bored at all, its just that I feel that I truly have shared too much of my heart.
4-7-02
Today was a sunday. It was an okay sunday. I guess I can start with a story. Its not really that exciting, but I know you all are just waiting and panting for a good story. Well wait till you hear this one. So there I was sitting in church, hands folded on my lap with a beautiful ray of sun falling on my head. At this time the pastor said that we would be lucky enough to hear a "special song" from one of the people of the church. At this time I was jumping up and down for joy. I was so excited. It took her a couple times to start the song cause her voice kept on cracking. It was sort of humorous the way when the song would go to a high note you would hear a totally different voice emitting from the lady. She was playing on an electic keyboard so she couldnt flip the pages of her song. They had a nice solution to this problem, I was impressed. They had a lady stand up next to her and flip the pages when she was ready. I wasnt sure when the lady knew when to turn, but at one time I thought I saw the lady who was sing wink to the lady turning the pages. I could be wrong. I am just so ecstatic that I was lucky enough to have witnessed this event. Now was that a good story or what. That was probably the most exciting thing happen to me that week. Oh well my arm hurts right now cause I slept on it when I took a nap earlier. I should stop typing so the throbbing could stop. Oh well one must suffer some to be so valued. Cya all.
3-25-02
Well there is one thing I want to warn people about. There are some books that just suck you in and wont let you go. I have speant the last 2 days reading this one book. It is like 800 pages. Robert Jordan, is pretty famous for his fantasy novels, but he sure rights a lot about little things. I am a fan of good writing and everything, but he just gets carried away. I am dying to read the next book, but unfortunately we got a snow storm here and my mom was scared to go to the library. I will just have to wait till tomorow. I swear these books are like a Soap Opera. It just goes on and on...eventually I start to skip paragraphs. I hate those books but I also love them...I just wish the frickin author would stay to the characters...I mean I dont care what the Moon looks like when they are sneaking around, like if it has certain figures on it and also how it hits the trees on the horizon...I mean I really dont care. But I still cant put them down. Its a curse. I fell in it. Oh well I have no choice now but to read all 8 of them. I am doomed. I will probably busy the next few days glued ti my books.
3-23-02
I hate writing this. I hoped I would never have to. I know its true now. It was over long ago. It was one of the best experiences of my life, but its over now. If you look deeper it was over before it started. So this one goes out to you. Sorry things are this way, but there is no other way I can say it...I know I will never say it to you so I am going to write it. Sorry I never told you. Sorry I never will. So, so long cya. You were the best.
Youre killing me.
Youre making it easier.
I knew it all along
It wouldnt last
Things change.
I kept on thinkings of ways.
Ways that I could see you.
Now I dont want to.
What hurts more,
Is that youre the same.
You never changed,
But your changing me.
I will hate you soon.
I always knew I would.
Spite is coming.
I am leaving.
Goodbye.
