The last outing Jacquie was able to go on before she passed away. She used a wheelchair and took the kids once again to the museum, a place they went often when she was well and they all loved it.

I never in my wildest dreams, thought I'd have a son like you.
I planned you'd be so perfect, but all of that fell through.

From the moment I first saw you, too fragile yet to hold.
I knew you were God's greatest gift, more valuable than gold.

Nothing ever changed much for months and months, it seemed.
I started to lose hope and I tossed away my dreams.

I tried to find an answer, just anything at all.
To tell me why God burst a cloud and let my angel fall.

The thing that got you through all this, despite what you may think;
Was not your bright red hair at all, it was your bright red streak.

There must have been a lesson, in all that we've been through.
I've never felt the kind of love that I have learned from you.

Now still sometimes we stumble, more often times we fall.
Sometimes I feel like nothing is ever right at all.

But just to see a little smile, and get a little kiss;
Somehow I know it's worth it all, there's a reason for all of this.

J.M.C. - October 24, 1985

Addition.....January 7, 1986

In the future, when your over all the pain, and we're over all the tears;
When the wounds are healed, and the scars are gone, and we've forgotten all our fears.

We won't mention, nor will we forget, how you changed (as much as the weather).
And we'll thank God, when we look at you for getting us through it together!!!!!!

Addition.....December 14, 1986

Your two years old today, my son, and quite a little boy;
Alot has changed, but the fact remains you're still my pride and joy.

Thoughts have changed too, I must admit over these long and trying years;
And now the scars are all that's left to remind us of those fears.

The things we were afraid of, now seldom cross our minds
The future.....we look forward to;
The past.....we'll leave behind.

Sometimes I am amazed that you are all you've grown to be;
What you are now, a year ago was just a dream to me!!!!!