Stuck

Chelsea groaned as her alarm clock woke her up. The last thing she wanted to do was go out that day. It had been a month to the day that she last talked to Lance and as usual, the old feelings she had for him resurfaced. It�s like she couldn�t get over him. Her brain told her to get over him, but her heart wouldn�t let her.

I can't get out of bed today
Or get you off my mind
I just can't seem to find a way
To leave this love behind

Why did he do this to her? What was so special about him that made her heart ache for him day and night? Every night before she went to sleep, she would look through the scrapbook she had made of their relationship. At first, it was just supposed to be used as a healing device. To remind her of the happy times they had together and to make her realize that even though things had been perfect between them, things happen and she needed to move on. But despite all of her attempts, she couldn�t get him off her mind. He was all she needed to make things better.

I ain't trippin
I'm just missin'
You know what I'm saying
You know what I need

He made her believe that he loved her. All of his actions told her that was true. Now all of those actions were constantly in her thoughts. Now all she did was cry herself to sleep over that �love� he gave her. She did everything she could to make him happy. But he knew that she wasn�t really for him. So why wasn�t he honest with her sooner?

You kept me hanging on a string
While you make me cry
I try to give you everything
But you just gave me lies

She secretly hoped that one day he would call her and apologize for what he said and did. Then he would tell her that he still loved her and was miserable without her and needed her back in his life. But day after day, she waited for her phone to ring and it didn�t. Well it rang, but it was never him. She felt like an idiot for believing that he was going to call, but she couldn�t change the way she felt. He was making her this way.

Every now and then
When I'm all alone
I've been wishing you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back
But you never do
I feel like such a fool
There's nothing I can do,
I'm such a fool for you

She decided to snap out of it. She didn�t get why she was still so attached to the memory of their relationship. Every day her heart would break a little more at the thought of what could have been between them one day. At first she could hide the fact that she was still so stuck on him. As time went on, it got harder for her to hide her true feelings. She still loved Lance. There was no way around it. She hated him for everything he did to her, all the stories he told her. He told her they�d be together forever. She loved him then and she still did. Nothing it seemed could change the way she felt about it.

I can't take it
What am I waiting for?
My heart�s still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can't fake it
The way I could before
I hate you but I love you
I can't stop thinking of you
It's true I'm stuck on you

Love. A feeling she never thought she�d feel and now a feeling she felt she�d never get over. He loves me, he loves me not. Those little words always in the back of her mind. Love, a thing of the past. Never to return. Oh well.

Now love's a broken record
That's been skippin' in my head
I keep singing Yesterday
Why we got to play these games we play?

She knew that she needed to move on. She planned on doing it. Why life decided to throw a wrench in those plans, she didn�t know. She just missed him. But that feeling turned into an ache. A gut wrenching pain that consumed her.

I ain�t trippin
I'm just missin you
You know what I'm saying
You know what I mean

She heard the phone ringing. She figured it was probably just her mom calling to check up on her. She groaned and answered it.

�Hello?�

�Chelsea?�

�Yeah. Who is this?�

�It�s Lance.�

�Oh! Hey! What�s up?� she asked, trying to be calm.

�Not much. What�s up with you?�

�The same. How have you been?�

�Good. How about you?�

�Pretty good. I figured I�d see how you were doing. We haven�t talked in a long time.�

�Yeah, it�s been a while.� She wanted to add a comment about him dumping her, but changed her mind.

I can't take it
What am I waiting for
My heart's still breakin
I miss you even more
And I can't fake it
The way I could before
I hate you but I love you
I can't stop thinkin of you
It's true, I'm stuck on you

�Chris wants to say hey. Hopefully I�ll talk to you later. If not, give me a call sometime okay?�

�Sure! I�ll call you. Maybe we can get together for lunch sometime.�

�I�d love that. Talk to you soon.�

�Bye Lance.�

�Bye.�

�Chel?�

�Chris? Hey!�

�How are you?�

�Good.�

�No really, how are you?�

�Chris, I�m fine. I feel a lot better now that I talked to Lance.�

�You still haven�t gotten over him? What are you waiting for Chelsea?�

�I don�t know Chris! I�m sorry I can�t get over him. What do you care?�

�You�re my friend. I worry about you.�

�I know that and I appreciate it. But I don�t know Chris. It�s hard.�

He sighed. �I know Chels.�

I can't take it
What am I waiting for
My heart's still breakin
I miss you even more
And I can't fake it
The way I could before
I hate you but I love you
I can't stop thinkin of you
It's true, I'm stuck on you

*Stacie Orrico - Stuck

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