If you're seeking spiritual guidance..... or return to Rev-Darren's spot!
I'm going to suggest that you visit a local house of worship. As a general rule, I don't do religious guidance online. (Part of this is a lack of time, and I have enough pastoral tasks to be about, even on leave, without adding long-distance spiritual counseling to that list. I hope you understand it's not that I don't care about your spirit.)
So where do you find a local house of worship?
You can try the yellow pages, but I'll also give you links to my home denomination here:
(The ELCA site has got many helpful things, one of them being a congregational locator that can find the ELCA congregation closest to your location.)