soulrot

Behind these four walls called a Home
Sits two Minds� two Hearts� two Souls
They have become One Entity
They have become Coupled

Once two Independent Individuals�
Two Independent spirits
They have become welded together
Bound inexorably in chains of security
They have forsaken Two-ness for Oneness
Intellectually� Emotionally� Physically
They told themselves� and each other
They choose to do so for eternity

Each had fought vigorously to capture
And possess� to �Own� for all of time
The other�s Heart and Mind and Body
This Belief they called �Love�

They were each mutual �prizes� wrested
From the competition with others�
As a condition of their �Capture�
Each had agreed to reciprocate
Each became The Master� and each
Became The Slave� one to another
They called this Welding� �Love�

It was a Devils Bargain mimicked from folk
Lore� fairy tales� wishful thinking
From insecurities transmitted from generation
To generation� blindly accepted as �The Goal�
�The Norm�� the �Supposed-To-Be�

The Bargain�s catalyst was Fear of Loss�
This was the apex time for chains of velvet
Harnessed by the flesh�
Some say the real motivator was lust� or
Wily enticement� that various lips served
Pointedly as the welding�s devise�
And the Grand Prize was �The Future�

Each had fought vigorously to capture
And Possess� to �Own� for all time
The other�s Heart and Mind and Body
This Vision they called �Love�

With time� the Future became Yesterdays
The real or imagined or feigned Passion was
Quelled first by familiarity� then by gentle
Indifference� facades became the norm
The Minds were glazed� worn to dullness
The two hearts now barely beating� the
Souls within withering and fraying in sun and
Rain and silence� and growing despair

In the beginning there were feverish unions�
Often rewarded by new pink faces and new
Forms of joy... for a time the new faces provided
Both persons - formally two Individuals �
Now One Entity...
With distractions and relief from the Welding�s
Nagging and disturbing and growing desolation

Each had fought vigorously to capture
And Possess� to �Own� for all time
The other�s Heart and Mind and Body
They called this Form of Relationship �Love�

And then in One� or both� the Secrets began
A welded Mind�s frightened thoughts to itself�
At first� the Secrets were just quiet whispers
Hardly acknowledged consciously
They said, �What has happened here?�
"How can I be ungrateful for being Owned?�
�Why does my Soul now chafe at the once
Sought Welding?�

With time� months, often years� the Secrets
Would escape from the solitary silence of the Mind�
Then questions would be spoken gently from Master
To Slave� Slave to Master� perhaps even to Others�
Vague longings and wishes and dreams (and some
Not so vague) would be stated to intimates... friends
And thus become even more real to the thinker�
Some longings might even be acted upon unilaterally

But at some point in time... the real horror of the Bargain
Finally becomes understood� felt and then feared�
�Loss of Freedom was an untenable price to pay for the
Hoped-for Security�

Each had fought vigorously to capture
And Possess� to �Own� for all time
The other�s Heart and Mind and Body
This Goal they called �Love�

Bodies and things� so called precious assets�
Can be Welded� they can be �Owned��
But Souls and Spirits and Ideals and Thoughts
Cannot be chained for long� even voluntarily�
Their nurture is Freedom of Choice� Slavery
Is their demise

Behind these four walls called a home sits a Couple
Behind two skulls sits two Minds silently screaming
Pleading to once again regain and enjoy feelings
Of Freedom� Passion�Excitement� Intimacy
Perhaps even Love� to once again be connected
To their now Rotting Souls

Each had fought vigorously to capture
And Possess� to �Own� for all time
The other�s Heart and Mind and Body
This Trophy they called �Love�