.and.artistic.
.what.not.
Resting my eyes and concentrating on nothing,
the summer's almost here and I want it to be over.
In this period of hot dimensions maybe there's something,
but until then I wont have forclosure.
School's gonna be out,
and I'll have nothing to occupy myself with.
So I'll just sit here and pout,
and deal with the same repetitive shit.
Your Eyes
Look at me, smile at me, tell me you'll be there.
Walk away, ignore me, sit there and stare.
Im here and I'm listening and I am resisting,
your pain and your self centered tragedies.
You loved me were rejected by my selfishness,
and now that our friendship has spoiled, its turned to regretfulness.
Your eyes, your eyes are emptyness now.
I remember when I fell in them and drown.
Your hands are lifeless and cold,
love was tortured and too much retold.
Now you're here, but you're gone.
And what we did all seems so wrong.
Your eyes, your eyes are emptyness now,
I remember when I fell in them and drown.
I fell in and drown in your heart wrenching self centered tragedies, your tragedies,
your...eyes are emptyness now.
Self Esteem Bought
Go buy your self-esteem,
I assure you it'll be cheap.
Cause that's what you're worth,
you self centered creep.
Go buy your self-esteem,
Look! It's on sale!
Obviously your ego's gonna prevail.
You're a self centered jerk,
who likes to jerk me around.
But you're doing it for fun,
but it's not taking me down.
Go buy your self-esteem you fucking ass!
I don't care what you say,
cause I'm sick of seeing your fucked up face,
every fucking day!
Im happy!
I'm happy for you,
I'm happy for you.
But what do you do?
You think I'm not.
You think I'm not.
But I don't get jealous a lot.
I don't revolve around you,
I don't revolve around you.
Obviously you don't have a clue.
But we're not friends,
yeah, we're not friends.
Cause you decided this should end.
I gave you your space,
now you've got your space.
Time spent with you is easy to replace.
Don't worry about me.
Don't worry about me.
I'm happy.
I'm fucking happy.
Hollywood
It's been different since I found you there with your wrists torn.
hollywood carved into your wrists,
we all knew you were star born.
Momma sold your soul to the cameras at age 14,
all the whispers talked about a punk rock beauty queen.
She kissed them with her blood red lips,
and batted batty eyes.
But when I found you laying there it wasnt a surprise.
The camera flashes faded like the color in your skin,
your iris's turned to crimson and your heart to sin.
The bloody sunsets and black velvet nights, we'd sometimes talk of things.
We'd discuss the invasion from within and watch bats flut their wings.
Quiet whispers to myself were only heard when people walked by,
Quietly I'd just look over at you and let out a sigh.
They just didnt understand the connection between you and me,
we understood the cloudy things in life clearly.
Later on that night we talked about what we hated, and all the people that degraded.
We broke down and thought about the shitty things in life.
Then we finally realized that nothing we did could make things right.
We set off to glamourize the things that just weren't pretty,
so we took out the razors and did the nitty gritty.
You cut first and then again....and again.
I kinda hurt just standing there cause I was trying to be a friend.
Then after you did the destroying we realized it was grace,
you carved hollywood into your arm as tears ran down our face.
I fell onto the floor and looked at our masterpeice done,
Then as I looked out the window I saw the bloody red sun.
I wanted to be star born and I wanted grace,
I could feel the salty tears stinging my face.
So we finally broke down and started to cry,
cause I realized that you were really I.
Pull Away
We sometimes have little talks,
and I love your funny smile.
The way you act and your voice,
makes wanting you like this all worth while.
You're everything I'd want,
but you hardly know me, and I hardly know you.
So now I'm just waiting,
and I have no clue what to do.
I just hope sometimes you feel the way I do,
Sometimes you hint and then pull away.
I want this so bad.
I think about you every day.
Say Something
I would listen for hours just to hear your voice,
and I would give up anything for you to just hold me.
Cause right now I'm wanting you so bad,
and I don't know whats going on in your head.
So I'm sitting here and wondering why I won't make a move,
maybe it's because Im scared of what you'll think of me.
Or realize that Im afraid.
Im probably not what you want.
So say something to make me feel loved.
So I sit and think,
So I sit here and think.
What should I do?
I have no clue.
So say something to make me feel loved.
I'm trying to grab onto something I'm not sure's there.
I wish we didn't know each other so I wouldnt feel this way.
Sometimes it scares me what's going to happen.
Cause when I want something this bad it all falls apart.
So say something to make me feel loved.
Catch 22
Time's stuck in this same damn position,
and I don't like your opposition.
No progression just agression,
and I'm getting the impression,
that you're starting to care.
Little words make big feelings,
and my heart you're reeling,
closer and closer to you.
You leave for the time being,
and while you're gone my hearts bleeding,
Cause I just wanna get closer to you.
Torture my emotions with your wit,
this persecution I wont quit,
until you start to get it.
You think I'm one cool girl,
in this oyster world I'm a pearl,
and I'm a little special in the head.
It's a catch 22,
everytime I talk to you,
what the fuck can I do?
