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The Doctor Said It's All In My Head
Poetry & Art by Jim Nasium
Like an emotional roller coaster
there's always gonna be up's and down's
you try hard to play the part
and to hide the tears of a clown
one day when you least expect it
every thing becomes a big to do
the doctor said it's all in my head
too weak to talk and I feel blue
Like an emotional slaughter
you left me here alone to bleed
you slandered my good name
took away every thing I need
never had anything I wanted
so I'm left with nothing at all
the doctor said it's all in my head
but when I try to walk I fall
Like an emotional midget
a boy trapped inside the body of a man
wanting only to enjoy his life
but no one seems to understand
left to wander aimlessly
can't understand a word that's said
too weak to speak and pencil thin
but the doctor said it's all in my head
Like an emotional cripple
unable to understand
can't feel a thing any more
I'm lost with out a plan
another day comes to me
but I should'a stayed in bed
I'm much too weak to even speak
the doctor said it's all in my head...
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Don't
Keep Me Waiting Too Long
Every day things get worse for me
I never thought I'd end up this way
it's hard for me to walk now
and I get weaker every day
loosing weight and strength
there's not much I can do
so I pray to God for help
to some how get me through
Every day is worst than the day before
no matter how hard I try
my body hurts so damn much
all I can do is cry
can't walk around anymore
not even with a cane
I think my hip is broken
the whole ordeal's been insane
Too weak to do anything
I don't feel hungry at all
stuck between a rock and a hard place
my backs against the wall
things aren't working out for me
not the way I had planned
exactly why this happened to me
I'll never understand
Today I go back for another treatment
I'll be glowing in the dark again
I'm not sure how I'm going to get there
I may have to call an old friend
I'll need some one to help me
to get in and out of the car
some one I can lean on when I try to walk
thank goodness the treatment center isn't too far...
Pain is no stranger to me
morphine is my best friend
I took a little too much yesterday
and I think I'll take too much again
every day things are getting worse for me
I don't think I can hang on
if the ends at hand that's ok too
just don't keep me waiting to long...
all
I wish for tonight
long dark empty lonely nights
alone just a little too long
tired of sitting this chair
listening to my muse sing her siren song
wanting more than I'll ever have
sometimes I don't know why I fight
to keep my broken body alive
is all I wish for tonight
wondering why this happened to me
somehow it's just not fair
to be so all alone and this sick
I just want someone to care
finding it hard to find a reason
to keep fighting this losing fight
sometimes I pray it'd be easier
to get all I wish for tonight...
Face Down On The Floor
Some people have to wake up face down on the floor time after time
before they learn that no one can make a change in their life but them. Some folks
learn way too late that they can be in control of their life and any situation,
but at least some of them finally do learn.
In this poem I will write as if I am the same guy I used to
be...
When I woke up this morning
I was happy to be alive
laying face down on the dirty floor
of some sleazy back street dive
cock roaches walked right over me
no one seemed to care I was there
then it suddenly dawn on me
I do not belong here
I gathered together all my strength
tried to get up on my feet
my head was spinning my belly hurt
I had a craving for something sweet
no one said a word as I made my way
from the back corner right out the door
I've made my mind up once and for all
I ain't going back there no more...
When I woke up this morning
the first day of the rest of my life
I was happy to still be alive
tired of dealing with all the strife
I know that it's all up to me
to make changes for the best
I remember going there last night
but I can't remember any of the rest...
I made my way home and went to bed
woke up and decided to shower
the hot water felt so damn good
I stayed in there for an hour
said some prayers while I was wet
asked for strength to change for the best
I feel better now that plans were made
and all my sins have been confessed
When I woke up this morning
I was sick and didn't feel right
for the life of me no matter how hard I try
I can't remember any thing about last night
but now I feel so different
I have finally taken control
I feel that I can beat this
all the way down in my soul
I made my way to the kitchen
cooked my self something hot to eat
this was the first day of the rest of my life
and I was ready to face defeat
I made my mind up to do my best
fight as hard as I could fight
and even if I it kills me
I'm going to stay sober tonight.
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