Sitting here today

wishing the time away

staring into no – mans – land

with a sigarette in my hand

You know, life goes by so fast

memories the only thing that last

A rollercoaster ride

grab it with all your might!

A life together…

just you and me forever,

but a dream that faded too fast

our dreams laying shattered in the past!

Dreams and hopes was build on sand

the bricks borrowed from no – mans – land

lies you could only tell

emotions what you sell

Life isn’t easy for both of us!

No use to make a fuss

Trying to live for only this moment

Thinking of yesterday? no not even for a second...

I thought i’ve lost everything

that my heart will never again sing

I was so terribly wrong

I can hear the beginning of a brand new song!

Jeni Colibey

I decided that after today

you won’t be longer allowed to in my heart stay

It will hurt… now that’s quite true

but, finally i’ve got the answer to the clue…

you see, we made love for all the wrong reasons

did not bother about feelings

For all the wrong reasons did we hugged and kissed one another

despite the fact that we knew in our hearts we weren’t made for each other

For all the wrong reasons did we held each other tight

Baby, there’s a storm outside that we need to fight

We did have our good times too,

but they didn’t last true…

Yes, we did made magic in the night

That too weren’t right…

For all the wrong reasons did you made love to me…

Baby, I need you to see…

that although I love you more than you’ll ever know

I have to let go

It does take all the guts I’ve got

Believe me loverboy, it ain’t a lot…

So for all the wrong reasons after all

the higher you climb the harder you fall…

I needed you to love me the same way I love you

I needed you to need me too…

I’m so sorry to let you know

so ever now and again one needs to get a blow

So to you I now have to say goodbye

Just hope in time my tears will dry

Hope you’re still be my friend

In future might even meet again..

So now for all the right reasons I’ve got to let you go…

and just swim with the flow.

Jeni Colibey

Dear God, high above

Please protect the man I love

Keep him save and sound for me

God, please open his eyes to see

When danger’s heading his way

Please God, do not let him run away…

God, give him a sixth sense too

So that he will know friends’ not true

Give him wings of gladness

Take away all his sadness

Open his eyes once again so he can see –

Live! As it is meant to be!

Unchain his heart – please make it soft

God, I do realize I’m asking a lot

But, please, he is so special to me

I want him only to be free

God, I know this man do have a lot of pain…

Please God; do show him the sunshine after the rain…

Make him hear so clearly

Those who love and care for him so dearly

That when they do fight and give him advice

It’s only because they do realize

That lifes’ mountain is so very steep

And he is in it real deep!

Please God, could You show him right from wrong?

Please show him life is actually a Heavenly Song!

God, I’m asking all of this from You

‘Cause I know you’re the only one that’s always true

And that You also love this guy of mine…

And because You know that all he needs right now is a lot of sunshine…

So as I end my prayer now

And in front of You take a deep bow

Once again I want to ask of You

Help this guy on his feet, yes, please do

Make him see I love him more each day

And that my love for him will forever stay!!

Jeni Colibey

Life is a game to play

Before you know - it just fades away

Men and women are all the same

Playing the same old game

Can’t be true to one another

Hurting every day each other

People playing games with their hearts

Tearing the whole world apart

Always in search of somebody new

If only for a moment their lover made them blue

tend to turn their backs around

Shattering innocent lifes without sound

Just walk away into the night?

That just isn't right!

If you really do love that special somebody

you wouldn’t just let it be!

So fight for your right

Fight with all your might

Make them see

that you two were meant to be

Life is short enough

Just look at the livespan of a dove

Life is not suppose to be so cruel

So stop fighting this one - man duel!

Jeni Colibey

Hi my baby, today you must listen to mommy

then you would clearly see!

Mommy met this handsome prince in town

when he came up to me I didn’t even frown

He took me to places I’ve never been

To Paris, Greece and France - what a wonderful scene!

We made love every single night

He took me with such might!

Well, baby I didn’t have experience at all

Then one day took a terrible fall

I thought he would be happy too

When I told him about you!

The expression on his face…

Wished I was in another place

He sweared and shout

threw things about

He left me standing in the rain

Oh, the terrible pain

All on my own again

I’ll never trust men again

So you see for your sake – I’ve got to give you away,

but in my heart you will always stay

I can’t afford to look after you

Oh baby mommy is so very blue

Your new mommy and daddy I picked out myself

Into their past I had to delve

They will take good care of you

Be by your side through and through

So as you can see – for your sake

This decision I had to make

Know that you are here today

Because of a love that will always in my heart stay

I love you with every beat of my heart

although I’m so young and not at all smart

You are my baby

In heaven we will meet finally

So for your sake I’ve got to give you away

Jeni Colibey

Tell me what to do

I know that what we had is through

Somewhere in the wind it got lost

And not at your cost

My life feels like a lost kite

On a windy day, left alone on a no – mans – flight

I do know that I’ll always be in love with you

I’m running out of glue

It is so hard trying to mend a broken heart

I feel like the queen in a deck of cards

It feels as if life is so useless

No one caring anymore – a flaming bliss

I love you with all of me

I know you were the one to set my heart free

But instead you took it on a bicycle ride

Lost it somewhere near the railway side

If possible could I please have my heart back?

You see I want to put it on a labeled army bag

Send it off to war

Maybe it will then destroy the entire sore

Broken hearts do mend I know

But oh boy I love you so

Some hearts never mend

Some memories never end

So, boy can you now clearly see?

I will always love thee

How I do wish that I can love someone else

But one look at you and my mind ring like a thousand bells

A thousand bells – yes, ‘cause seeing you

Turns my gray skies blue

Makes me as happy as I can be

Oh I wish that you could see

They say don’t walk all over love

Especially if it was send with the snow - white dove

It feels like I am tumbling down

I feel like the unhappiest clown

Tell me, why is life so cruel?

Why do I loose yet another duel?

Can’t you see?

We were meant to be!

Jeni Colibey

All of this afternoon

Until the bright shining moon

Appeared to say goodnight to us

And to the setting sun – without any fuss

I waited for your call that never came

BOY, what is your game?

Lying in my bed

Realizing that lately a lot of things go bad

We’re not communicating anymore!

Are you holding a private score?

About the little we do talk nowadays

Or are you looking for someone in another place?

Are you pushing me aside?

With a blow and no fights?

Without making a fuss

After all what is there to discuss?

Just me

The only me

The one who love you at all cost

The one whose’ heart you manage to defrost!!!

The one who gave herself so freely to you

The one that tonight is so terribly blue

And the one that is so terrified of her love

Even if she believes it was send on Jesus’ white dove….

Jeni colibey

The time has come to consider the past one by one

There were days filled with sadness but there was also a lot of fun

So to another you now belong

Tell me, pretty boy for how long?

You and me we both know she’s not meant to be..

She’s not worthy of you, oh can’t you see?

If you took someone much better than me

Maybe now, i would have been free

Are you thinking rational, or do you only want to hurt?

How you take me for granted by the way you flirt

How can you still sleep with her if you told me that you’ll always will love me?

What is the matter with thee?

Sometimes i do think it’s for the best

I’ll never be able to trust you again, or the rest

You seem so well but i think your life is now one big mess!

I’m not quite as well but, i’m blessed

From the two of us i do believe i’m much better of

So pretty boy, please bugger off

You want your bread buttered on both sides

But, sometimes you need to go with the tide

I know i will always mourn you, gee, you know how to hurt

Don’t mind me saying i’m not a nineteen year old bird?

So finally today i let go of our dreams together

Tell me boy will you always remember…

You said you’ll hold me till you die but, if i’m not mistaking you’re still alive!!!!

Now you’re expecting me to dive!!!

So enjoy this life boy, i really want you to

Remember your little children too

Start praying for forgiveness and get your act cleared up

Not long then we must all pay for our sins, so for now start to adapt.

Jeni colibey

Now that i love you

I cannot imagine life without you

You do make a dull day brighter

Lifes’ journey makes me feel higher

You are the sun after the rain

You also know about pain

I cannot picture life without you

Oh boy, it surely will be blue

Days will start dull and gray

Won’t feel the suns’ rays

Shining through my window

Won’t enjoy the fairies playing in its golden glow

You’ve teached me about fairies with golden wings

And lots of other imaginary things

You showed me the simple things in life

That there is more than what reach the eye

I know i will be missing you

My whole life through

When night time falls down to earth

To yet the moon give another birth

Know that i will be thinking of you

As i always do

The stars might shine bright above

I’m totally at lost without my love

My arms and heart will be empty

I’ll be washed out mentally

So to you i now want to say

My heart isn’t made out of clay

Please remember it’s not a toy

After all i’m so coy

One last thing i need to say

With my feelings you only play

I only want you to stay with me

And to promise never to set me free

If only you could do all that

I would be one hell of a happy chap

Jeni colibey

Looking back… to the day we’ve met

A lot of things… unsaid

The moment i laid eyes on you

I fell in love with you

You drive me crazy and insane

But ever since we’ve met my heart feels no pain

When you show your jealousy for me

I know we are mend to be

A lot of things needs to be cleared

But, none to be feared

Before we can be together

You and me forever

But i can wait for you

Without ever being blue

Knowing that someday there will be a light

Know that i love you with all my might

And that i can’t wait to be in your loving arms

So that you once again can open your loving charms.

Jeni colibey

They say true love comes only but once along your way

But, they are wrong, i must say

Love come in such a different way

Love wasn’t put in your heart to stay

I loved you so much i could have lied for you

Do you know i would even have died for you

When we broke up i was blue

Boy, you just could’nt be true

I thought that my love for you would never die

That all my tears will never dry

That i will always love you although i try

Not to and not to cry

Then along came he

Oh you were the first to see

That we were meant to be

Now we’re an item so do not worry about me

I do love him you know

But, for now i’ll just take it slow

It’s being loved that makes me glow

How right of you to let it go

So now where i’m sitting today

I know that we had to break away

In this new relationship i really want to stay

Moulding my life with brand new clay

Jeni colibey

I do not know what to do

Do not know what to say

About the way

I feel over you!

Cannot say I do blame

People falling over their feet

Just to make sure they do meet

You, the person or so they claim

All I can say

I do see a little bit of me in you

‘Cause, boy, you’re also blue

But, you too do not let feelings get in your way

Never showing your real feelings

Always wearing your mask

Do you too realize – times’ running out fast?

After all we’re all only human beings…

Hanging on a string

Wondering when it is going to snap

What? Is this another foolish trap?

When will fate then swing?

I do hope we’ll stay friends for long

I do hope only the best will happen to you

You’ll also never know about the way you make me feel

So sorry, I can’t write a song…

Neither can I sing

So surely you will know

Maybe it is for the best – just go with the flow

So to you I now my heart bring…

Although I realize you will never know

That I’m crazy for you

And want to hold you forever true

But one last thing I will never let our friendship go

Jeni Colibey

Memories of a time long since gone

Can anyone tell me what went wrong?

It’s like looking through the rearwiev mirror

And you wonder who actually is the winner

Paging through photos of the past

Remembering the good times that never last

Thinking of now and then

Startling to realize where’s the question – when

Reading all those letters oh so dear

Reading of passion and lovers’ fear

Seeing the writing of your name

Bring back memories of a long lost flame

Seeing all those dried out roses you send me

All crumbled and oxygen free

Why in the world off all the days?

Do I want to walk through the past and trace?

Fallen tears over the poems you’ve send

Straightening the yellow pages that once again is bend

Wondering why life is so bloody cruel

Fighting to once in my life win a duel

Walking on ghost path

Can’t get out to fast

Show me that love is all around

That I’m not walking on deadly ground

Pictures and stories some recent some old

Makes me cry and sometimes makes me bold

Why can’t we try to change the past?

Life goes by so damn fast

We both made mistakes; both me and you

We both know that we’ve been through

Tell me what really do stand in our way

I know love can’t be bought in shapes of clay

It’s just that I miss you so

I’m tired of life giving out blows

I’m tired of standing on the receiving end

Tired – of trying to mend

They all say I’ll get over you

But each passing day I keep missing you

Paging through yesterday

Does not help the pain to go away

Memories can’t be sold

Loves’ the one thing that cannot be bought

Love and hate - what a way to live

Come on me get a life!

Feeling so bloody sad

Don’t know the difference – who wants to be glad?

Life is to live and let live

My feelings – how do I get rid?

So where I sit today

I wish you were able to stay

Taking my memories of you

And say thank you – we’re through

The pain drives me insane

The pain – a brand new flame

Glowing inside of me

The flame of eternity

Boy, I wish I could rip you out of me

The same way I’m tearing the photos of thee

Wish you were able to watch

If the flames your photos catch

The photos of you -

Burnt to ashes through and through

Can you feel the pain you caused me?

Boy, wish you could see

Sometimes I hate you

You’re after all the one who makes me blue

I’m left with a scar

I don’t think I’ll be able to get far

Life is a bitch

Oh what a fucking cliché

Life can be a bastard – quite true

Loving you only made me blue

I’m finished, kaput, over the limit

You made me hate it

Life and all the rest

No more feeling like the best

You have let me down

You gave me one hell of a frown

You said: "I’ll always love you!"

You’re fucking yellow too!

So all those things that said your name

No longer will drive me insane

No longer will hurt

It now belongs to the dirt

So for now I’m busted

My inside crushed

I do believe I know it’s true

One of these days I’ll be able to get over you

Jeni Colibey

Out of the blue –

Somebody i wished for – you

You’ve captured my heart like a run – away – train

You drive me crazy and totally insane

Need to be with you that very special way

Need to handle you like clay

On this very special lovers day

Need to be with you and … not too far away….

If i could sing

to you i bring

A room full of love songs and a lot of empty space

Love to sing to you face to face

If i could paint

You’ll be able to see i’m not so saint

All the love i hold for you

The painting would be anything… but blue

If i was a milloinare

I’ll give you more than what i dare

I’ll even give the world to you

If i was free to belong to you

Now i’m just an ordinary woman

Trying to make an ordinary living

Trying to express the way i feal

Need to win this deal!!

So on this special lovers day

Not only now but each and every single day

Remember that i love only you

Say and mean you love me too…

So my dearest valentine

Read inbetween the line

Forever i will wait for you

The love i feel? Do you have a clue?

When i’ll die and go to heaven

I will wait for you on cloud seven

At the golden stairs…

Yes, valentine i’ll be there

If you’re not there by judgementday

I will know you’ve went the other way

I will drive away my fears

Dry away the tears

Follow you to no – mans – land

Be forever with you hand in hand

Valentine, this must tell you about the love you hold

And must never be sold…

Jeni colibey

Open your heart to me

Can’t you see I offer eternity?

Can’t you feel it in the air?

My love for you is everywhere!!

Just turn around once more

Please… with me you will only score

Just… open your heart to me

With or without, you will never be free

Baby I love you so

You will never know

I fear I will never be free

So boy, just open your heart to me

My love for you is so big

And this is no gig

So stop thinking you’re so very smart

And open your heart

So open your heart to me

Tell me we were meant to be

Tell me what you feel is love and it’s real

Tell me…

Jeni Colibey

I can still see you standing there

Your famous cap upon your hair

Your face a mask

Tell me is that an easy task?

If i look back upon the past

That’s a memory of you that will forever last

My life was so dull and blue

But still i’m a party animal through and through

I love my men tall, blonde and handsome

With blue eyes and lots of fun

But out of the blue

I just happen to meet you

From the moment i laid eyes on you

You’ve captured my heart through and through

You made me see

How good life can be

Can’t believe you tickled my fancy so much

Hate to admit it but, on you i had a crush

So right out of the blue

Boy, there were you!!!

Jeni colibey

The saddest news was given to me

By my baby

The one i love

Is having it rough

The one i adore

Will he be able to win this final score?

The on i need

Is having it tough indeed

How are we going to make it

In this wide open field?

No future in sight

No lights shining bright

Nowhere to run or hide

Is he ever going to be allright?

The one i want for the rest of my life

Is taking a wild dive

Deep under he goes

There where no river dare flow

But i do believe the sun will shine oneday

For him and me to play…

To then grow old together

We do belong like a bird and feather

Forever you and me

Till eternity

Believe i feel with you

And that today i’m also blue…