Note: For those who don't know..

The poems with underlined words are written as fun challenges where poets all over the world circulate one, five or even ten words in cyberspace challenging other poets to write something using these words

Published in an Anthology of Verse called "Under a quicksilver moon" in winter 2001 and added to a CD collection called the"Sound of Poetry" in 2002

Loving, caring, giving

Wonderful wife

That makes life worth living

Smiling, playing, crying

Wonderful children

Everyday a new beginning

Caring, accepting, giving

Wonderful parents

With us, from the beginning

Happiness, tenderness, togetherness

Wonderful life

Wonderful life, worth living

Positive, creative, active

Wonderful dream

Forever, we'll be living

Deon Viljoen

2000

Shall I ever,

be able to master,

the magical science,

of love

Never being afraid of losing,

or even missing…

those sensuous, nights?

The loving, the kissing

Never again having to lose face!

Having fallen from grace!

Nothing, to intrude, our life's, space…

Shall I ever,

be able to endure,

a magical future…

without you?

April 2002

Deon Viljoen

Is it fair to predict,

to assume, that our love will soar,

to new heights, that we will always be together,

with the one, we so deeply, adore?

Is it fair to predict,

to assume, you are not,

attempting to spread,

your wings, fulfilling, another's need?

Is it fair to predict,

to assume, or do you agree, that you and me…

everything we can be, is not worth leaving behind!

Or am I, just losing my mind?

April 2002

Deon Viljoen

Is it so unrealistic?

Trying to,

dissuade you,

not to break up,

this once noteworthy relationship?

Don't accept this as a last attempt,

of unworthy commentary from a lowlife,

unable to redeem himself

No matter what you decide,

there will always be one snag!

You will never be able to hide!

You will always be on my mind, forever…flying love's flag!

April 2002

Deon Viljoen

All I ever wanted was your love

Every moment, every second, with you

I cherished, a gift from above

I just couldn't imagine, life without you

Every moment, every second, with you

It was just pure, wonderful joy

I just couldn't imagine, life without you

Always smiling, like a little boy

It was just pure, wonderful joy

Natural, unspoiled laughter

Always smiling, like a little boy

Never any need for despair

Natural, unspoiled laughter

Of which, one could get too much

Never any need for despair

Always available with your loving touch

How I miss the little things

I cherished, a gift from above

How I loved it, my heart still sings

All I ever wanted was your love

May 2002

Deon Viljoen

Have you ever realised?

What in this world,

I really care about

It is not money, dress code,

Wordly things or daily bread

Definitely not, what I need!

Avoiding division

Avoiding the notion,

of even thinking, that our days,

together, are numbered!

Hoping from my heart,

that I may always be touched

deeply, like I have been,

from the start!

A love together, so keen!

So, please understand

my Love! All I will ever need,

is to be with you, holding your loving hand!

April 2002

Deon Viljoen

Distress and sorrow,

so futile…

In my own heaven, I reside,

with my one only bride

Only of relief, I now sigh

Into a wonderous future,

I fly

I'm on a seventh high

Heartache evaporates,

into the sky

In my own heaven, I reside

It can be yours too! You decide

Happiness now in my soul, reside

Smiling happy face…

Why cry?

I'm on a seventh high

Distress and sorrow,

so futile…

In my own heaven, with my bride

Can't even remember, why I cried!

Deon Viljoen

Sept 2001

A ten song title challenge :

1. Escape
2. Drowning
3. Insatiable
4. Sweet dreams
5. Hanging by the moment
6. Whole again
7. Eternity
8. Drive
9. Dazed and confused
10. With arms wide open

Escape seems impossible

Drowning, in sorrow, inevitable

An insatiable longing, for lost love

Sweet dreams of the heaven, together, we did have

Simply hanging by the moment

Shall I ever be whole again?

An eternity, without you, until the end,

will surely, drive me insane!

We were inextricably, fused

Please accept me back, with arms wide open

What happened to the love, you always, had shown?

Your love, I so desperately need

You have sown, the eternal seed

April 2002

Deon Viljoen

You are the one, the only one for me

Without you, part of this life, I don't want to be

Together, forever, just you and me

Is that the future, that you, for us, foresee?

Have you ever wondered,

what our future would have been,

if we didn't mend our relationship, once severed?

Would you still have lived, your life so keen?

How would we have endured

without each other, with the love we so nurtured?

I will forever hold you tight

Back in my life, happiness, our right

You are the one, the only one for me

You are my valentine, can you now see?

Feb 2002

Deon Viljoen

to triumphant,

zenith

A life full of fun

doomed to suffering,

even before it begun

A hope to powerful

A longing,

for you, so wonderful

It's only you that can save me

How wonderful will it not be

at the zenith, just you and me !

Jan 2002

Deon Viljoen

Sometimes I'm full of woe,

reaping everything, I used to sow

Sometimes I lust for life,

needing nothing to survive

Sometimes I forget, that I have you by my side,

with whom, from life, I don't need to hide

Sometimes I fail to realize

Fail to see, the love in your eyes

Sometimes I fail to understand,

that all I need to rid my life of sorrow…

is to take and hold,

your ever present, loving hand!

Oct2001

Deon Viljoen

If I could,

I surely would,

give you all the love,

in the world.

If only…

I could.

Do you really want it ?

Do you really need it ?

Our love,

The eternal flame,

burning..

Everyday the same ?

Remember,

It is not over,

'till it's over !

I want to be with you

always..

Forever and ever.

Never, believe in never.

We have so much to gain.

The storm,

together with all the pain,

will pass,

and the sun will shine again.

The will shine for us,

brilliant..

Let us forget our differences,

so insignificant.

All we need is determination,

to avoid eternal, damnation.

Persevering, a necessity,

to be together, just you and me.

Deserving,

achieving success.

Ridding ourselves,

of this mess.

A breakthrough,

for me and you.

Choking back the tears.

Looking forward to those twilight years.

Without an ounce of doubt.

Is that not what, life is all about ?

The life we for ourselves,

envisioned.

A relationship, that never ended.

In love embraced…

Our ugly past,

erased.

Deon Viljoen

Sept 2001

There's a thin line
Between love and hate
It's solely up to you,
the life you,
for yourself create

There's a small space,
between passion and depression
It's up to you,
What life, you,
tommorrow, will have to face

There's very little difference,
between tears of joy and tears of pain
Does your life make sense?
It's all up to you...
There's so much to gain!

Feb 2002
Deon Viljoen

Sometimes it's just, a question of lust,

another black celebration, leaving everyone in disgust

Here in a house, a world full of nothing

Stripped of everything, even my spouse

A life, once so lively and bright,

but not tonight, …what a terrible sight

Missing her, in her new dress

My life in a terrible mess!

Mourning, dressed in black,

It's just a question of time, …she won't be back!

How can you say it doesn't matter ?

Living or dying? I choose the latter!

Unable to endure, …just can't take it anymore!

Like a fly on a windscreen, I rid myself, of this life, so mean!

Feb 2002

Deon Viljoen

Following Beelzebub…

Is like a genie's lamp,

you rub

You could hold a candle,

instead of,

the knife's handle

Against the darkness

He will lead the revolt

Your soul, He will caress

So easy to put your life,

back on track

Choose the Light, conquer the black

Feb 2002

Deon Viljoen

Every time I see you,

looking like that

I remember the good old days…

when you were mine, and that was that!

Nowadays, it seems,

that you are moving away

Moving ever so farther away…

Everyday

What happened to the good old days?

Just you and me,

with candlelight and red wine

Our love for each other, we would never, decline

How often doesn't it now seem, that …

we're living each day, without love?

To me it seems to be, every time I see you,

Looking like that!

Oct2001

Deon Viljoen

Heart turned to stone

Alone

Without you,

the only one

Gone

A life filled with heartache,

has now begun

without you,

the only one

Dead

You were all I ever needed

I'd rather be dead

Without you

The end

Oct 2001

Deon Viljoen

Comradely trust and feeling

Accepting the individual responsibility

No more impulsive, criticizing

Strengthening our loving, unity

Another separation'll cause

almost certain damnation

never, ever wondering about the cause

never having to express, that terrible emotion

Firm ground established

Love always, without exception

Always feeling loved, admired

Surpassing each and every, expectation

Deon Viljoen

2000

A hero, everyone would like to be

But, just like Superman…

It's not easy and will never be

Instead, I'm just the opposite!

I'm a slave

How you remind me, everytime I misbehave

Into sadness' depths, I will so often be falling

My sacrifice, Oh so often, doesn't suffice

Is family affairs, really my calling?

Sometimes I feel, the need to,

To turn off the light, life's light

Even the biggest hero, failed hopelessly too!

How I paid my dues!

Only time, will ever tell whether,

I'll ever fill your hero's, shoes

Jan2002

Deon Viljoen

freed of pain,

that almost,

drove me insane

Overwhelmed

So much to gain

More than just a host

I'm not, inhumane

Expected the worst

So degraded, my name

Previously cursed,

but, still the same

Feb 2002

Deon Viljoen

How you lived,

screamed,

squirmed…

Can't stop

The race is on

With death, you'll be one

The end is near

Only what you want to hear

Nothing to fear!

Nov2001

Deon Viljoen

Love you had,

you can reproduce

Life so sad…

The spirit, you can re-introduce

You own your own worth

Just believe in the Truth

Depression turned you into a puppet, Why?

You thought, a future, was nigh!

Rejoice!

He gave you the choice!

Feb 2002

Deon Viljoen

Where there is no hope,

in your future,

there is no way,

you will cope

For your relationship, to endure

Where there is no hope,

in oneself

There is no way,

you will cope

No one can do it on your behalf

Anyone, even you, can cope,

If you just, believe,

in yourself, even if difficult, to perceive

Your relationship, will automatically endure

Only you, own the cure!

Feb 2002

Deon Viljoen

Love lost?

You can handle it,

better than most

Heart about to burst?

It is easy, to avoid,

the worst

You are your own best asset

You are in charge,

of your life

your emotions

your whole…

Every facet!

You can

survive it

overcome it

change it

A life so unkind

The solution is in your mind

Do not be, so blind!

Feb 2002

Deon Viljoen

A life without the agony

Certainly agreeable

Celebrating each anniversary

For each other, always, available

Giving more than the average

No more unnecessary arguments, so awkward

A stronger bond, giving you the advantage

Never looking back, only forward

Getting rid of all the bitterness

Never being blameworthy

Enjoying only the blessedness

Giving everything, completely

Deon Viljoen

2000

it's so difficult to comply?

The love for each other, we deny

Tell me how

the life we used to know

must just be forgotten, now?

Please make it clear

The love we had so dear,

Can now disappear, without a tear?

Can we really say that we're

in each and every way, sincere?

Do we then have nothing, to fear?

Are we sure?

That we'll so easily endure,

without the need for a cure?

Will we ever ask whether,

we shouldn't have stayed together,

living as we never had, without each other?

Tell me how,

we will ever really know

what we're doing, will not create, eternal sorrow?

Can we really read each other's mind?

We're we really towards each other, so unkind?

Isn't each other's faults, we're staring against, so blind?

Will our future not be filled with regret?

Will it then be so easy to forget,

the reasons we, initially, wed?

As one can clearly see, the questions will never end

Even though we might end up, somewhat bent

We must remember, we're Heaven sent

Deon Viljoen

2000

Every time you go away

you leave my life

in complete disarray

Every time you go away

I miss you with all my heart

Always wishing that you'd rather stay

Unfortunately, this happens oh so often

Bringing tears, heartache and pain, which

hardened my heart, one should think it would soften?

Should we make this time the last time?

Or shouldn't losing everything we had,

The love, the laughter, the joy, be a crime?

Deon Viljoen

2000

If you have no love

for me I'll say good-bye

We don't need the mental

push and shove

If you now need

some other form of love

just tell me to take heed

and find another person to love

If that is really what you, want

I'll honor and thank you

A fake relationship is not what

either of us wants

I'll thank you for what we had

Sometimes love in abundance

Sometimes we made each other mad

I still believe we stand a chance

Through all the bad times

The endless fighting and terror

We still had underlying love, sometimes

Life without you still sounds like horror

Deon Viljoen

2000

Our lives so full of strain

Sometimes feeling we have nothing

From all of this suffering to gain

Why all the unnecessary pain

When all we need, is love

To lift us up again

Why is it so difficult to maintain?

With love available so freely

We have so much to gain

Let us lift each other up again

Smiles, happiness and forever

A life, without pain, once again

Deon Viljoen

2000

Appalling hatred,

now gone.

Agony,

on each other,

imposed,

now one.

Ugly suspicion,

now gone.

No more imprudent remarks,

conciliation.

A new life,

has begun.

Lies, sadness,

depression, solicitation

be gone!

Unwavering unity,

established.

Now one!

Deon Viljoen

2000

God, take my hand

I'm just a part of Your creation

Please make me understand

Our life, written in sand

needs just one wave to disappear

Surely, You can give us a hand.

One day we have love

so dear, and even sensuous

The next day gone, like a startled dove

Our life just an illusion

Forgetting the security we have, seems as if

we're each on our own mission

God take my hand, help me believe

that we can survive this future

so uncertain, difficult to perceive

Are we destined to be together?

Surely, You can make us understand

What our life will be, now and forever

Deon Viljoen

2000

You're so beautiful

Always wonderful

Giving love, so stable

Always available

A marriage

Sometimes filled with rage

Will it feel, always like a cage

While we, so rapidly, age

You're so beautiful

Why do I have to be so careful

To say something, perceived as hateful

If you're so beautiful

Why can't it be

As always, between you and me

For the whole world to see

How beautiful, you can be

Not so hateful

Rather grateful

Wonderful

Always beautiful

Deon Viljoen

2000

Someday

Someday, I will not care what people say

Someday, I might even be able to say nay

Someday, I will be able to keep my troubles at bay

Someday, I will be able to keep my bad emotions out of the way

It has only to do with time

Just like just silly rhyme

Isn't the choice really mine

Whether I enjoy beer or wine

Alternatively, for that matter, everything I find divine

All just a desperate need

Is this really what I need

To be always desperate and in need

Should I care that people know my need?

Aren't I the only one that knows my need?

Someday, I will know, if I must keep this stance

Alternatively, should I strive rather to live in France?

Moreover, forget about all the things that I need to enhance

On the other hand, must I forever, remain in this trance?

When life is filled with so many things in abundance

Surely, it can't be so difficult for me

For my silly, but, inquisitive mind to see

What I need to do, or, should I say, we

Should I accept and always agree

That I don't know what my life should be

Will it ever go away?

This life of disarray

Instead of bright, shiny light, away the gray

Forever, and ever the troubles and emotions at bay

Someday, they will go away

Someday, these things will go away

Someday, I will want to stay

Someday, my life will have no decay

Someday, I will just want to pray

Someday

Deon Viljoen

2000

Sweet dreams

Sometimes turns into

Heartbreaking screams

Sweet dreams

Relationships so difficult to maintain

Lasting love, so difficult to sustain

Sometimes it seems

Life's a nightmare

For each other, so easy to scare

Saying things

We don't always mean

Acting, being, forever so mean

Sometimes

Everything falling apart at the seams

Irreparable, so often, it seems

Even though, it's so easy to understand

We so often, still need a hand

To have sweet dreams, hold each other's hand

No more falling apart at the seams

Understanding what it means

To have, nothing, but sweet dreams

2000

Thank you

For making me think

Put my thoughts to ink

Not to disappear in a blink

Thank you

For knowing

The loving, caring, sharing

Is all part of our being?

Thank you

For understanding

That I'm just a human being

Just trying to make a living

Thank you

Accepting that it's not the norm

I believe in, rejecting the form

Accepting the consciousness

Thank you

Knowing that the consciousness

Is the way to happiness?

The way to rid ourselves, of the ugliness

Thank you

Without the ugliness

Only consciousness

Love, acceptance and happiness

Thank you

Living forever

Never saying never

Together, always, forever

Thank you

Deon Viljoen

2000

In a split second, it changes, the air

Both confined, in a cold stare

What was love, beware

All of a sudden, no longer there

Everything, we had, a moment ago

Somehow, now it doesn't show

Where did it now go?

Maybe, I'm just thinking too slow

We we're just talking about dreams

Now all gone, so it seems

Not shining, as two radiating beams

Yet again, we're falling apart at the seams

All about a simple game

Not remembering each other's name

Which was, forever so lame

What do we need, everything, to be the same

After all, what's our aim?

Everything as it was, the same

No more, no more shame

Is it the game, or am I to blame

Deon Viljoen

2000

Will the sun still be shining

in the future, we have, after moving

through the barricade?

Shall we still be smiling,

without each other, after moving,

through the barricade?

Will our hearts, still be aching,

now divorced, and living

on the other side of the barricade?

Shall we be able, to carry on living,

just because we couldn't survive, by just, giving

now without love, through the barricade?

Deon Viljoen

2000

Our night,

at the Emperor Hotel was, planned,

to be a starter, to a wonderful, romantic, evening,

a glorious night! A new beginning..

Relentless, losing at the casino, though…,

changed the whole sequence of events!

A loving, almost lustful plan…

A mood, modified by instant depression,

Oh! The losing in succession!

'twas actioned by, the unthinkable!

We rejected each other!

Why, did I even bother?

April 2002

Deon Viljoen

Cranky, cranky as one can be

Gone, gone forever,

the spice, the very fiber,

of a relationship, personalised, -

for you and me

Cranky, cranky as one can be

Gone, gone forever -

Drawn into the terrible vortex,

of loneliness. Anti-climax!

How can this be?

Cranky, cranky as one can be

Gone, gone forever,

How I miss the times we had together!

The relationship, personalised, -

for you and me

April 2002

Deon Viljoen

Only time will tell whether,

I will survive this docile existence, alone

I wager my future on this evil craft

Trying to avoid, a life apart

My life, my being, my future…

In the hands of a voodoo priest

Absolute desperation, trying to fool depression,

an overpowering beast

If only I could be sure

Fighting against this docile existence, alone

Relying on black magic, evil cure

to make us one

April 2002

Deon Viljoen

Do you call this justice?

The scoreboard shows,

Depression - one,

Love - nil!

Don't I have any say?

The summons shows, you don't want to stay!

Grieving, shotgun in my hand…

I love you still!

My whole being, the center of my life,

suddenly, taken away! Shall I survive?

Don't you understand…

I love you still!

April 2002

Deon Viljoen

1. Radically
2. Visions
3. Bores
4. Monster
5. Enemy

Oh, how I need to radically,

find a cure against this,

numbing enemy

Visions of blood and pain,

as this monster bores,

into my soul again

Oh, how easily,

can this pain be overcomed

Help is there, freely!

Available, your's for the taking

Help lies with your Heavenly Father!

All one needs is, a little believing!

April 2002

Deon Viljoen

basic essence stained…

I gasp, my first love now lost!

my last hope, dream, gone!

ultimate will for living,

survival, finally fades…

May 2002

Deon Viljoen