Ann Dawson

Ann Dawson

Occupation : Housewife
Date of birth : 15.12.1951

Marital status : Divorced
Education : Left Secondary school at 17 years old. in 1969.
Interests : Computers and software: Writing poetry: and Sugarcraft.(SpecialisedCake Decorating)

Publish writing :

I have had two poems opublished in the UK only in seperate books...about three years ago.

Personal statement : I was born in Sussex, on the south coast of England in 1951.and have more or less lived here ever since. I spent a couple of years in Scotland, but returned to the south coast of the UK in 1976. I am the mother of three children, and am divorced, and have been on my own for 10 years now. From the age of 18 utill only 3 months agoI had only ever written 12 poems. In the past three months I have increased my writings to almost 100. I have also teamed up with two others and we write Short Stories, in poem form. and are hoping to get some of our work published too. I have only just this month found that I am suffering from Breast Cancer..... and am to undergo surgery within the next week. Just one further battle in life.

20 Years Ago

Some 20 years ago my Dear

When we were both still young,

We lived our lives as we thought best,

Dreaming dreams as yet unsung.

Young loves we had, we both agree,

That did not turn out right,

The tears that fell, the heartaches too.

The sadness of life's own plight.

So much we have suffered along the way,

Treading life's path with care,

Wishing and praying that time would mend

Loves twisted course repair.

We each have had our sorrows

Our heartaches and our pain,

The loves we've had through teenage years

That drove us both insane,

The paths we've trod and things we've done,

Some not with out regret,

Wasting many years on mistaken dreams

Our futures seemed quite set,

Each corner turned we would face

New challenges to our heart,

To tug upon the strings so fine

Our submission to impart.

We gave our all, and we fought on,

And to our vows stayed true,

But times do change, and new light brought

The signs of life anew.

I've known you just a short time now,

But so clearly it does show

an appeasing life we would have known

Had we met.........20 years ago.

Aint meant to be this way

Oh No! He's coming home now,

What is there left undone?

I daren't leave the kids toys

Lying out there in the sun.

He'll just go mad at me again,

I know he'll have his say,

There is never any pleasing him,

It goes on day by day.

His dinner's on the table,

His paper's folded neat,

Oh God, is that a cat's hair

I can see upon his seat.

My life just isn't worth living,

He gives me such a fright.

Everything I do, to him,

Will never turn out right.

Am I really that bad at things?

Does this house look such a mess

As he tells me that is does,

I can't tell, I must confess.

He's shouting at me now,

He says his dinner's cold,

But it's steaming, I can see it,

The plate I can barely hold.

I clean the mess from the floor

And as he storms out the house,

He screams that I have missed a bit,

And that I'm a useless spouse.

Oh God, don't let him back here,

I can hardly stand no more,

I don't know what he wants from me,

Am I his wife or just his whore?

I can't bear for him to touch me,

As he pleasures himself this way,

My head is screaming 'let me be',

I can't stand another day.

Let me sleep and never wake,

This life I cannot stand,

When I made my vows, this ain't the way

My future I had planned.

27.05.01

Alone

As I sit alone, I hear the cry

Of a far off sea bird, way up high.

The sky is blue, the day is clear.

No one comes around, no one comes near.

Alone I stand, I walk the beach,

I try to find something out of reach,

The burden I carry, I carry alone,

Pick and fondle a small round stone.

A stone is lucky it feels no pain,

It just is worn by wind and rain.

The birds are free and are so shy,

I just sit alone and cry.

No where to hide, no where to run

My load is heavy, I see no sun

No one to love, I see no hope,

Through the years of life, I beg and grope.

Maybe one day, I hope to see

That life will turn out good for me.

For this I will always hope and pray,

That I may see the sun one day.

To me, love will come, one day, it should

and see this loneliness gone, for good.

But until to me, that day is shown,

I'll sit and walk and cry, alone.

Breaking Free

A new day has dawned upon my life, from here I start again,

My future is in my own hands, new heights i will attain.

This world has opened up to me, e'er more than I was allowed.

For the 18 years that I was held, beneath a blackened cloud.

No more to be deprived of friends, No more to be abused,

No more shall I be walked upon, No more will I be used.

For I have broken free from him, from the man I thought I loved,

I hadn't realized till just now, how I'd been pushed and shoved.

My former life was torture, to body, to soul and mind,

But now I know for many years, that I had been so blind.

Believing the life that I did bear, was nothing but the norm.

So now to recompense that state, my life I will transform.

Life will be hard, there's no easy way to turn off from that road

I know for sure that escape I must, from that medieval mode,

I've found a person within me, one whom had long been lost.

Cowering as a frightened rat, to whom the scraps were tossed.

It can be done, for I have proved, to myself and everyone,

That escaping from a life of pain, it surely can be done.

So now I walk, with head held high, for all the world to see,

And now I know, within my heart, that I have broken free.

Depression

I am sinking down to the depths below

The reality o' the world I used to know,

It's torment in here, my mind screams out,

I have to escape, of that there's no doubt.

I retreat to my haven, my own little world,

Away from the anguished life I was hurled.

Twirling and swirling in this oasis of pain,

To stay where I was, I had nothing to gain.

My head feels like bursting, my voice shouts aloud,

But pure silence covers my life as a shroud.

I feel like I'm dying, my senses go dull,

My mind claws away inside of my skull.

Rocking and swaying, my heart barely beats,

I hide from my fears underneath my own sheets.

Don't talk to me, leave me, can't you see I'm not here,

Your presence so close to me fills me with fear.

I'm screaming, I'm shouting, my life can't contain

The pressures of existing, they drive me insane.

Release me, oh help me, oh banish this pure

Torment I suffer, in this world so obscure.

My life is in shatters; I can see there's no cure

For this torturous world and its corruptions impure.

My tormented being cries out, help me please,

Away from this anguish and dreadful unease.

I crave peace of mind, put my awareness to rest

Away from this uneasy life I detest.

Engulf me, oh darkness, and blanket my pain,

Release me from suffering, and from torment abstain.

Goodbye

My Dears, I want let you know,

Just how much you mean to me,

You have filled my life with love and joy,

But I know I'll soon be free.

My children, you have cared for me,

Throughout these times of pain,

My time is coming to an end,

On you all, it has been a strain.

And you my dearest son,

You have given all your worth,

To help my last few months of life

To be peaceful, on this earth.

My Daughter, I know, without your love,

Your tenderness and care,

This torture eating within me,

Would be more than I could bear.

My grandchildren too, they are wonders,

Of how courage should be shown,

I could not be more proud of them,

Than as if they were my own.

The time has come for me to go,

To leave this mortal plane,

My breath becomes so heavy,

My strength begins to wane.

It is not for me, I make this wish,

That I should now depart,

'Tis you who all have suffered most,

I know it in my heart.

Now the hour has come my dears,

For me to make my peace

With all of you and with my God

And let the suffering cease.

I will lay and close my eyes,

My leaving, I no longer defy,

My dears, don't weep or feel so sad

As I depart this life.................

......Good-bye.

Hope You're Happy Now.

No longer can I hold you, I no longer you find there,

No longer do you love me, having happiness to share.

She's the one who has you now, to hold your hand so sweet,

She's the one who tends your heart and makes your life complete.

No more will i see your happy face, looking into mine,

No kindly words will pass your lips our kisses then combine.

She's the one who brings you joy, whose passion you arouse,

She's the one and only, where you make your lovers vows.

No more will I see that sparkle that shines within your eyes

No more will you come home to me, my life i now despise.

It is you who walked out on me, never to return,

Saying, wherever you were going was none of my concern.

It is you who broke my heart in two, and you who ran away,

It's you who were unfaithful and hid it day by day.

You're the one, who packed your bags and ran off in a blur,

Telling me that your life would be much happier with her.

You said you never loved me, not even from the start,

You said you've found your true love and have given her your heart.

You said such horrid words to me; you said it was a sham,

You've hurt me oh so badly, and you didn't give a damn.

Well.....

She's welcome to your smelly socks,

She's welcome to your lies,

She's welcome to hold your roving heart

Let's see how hard she tries.

She can have your messy shoes

To clutter up her floor,

She can wash your dirty clothes,

When you go out the door,

She can cook your dinners,

And see them just go cold,

Just the way that I did,

For so many years of old.

For I am taking stock of this broken heart of mine,

And I will make a new life and desert this awful shrine.

A new world has awoken and opened up my eyes,

And you and her can stay there, in this old world I despise.

'If Only'

How can two words cause such anguish,

such longing and such pain?

I didn't realise the power they had

To make emotions feel such strain.

'If Only'....are those words I mean,

They keep running through my mind,

Two little words so small and pure,

Simple words, yet so unkind.

'If Only' we lived much closer,

how different things would be.

'If Only' I'd met you long ago,

would you now be with me?

'If Only' we could talk like this

to each other, face to face,

'If Only' I could stretch out my arms,

to hold you in embrace.

'If Only' I could take away your hurt,

the pain I know you feel,

'If Only' I owned a magic wand,

to make your wishes real.

'If Only' I could make things better,

to the lives we both have had.

'If Only' you knew how being apart,

can make me feel so sad.

'If Only' you knew how I love you,

As I think of you each day.

'If Only' together we could be as one,

in every single way.

'If only' there weren't so many miles

Between, keeping us apart.

'If Only' you knew the longing for you,

I have deep within my heart.

'If Only' you knew these feelings,

that are running through my mind,

Our lives would be so much happier,

'If Only' life would be so kind.

If Only..........

I Know

Did you think I wouldn't notice

the lipstick on your shirt?

Did her perfume spill upon the floor

where you thought it wouldn't hurt?

Her present to you of that watch

did you think I wouldn't see?

Did you really think you could pass it off

as the one that came from me?

Did you think that all those late hours

that you came home at night

That I would fall for all your lies

did you really think I might.

The tickets in your pockets

for the concerts and hotel

Was I really supposed not to notice

how our bank balance fell?

That earring on the carpet floor

We know it wasn't mine,

The soft kid glove lay in the car,

With stitching, oh so fine.

So many things and tell tale signs

how careless can you be,

To just pretend I imagine things

Or think that I don't see.

Are you really just that thoughtless?

Or don't you care at all

You never used to be like that with me

as far as i recall.

What has happened to you?

Do you just not love me now?

Do I no longer excite you

Does it matter anyhow?

When you come home tonight,

there will not be a sound,

The house will be so empty,

Because I wont be around.

Jealousy

I could not bear to watch them as hand in had they walked,

Loving smiles exchanged, as they passed a glance or talked.

His arm around her shoulder slid, the way he used to do to me,

Twisting fingers through her hair, then letting strands fall free.

She walked down the aisle today, there, to join him, at his side,

In a dress so white and pure, she wore, to be his bride.

To see them both, it broke my heart, t'was more than I could bear,

I wished he could see the love I had within my heart, to share.

For we had been so happy, until she arrived that day,

And so for her, he gave me up and sent me on my way.

He said he'd never loved me. He said we're at an end,

He said he had been waiting for his soul mate and best friend.

How could he be so blinded? How could he just not see?

The best friend that he ever had is now filled with jealousy.

She has taken him away from me, the best thing in my life,

Stole him, caught him, tricked him, just to become his wife.

I know she doesn't love him, her vows are proved untrue,

For I have seen her out at night along with someone new.

She's fooled him now, but not for long, then his heart will break,

But I'll be free and waiting, my love here for him to take.

Let Me Be Yours

Let me be your wings, if you wish to fly,

I will pick you up and carry you far across the sky.

Let me be your cosy bed so you can rest your sleepy head.

I'll protect you through the night, if you promise to hold me tight.

Let me be yours....

Let me be the coat you wear, with arms wrapped around you tight,

To keep you safe and warm and snug, when you walk home at night.

Let me be your glowing fire, to melt away the winter's cold.

Let me be your calendar with dates that never get old.

Let me be yours....

Let me be your streetlamp, to brighten up your way,

Let me be the sun that shines, to wake you up each day.

Let me be your summer breeze, and blow away your fears,

Let me be your handkerchief so I can wipe away your tears.

Let me be yours....

Let me be your umbrella, so I can shield you from life's rain,

Let me be your razor as I stroke your cheeks again.

Let me be your harbour to protect you from life's storm,

Let me be your heart's desire with a love to keep you warm.

Let me be yours....

Lonely Exit

She lay there as peaceful as any babe,

So quiet and yet so still.

Her tormented mind no more giving pain,

Her body's own life blood did spill.

She could not take the hurt no more,

Her heart screamed out a plea,

Her voice cried on throughout the night

But now she is gone, and free.

Free of the pain and anguish,

Free of the torment of life,

Free of the poisons injected,

Free of everyday strife.

Her world had crumbled around her,

With no one to help her through,

Her loneliness shrouded her will to live,

She was gone before anyone knew.

So now in peace and cold she lay,

Never more to feel the sun,

Sounds of spring ne'er to touch her ears,

Her life on earth is done.

Lonely Night

Another evening has passed on by,

Long hours I've sat alone,

Sleep wont come, though my body tired

Mind into turmoil thrown.

What life do I have here by myself?

Now that you are gone,

I'm as lonely as can be, you know,

In this cold and loveless zone.

The clock strikes one, there on the shelf,

Sleep still avoids my soul,

The long night hours just tick on by,

My thoughts beyond control.

Where in life have I gone so wrong?

That leaves me sat this way,

Left alone, you gone from my side,

To face another day.

Two in the morning, so dark outside,

But less light in my being,

Trying to remember better times we've had,

Only darkness, I am seeing.

It's nearly three, and down my face,

Hot tears course their path,

This sadness so deep inside of me,

Succumbing to life's wrath.

Four goes past, slowly five draws near,

Night creeps along so slow.

I cannot escape from this life of mine,

There's nowhere else to go.

For you my love, are no longer here,

To share this life of mine,

Oh, why is it that you were taken,

So young, and in your prime.

On the mantelpiece, the clock strikes six,

Our children soon will rise,

Another day for them, soon to start,

A day I will despise.

Today's the day I will say farewell,

I'll lay you down to sleep,

Place your casket in cold damp ground,

Only memories left to keep.

My Broken Heart

Such turmoil, have I never known, until that phone call came,

To love a man I just can't have, my heart is wracked with pain.

I love him, oh how I love him, I've never felt this way before,

Until the day that we met and he knocked on my heart's door.

But, I have no right to love him; to his wife I'm doing wrong,

His children still need their Dad, to their lives he does belong.

Such happiness and love we had is now taken from my care,

All that's left is a broken heart, smashed beyond repair.

I want to scream, I want to shout, Please don't let me go,

But he belongs to another, It has to be this way, I know.

I know I'll always want him, my love for him, I can't deny,

Should I fight to keep him? Or should I say goodbye?

My heart says 'keep on fighting'; my head says 'leave alone'

I know that if I do fight on, I'll still end up all alone.

It will cause hurt to his children, their father then to lose.

So however much I love him, I will not make him choose.

So I will not fight, but I will not run away from this pain inside,

I will stand back and wait to see if true love shall be his guide.

I'll be here if he wants me, if fate, his love, for me, send.

He holds my heart within his hands; I'll be waiting till the end.

My Pain of Love

Rivers of tears are flowing,

Eyes burning within my head,

My ears still hear so clearly,

Those simple words he said.

We cannot be together,

We cannot be as one,

He cannot leave the life he has,

Not now, for anyone.

I know that he really loves me,

As I love him in return,

But together we can never be,

Our love he has to spurn.

Pain is stabbing through my chest,

I cannot sleep at night,

This dreadful hurt I feel inside,

My broken heart can't fight.

But how can you fight a pain so deep,

It hurts with every breath,

I love a man that I can't have,

And shall do till my death.

One Day at a Time

I have to take control again of this wretched life of mine,

This sickness, here inside of me, made alcohol my shrine.

One day at a time, is what it takes, to free me of this fiend

And take me away from my life, that's now so demeaned.

A greater power, is out there, to take heed of my plea,

And I offer myself unto His care, help return my sanity.

Searching deep within myself, my souls inventory to find,

To fearlessly admit my faults, their morals to remind.

But one day at a time is what I'll take, to slowly tread that path

Onward to the next great step, to avert this alcoholic wrath.

I admit to myself and all around, confess where I've gone wrong

These faults that lie within me, no more do they belong.

So, one day at a time, as I trudge along that rocky road,

I do my best to stay in line with this, my new found code.

In time I will be ready to humbly ask and pray,

My shortcomings and my failures, ask Him to take away.

Through addiction to this evil, to many I have caused pain,

And to them all shall make amend, and vow ne'er to do again.

But just one day at a time, I know, is all that I can bear,

To make this day free from drink, I'll try, to myself I swear.

I'll keep on trying, oh so hard, and admit when I go wrong,

From keeping to this narrow path, that will last my whole life long.

I will pray for guidance from Him, and for His strength to carry on,

To help me just one day at a time, from dawn until its gone.

So as I travel along this road, my eyes open wider as i go,

To others I'll pass this message, and to them I will show.

How we all can help each other on that long and uphill climb,

And taking life all so gently, taking, just one day at a time.

Persecuted

Why do they hate me so? What is it that I've done?

Why do they see me differently? They all do it, one by one.

I am just a normal person and no different from all the rest,

I have two eyes, a head, a heart, but, with darker skin, been blessed.

So for that one small difference, they, my life and sanity provoke,

To degrade the person that I am, with every word that's spoke.

The hurtful names they call me, paint daubed upon my wall,

Bricks smashed against my windows, upon my door, words scrawled.

No harm have I ever done them, no hurtful words have passed my lips,

So why do they treat me so badly, and tear my life to strips.

You can see it in their eyes; you can hear their words of hate,

Just because my skin's not white, my whole life they do berate.

Why can't they see beyond the skin? to the person here inside,

I am no different from the rest, let conscience be their guide.

For I am just a being, No better but no worse,

All for this darker skin of mine, with which I have been cursed.

Screen Love

He loves me, and I know it, I have just found out

My heart, it feels so certain, there is no single doubt.

How strange it is to realize as never in life before,

Have I ever felt this certainty knock on my hearts door.

It's something deep inside that I didn't know was there,

But tonight it really hit me, with no room left to spare.

For many years of life it seems had passed along my way,

Many scars of hurtful times had left their marks to stay.

But to know he truly loves me has really touched my soul,

A fire glows deep within my heart, his love, a burning coal.

He wipes the blackboard of my past, and upon it writes his love,

So clean and true his words to me, as rain from clouds above.

His devotion to me shines out strong, in every single way,

It is there and growing stronger as we meet up each day.

But many miles between us make our union but a dream,

For now we just content ourselves with words upon our screen.

Sorry I Hurt You

I know that I have hurt you,

A way I've never done before.

I know that I was wrong,

The night I walked off out the door.

I know you can't forgive me,

Deceiving you that way.

I know you'll never trust me,

Our love I did betray.

I didn't want to hurt you,

Or shatter all our plans

All because I found myself in

The arms of another man.

It surely was so wrong of me,

For me to go astray,

I know I can't persuade you,

Here with me, to stay.

It seems to me my life with you

Surely now is cursed.

I know it wouldn't have happened

Had YOU not done it first.

The Day You Died

Each day I come to visit, as you lay so peaceful there,

Knowing that your soul's at rest, with freedom from all care.

Makes no sense in this world, for its here you should have stayed.

That car headed straight for you, did it have to end this way?

This senseless slaughter of you, this destroyer of your life,

You left, two weeks, before the day that I would be your wife.

But now you're taken from me, they've put you in your grave,

How is it that your precious life, they could not help to save.

My dress hangs in the wardrobe, for the day we should have wed,

My heart filling with regret, as approaching that day, I dread.

For we will not stand side by side, exchanging vows of love,

Instead you'll be looking down from heavenly skies above.

My love will always be true to you, from this day till my end,

Until that time, here by your grave, my whole life I will spend.

But on that day, I'll make my vows, sat here bye your side,

Knowing that forever more, I'll curse the day you died.

The Legacy

As I sit to watch you sleeping, your small and helpless form,

So dependent on the care I give, to keep you snug and warm.

My mind is in such turmoil; I don't know which way to turn,

I want to hate you, give you away, and to my sanity return.

I look at you and see, the man who tore at my life's heart,

Walking home alone that night, his cravings onto me, impart.

It was many months before I knew, that you were on your way,

A greater torture in my mind began that very day.

But you are here, and he is gone, leaving me this legacy,

a newborn life within my hands and my life in misery.

It is so hard not to hate you, but you I cannot blame,

For the torture that I suffered, by his hand, within his game.

It's not your fault, your creation; his guilt you cannot bear,

So I will tend you as best I can and keep you in my care.

For as you grow, then I will teach the error of his ways,

You shall grow to greater things out from this nightmare.

The Letter

It lay quite still upon the mat; it fluttered through the door,

Not wanting yet to touch it, as it lay there on the floor.

I knew the words it contained, words so clear and plain,

Telling me my broken heart would still be full of pain.

Pain that I don't want to face, I fear what lay ahead,

Frightened just of touching it, I would open it with dread.

We had argued, just last night, I gave you back your ring,

You told me the affair was over, it had only been a fling.

How could you do it to me, and break my heart this way,

You begged me to forgive you, no longer you would stray.

How can I believe it won't recur, How can I trust you now,

Not to break my heart a second time, this I can't allow.

For I know that you still want her, and I am second best,

No, I will not take you back, to again my heart molest.

My life will take a back seat, and to you I'll not pretend

To forgive the hurt you caused, and allow my heart to mend,

Till We Meet Again

The day that I first met you,

There was something in your eyes

Which held my full attention,

As if I had won first prize.

I didn't know quite what it was,

That made my heart just melt,

But a pounding started in my chest,

And the strangest things I felt.

My insides turned to jelly,

My head began to whirl,

Butterflies tickled my tummy,

And my toes began to curl.

Your voice was smooth as silk,

Your hair shone in the sun,

Your eyes sparkled like a diamond

When the polishing was done.

You slipped your arms around my waist,

You whispered in my ear,

Those words will never leave me,

I still hear them loud and clear.

You spoke of how you loved me,

You spoke such words of charm,

I knew that being close to you

Would never do me harm.

But that was many years ago,

How long I can't recall

Many hurdles we have seen go by,

Now seem so very small.

I stand here now and watch you lay

So cold and yet so still,

Remembering all the things we did,

Our dreams, we did fulfill.

Our life together was so good,

And now you have to go,

You have meant so much more to me

Than you will ever know.

I didn't have the chance last night

To say goodbye to you,

You slipped away so quietly,

You were gone before I knew.

But one day soon my darling man,

We once again shall meet,

And I shall lay right by your side,

Flowers blooming at our feet.

But until that day when I can join

You lying there in peace,

The love we had shall still live on,

For that will never cease.

Time and Distance

This warm and lovely feeling,

So deep inside me grows

With every time I talk to you,

My spirit simply glows.

The gentle tone of your voice,

Your accent soft and calm,

I long to be there by your side,

To languish in your arms.

Every time, your voice I hear,

I mellow to the sound

Feeling ever closer

Then my heart begins to pound.

What is this powerful spell that you,

Cast upon my soul,

It would seem my total life

Is under your control.

I willingly surrender

To this felicitatious dream

And hope reality, slender,

Will enter to this scheme,

But time and distance 'tween us,

This union won't allow

One day, my dear, we shall meet

To you I make this vow.

Succumbing to your tender charms,

Praying no more to part,

I shall offer you my open arms

So you receive my heart.

Tormented mind

Help me,

Who am I

I need to find out

I don't know any more

Someone please hear me shout

For so many years

I've been hid away

From life and myself

From the light of day.

Where am I

Who sees me?

What am I doing here?

I just don't know

I feel only fear

I can't understand

What life is about?

Who dealt me this hand?

Help me to get out.

Am I awake?

Am I here?

Am I really alive?

Some one teach me

How to survive

This hell that I'm in

What is it for

Please tell me

I beg you,

You I implore.

Where do I go?

Who can I see?

Is there anyone out there?

To listen to me

Do I live?

Do I die?

I hear the words say

'We're coming to get you'

Day after day

Save me

Don't torment me

Leave me in peace

From those screeching voices

I need a release

I'm trapped

I am held

I have to let go

Of this agony here

In my mind that does grow

I'm searching

I'm hunting

Release from this blight

I pray to the lord

Let me die tonight

Worn Out Love

How can I ever tell you that my love for you has gone?

I no longer feel that warmth inside. My heart, it has withdrawn.

It started, oh, so long ago, I really don't know how,

We started then to drift apart we hadn't realised till now.

The little things you used to do, at first, which made me smile,

Now annoy me oh so much, to my nerves becomes a trial.

We no longer share the same things, and each other's company,

To stay here so close to you is as hard as it could be.

I do not want to be here, it's driving me insane,

To see the years we've wasted, trickle down the drain.

You no longer want me, the way you used to do,

To you, I am invisible; I can see our love is through.

I see no point to hanging on to a love we both have lost,

Making both of us unhappy, and counting up the cost.

There has to be a better way for us to spend our days,

We should say a last goodbye and go our separate ways.

So I'll take a hold of my life, I'm walking out that door,

To sever the ties that are left here; I'm coming back, no more.

I have to make some changes to this tortured life of mine,

Stop wasting years that I have left, and grab myself some time.

So when tomorrow at last arrives , a new life I will find,

The morning will take me onward; my eyes are not so blind.

Seek out a love, so long been lost, a love with no more strife.

For tomorrow when it gets here, will be the first day of my life.

Xmas End

The tree twinkles in the corner,

tinsel adorns the floor

the presnts lay there still untouched,

since you walked out the door.

You told me we were finished,

you said that we were through,

but I cannot go on living

in this grotto, without you.

We had plans made for the future

we had it worked out right,

what made us start to argue,

why did we have to fight.

I cant even remember

why our tempers began to soar

but the memory circling in my head

is you walking out the door

I see your picture on the shelf

cruelly staring down at me

the present that i'd bought you,

still beneath the Xmas tree.

We started with a quarrel

harsh words we both had said,

both refusing to apologise

many tears we both have shed.

Why couldnt we have seen

how our hopes have gone astray

why didn't I try much harder

beg you not to go away.

But you just went and left me,

our magic dreams to spurn

slamming the door behind you

and never to to return

so now i sit here all alone,

my lonely heart betrayed

with broken dreams and torn up plans

my shattered world displayed.

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