Andy Harding
The Deepest Recess
Dark desperate thoughts revolve inside my head
Spiralling down deeper with every waking moment
Self-esteem sinking to an all-time low
I’m visiting places never reached before
This pit that envelops me seems bottomless
Where is the way out?
The only path visible appears downwards
Comforted by the bleak darkness surrounding me
Ensuring I cannot see my true face reflected in light
Knowing that Hell is growing forever closer
Maybe arriving, stopping anywhere will stop this free-fall
Giving me time to take stock and start moving forwards
I’m slipping into the darkest reaches of my mind
No way forward is clearly visible from here
My silent screams fall on barren, stony ground
What am I doing? Where am I going?
Hell seems just a stones throw away from here
Maybe I’m paying the price for my mortal sins
Perhaps I’ve been set my sternest life challenge
For now this darkness is all I see …
Reaching out for an invisible light
Looking for an upward step on a descending spiral
Where now is my guide, my guardian angel?
Moments of solitude when needed the most
Could this be a test of mental strength to face alone?
Overcoming demons that perpetually haunt me
For now, at this time, my resolve is weak
I must dig deep to find a hidden inner strength
Must this soul face its Goliath alone?
To find it’s own pathway forwards
Rejoining the light and the path
Passing a test of intense personal resolve
A battle fought on the longest day
My sanity the hard earned prize
Defeat is not worth contemplating
Even through the mind-sapping attrition
I call upon the deepest reserves
So I can venture upon the pathway back
Leading me out of this deep, dank dungeon
Imprisoning my mortal mind
Where is the light I crave so much?
This battle-weary soul seeks escape
To once more embrace the light
© Andy..Harding
A Love Lies Bleeding
The bitter words
I heard tonight
Ran round my head
My chest felt tight
A dagger plunged
Deep in my heart
When did this
Deception start
A love so special
You’ve destroyed
I’m too distraught
To be annoyed
How could you act
So deviously
And not take my love
So seriously
My heart left damaged
Out on the floor
As you left
You closed the door
You didn’t listen
To my Pleading
Now you’re gone
A love lies bleeding