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| An Insight into My Soul Once again, my life is in tune with whom is me. It is a rainy September day and for some unknown reason, I can only write at these times. At one time I did not believe that I even had a soul nor much inner strength. Only recently, I have discovered the real depth and knowledge of this unseen phenomena described as being one's soul. This does not pertain or have any association with what is considered to be described as physical elements of our world. What I mean is, that physical beauty and material riches are only short term or temporary distractions that from my own personal point of view, have no real lasting meaning and do not give you real happiness nor peace within one's self. If one has not experienced real and true caring, love and compassion for others in your lifetime, then life becomes meaningless with no purpose. However, I have also learned that one has to love one's self first before they can give to others. I feel that God or whatever other higher power might be with us, has placed us here on this earth and is putting us through a very rigorous test. I feel most emphatically that this is the way it is. I am no super human being who has a high IQ, I only write down what comes from my deepest feelings within my soul, or is it my own ongoing spirit from previous lives that allows me to explain my true feelings that have never come to me in the past. I know now, that I have a purpose to accomplish in my life time. Learning humility and humbleness are lessons that I am now beginning to learn and except in my life. Eventually and perhaps even now, I am starting to learn and not allow any other human that may hurt me or has hurt me, to touch my spirit. I can not allow any hurts to destroy me, for I am my own person with such deep feelings right now, I can not explain. I will not allow anything or anyone to penetrate my soul nor destroy who I really am. My purpose in this life time is not yet forfilled and until it is, I will remain on this earth in my present physical state. Life with no purpose or accomplishments gives one a feeling of uselessness. Our higher power put us here to discover our weaknesses and strengths. For a short time in my own life, I was very weak emotionally, but with a lot of help, I have become stronger and stronger. Most of the time, I never express my real feelings to anyone except for those that I really care for. For the most part, I try not to care about what others think about me anymore. I have to be who I really am and can not allow anyone to control whom or what I am. I paid a high price for relaying what I thought was the truth. This fake world does not allow you to speak what is black and white. To me, compassion, caring and love are the real and necessary ingredients needed to forfill our soul and inner true spirit, which most materialistic beings will have no inclination to understand. Is it true that contentedness is comprised of having a high class home, perhaps an expensive car and or other material things? My personal answer to this question is no. I live in a nice home, but it does not bring me any happiness. This home can go to pots because it does not give my inner self real happiness. I would be just as happy to pitch a tent in the bush and with only life's basic necessities, is all I would need. I need nothing more than to be in tune with my soul. Recently and even longer ago, I met other humans in my life that are my best and only friends whom I think shares the same insight about life. Our spirits I believe are in unison and are on the same wavelength as mine. Please let me not be wrong, because I honor them very highly. When I have a spiritual connection with other human beings, I then feel a sense of contentedness an peace within my soul. |
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