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Chapter 36
Willow could here birds singing in the background. She opened her eyes slightly and grimaced as they became accustomed to the brightness. She lifted her head off the pillow and waited for the room to stop spinning. She was in the room at the mansion and her arm had been bandaged, she could feel the lingering effects of Drusilla's power and knew that the Vampire had healed her broken arm, probably to avoid any questions at the hospital. By the feel of things she had been out for more than a day. Maybe even a week. But she was feeling healthier. Her arm throbbed and she could see bandages covering her ankle and thigh and well as one on her forehead. She still wasn't up to curing them with her magic, maybe in a few days. Looking at the clock she saw it was late afternoon.
She got up slowly and pulled on some jeans which covered her legs and sleeveless t- shirt which allowed her arm some movement. She picked up her suitcase from under the bed and got to packing her stuff in it. She wanted to be gone by nightfall.
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It had been a week since the Hellmouth had been closed; Buffy had noticed a drop in the number of Vampires in patrol that week and was pleased to think that her job would be easier. Dawn had explained her injuries as a fight with a girl from another school which earned her some cool points. Xander was back at work fixing the hole that some kids on PCP had made in the High school's Principals office as a prank. Spike sat and watched Willow. Everyday he sat by her holding her hand waiting for her to wake up and just talking to her. Dru had said that it would take her at least a week to regain the energy the Hellmouth had sucked from her. Dru had told him that Giles needed some help with something today or he would have spent the day with Willow again. As it was he missed the awakening of the one he loved.
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Willow loaded her stuff into her car and decided to drive over Giles' to say goodbye to the gang, she was sure they'd all be there as it was nearly six. She got in her car and pulled on her shades, all her stuff was in the trunk and she felt good to be hitting the road again.
She pulled up outside the Magic Box and sat for a minute with the engine running. She could leave them a note and go. *No, that would be cowardly. Get your butt in there and say goodbye.* She ordered herself. She turned off the engine and got out.
The door to the Magic Box loomed and she leaned against it listening to her friends voices.
She pushed open the door and Anya turned with a customer greeting smile which turned into a real one when she saw who it was.
�Willow!�
Everyone turned to see her standing in the doorway. She was leaning on the handle and holding her sunglasses in one hand. She was in her black jeans and a red button down shirt. She looked cool and calm.
�Hey.� She said with a grin
�Red, you shouldn't be up yet.� Spike cursed himself for leaving her alone.
�I'm okay, thanks.� She could be perfectly cordial now she was going �I'm guessing Dru pulled a little Mumbo Magic for my aching self?�
Dru nodded �That I did, you were shredded like lettuce.�
�Thanks. I am so much better.�
�You okay there Wills?� Xander asked wondering why she hadn't come in yet.
Willow cast one last longing look at her car and fully entered the Magic Box.
�Yeah I actually just dropped by to say bye.�
�What?�
�Yeah I'm gonna hit the road,� she ignored the incredulous looks and continued �I'll be back in San Francisco by tomorrow.�
She turned to Dru �I guessed you'd want to stay. I'll send your stuff if you want.�
Dru just watched Willow in part horror part resignation.
�You're leaving?� Dawn jumped up �But you'll be back right? You just want to get your stuff.�
Willow bit her lip �I have a business to run in Frisco, Dawnie. You can come visit whenever you like.�
�No, I haven't got to spend any time with you.� Buffy said stricken �You were gone for two years Willow. Two years my best friend was missing and we haven't even spoken.�
Willow didn't know what to say to that.
Xander stood up with tears in his eyes �Why now, why not wait until you get better? You're still weak I'm sure that whoever is taking care of your club can do it for a few more days.�
�I'm already packed.� She pointed over her shoulder becoming uncomfortable with the scene.
�Why are you in such a hurry to leave Willow?� Giles asked quietly but with a tormented look in his face. His favourite daughter had been missing, feared dead and he was losing her again after only two weeks.
She wrapped her arms around her waist, wincing when her injured arm pulled. �I have stuff to do.� She muttered.
�Bollocks.� Spike spat furious that because he hadn't been there when she woke she'd had time to pack and get ready to leave. Leave him- again. �Why are you leaving for real Red? I think your friends deserve the truth.�
�What are you talking about?� Xander wiped a tear away from his cheek
�Something else is bloody going on here. I think it has to do with why she left the first time.�
�I just,� she took a breath �I don't belong here.�
�Of course you do!� Buffy cried
�No I don't,� she insisted �I don't have a place here.�
�What do you mean Willow?� Giles posed his gentle question
�Xander has Anya and a baby on the way. You and Dru are together and Dawn is all grown up and� and-� this was the hardest part Willow braced herself.
�Buffy's with Spike.�
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�Xander has Anya and a baby on the way. You and Dru are together and Dawn is all grown up and� and-� this was the hardest part Willow braced herself.
�Buffy's with Spike.�
�What?�
�WHAT?�
�Huh?�
�What?�
Willow almost smiled at the comical expressions on the faces of Giles, Xander, Anya and strangely enough, Spike.
Buffy looked horrified and then realisation dawned on her face she paled
�Oh God.�
�I knew it, I was right!� Dawn jumped to her feet again �You found out and that's why you bailed. I knew you had taken your stuff.�
�You knew?� Willow's voice showed her hurt at the thought that maybe she had been the only one not in the know
�I only found out when you left.� Dawn explained
�Would someone mind explaining to me?� Giles called out annoyed.
�And me!� Xander glared around just generally
�Buffy's sleeping with Spike.� Dawn filled in
�WAS.� Buffy added in a panic �Most definitely a �was�, as in past tense.�
�You were sleeping with Spike?� Anya grimaced
�Buffy?�
�Not really a lot of sleeping going on.� Spike added crassly, not sure what this had to do with everyone.
�Spike!� Buffy warned between her clenched teeth
�Look I have to go.� Willow said beginning to shake
�NO!� Spike yelled standing in her way �What is going on?�
Willow looked at Dru to save her. Dru knew she could, but it was high time this all came out, Willow needed to be able to move on and she'd never do it if the hurt was there. She didn't want Willow to hurt anymore, she took an unneeded breath and prayed that Willow would forgive her.
�Willow mine was in love with you.�
There was silence.
�Dru.� Willow growled; she hadn't wanted this to come out.
�What?� Spike was shocked
�When you were screwing Buffy, Willow was in love with you. She broke up with Tara because of you and I'm guessing when she went to tell you, she saw you with Buffy. Right?� Dawn looked to Willow for conformation.
�When?�
�Oh I don't know Buffy,� Willow said flippantly �A few days after I told you how I felt about him and you promised to help me, maybe a few days after he sat there and told me that you would never touch him, never even look at him. It's hard to remember, the lies have kind of blocked it all out.� She had had enough of this and wanted to go. �I was always curious if you actually told him how I felt and that's why he sat with me, pretending to be my friend, pretending to give a crap. You guys were laughing at me, right? Dumb ol' reliable got a thing for the big bad. That's why he said that there was nothing between the two of you, didn't want to lose that little bit of hope I always had? Coz God knows it's not funny if I don't feel it right? That it, huh, you got off on my pain?� she shrugged �It doesn't matter. To be a team you have to trust those you're with and I trust both of you about as far as Dawn could throw you.� She spat ignoring the sickened look on Buffy's face. �Xander I will always love you and wish I could see the baby, Anya you'll make a great mother. Dawnie, you come with Dru to see me okay? Giles.� She gave him a watery smile saying all the things she wished she could say.
She turned to go.
But before she could reach the door she felt her arm grabbed by a very strong grip.
�That's it?� Spike was so furious his face was devoid of all emotion �You get your say, drop that bombshell and then go? Like hell.� He growled his eyes turning amber.
�Let me go, Spike.�
�Never.� He pulled her to him and crushed his lips to hers, ravishing her mouth under his. It was their first kiss, their first kiss and possibly their last if he couldn't get her to stay. She tasted sweet, like strawberries and Vanilla and that little tint of darkness. It was something he wanted to imprint on his memory for all time, but her lack of response was chilling his already icy heart. He pulled away and leaned his forehead against hers �Don't leave me.� He begged.
Willow was confused �What?�
�He didn't know.� Buffy said through her tears �I didn't tell him; that time you saw us was the last time. I couldn't do that to you, it was an addiction and you were the one that helped me stop.� She wept loudly �I'm so sorry but I needed to feel and he helped me, just for a little while. I needed that one last time. But he never knew about you. I begged him not to tell anyone. I was so ashamed that I had got like that. That I was hurting Spike to feel more like a human. I'm so sorry Willow.�
�Shut up, bitch!� Willow almost gasped at the words that flew out of her mouth, she had no idea that she could hate that much �It's always been about what YOU need, well I don't care what you need, no that's not true; I think that you need a reality check-�
�And maybe a beating?� Dru added wryly
�Enough.� Giles put in trying to break up the break down
�No, it's not enough, it's really not.� Willow shook her head furiously �You said you couldn't do that to me Buffy but you did.�
�I'm sorry Will, I am, God you have to believe me.� Buffy cried �I know what I did was wrong but-�
�But what?�
�He didn't love you.� The whole Magic Box went quiet
�I did.� He said softly causing everyone to finally look at him �I didn't realize it at first, I always thought love had to be painful and hard and explosive. I didn't realize that it could be soft and warm and passionate without the pain.� He ran his hand through his hair in frustration not wanting everyone to hear this but knew she had to hear it herself �you were always there listening to me and smiling at me and making me feel. Every time I left the Slayer I'd be beaten down and every time you were there for me I was truly happy. There was only obsession between me and the Slayer, she reminded me so much of Dru-�
Dru quietly raised her hand �Um can I object?�
�Physically strong but emotionally weak, I latched on to the familiar. I didn't realise that what I wanted, what I'd been missing was right in front of me until it had gone. I knew I cared about you but-�
�Sure you cared about me so much you continually lied to my face.� Willow folded her arms and glared at him �Gee Red, Buffy would never touch me, she thinks I'm disgusting you don't do you, pet?� she made a fair approximation of his accent injecting just the right amount of sarcasm to make him seem smarmy �God, I must have gullible tattooed to my forehead.�
�No, Re- Willow, I promised her that I wouldn't say anything. She could kill me if I said anything- I wanted to tell you, so much.�
Willow turned to Buffy �Why didn't you say something, when I confessed or even before, why keep it such a secret?�
Buffy looked down �I couldn't, I wanted to but-�
�Gee what stopped you could it be shame?� Willow mocked letting her hurt burst out in torrents
�Yes.� Buffy confessed shocking them �I was torn out of heaven and the only thing that made me feel anything was a soulless demon. Disgust, shame, pleasure at least it was something. You still all looked at me like I was the Slayer, someone special- you'd gone through so much to bring me back and give me a second chance I couldn't let you know that I was letting you down.� She swallowed �So I used Spike but I never meant to hurt you.�
�Too late.� Willow' voice was hoarse. �You knew, you KNEW I was in love, big time love. You know what Oz's cheating did to me. Spike may not have loved me Buffy but you did. How could you think that YOU cheating on me wouldn't hurt, you were my best friend, the one person I trusted in the whole world.�
�Hey!� Xander tried to protest but he didn't want to break the revelations, the tension needed to release
�I'm sorry.� Buffy sobbed harder but Willow hardened her heart as much as she could
�Both of you have no idea how much you hurt me.� She whispered
�I never knew, I never meant to hurt you, Willow I would rather be staked than hurt you. But you're wrong, I did love you. As soon as I realised that you had gone and I'd never get to have you near me again, I realised that I was in love with you and it was all over with the Slayer.�
�But when you came to the club, I saw you act all couply.� Willow refuted.
�No, not even- after you left we started to get along a bit more. We searched for you for months and Xander patrolled with Spike just for you. Me and Spike were never together like that. It was never love.� Buffy urged desperate for Willow to believe her
�Gee, I made you and Spike get along, now I feel special.� Willow spat at her
�I love you Willow, please don't go.� Spike pulled her to him and held her tightly not caring if he was looking like the biggest ponce in the world; if it would make her stay he would do it �You helped me get over the Slayer.� Spike whispered softly into her ear �I fell in love with you while you were away.�
�When I was unavailable and unattainable- that sounds familiar, I mean what are the odds Spike suddenly wants something he can't have.�
�No.� he shook his head �That's not it, dammit Willow will you listen to me. I loved you before you left, it just took you leaving for me to realise it, and I'm not smart like you.�
�No.� Willow pulled away. �Damn it, don't do this to me.� She pushed Spike away. �No more lies. Enough is enough. You don't love me, why would you? You loved Buffy and Drusilla, when we were in the club I saw how you looked at her.�
�In the club?� his face registered astonishment, �I was dancing with you pet. I was turned on by you.�
�No, you weren't, it was always Dru, never me. I don't belong here. I don't have anyone. I never did and I never will. So just let me go where I don't have to see you all being so damn happy. As soon as I'm gone you'll forget me.�
�No.� Buffy shook her head
�You did before.� Willow cried, it was all coming out now, she pulled her hurt around her like a warm coat and used it push to everyone away. �All of you, as long as I wasn't moaning about Oz or Tara or Magic you didn't care. Hell before I went Xander I hadn't seen you in a week, you were so busy with Anya. Giles was with the Magic Box and Buffy with her readjusting. If you didn't need magic or research or a damn shoulder to cry on.� She shot a glance at Spike �then you ignored me.�
Dru got up and put her hand on Willow's shoulder, all the secrets were out now, there was so much pain, so much that even Drusilla hadn't know about and it was all so real and so raw.
�Its okay Tree, pixie, Willow mine. I love you.� She stroked the agitated girls' hair, trying to sooth years worth of hurt away from the poor tired girl whose injuries, both physical and emotional were causing her to shake. Willow gradually calmed down slightly under the comforting and soothing touch of her friend.
There was silence in the magic Box punctuated by Buffy's sobs.
�Oh God, Willow I am so sorry.� Xander said and rushed over to hug her. �I'm a bad, bad friend. I love you.�
Willow stiffened, but this was Xander. She loved him and always would, he was one of the only people who could break her defences down. She'd not been telling the truth to Buffy, that Buffy had been the only one she'd trusted. Xander was her soulmate, her other half. It wasn't the kind of love that lovers have but it was so much more and he was holding her so tightly. She warmed to his embrace.
�Me too.� Cried Dawn and joined in the hug
�I'm crying, again.� Anya moaned �and I want to get up to hug you but I'm too emotional.�
Willow couldn't help the laugh that escaped from her tearful face. �It's okay Anya.� And it was. She may have felt abandoned and alone but Xander, Dawn and Giles were there for her now. Even Anya who she'd never really taken the time to get to know was here. Maybe it was because she had left that they realised their need for her, whatever it was when she got back to San Francisco she was going to have to keep in contact with them.
�Why didn't you say something?� Giles admonished as he came over to hold his little researcher.
�If you have to be told.� She didn't finish and they nodded understandingly. They had been bad friends but if she was willing to give them a chance then they would make up for it in spades.
Buffy pushed them out of the way and stood in front of Willow. �I love you so much and I am so sorry that because of me you hurt so much. I-I never meant to hurt you, I'm so sorry.� She was crying again �I know I don't deserve it but please, please give me a chance to make it up to you. I promise I'll try, I'll do anything. Please Willow.�
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Willow saw the sincerity in Buffy's eyes, she didn't know what to do, she had been hurt so much and her first thought was that there wasn't enough broken glass in the world for Buffy to crawl across that would make Willow forgive her. She had been mad for so long and she had held on to the pain but it was hurting her more than the actual event had done. She looked into Buffy's tear stained face and thought of all the times that Buffy had saved her life, of all the times that they had sat in Willow's or Buffy's room until ridiculous times in the morning painting nails and talking about boys and then how she had missed Buffy. She took a deep breath.
�I don't know Buffy. I don't want to hate you, I don't. But right now I can't just forgive you. I've lived with this for such a long time. The feeling that I would never be good enough- that I was never worth enough for you.�
�No.� Buffy sniffed �It's not true.�
�I know that now. Thanks to Dru, I have my sense of self worth but it took a lot for me to get that. No matter how you phrase it or excuse it you betrayed me. It's not something I can just easily forgive.�
Buffy's heart sank
�But I'll try.�
Buffy looked up, her eyes widened in surprise and then closed in abject relief that she hadn't lost Willow forever. Willow couldn't bear to see the look on Buffy's face so she reached out and pulled Buffy into a small hug. Buffy gasped and then crying louder, hugged her back fiercely.
�I'll never do anything to break that, I promise.� She cried earnestly
When they finally pulled apart Willow was faced with Spike. Without saying a word he took her by the hand and led her into the training room.
�I love you and I know,� he held up a finger before she could cut in �That you don't believe me, so I'm going to tell you why. You listened to me and never asked anything back. Now I'm asking you to listen to me one last time, pet.� Everything he had, everything he was, was riding on this talk, on this confession. If she left him or wouldn't forgive him, then his unlife was over and he would awaken to greet the sun tomorrow.
�Even before you left when I was with Buffy sometimes I wished you were there instead. You were so smart, always knowing exactly what to say or do to make it all better or find what we needed. You are so strong, and brave that you make Angelus look like a sodding weakling. When you left I felt empty, like there was piece of me missing and I wanted it back, I searched everywhere for you, chased down every lead that I could. I just wanted you back here with me where you belonged. You are so bloody beautiful and I want you. Willow.� He used her name and she looked at him �I love you.� He placed a finger under her chin to lift her face to his �It's not because I couldn't have you, or because I wanted you. I love you for you. For the person you were and the person you are and the person you will be. I loved Willow the computer hacker and I want to get to know the Red Witch because I think I can love her more than I have ever loved anyone. I understand if trusting me, if-� he swallowed �If loving me, will take some time. I hurt you. I didn't know but it didn't stop me. It was the only time in my unlife that I chose sex over love and it hurt the one person who means everything to me. Just don't give up on me � on us. I will do anything to make things right. No matter how long it takes I will make it up to you.�
His earnest expression and the tears in his eyes, the length of his speech blew her away and shattered what meagre defences she had left. Her heart lay bare and bleeding, the young naive girl inside screaming for her to hear him, to accept him.
�Tell me that I haven't blown it, that I still have a chance?�
A single tear fell down her face.
�Red?� his heart ached �Please?�
�I still love you.� She finally whispered, at long last shoving aside all the fears and insecurities that had kept her encaged for so long.
The small smile grew into a grin so wide it threatened to split his face. He swooped down and kissed her and felt her kiss him back. And unlife was perfect.
He pulled away so she could breathe and pulled her against him, unwilling to relinquish the feel of her in his arms. Where she belonged.
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Spike waited patiently as he watched the crowds moving through Miss Edith's. Willow had just finished her set and was on her way out to him. He bit back a goofy grin at the thought of his witch. She was the most powerful witch in the world and she was his, heart and soul. Not body yet, unfortunately, but he could wait for that. They had been together now for four months and hadn't yet made love. It was something that Willow had insisted upon. Thinking about it he was taken back to that night in the training room. She had just told him that she still loved him.
//Flashback//
Willow pulled away and looked down at her feet. Her heart thudded in her chest, her emotions spilling.
"Willow?" Spike ducked his head to look her in the face. "Baby what's wrong?"
"Y-you didn't let me finish." She stammered and Spike froze
"Finish?"
"I- I still love you b-but I can-t stay here." She continued to look at her feet.
"Why not?"
"I hate Sunnydale- I always have." She regained a little of her confidence, she was Red Witch, not the shy little hacker anymore "I have a business to run in San Francisco, a-and," she cleared her throat "There's still.still-"
"You still don't believe me." He finished softly his chest aching.
"I want to." she refused to meet his eyes, fixing her gaze on a particularly interesting piece of carpet "But I have spent so long with this. feeling and pain, it's not going to be that easy to get over Spike. It's not like it's all over and we can jump into bed now, I'm not that kind of girl. So okay I have loved you for over four years but I have no way of knowing if we can be together like that or if now that I am back, you're even going to want me." She finally looked up into his hurt eyes.
"You think I only want you because you were unattainable." He sighed, frustrated, and ran a hand through his hair "What will it take you to believe me?"
"Time." She answered "You said you'd give me whatever it takes, however long it takes. Right now all I can think is that you were with Dru who you knew had an Angelus fixation and the Slayer who was as unattainable as they come.although not as unattainable as I would have thought," she frowned at the thought of exactly how attainable Buffy had actually been. Bitch.
"Yeah well." He stopped, he actually had no argument for that "Good point." His head hurt "Just don't leave me baby, not now."
"W-why don't you come with?" her voice was so quiet he almost didn't catch it.
He slowly smiled "You want me to come with you?"
She shrugged hiding her self consciousness "If you want."
"I want to be with you and I want you, but I can wait if you need time to be sure about me." He promised "I won't push." And then because he was a demon he added with a leer "But I will try to change your mind."
Willow grinned "Feel free."
//end flashback//
So they had waited and Spike was still certain that she was the love of his unlife. Everything she did was magic, the way she spoke, the things she did, the things she thought, he just adored her and he knew that he would wait forever for her to be ready before taking it that last step. She was worth waiting for. Even if he was a little tired of D.I.Y.
As he looked up he saw her bounce towards him with a beaming smile on her face.
"Spike!" she greeted and stood up on her tiptoes to brush a kiss across his lips.
"Hey pet, wonderful song." He pulled her back to him and deepened the kiss.
When he finally pulled back she was flushed and breathing heavily.
She laced her fingers in his and they left the club to walk back to her place. Spike had taken an apartment close by so he could be near her but still give her the space that she seemed to need.
They didn't really need to talk; the silence was perfect as they were just happy to finally be past all that talk-our-emotions-and-other-things-to-death phase.
He walked her to her door and placed a kiss on her lips.
"We out tomorrow?" they usually spent their days together and most of their evenings too. Movies, Television, museums and galleries, paperwork, talking, it didn't matter what they were doing; they could be doing anything as long as they were together.
She bit her lip "You don't have to go." Spike's unbeating heart thudded in his chest.
"Best to love, unless you want me to stay all night."
"And forever?"
He locked eyes with her unsure if she really was ready for this. He couldn't lose her, not now. Not ever.
She smiled reassuringly "It's what I want. You are what I want."
He picked her up and cradled her to his chest as he kicked the door shut behind them, it didn't matter that the apartment was in darkness, he could see all that he wanted to.
The bedroom lamp was turned on by magic as Spike placed her down on the bed. And just stood there watching her as her dark red hair fell across her black sheets in a pool.
"Silk?" he raised an eyebrow.
"Elumine." She whispered and the lamp turned off only to be replaced by hundreds of lightly lit candles bathing the room in a gentle glow.
"I kind wanted to seduce you." She confessed sheepishly.
Her soft skin shone in the candlelight and her eyes brimmed with such love he would have been rendered breathless, had he breath.
"You do." His crystal gaze was sincere "In every breath you seduce me, in every heartbeat you entice me, in every second I desire you and in every moment I want you."
"Then have me."
Spike lowered himself to the bed and stroked his hand down her face.
"I love you with all that I am."
She went to speak but he covered her lips with his finger.
"I love you with all that I have." He unbuttoned her shirt letting his finger track behind and skim her skin as more came uncovered.
"I love you with all that I was." He pulled the shirt off her shoulders and dropped it on the floor and unzipped her skirt.
"All that I will be is because of you." It followed the shirt to the pile on the floor, as did her satin bra.
"Because of you my existence has meaning and I love you," He leaned down and kissed away her tears at his soft declarations and traced his tongue down her throat to her pulse point "Because you mean everything to me."
Willow's hand pulled at his duster and he slipped it off his shoulders and tugged off his t-shirt.
She stroked her fingers along his chest and sucked in a breath.
"Perfect." she breathed and let her tongue follow her inquisitive fingers.
Spike pulled his jeans off and kicked off his boots.
He crawled up the bed and leaned over her with a predatory grace that she envied, and which sent shivers down her spine. He covered her breast with his mouth and licked and sucked at her sensitive mound eliciting moans from her that did delicious things to his own skin. Realising that the other also needed his attention he gave her a pirates grin as he moved his attention.
"Spike!" he was rotating his hips, crushing his arousal against her lace covered centre as he worked his own brand of magic.
"Patience." He chuckled and missed Willow's grin as she figured two could play at that game.
Spike gasped as he felt the cool silk sheets between him and his witch, she wrapped the soft material around her hand and then with a mischievous smirk began to touch him there, letting her strokes linger slowly.
"Wi-llow." Oh that felt so good, the cool sheets wrapped around her hot hand. He thrust into her fist only to find her slow down her pace.
"Patience." she mocked with a grin.
A subsonic growl sent waves right through her, down to her core, sending molten waves of heat through her entire body. She wrapped her legs around his waist and bought herself in intimate contact with him.or as much as her panties would allow.
Spike pulled out of her grasp and edged down her body, kissing his way until her reached the edge of her lace covering. He pulled it down with his teeth sending her an amber eyed leer as he removed the offending material to release her overwhelming scent into the air. She smelt divine and tasted like heaven. Bathed in the soft glow of the candles, she was a willing sacrifice, a goddess in her own right.
Spike lowered his head back down and began to lick and suck at her, coaxing her juices from her core. He flicked at her core with his tongue, bringing a sigh from her parted lips.
The redhead's hips bucked underneath him and he placed his hands
on her hips to hold her in place. Willow thrashed against him
wildly. "Oh, oh Spike," she gasped.
Spike grinned and nipped with blunt teeth. He could sense that she was getting close and thrust two fingers into her as she clenched her muscles around him.
Before she could come down he placed himself in position and gently eased into her, inch by excruciating inch.
"Spike?" he looked up, if she told him to stop now, he'd stake himself.
"You can be rough; I know you are a demon, you're both a man and demon, I accept all of you."
"Tonight I want to be the man." she nodded and gave him a smile that made him feel as warm as a human for the first time in a century. He wanted to savour their first time together, wanted to make it a memory worth remembering. He set a slow rhythm at first but their long abstinence fuelled their ardour until he had no choice to speed up and move harder and deeper until they came together in a wonderful explosion of emotion and sensation screaming each others name in release.
He lay on his side, pulling Willow with him and tucking her under his arm, stroking her back as he felt her racing heart under his fingers, her warmth along his cool body.
"I love you Willow." He murmured against her hair
"I love you too Spike." she replied smoothly as they drifted off into the contented sleep of two hearts finally belonging.
Epilogue
Since the Hellmouth was officially closed the Slayer was no longer needed in Sunnydale, so she took her sister and moved up to San Francisco to manage the growing demon population who were attracted by the power of a new club in the area. Rumour had it that the infamous Fangs and Red Witch ran it, but it was pure speculation. A large chain of Magic Shops began to open in the area under the proprietorship of a Mr Rupert Giles and his wife Drusilla. They all boasted a huge occult library section and were built by Harris and Son construction Ltd. Mrs Anyanka Christina Immanuella Jenkins-Harris ran some of the stores with the help of her friend and babysitter Dawn Summers. Dawn sometimes had help in the way of her boyfriend Connor Angelus. His father helps Giles to get Magical items for his shop, something about a burning Law firm, probably best not to ask.
As for Red Witch? Well if you can get into Miss Edith's you can see her sing every night at about twelve.
You can look but don't touch.
Why?
See that blonde in the corner devouring her with his eyes? That would be her mate, he's kinda possessive and. well ever since he got the chip out? You get the picture, especially if that picture involves you losing your intestines. Oh leaving so soon? Well come back soon, okay? Everyone is welcome at Miss Edith's. Just as long as you know when to say enough is enough.
The End